Emmsy's weebles - enjoying comfort, support and mini eggs, onwards and upwards!

[VJay]

A new home ladies! Tis the season for mini eggs , time for baby neeko to arrive, and more BFP's, oh and mls joining the bigpant bench

4ever - what a heart felt post and really hope Monkey takes comfort in reading it xx

Monkey - we're are all thinking about you and your family. Please give that gorgeous DS of yours big big cuddles xx

monkey I said a prayer for you last night, I want you to know I am thinking of you and your dh and ds. I don't want you to feel lonely, we are all here for you.
4ever you have come such a long way, and I hope it gives monkey even a glimmer of hope at this time.

Hi guys

I did drop in to say hello, apologise for absence and explain where I've "been" but reading Monkey's terrible news, it feels that the time isn't right. I'm not sure there are any words that will make you feel better, but I will be thinking of you constantly Monkey. What you are going through is the stuff of my nightmares.

MLS - hope you are OK as it sounds scary.

Kate - belated hoooge congratulations

Neeko Thanks for text - am in awe of you texting so soon after birth Love the name and the piccie

Will come back soon - promise

hi jools nice to have you back you have been missed xx

hope everyone is having a good easter weekend

big hugs to those who need them, have been thinking of you girls a lot

I had a text from MLS - "Quick Update- Diagnosis is pneumonia. I will be in for another night. They are going to start giving me steroids and a nebuliser & continue with the IV antiobiotics and blood thinning injections."

Monkey thinking of you a lot. I'm going to church in the morning so will say more prayers for you, your DH and DS. Iggy, Cupcake and Bakingqueen send their love.

Jools nice to see you, don't stay away too long.

I'm staying at my parents for the weekend as DH on nights until wednesday.

Monkey I've read your other thread. I'm pleased your dad is with you to help look after your DS when you go into hospital. You were saying about DH not wanting to know the sex of your baby. Would it be possible for the midwife to write it down for you so you can both look when you feel ready? Just a thought.

monkey i've been reading your other thread too, its just so heartbreaking to have to go through all this, i am almost crying that life is so unfair. i also didnt realise that you'd already lost 2 babies, where is the justice in this world?

Thank you all so very much for the huge amount of support, I can't tell you how much I appreciate it.

4ever As I said on txt, thanks so much for your post. What an awful time you had. Thanks for makng me think about registering birth/death, I hadn't even considered it, and need to. You and I are quite similar - after both of the last miscarriages dh, ds and I managed to get away. This time dad and I are already planning to take ds away for a few days in May. DH won't be able to come with us as he's taken so much time off already this year with having to be in the UK when my mum died, and various tests/appointments. Am going to miss him so much, but know I need to get away and he's fine with it.
Re the chromosome problem, I got very upset on the phone when she told me the baby wouldn't survive, and so wasn't in a state to hear much else. DH and I have already had karotyping done with the investigations into the mc's last year, and everything came back normal. Makes it even worse in a way - just pure bad luck...again. I think if they'd found something in our genes then maybe we would be eligible for IVF or some process where they could maybe check the sperm and egg were okay before we get so far along the line.
You said that God took things into his own hands with your baby - well I've been having tummy cramps all afternoon, so am wondering if that's what's happening in our case too I suppose it'll make it 'easier' in a way if it starts naturally.

Jools Please don't let what's going on with me stop you from sharing things, whatever it is. Am hoping it might be something exciting

MLS Really hope you're okay and that you come back home tomorrow feeling much better x

Curly I love the idea of everyone in the greenhouse, makes me feel safer somehow, like I'm being wrapped in a load of cotton wool. Thank you x

Blue I have been giving ds huge hugs, and gosh it feels so lovely. Thank goodness for him. Wrt naming the baby, I don't know yet. Think it makes it all that much more real and I don't think I can cope with it. Will see how we feel 'afterwards'... I would very much like to find out the sex, as I did with our last lost baby. DH doesn't know what that one was, and does not want to know about this one either. As Gracie suggested I might ask the midwife to write it down for us so I can find out without dh having to suffer even more.

Right, I can't cope with sitting up for much longer, am still feeling so weak from two months being so poorly (plus am still bl**dy retching and feeling sick). Is going to take a while to build myself back up again.
I really don't know what I'd do without you all at the moment, thanks again so much for being there xxx

Moon We've already lost three Life is so unfair.

