To feel like my life is on hold? Anyone else?

[DreamInLavender]

I suspect it is to do with COVID 19. I don't know. I just have this awful bubble feeling, like I'm just on hold for a while.

Similar to the feeling of waiting to test when TTC my son, or waiting to hear back from a job I really want. I just feel trapped!

Anyone else?

[AnyOldSpartabix]

I’m in Norway, so we’ve now gone into lockdown. I’m relieved I don't have to send my son to school and relieved he’s old enough to stay at home alone. One of my colleagues is not so lucky. Her son is much younger and she doesn’t have a partner. She was told yesterday she won’t get paid if she doesn’t come to work. Those in cruicial industries will still get childcare within schools, but it’s not clear yet whether that applies to her.

I work in food production, so I can’t work from home and my workplace will not be closing. Every day new notices go up with warnings about different things. There’s a big stop sign at the door to the canteen - you have to use hand sanitiser before you enter. And they’ve propped the door open so nobody has to touch the handle.

It feels horrible. Many of us are fearful. I know there’s a good chance I will survive, but I’m not so certain about my parents. I can’t even see them as they are in the UK. I think that’s the worst thing. They are a long way away, I haven’t seen them since before Christmas and I may never see them again. My father is in a high risk group and the UK don’t seem to be taking many precautions. Maybe they are right. We will only know afterwards which countries got it right.

It all feels surreal, and not in a good way.

[thatmustbenigelwiththebrie]

I feel like I just want to catch it so it's over and done with. So I am carrying on as normal. But I do feel a sense of impending doom.

[Treaclepie19]

Yes I'm feeling this. I'm also nearly 11 weeks pregnant and worried if I do get it I won't be able to have my scans.
Everything feels very uncertain at the moment.

[bizzybuzzy]

I'm actually more worried about this waiting & posted on another thread that surely the economy is going to go into free fall because who is going to want to spend money on anything plus if at some point in the future you going to be reliant on stat sick pay you will want to be even more cautious.

[Mummyoflittledragon]

I’m so pissed off we aren’t on lock down. And as for feeling like your life is on hold, you should walk a mile in my shoes. Because this is just a blip.

[FTMF30]

Thanks for posting this. I've felt the same and just didn't know how to describe or identify it. I just felt off and weirdly sad. It's comforting to see I'm not the only one. Misery loves company after all lol.

[bizzybuzzy]

But we can see this tidal wave coming yet have nothing really to do about it

DH just said it's like a tsunami is coming but we are just watching & waiting. very weird

[tallah]

@Treaclepie19 I'm pregnant too! What are we bringing our kids into! And yes the scans, I'm not going to mine unless it's blown over so won't even know if they baby is ok. This sucks

[2020runner]

I'm glad others are feeling this way. I've got lots of things booked in may and june and while I'm sure it will be largely over by then I cant get excited about my plans and it's all so uncertain. I've been saying for weeks I just want to catch it and get it over with.

[YukoandHiro]

Yep, feel horribly in limbo. I'm signed off work with HG, desperate for this pregnancy to be over. Now DH is working from home due to Covid. He also has underlying health issues so I'm worried about him. Concerned about having to keep a 2.5 year old in a flat with no garden for 14 days if it comes to it.
Waiting for nursery to be shut so I'll have to deal with her while really really struggling to stay upright - and with no help from grandparents if this thing worsens as don't want to put them at risk.
Fuck this year.

[Dhalandchips]

I'm just plodding on until I'm told not to. Self employed so desperately need to keep working. Not worried too much about getting it (asthmatic) but not being able to pay the sodding rent is bloody terrifying.

[Ponoka7]

"But we can see this tidal wave coming yet have nothing really to do about it"
"DH just said it's like a tsunami is coming but we are just watching & waiting. very weird"

In a tsunami children are more likely to die. People are left with nothing. We are nowhere near that point. That's like comparing us to, say, living in Syria. But it's typical of people living in the developed West.

Don't get me wrong, the minimising of this annoyed me on every thread, from the start. I'm in a vulnerable group, so is a relative and I know one child who might not survive it. But if we were due to be hit by a tsunami, I'd be looking at all my children and grandchildren dying.

It's briefly interrupting our travel plans, for most. The stock market situation is a concern, so is who we will now trade with. It was the worst time for Brexit. Any hardships brought on by Brexit wil now have a cover. So politically i think it's a disaster.

If this virus mutates, then yes, it's more serious.

@thatmustbenigelwiththebrie, unfortunately people seem to have had it more than once. Part of unpicking this virus is finding out why. Some people get chicken pox more than once and of course other viruses.

[BeijingBikini]

It feels like I'm in a terrible film, one where Boris Johnson stands up and says many people will die!

I've just had an offer accepted on a house, which should be a super exciting time as a first time buyer, but now am feeling cold feet about that too. No idea if we'll plunge into economic crisis with house prices plummeting, or the Bank of England will print out loads of money like they always do and inflation/house prices will go up, so it will be better to have a house than a stack of savings. Not an economist so I don't have a bloody clue.

