Morning Curly & Mermaid... Also hoping MLS is OK?
Woke up thinking of Monkey and have too many thoughts and things to say to put in a tx, so am writing a post to you instead, and will tx you to tell you..!
Once again Im so so sorry you are going though this, its just horrific and my heart aches for you... I cant believe you have to go through an induction, its so unfair and makes a terrible situation even worse for you.. At 13wks I think we were 1or 2 wks off having to do the same, and then all that goes with it, registering babys birth & death, and possibly a service, I dont know if these are options that have been put to you or not? Its an awful awful thing to go through, but may help with your grieving process, when you look back on this? I know in some cases people talk of getting footprints or even a photo, you may have to name your little one. These are all things we had to consider when it happened to us, I am so grateful in a wierd strange way that God took the decision out of our hands and when we went back at 13wks baby had literally just died, so were able to have the ERPC the next day.. Literally a week or 2 later & we would have had to do the same as you, and I just dont know where you find the strength, but sadly, somewhere inside us, we just have too... Even tho we had the op, it was pushing it, hence the 2nd op 6wks later as 'retained product' probably placenta... The othr term, Blue used, was 'incompatable with life' as we were told, yes downs you can live with, but if one of the other trisomys like Edwards or Pattaus syndrome, then that was the case, and that was likely to be what happened to our baby.. We had a biopsy done but it came back inconclusive. Have they told you specifically what chromosome issue it was? Chances are its is just terrible awful luck. We were told as our parental karyotyping blood tests came back alright, that it wasnt genetic and highly unlikely odds of happening again. You have DS, so presumably no genetic issue but have they offered you karyotyping? (genetic parental chromosome tests?). It was a terrible wait, but one thing to 'tick off' causes at least. Lastly, its worth getting in touch with SANDS or Tommys, who can give you lots of advice, and counselling, even if you only look online (as we did)...
We went in autopilot mode to get through, the raw shocking numbness takes over. Its all a bit of a blur now.. I just want to give you a big hug, you just have to take it one day at a time, one hour at a time even.. Aftr 3 of our losses we booked last min holidays several wks later, to just get away, feel some healing sun, drink, eat and switch off as much as we possibly could, Id reccomend it.. I am praying for you and hope you can find strength, as I said I will light a candle for your baby at church tomorrow.. My heart goes out to you, so very deeply. I could of cried for you when I woke up.. Thinking of you constantly.. x x x x x