Ah, staying with my parents for a couple of days and the dc's are currently not my problem as Grandma is in charge, so time for a long awaited update

But what a sad day to update - Monkey I can't believe what a horrible time you are having - we already know that life isn't fair but this seems just plain wrong. But you are strong - take lots of support from your lovely family

MLS Hope you are already feeling better and can go home soon-
your DD must be really missing you

Blue Hope the bottle is working? I love the junior J stuff too, especially as my dc's are both junior j's!

Gracie You sound very chilled, looks like you are enjoying your new role. Well done on getting out with the girls -it's something I've been very bad at since dc's were born and it's not good.

Loeuy Very glad for the help - obviously if we have to do the tasting in the next few weeks, I'm a bit stuffed untill Babybelle arrives, but I suppose I could at least drive and admire the chateau and bottles!
Sorry that the bleedings back - can't really help you with that as mine went on for ages but then just stopped. Good to hear that the head and neck are better

Curly A space is booked in the car for you - should we use Gracies wedding car? Or maybe a mini bus? I'll have a word with the bus driver from work. Your post on feeding was really good too - I might try that with Babybelle when she arrives ( only 8 weeks to go!)

QA Good to see you - and your weekend plan sounds fab, keep eating the chocolate. It may not solve everything but it tastes great!And yes, the more tasters the better!

Vjay Your back sounds horrid - enjoy having DH around for the long weekend and have a rest

neeko thanks for the updates - when I've finished this mammouth post, I'll check out the photos of your beautiful baby girl. Hope she's still being good.

Sorry - ran out of time - lovely parents are lookign after dc's and are sending is to the pub for dinner tonight so I need to get changed and find some more "fetching" fat clothes to wear.

Hello to 4ever and cupcake ( we're next you know?!), Jools ( good to see you back but I think you're spent your time on facebook games!), Mermaidthewise, mummyKate, Sabs and all the other lovely ladies I've not mentioned.

Extra special hugs to monkey again - life really is soo unfair

monkey I keep deleting sentences and have managed to cook tea and start on a bottle of wine in between pressing the delete key.

I have moved the wood pile out of the green house and put the parafin heater in there cos it's bloody cold so it will be nice and cosy.
My heart goes out to you, dh and your dad what a truly terrible outcome and I cannot bear to think of you going through this.

My No.4 had a trisomy, I have forgotten which number trisomy it was now. It was 'incompatible with life' and I mc naturally at about 11 weeks.

I think at the time the only thing that helped was being told by the golfer that there was absolutley nothing I could have done to prevent such a chromosonal problem. It's a small thing that might help you later.

I was so over the moon for you when you announced your bfp, one of the original emmsys who had waited so long. We love you loads lovely monkey don't let go we will all hold onto you tightly. I have lit a small candle here in Cornwall and hope that each of us lights one tonight too.

Bless you mermaid I have tears streaming down my face after reading your post. You are just so lovely and know exactly what to say to make me realise that I'm going through this with some wonderful people who are literally holding me up right now... I truly do not know what I would do without you all.

LBM Thanks for the hugs, and glad you are having a nice time with your parents.

Much as I don't want the days to move on, I am off to bed. Am dreading taking the first tablet tomorrow evening.

Loads and loads of love to you all xxx

mermaid you are rather wonderful, I hope you know that. Thanks for warming up the greenhouse for us xxx

good night dear monkey. I too can't bear the thought of you going through this. I suppose the only thing to do is to get through it. As my gran would say this too will pass, and while I know the healing will take a lot longer at least you will be through the physical side. Please please consider an epidural though as an induction will make contractions more painful and you will need all your strength to get through this. At least if it is pain free you can try and distance yourself from the awfulness of it all. I know it helps some people to go through the physical pain to block out their mental anguish but you have been through so much already dear lady. Sorry I hope this isn't making things worse. I just think you have been through enough. I was also wondering if there was anything nice that you would like us to stock up on in the greenhouse for your return. We obviously have a constant supply of hot chocolate and icecream but maybe there are some DVDs we could hire and some food you might like. The awful morming sickness should just go immediately so we will try and tempt you with nice food as well as hugs and hairstrokes while you convalesce. massive hug for dh too xxx

Jools I'm so glad you are back. Are you okay?

4ever I still smile when I think of how far you have come xxx

vj how is your back? Is ff going okay?