Eeeek.

[Flixsfoilball]

I'm trying not to worry but it is hard.

My family have various underlying health conditions (including a parent with only one lung) so I'm terrified about them getting it

This isn't the worst in the grand scheme of things (but is on a personal level), we are also getting married this summer, so I'm a bit worried about whether that will go ahead and what happens if it can't. Of course we have to carry on assuming that it and the honeymoon are going to happen, but handing over large sums of money, with all the uncertainty feels odd (we are insured but we all know insurance companies are pretty clever at finding loopholes!)

I'd quite happily hide in the house for a few weeks!

[Treaclepie19]

@tallah I'm definitely going because we had a termination for medical reasons last pregnancy because of a chromosomal issue so I really want to know if baby is okay.
I'm just scared I'll be ill and unable to go.
I know. I feel for my 4 year old 😔

[gingganggooleywotsit]

DH is self employed in the conference industry so it's game over for us! We have lost thousands and may go bankrupt if this goes on too long. Feel like I'm living in a post apocalyptic disaster film!

[Weekday28]

I feel incredibly anxious and I dont normally suffer from it (only around driving) I cant shake it off. I work in a pharmacy in a GP surgery so i think the constant talk and preparations around it are fuelling my worry. I also have 3 primary aged children and my husband is a food retail manager so the panic is being feel very real around us constantly. This is very unlike me but I just feel so unhelpful. I am at a point where I would happily keep my children off school if it was announced. This is going to be a long year I think.

[missfliss]

I'm really sorry for those of you with huge money worries on top of all the other uncertainty - that's just awful.

I am prioritising mental health as anxiety is genuinely an inhibitor right now and on a national scale - I suffer with it anyway but have learned valuable skills to handle it over time, which are helpful now.

I exercise regularly - short runs or bike rides 3-5 a week, and attempt 10 minutes mindfulness every day using the excellent Calm app.


In terms of the virus I am asthmatic and have now been instructed to work at home. My husband is a teacher in a special school, for many of his children being at home would be very hard for a variety of reasons ( some economic, many social, and many in the ability of parent carers to cope). Our son is 8 and ASD, he would be OK at school or at home of needs be.
We are very fortunate - but are very close to seeing how other people would have severe difficulties in either a lock down or getting the virus

[LEELULUMPKIN]

For me it feels like watching a movie trailer of what purgatory must be like. Like being stuck in mud, unable to move, and as a doer, not a thinker, for me it is agony.

I’ve got a really big thing coming up, which I can neither allow myself to get excited about or start dealing with the disappointment of it not happening and it’s a horrible feeling.

I would also add that another thing that is exacerbating it is the fact that I feel like I am living in some sort of parallel universe.

I seem to think of nothing else whilst I am home, looking at the threads on here, Reading the news, yet when I go out, the rest of my town, family, friends etc all seem totally oblivious to what is going on!

Does anyone else feel like that?

[tallah]

@Treaclepie19 sorry to hear that. Puts it into perspective that I should go. Just scary

[Vix20678]

Yes. I'm so anxious too. My lovely dad died suddenly and unexpectedly at the weekend and I'm having to wait for a post mortem to be carried out before I can do anything. I'm so worried there will be a huge delay affecting the funeral when I am able to get around to planning it. I don't want it to drag on forever, if that makes sense. Plus a lot of the guests will be in there 70s and having to travel 100+ miles. They might not want to come.

Sorry for the ramble, it's one hell of a week for me.

[Blankscreen]

I was feeling really down yesterday I've got high blood pressure which is a risk factor and I'm really worried about my parents.

Then at 5pm dh got told his job is at risk and they are starting redundancy consultation.

I literally feel like I've been knocked by a wrecking ball. Not sure how I'm going to go to work today. I just want to hide in bed.

[bizzybuzzy]

In a tsunami children are more likely to die. People are left with nothing. We are nowhere near that point. That's like comparing us to, say, living in Syria. But it's typical of people living in the developed West.

🙄 it was just a turn of phrase as he feels anxious but a bit out of control. His parents are immigrants as are mine & have forced more hardship then we will ever know, plenty of his extended family don't live in the developed west. Please tell me about your experiences of not living in the west?

[Goatymcgoaty]

@usertogo I feel exactly the same. Like I just want to get it over with. If I’m going to get it, might as well be now before the hospitals are completely overwhelmed, at least I’d stand a chance.

[lubeybooby]

Yes, I'm likely to have to cancel big birthday celebrations for my 40th, big party and a weekend away - but things might be over or evening out by then so i can only wait and see.

However the circumstances are unusual and I will do what needs to be done if it comes to it to try and avoid being a spreader and/or any risk to my family even if it means losing deposits.

So with a slightly sad shrug, meh

To the person who lost 10k, you haven't lost it til you withdraw it right now... it will recover so just hold tight.