TTC - Clomid IV - A New Hope

[Fairygodmother1]

Hi ya girlies,

New Thread, New Hope.

To Newbies -
We're all very friendly, have had different experiences, are all very wise in the ways of clomid and more adventures to come I guess...

lets keep chatting!!!

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Copnfuzzled welcome!
Hi everyone else!

Feeling much more on an even keel now than earlier in the week. Thank you for all the support I got through it all.

Funny how life reminds you that there are bigger things going on than TTC! 2 of my close friends having been having a really difficult time this week with employment stuff and marriage stuff. I have been trying to be there for then and as a result feel much more sane than when I focus on my situation too much.

I don't even know what day I am on now-about CD 13 or 14 but have lost count now, which I am taking as a good sign of my new found sanity.

Hope you are all having a relaxing weekend. Off to chose tiles for the kitchen soon, which I am really looking forward to, nice when it is finally finished, the building work has been going on for nearly a year now.

Tired because one of the cats wanted to play at 4am, still i guess its good practice for when I get a BFP!

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Clure that music is absolutely beautiful - thanks for that. made me cry!

Hi Cofuzzled - definately make sure you see a consultant to discuss the results of your tests.

Wishin / Emmy / Shev / Debb - fingers crossed for you guys - would really like to hear about another bfp so keep us posted.

Fairy and Stac, the only name we ever chose is the nickname Pebble as we were convinced we would get a girl - but that was at the start, we don't really talk about names now.

Really - definately know what you mean about the difficultly concentrating!

Ven - when I saw the accupuncturist she said feeling positive early to mid cycle can be connected to your system working to make you in the mood for BD'ing etc - its a good sign.

Fairy, not sure if this is helpful hon, but in the book I've been reading it says for inverted uterus that BD'ing doggy style is good for it. (I think you said you'd been diagnosed with that?)

hi to everyone else. i've been peeing on sticks this month, not tried it before as didn't want to get too obsessed. its worked though, got my LH surge yesterday and today -so been BD'ing lots. quite nice to get the result you want from peeing on a stick! not quite a bfp but its the small successes eh.

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confuzzled yes the GP referred me to local hospital unit.

Stac yep this is me without the clomid & I've not been a dragon (yet)! Also back to the baby names - everyone seems to be going for the middle name Rose. Glad we changed ours as originally we were gonna have that as a middle name.

Ven Thats good that you are feeling better. It's horrible feeling so out of control!

Thanks care - may give that more of a chance but always feel more unconfortable in that position (DH isn't a small boy )!!

Had a nice chill out so far. waiting for the England game in 30mins

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Hi All welcome Confuz Just got back from boots,,,,,,,,,yes I got some test but not done one yet Hust letting you all know that it was bogof on first respon text.
Hope your all having a good weekend so far.What everyone up too?
Ill prob test in the morn if AF not here.
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Oh come on Deb you have us in suspense!!!!1

Deb I know its difficult, particularly if you have had BFNs before. I always think testing doesn't change what is there, if you are pg then you are whether you test or not so doing the test is only knowing what is already happening.

Having said that I would probably be reluctant to test too....I guess its most important to do what is comfortable for you.

Anyhow, I am waffling! Hope what I have said sort of makes sense?

I guess my only other thought was that an early morning urine would be more likely to be positive if it was quite early, which sounds like your plan anyhow?

hahaha fairy sorry hun but I am going to wait to test in the morning ven thats what I am thinking hun...............morning pee is said to be the best. Having said that I really am sure it will be a BFN.I have had all these feelings before but never felt this worn out really Im still getting lots of pains in my lower tum and peeing lots . oh its so dame hard and I know im doing my own head in............and everyone around me in the house. My hubby turned round this afternoon and said to me "dont take THEM tablets anymore.......I want my wife back" god I felt his pain.......of having to see me like this.......only been married 2yrs 4mth and I have shocked him I think We are a very close couple but seem to be getting a distance between us since I started on the clomid...........anyone else changed alot on the clomid? I really do miss me to be honest and my hubby come to think of it I really do want to be blessed one more time....we have not got children together but I also dont want to feel like this anymore..............its took over my life. I know im not on my own on this thread but I sure do feel alone here in my world Anyway thats enough of me having yet another moan so ill sign out for now and try to relaxe a little.
sending lots of baby dust luck to you all
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hi ladies

how are you all?

