Emmsy's weebles - enjoying comfort, support and mini eggs, onwards and upwards!

[VJay]

A new home ladies! Tis the season for mini eggs , time for baby neeko to arrive, and more BFP's, oh and mls joining the bigpant bench

Have to apolgise to sabs too. I keep forgetting to text update on MLS during day and only remember during the night when it's too late. Sorry hon x

Hello lovely ladies,

Ben is sleeping and DH and DS1 are in B&Q (its the Bank holiday what can I say?). Been meanng to come on but just feeling so and thoughtful and again for lovely monkey. MLS you hit the nail on the head when you say that monkey is showing such dignity in what can only be a living hell.

We are all here monkey sitting in our tight circle just being thoughtful and being here for you. I will be thinking about you tomorrow and the next dy and the next day and if you show the same strength you have had on here over the past few days then you WILL get through this and come out the other side and on to happier times xxxxxx

Hey to everyone else, PFJ - I'm desperate to get stuck into the gardening but its pouring with rain here and blowing a gale. I'm starting a veg patch for the boys and itching to get it all going so I can produce courgettes at the kitchen table sometime this year . LOL at your bank account needing resusitated.

Vjay - hope you managed to relax a little over the weekend even although your DH was working. Retail eh? I watched the Sound of Music with the boys and DS1 and me were singing along. He is so used to the songs especially Aldelvise and My favourite things . 'Operation formula' was a complete disaster. Ben simply refused point blank to take the bottle. Not so much a refusal as I "what do I do with this thing you have put in my mouth?" I had gotten out the way of giving him EBM and he hadn't taken a bottle for @ 4 weeks so only have myself to blame but just found sterilising and expressing such a drag on my already precious free time! We are giving it a rest just now and going to try again in a few weeks. He has to be off the boob come July though as I go back to work then .

He has been a little more settled at day feeds (touch wood) and was only up ONCE last night - 2am - then not again til 7am!! Fluke? probably but it didn't stop me going in twice when I thought I heard him and he was sleeping, err like a baby.

Barbie - how are you enjoying being home? How was lovely Devon on the flight?

Curly - so sorry to hear curlygirl has colic. We're just coming out the other end of that with B and I know think he has a touch of reflux! Have you tried the 'sleeping tiger' hold? You lie baby tummy down on your arm and you can stroke their back. It always calms B down.

MLS - so glad you're home and getting better. You must have been terrified wondering what was wrong.

Hey to everyone else, hope the weather is better where you all are. I'm not leaving the house today, going to curl up on couch and watch 'Spy Kids' with DS1 eating chocolate.

Love to all xxx

Hello lovelies

Just a quick one from me, MLS glad you are home and on the road to recovery, my mum was rushed to hospital with blood clots on her lung just before our wedding but is fine now than god! The thought of that must of been very scary for you whilst worrying about baby.. Glad they have you properly diagnosed now and nipped the pneumoia in the bud and all is ok with LO.. Rest up & take it easy...

Monkey I have been thinking of you constantly and its made me so .. I lit an extra candle for your little one in church yesterday and said special prayers, DH did too.. Im sure you have the mixed emotions today, of dreading tomorrow, yet also just wanting it over with.. I echo the others, and as I said in my last post to you, that whilst DH may be finding this incredibly hard, that possibly seeing your LO, naming him or her (which I think you may have too for registering the birth/death), and even a photo or footprints, may help with the greiving process in the long run... Its an awful thing to have to contend with and I just couldnt get my head round it myself when we had to think about all that.. as I said though, you go in autopilot & somewhere deep inside you do find some inner strength to continue to function in a strange numb sense til you get out the other side.. Im so pleased your Dad is there for you, and that you are already on the case for a break away afterwards, I have always found it cathartic..

Theres something else I thought of, I wanted to say everything as soon as you told me, but have felt the need to dripfeed you some of my experiences as its all so overwhelming as it is, but sadly, when you are this far along, you boobs will engorge and you will produce milk, no-one told me it would happen, and it mortified me. A few days after my op my boobs went like rock and started leaking, it was so painful, and very distressing.. Obviously you have DS so have experienced it before, but just thought I should warn you..

