hi all.
lou nice of you to miss me, (as it were)
Haven't really had anything to say tbh, am feeling really down at the moment. I'm certain I'm not pregnant but that might be a god thing cos dh informs me he doesn't feel part of this family, and that I constantly criticise him. TO be honest all he ever does is moans at the kids, nothing is ever good enough. He's starting up a new company at the moment and everything is incredible stressful and busy but it's not just that. It feels to me that nothing we ever do will be up to his very high standards.
With that and worrying that my 14 yr dd is pregnant, it's all getting on top of me tbh.
I am one of those people that just gets on with it, but I really can't be bothered to carry on just getting on with it.
Now I'm gonna have a big barney with xh tomorrow cos it turns out his partner has been offering said dd fags, saying, well she's not my dd, not my responsibility. She has accused dd of nicking money from their house, ( dd says no and I believe her). She's been looking for a reason for them never to visist for 5 yrs.
See, can't even type I'm so upset. I just cry all the time, and I sooo want another baby and I just know It's not gonna happen now. I know that sounds really shallow when I have 5 gorgeous dc's but I can't help it.