Hi Gracie good to see you and hear about Isabelle! She spunds gorgeous and a good weight already! Cant help with bf Im afraid! We wanna see pics! x
Lovely to hear from you too Annie! Glad to hear you got the sleeping pattern all nicely sorted! x
Vjay bless your boys at the christening! Glad you had a gorgeous day! Are you back home now? x
MLS Yay for sickness! Hope you are enjoying hogging the bed! You looking forward to the live enders tonight?! x
Barbie any more signs for you? Keep us posted? Have you been forwarded my new e-mail by anyone? Must exchange numbers, Ill happy be your tx buddy in case Jools not around, she has been quiet of late? x
Hope you are ok Jools hon? x
Thinking of Mermaid too & already harassed you to chase golfer when you are back from sis! BTW one of the girls at work with the fibroids trying for her 3rd baby is 43, did I mention that bit? x
Monkey hope all well with you too hon? x
Neeko YAY for last day today!!! Im but also very for you! x
Cupcake hope you are doin ok & enjoyed your chilled pancake night wit your friends? Whens the next viewing? Hope you gave the agent what for! x
Curly big hugs to you yummy mummy - wanna see pics too! x
LBM how you doing buddy? Is RL keeping you v busy? x
Iggy I also got a bit obsessed wih buying mat clothes! I have loads! Had to draw a line under it as realised only another 3months of wearing them, there is next time though! Think it compensates for being too scared to buy baby stuff, its a compromise, however now have started getting a few baby bits def no more clothes for me! I still hold my breath and get butterflies as I walk to till with any baby purchase tho! x
Thanks for all the birthday greetings for DH yesterday! I spoilt him rotten, and we had a nice time at our mums & a lovely meal, even though it left me so squashed & uncomfortable! I did feel a bit of anxiety to 'just get though the day' after his 30th birthday 2yrs back, having that awful scan & finding out we lost our 2nd baby.. I kept feeling desperate to feel movement & getting a bit panicy.. Then my great aunt called at 9.30pm, (late for us! ) when we'd not long been in & were settling to watch Enders on sky+, to say about this woman onthe news, who had 18 MC and had this 'pioneering' treatment at one of our local hospitals, she was telling DH it was the same treatment we had.. its all over the press today (& yest I think, & same surname as us!).. Anyway, nice of her to think of us, but it isnt the same treatment we had, we got tested for the same thing, Natural Killer cells, privately about this time last year after losing 4th baby.. So although, well meaning, was a bit annoyed she called on his birthday to discuss MC when we were really trying hard to not think of it & be positive & not rehash old memories, and.. she didnt even wish him Happy Birthday! She had sent a card to be fair, but as he gently tried to get off the phone by saying 'actually we just walked through the door after having a meal out for my birthday' she still didnt say anything! We just didnt really want to hear about that right then... We lit the babys candles in the afternoon, but I really was fighting my anxiety all day as it was, and just praying we got through his birthday without something bad happening .
I then spent half the night awake, initially unable to get comfortable & aching all over with terrible rib pain, indigestion & leg cramps, which rational head said are normal symptoms, but irrational weeble was becoming increasingly anxious about, then every time I rolled over, I was leaking a bit, tmi but literally dribbling down leg, so had to keep going loo, this happened several times & kept praying its not leaking amnio fluid, as was very clear...? Anyway all this anxiety accentuated by upcoming scan on tuesday which Im crapping myself about, its been 4 weeks since we had one.. This is to check growth cos of the 2 vessel cord.. Im praying they wont spot one of the associated heart or kidney problems, that she is growing ok, that my amnio fluid isnt leaking & cervix is closed, and on last scan report it does also say to recheck uterine artery flow, which I noticed was alot lower than the previous time it was measured, and where all her growth was top of the scales (95th percentile?) the uterine flow was only thing at very bottom of scale (5th percentile?)..
All this anxiety & weebling has resulted in me just sobbing down the phone to DH just now, as I really tried to hold it all in yesterday for his birthday.. He was lovely as always, & said very practically we must just try not to worry about scan til monday night, tho as we all know, easier said than done!
Anyway, sorry for weeble ramble girls, really needed to vent after my little sobfest, have decided not to go to work today as Im in wrap me up in cotton wool mode & need to stay still & quiet in bed, & hopefully get some more sleep! xxxxx