I really have just thought of you all weekend long, and it just makes me so .. Im glad you are taking some comfort from the support you are recieving on here, its truly invaluable. I only discovered these amazing ladys after our 3rd awful loss that Iv spent this last week reliving.. It was whilst googling for info on the whole nuchal fold issue, which was 8mm in the end, and potential outcomes of it, that I stumbled across MN and 'Emmsys Angels, Support for Mummies of Lost Angels' back in Jul 08, I just remember crying at something so poignantly named, and that yes, there was acknowledgement that I was a mummy, even though my 3 babies had all gone straight to heaven... I hope you can take some faith, as the church service was emphasising yesterday, that there is always hope (my family motto is 'While I breath I Hope' BIL has tattoo in his back!). Although I lost my 4th last Jan, here I am with 8 & half weeks til I (please god) hopefully finally become a mummy.. Everytime I have felt her kick this weekend I smile and thank god..

Anyway sweetheart, just want you to know that I am sending you strength, love and hugs, for what will be no doubt one of the most traumatic things you will have to endure.. All of us on here are united in the circle of strength we are trying to send you.. My heart goes out to you... Lots of love x x x x x

blue and 4ever you sum up so well what i can never seem to say, your words are always truly beautiful and make me well up!

mls im so pleased you are home and on your way to recovery

monkey big hugs to get you through this sad time

can't stop, just popping in for a quick catch up. heard from my friend today that her baby who got rushed into hospital with a hole in her heart has been allowed home today

Just a quick post, I'm really pleased to hear MLS is back home and feeling much better.

Monkey you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Isabelle has conjunctivitis, I've been bathing it with cooled boiled water, does anyone have any other tips?

I came on to try and catch up with everyone, but after reading monkeys sad news I'm only posting to her for the time being and will catch up with everyone else later on in the week.
Monkey What can I say I am so so sorry to hear of the awful time you are going through and I so wish I'd got on here sooner, you and I were on another m/c thread way back when I was Mollie and you were a fab support then, so I just want to give you another shoulder to cry on, its brilliant that 4ever has this invaluable advice for you but so incredibly sad that its only because she's been through this. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and will ensure I come on for updates more regularly. You have been through so much already, but are sounding so strong and positive, don't forget to keep posting when it all hits you too, we want to be here to look after you xx

MLS Just a quickie to say thank goodness you're all OK give that baby bump a stroke from me x

Back later for full catch up , think I will have to grap a notepad and pen for it!

Hey lovely ladies, I spent an hour typing a post on my phone then went to look up something and lost it all so I've left curlygirl with her auntie and I've dusted off the laptop. Just wanted to post to send more hugs to monkey. She texted earlier to say that she is feeling too awful to post at the moment but that the support she is getting on here is helping to keep her going. She'd also like raspberry sorbet haagen daz and some mini-eggs so I'll stock up on the icecream and I know thePFJ will be round with fresh supplies of minieggs.

Stay strong monkey you are such a wonderful brave person and you will come out the other side of the awfulness of tomorrow.I think 4ever and blue have expressed it much better but you mean a lot to us and we will help in any way we can. We'll be here lurking on our cushions and beanbags for when you need us after, and thinking about you all the while xxx

blue that was a very touching post and thanks also so much for the advice on colic. We will try this tiger position on curlygirl tonight. She has been great all day but is much worse in the evenings.

MLS hope u feeling better and rubbing that lovely bump. We are going to go shopping for some lovely stretchy pants for you soon

4ever my lovely it makes me so sad when I read about what you've been through, but I'm so excited about the next couple of months xxx

gracie Hope Isabelle feels better soon. Happy 2 month birthday to her

buddha lovely to see ya. Good luck catching up with this chatty lot

And lovely moon big waves to you and I'm glad your friends baby is doing well. How are the wedding plans going?

waves to everyone and especially mermaid and jools. Hope you are both doing okay xxx

Be strong lovely Monkey xxx

We're all here monkey bedding down for the night and will be here all day tomorrow and as long as you need us xx

monkey I am here too, you've not been far from my thoughts all day, will be thinking of you all day tomorrow. I hope you can take strength from us all here, dotted all over the place, and all thinking of you and your dh xxx

Just calling in to tell monkey that I'm thinking of you too for tomorrow.