debi dp wanted me to stop clomid too, I was weepy, argumentive, up and down to be honest totally not me. Couldnt concentrate on my uni work, really forgetful etc. But I was determined, knew I was feeling crappy and even spoke to the doc as I thought my depression was back. I was told ttc is a rollercoaster of emotions and the clomid adds to them. I also spoke to the cons about it who also dismissed my claims, going so far as to tell my gp my previous depression was causing me to think it was the tablets (this was on a letter I saw on the comp screen in gp's office) I was so mad especially since I had heard of so many women on here having a hard time with it. Anyway ranting again. Do you think you need a wee break, ttc is so stressful and focusing on it all the time can make it harder to happen. Maybe look into relaxation therapies. DP and I eventually stopped letting life revolve around ttc, we went out, got drunk, did stuff with the kids, stopped bding to schedule and I stopped the clomid (i became scared of it) I went on metformin and it worked for me, dont know how it would affect everyone else. Sorry to go on hun

Hey to everyone else sorry to go on, just hate to hear of you going through a crappy time xxx

Deb Are you me??? I was like that last week. Yeah I was also feeling the distance between us. But that could be the fact that he's been out of work for over a year. We've only been married 9 months! But this week we've been a lot closer & no arguments (yet).

Stac we're just gonna take it easy now. haven't had any panics for over a week. Def gonna give those yoga poses a go & just enjoy being just us for now. Also gonna try to get exercise in & get the pcos diet underway again!

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Stac thanks for your post hun. I think it is about time I stopped letting it control my life..........I truely have had enough and want to be me again. I have endo so cant take metformin. I think the real reason I want to keep taking my last few months of clomid is because im 41.....42 next month and im frightened that if I have a rest that it will be too late. If you know what I mean hun

Fairy I think most of us on here are the same eh this as to be one of the hardest things I have been through in my life....and I sure have been through alot. Lets hope its all worth it in the ened eh

Hope everyone else is ok.
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Hi All

Welcome confuzzled

Hope everyone is having a good weekend.
This ttc business really is crap isn't it?
It's so hard to concentrate as my thoughts always go back to ttc. Really wish i could just block it out of my mind. People always say just relax and don't think about it and then it will happen, but how can you do that when it's something you really want? Hmmmm.

I've thought about having a break from it like stac suggested to deb but i dont know if i could have a break as i would still be thinking about it all the time.
It's crazy how having babies can make us feel this way.

Anyway on a brighter note, good luck for the test in the morning deb, also you may be 41 but i've read about lots of women getting pregnant in their 40's.

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*Lady@ know exactly what you mean! I've turned into a prickly bush when someone mentions pg or babies. It's like an armour that goes up around me. I can feel it - like something out of x-men! then i'll say something that is like amunition to either kill the convo & make people aware that I aint happy with it! Then afterwards I feel really bad for what I said but then think they desrve it for being insensitive.

It's hard cos we don't want people knowing cos we don't want the sympathy, the looks, etc but at the same times we don't need the constant reminder that we'er useless at it!!!!

I feel like Jekyll & hyde at the mo. One min I'm still in the desperate routine of atttempts & thinking when's the best times, the next I'm thinking that I'm on the route to IVF so really should sit back. The problem is I'm the sort of person who hates to fail, I like to be in control & always put everything into whatever I do so it's hard for me to sit back!

What's everyone's plans for Sunday? I'm planning on seeing my niece & nephew.

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Fairy morning, I agree that I am defensive when people say that they are pg-see my crisis earlier in the week when my friend announced her pg! Sat in the bath crying....

Actually spoke to her yesterday and was fine, weirdly my newfound positivity got me through it fine. I even "came out of the closet" and vaguely mentioned I am having some treatment. Made it clear I don't want to go into the in's and outs but really wasn't so bad. She was nice but not really pitying which was what I feared. Feel quite good about actually telling someone.

Only hope this good mood lasts.

Am planning to go out for cake and tea later this afternoon if I get enough of the work I am doing completed. What's everyone else planning?

Hello ladies. I am struggling to keep up with all of your posts!!
Did you test Deb? I have been reading the posts on my phone, i've been very excited to read your posts
Welcome confuzzled
Lady i never found a way to block out the ttc thoughts and especially emotions. I was far worse this time round. I think thats due to coming to terms with not being able to have anymore and then getting pg and then loosing our son. I was awful. Didnt want to hear about babies, pregnancy,or anything surrounding the convo, to the point where some friends kept away. As i said i was truly awful I just think it completely takes over and i couldn't control it or my emotions.Yep to the comparison to the x-men fairy I was green and prickly!!!