Big waves to blue moon and Gracie and happy Easter to all
Mls sending massive hugs your way. Get well soon hon and take care of you and bump xxx
lbm I think we'll need the minibus and a lot of alka seltzer!!

Message from Neeko:

"Hi.not been able to get back on MN. MLS has been in hospital 4 2 nites with pneumonia. Recovering and hoping to be home today. All well with her baby"

Great news happy Easter everyone. Big hugs to monkey. Hope you are okay.

Happy Easter everyone

monkey {{{{{{{hug}}}}}}} can't stop thinking about you, you sound so brave in your posts, stay strong. So glad your dad is there with you and your trip away in May sounds like a lovely idea, where are you going? It is a shame dh can't go, but he sounds so understanding, bless him. I hope things maybe start naturally for you like it did 4ever, if not, maybe go for the epidural. I like gracies idea too of the mw writing down the sex for you, then dh doesn't have to know if he doesn't want to. I wish I could be there and give you a real life hug xxxxx

curly the ff is going really well thanks

mermaid you write the best posts, mine just ramble.

lbm glad you are having a rest at your parents. My dh is working this whole weekend, even today, so no rest for me

blue how's the feeding going, did you give B a bottle and did it help? Thought of you on Friday whilst watching the Sound of Music

mls you poor love, hope you are ok and can get home soon.

barbie hope you are having a lovely time with family

gracie and neeko hope you are enjoying your beautiful dd's

jools please share your news with us, good or bad

4ever hello

Big Easter waves and hugs to you all, especially monkey, another {{{{hug}}}}} for you

Hi everyone, so sorry I haven't been about. I have tried to catch up with the posts as best I can.

Monkey - I am thinking of you sweetheart. I am so sorry. Huge hugs and mini-eggs for you, and anything you want. Life sucks arses.

MLS - Hope you little one is ok and you are both home soon from hospital.

QA - How's life? I miss you!!

Ok, a quick update. Lots of people have been annoyingly reminding me of my ectopic and my lost little wee one. Especially people who still think I am pregnant... I bumped into 4 people yesterday, each one congratulating me, and each one getting an explanation and then asking me questions. I guess it doesn't hurt me too much these days to talk about it. I think I have learnt from all this that next time I think I might be pregnant to keep my big mouth shut, however excited I am, and just blurt it out to you girls instead...

I was taken shopping for the day twice this week, Thurs was Sheffield (trip on the wheel as well.. made me a bit sick hehe) and Friday was Nottingham with a special friend of mine, with yet another trip on a wheel. Is it me or is there a damn wheel in every city now? Anyway, she persuaded me to try on some really lovely clothes and I treated myself. I am so pleased with how good I look in the outfit I got. I am gobsmacked. For a shortass I thought I'd never be able to look so nice. What a boast. Hugs to my friend. But, alas, someone needs to resussitate my bank account because it seems style isn't cheap!! I haven't treated myself to anything for ages though so what the hell.

I cleared my shit heap of a front garden yesterday and turned the soil over to pick out all the unwanted roots and rubbish. Then I swept the pathy bits and trimmed the roses as well. It looked so good the neighbours on my street have finally decided to talk to me. ..people eh? I am so pleased for me though, I love it tidy. Muscles ache so much today though... ow ow ow ow....

Love and hugs to everyone. Have a wonderful Easter full of mini-eggs and fun.

Im here.... Finally defrosted enough to say i have to catch up and will post again shortly.

I did see monkeys news, life truely hurts the most wonderful people at times My heart aches for you

mls i hope you are ok, thinking about you

neeko congrats again, wonderful name

Looks like look of emotional and heart felt post over the last few days, i will take my time and read when i get a few quiet mins to myself (so no one can see my tears)

I might not post for a few days but im here and lurking xxx

Hi Barbie, Happy Easter. xxx

monkey I can't imagine how bad things must feel for you right now, but It is lovely to read the posts on here right now and to see how much everybody cares about you and how sad everyone is for you. You seem like a pretty amazing person and I wish you all the strength in the world to get through the next few days in particular and hope that you and your Dh can find some way of helping both of you to heal, no matter what decisions you make. I have cried reading your posts and the replies here and hope you take some comfort from knowing that a whole bunch of people are out there thinking and praying for you and your family. [HUGS]

vjay hope Ajay has continued to sleep through for you, sleep makes you feel like a new woman doesn't it. Glad the painkillers are helping things too.

