Morning girls.. Its my dads birthday & was the first thing I thought when I woke up, the 2nd was poor poor MLS & prayers that beanie is ok.. Sadly can imagine what headf* turmoil you are in right now if you are lurking my love.. The girls are so right, wish we could pop round make you a cuppa feed you choc & let you give us soggy shoulders - Im sending so much love, prayers & strength your way, cant stop thinking about you... I was flicking through the radio & Pink Floyd come on - turned it right up cos my dad was a bit of an old hippy I love the song & have found it relevent in recent years since he died, and very much through the mc's - its 'Comfortably Numb' I was listening today & thinking of you too MLS these are the lyrics I found it poignant.. Lyrics
Also sending a massive hug & handhold to Hoping on your edd today sweetheart... Its so important to remember, its a strange time. What alot of edds this week with me tues, Moon yest & you today.. Our babies maybe be friends up there, that would be nice to think...
Moon sorry to hear you felt a little alone yest, you know what though? I think all anniversarys/edd are like that. Even if I was in a room full of people who all knew my dad on his anniversary, I would still feel alone. Think thats the nature of these sad things. I think its cos our loved one, be it baby or whoever, is not with us, so therefore we are bound to feel alone cos we feel the loss...
Jools my darlin, this strange - pre test am I arent I headf* is enough to turn us cuckoo! Your not mad, its horrid that preg symptoms & AF are similar though so im never too sure myself what im feeling. I pray & hope that its wrong & you are, but if you arent there is still next month, the month after, the month after that, even next year.. Getting my head into that mode of thinking & no longer feeling the deadline of its GOT to be next month, has made life more bearable this month.. We cant out ourselves through that crashing feeling each month cos of lines on a stick, its not fair to ourselves. I did want to ask your advice actually - does your ov pain sometimes hurt so bad you cant even think about BD? Mine was well bad last night so didnt! The last few months that would of been alien to avoid it, but really am thinking - what will be will be...
Bravebarbiebigpants hope the bleedings stopped now? This blummin low lying placenta thing is awful, my bf & sil had it.. well done you for being a soldier! One of mermaids goldstars!
Big waves to the rest of you cos am filling the thread up! As you can tell Im feeling a bit deep profound & spiritual this morning! I had some wierd dreams, lights flying round the sky, & an angel pushing a big witch out of the sky strange, but woke up feeling really calm & bathed in light. feel like my dad is right here with me. I am wearing a bright yellow top for him & the sun is shining... I will keep praying that it shines down on MLS too.... xxxxxxxxx