Ven tea and cake sounds lovely i am liking your new found positivity. Well done you

Hope everyone else is well. I had my booking appointment and He (not liking a male midwife, silly i know) bought my edd forward a little so i am almost 11 weeks!! Head still hasn't sorted out my maternity pay and she leaves in 4 weeks!!!

What are you all up to today?? I am going to have a day at home i think. Might go to cinema but nothing too stenuous.

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PS Glad your job is safe fairy. Must be a relieve

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Fairy glad you know what i mean, it's such a horrible feeling, really wish it would stop taking over my life. But i also feel like a failure and don't like the thought of giving up.
I also keep thinking that i'm on route to IUI so maybe i should just sit back, especailly as BD'ing at a certain time is really doing my head, i want to BD when i'm in the mood and not when it's the right time.

Anyway enough of me moaning.

popsy 11 weeks already, you must be close to telling everyone if you haven't already. Will you find out what your having? Don't think i would be to happy about a male midwife, but i suppose he's only there to do his job.

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Hi EVERYONE Sorry its took so long for me to post.....did the test and its a BFN I feel like crap to be honest..............the tummy pains are there but still nothing. Had lots going around my mashed head...............thinking did I leave a tampax in last month and thats why im only getting brown spoting...silly I know but ive never ever been this late. Must say though that I am less stressful since I did the test. Just a waiting game now eh AGAIN.
Hope your ALL well and having a nice Sunday.
Sending lots of baby dust your way.
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debi sorry for bfn {{hugs}} hope your ok, thinking of you. Understand you may feel more stressed as at least you know where you stand.

Hi to all you other ladies

pospy fab news on scan, are you feeling a bit more relaxed? I have my 20 week scan tomorrow, mixture of excitement and nervousness

How has your Sunday been? xxx

Thanks Stac ill be ok hun. Hope your ok too xxx
Pops how are you feeling now? Hope your well and glowing.
As anyone heard from Pink Not seen her on her for a bit or have I missed her,
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Ven I sit in the bath crying too - the bathroom is my sanctury!

pops I've done a bit of school work & played wii with my niece & sister. Wow!!! 11 weeks already???

Stac are we gonna know boy or girl tomorow? Then we can get researching names for you properly.

lady hope you're feeling better. I also feel worse cos I haven't manged to make one stick at all!!!! This (when he/she arrived or sticks) will be our first so there's a lot of worry, anticipation, & excitement but making them stick is a harder job than I realised!!!

Aww Deb thats crap. Know exactly how you're feeling. I was convinced last month! Body's are pretty good at pretending.

How's everyone's day been? Clure hope you're not working too hard?

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so sorry deb. What cd are you on? Did you ov? Maybe see whats happens then retest again in a couple of days. Sending hugs your way {{hugs}} xx

20 week scan tomorrow Stac are you going to find out if you are having a boy or girl? Lots of luck hun, will be thinking of you. I dont have my scan til a week on friday!!! Seems ages away. In the grand scheme of things, ive waited this long another week or so isnt that long

lady we cant wait to tell people. A few people know, my mum and 2 very close friends. Havent even told our son yet!!Gunna wait til we have had the nuchal and the NHS scan.
Thanks Deb, yeah feeling really well, a little nausea and tiredness but nothing really too bad. I was so poorly with my last pg i am glad i can enjoy being pg. Still stressing a little, esp about the nuchal but i think thats gunna be part of the course.

Love to all

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hi,

Deb SO sorry, its a crapper about your bfn, you must be in turmoil. Bit of pampering this evening is needed, take care x

Yes ladies tomorrow should be the day we find out if its a boy or a girl, just hope lo is playing ball

popsy you will be fine huni, i love scans lol

I agree about the bathroom being a sanctuary were you get peace to get it all out, in our house though the dog thinks he has to be with me at all times so takes pleasure in walking in on us lol

deb clure is totally right, get pampered have some time to yourself or even one to one with dp, nice meal and a couple of drinks. Thinking of you loads chick

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Im at uni til 930 tomorrow night so prob wont be able to log on tomorrow Stac but cant wait to hear from you. Will check on my phone for updates

Just finished my work and have no energy left for uni readibng so off to bed for me

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popsy what you studying? I will post as soon as I am home xx