Gracie I hadn't linked the time and date so thanks for clearing that up about MN's april fools.

Louey how are you feeling today, has the bleeding stopped yet? The fact that it has started again can't be easy for you, I know I was relieved when mine stopped as it is such a constant reminder iyswim?

Neeko Hannah is gorgeous, you must be so pleased. How is she settling in to family life?

LBM hope you are enjoying a bit of help with the children, nice to be able to step back sometimes and let someone else doing the running

barbie bit of a change in temperature here then?! Are you visiting family, when I skimmed the thread when i first started, I remember that you were coming back to England for a visit, but can't remember any details.

MLS so pleased to hear that you are making a good recovery and that baby is ok, you must be so relieved. Take it easy when you get home, it will really have knocked you and it can take quite a while for you to get back to full fitness.

pfj bout time you came back, you lured me here and then left me alone like the new girl Good job they are all so nice here! Really glad that you are doing well, shopping trip sounds like just the thing to distract yourself and mini eggs of course! I am doing ok thank you, have had a few wobbles, but had a lovely weekend which has helped. Nice to see you back!

Hello to everyone else, hope you are all having a good weekend. I can see why you have all stuck around this thread, the support you give each other is great.

QuestionsAnswered!!!! It's good to hear from you!!

Hugs for your wobbles.

Weather is lovely today, its really making me feel happy. Are you scoffing easter eggs? Bet you can't guess which easter egg I have got!!? I love the name Hannah too, its really really pretty. Reminds me of a few weeks ago when me and DH were arguing discussing boys names. If it was a girl it would have been Elsa. I love this thread too... its really nice to drop in and feel like you are with people who understand you.

I am ebaying at the moment, trying to find little Jack some brio wooden train set bits to add on for him. He is 2 on Wedsnesday, I can't believe how far he has come.

Love ya all. xxx

Ooh, happy birthday to Jack for Wednesday, it comes around quick!

Yes, I am scoffing Easter eggs, in fact have had too much and have just had some of DH's too!. Er, was yours a mini eggs egg by any chance?

Good guess!!! How DID you know????

XXX

Monkey I feel absolutely devastated for you. When I had the text from Gracie on Friday I just wanted to give you a massive great big hug. I can't believe how cruel life can sometimes be & it breaks my heart to think what you've had to endure in such a short space of time. I couldn't sleep on Friday night because every time I closed my eyes I'd think of you & the tears would start. On top of everything that has happened to you, now you have to endure labour, it's like pain heaped on pain heaped on even more pain. I would agree with getting the midwife to write down the sex for you. Are they going to let you see your baby if you want to & are they going to be able to prevent you from seeing if you don't want to? I've seen lots of beautiful photo's of little hands & little feet of babies who were born too soon, maybe that's something you might want to consider? I'm sure your lo will look like a very small, perfectly formed sleeping baby & I'd hate you to not see but then go on to imagine all sorts of horrors in the future. Again I'm sure the midwife will know the right thing to do. I'm sure your Mum is sending down strength to you on this difficult night. I've just lit a candle for you & all I can say is that as long as I live I'll never forget the amount you have had to endure & you have done so with such dignity.

So, a little bit about my weekend: Woke on Friday morning with chest pains on breathing in, went to out of hours doctor who sent me to hospital with suspected blood clot on lung, which is something that can happen in pregnancy. Spent hours on a trolley with scary fever, had blood taken from vein & when they told me they would have to take some from an artery too I burst into tears as I know that one fecking hurts. They said they wanted to do a chest x-ray & I'd be staying the night. I got pumped with blood thinning injections, antibiotic injections & had to use a face-mask nebuliser. They finally woke me at 1am to do the x-ray & the next day told me I had pneumonia & I'd have to stay in another night. Feeling a lot better now just a bit feak & weeble.

Hope everyone else is having a good weekend full of chocolate & bunnies.

Hugs MLS, I misread the last post .. thought it was your LO in hospital not you! Sounds like you have had an awful time, I cried when they took blood from my artery too! (If it comforts you at all). Hope you get better soon.

Night all. xxx

MLS welcome back honey. We were worried so hope you feel much better today xxx

big hugs to monkey xxx

Sleepy waves to everyone else. Curlygirl has developed colic and cannot be comforted in the evenings at the moment. Poor little thing is wearing us out!