Met a new midwife today who was lovely and had 4 children - child no 1, 5 mc's and then three dc's in quick succession.

Monkey just want you to know that I will be thinking of you tomorrow. I can't imagine what you will have to go through and I'm sorry the whole thing has been prolonged by the bank holiday weekend. I think lots of the others have posted more sensible and eloquent things than I ever could. Hopefully some of the posts that 4ever has written will help you.

MLS poor you - hope you are back at home and feeling a bit better.

Will do a proper post tomorrow. I'm going back to work but still bleeding

Evening ladies.

Just popping in to let monkey know I'm thinking of you for tomorrow. You're such a brave lady. The posts on here from the others have left me in tears and I cant get over what you ladies have had to go through. I feel so useless as I've had no advice for you except to say you've been in my thoughts all weekend

mls glad you're home. Hope you're feeling better.

curly dont feel bad about not texting me. I was able to lurk to check for news.

We've had a busy weekend and got a busy few weeks ahead of me. Its my birthday on Thursday so went for an early birthday brunch yesterday and our car nearly got towed away . DH had to sprint when I saw the truck hovering over the car!

Right, i'm babbling now . Will try to post a couple of photo's of Saara on here. I've posted way too many on FB

By the way I saw the April Fools bunny on Friday as well

neeko gorgeous photo of Hannah! Loving the name.

Managed to put 2 photos up

Night all

monkey we'll be waiting right here in the greenhouse until you get back my lovely with a warm duvet and hot drinks and your haagen-daz. Massive hugs are winging there way over to you whenever you need them xxx

lbm lovely story about your midwife. I'm so glad she didn't lose hope and went on to have another dc

Sabs i'm so glad you were able to lurk as I am a babybrained mess who somehow only functions at 5am

Louey I'll be thinking of you today. Going back to work is really hard but by the end of today you will feel that you have achieved another step on the road back to feeling like you again. Big hugs honey x

monkey all my thoughts.xx

Just on briefly to say I'm thinking of you today Monkey and sending you all my love xxx

DDs must have realised today was very important to me and allowed me time to catch up. Your posts have all been so poignant since Monkey's sad news came out and I have been literally sobbing reading them. I'm really honoured to be part of such a wonderful group of women and feel guilty that I've not been able to give you support Monkey. You sound so strong and focused lovely and , even if it's just the shock, I hope it's enough to pull you through today. I also hope you get some reminders of your beautiful little angel as they are sure to bring you comfort in the dark times ahead. It will seem a long way off now, but one day the sun will shine for you again and no one deserves it more. Take comfort in your lovely son, husband and dad and know that your mum will be there to lok after this little one. You're in my thoughts.

Jools Lovely to see you. Don't go away.

MLS Hope yopu have your feet up.

Gracie Try a little breast milk in her eyes - yes seriously!

Will be back soon with details of Hannah. Want to share my birth story with you all too but now is not the time or the place.

She's screaming now so have to go. Love to everyone else.

Thinking of you monkey xxx

Thinking of you Monkey xxxxx

We'll all be here waiting for you when you return.

It somehow doesn't seem right to chat today on monkey's sad day.

Thanks for the conjunctivitis advice everyone.

Sorry not been here for a while but just wanted to say thinking of you today monkey sending you all my love xxxxxxxxxx

Monkey I hope you are feeling the strength that we are all sending to you. You have affected the thread today in a way that I've never seen before. I hope we get to hear from you soon as we are all anxiously waiting to hear that you have come out of the other side & we are all here to wrap you in cotton wool. xx

Monkey I know we have been in touch but I just want to publicly display the united front of strength we are all sending you my brave lady... MLS is right, the thread is deeply affected in a rare way by todays events.. It just hasnt been right to chat for the last few days... Cupcake I forward your text to Monkey as you cant post right now..

Girls I need some advice please. I've just got a call from the hospital re my nuchal test. I'm 1 in 150 which is their cut-off point. They are offering me a cvs or an amnio & I don't know what to do.