Emmsys Onwards & Upwards part VII - hand-holders and hair-strokers welcome!

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Shiny new thread for us

The race is on for the first BFP!

X-post Curly Let's start a pile of hugs for moon as I've got one for her too

WOW - the day of the massive post

Hope you are not working too hard Neeko

Lovely to see you popping back and getting stronger Cupcake

Just back from Pilates - we have a meditation bit at the end and I ended up in tears again My very oddly behaved body is sending signals that I am about to ovulate - over a week early No idea what is going on but will try and get my seductive face on before bedtime, just in case !

Big waves to Moon and labour vibes to Vjay

Quality post neeko it was HUGE . I loved what you said about our LOs and us fighting to give them life. Hope you have a great booking in tomorrow, i really enjoyed mine and it made me feel almost normal Don't worry we'll be here for any wobbles you have this week and to hold your hand as you need it. How many weeks are you now?

Get that sexy underwear on Jools and go to it!!!

Neeko I LOVED what you just said up there. I keep re-reading it I feel quite awe-struck. However if dd ever announces she wants to go traveling around the world she'll be tied to a chair until she gets that silly notion out of her head!

Cupcake glad to see you back albeit briefly. Good to hear you sounding more chipperer!

Jools if you lived closer I'd drop by with a brown envelope-full of opk's!

Curly those pants sure do suit you!

I had a bra fitting today, perhaps I should change my name to Norkus-maximus as I've gone from a dd to an f in a week. Right I'm off to bed to bed now, night all.

Send some norkage my way will you

I have slightly more than normal, which means I fill out a C cup properly for once - would love to have just a little more !

OPK's - have never used them ! Am more bothered at the mo about how I'm going from ov on day 14 / 15 / 16 to potentially ov'ing on day 8 Maybe multiple eggs ? They do say that as you get older, your body gets more desperate to breed !

I'm off to bed too lovely to see you norkus mls

night all xxx

Hi girls .

Just had massive catch up since Thurs and wanted to post as will be busy with DS tomorrow before back to work on Wed.

Vjay - totally empathise with your pre/post mc self, its not until we look back that we realise just how much we've had to go through emotionally, hormonally and physically . Was secretely glad I didn't miss your lo being born when I was away so any day now would be nice .

Jools - your body does sound in need of some tlc. What a week you've had . I would see your GP sooner rather than later as MC does do weird things to your cycle.

Gracie - great news re: DH's work, so happy for you both .

4ever - loved reading your positive Monday post too. You are so right to think forward whilst remembering the past but not killing yourself with it. If I ever meet your DH I will give him a massive hug as he is the BEST . So glad your ex-mgr leaving/deciding about work/meeting your friend with 2nd EDD have all left you at peace.

Neeko - your DD is the business! I wonder if our English Angels knew what you meant by a 'sausage supper' . enjoy your booking in. I remember rambling at mine at how much of an achievement it was for me to even be there (we get our @ 10 weeks) as I'd had to cancel two...

Curly - welcome to bigpantsland . Its not the same thread without your massive, warm posts.

MLS - no curry for you missy! hope your taking a day at a time and staying positive. re: where babies come from, I can truthfully say 'Mummy's tummy' as that is exactly where DS came from! Out through the sun roof .

Sorry for lack of more personals, need to get to bed. Berlin was beautiful, what a lovely city and it was scorching. We did all the tourist things (Neeko did the Checkpoint Charlie museum and did get quite emotional reading all the stories but not as much as at the Jewish museum which really, really upset me as you can imagine ). Feeling quite tonight though as the old family dynamics reared their ugle head and long story short, me and my middle sister came to blows - again. Honestly you would think we were 15/12 not 41/38. I am normally a very calm, laid back person who actually chairs mediation meetings at work cause I rarely flap but my sister just pushes all my buttoms and bang, I'm 12 again lost for words and end up losing my temper. Don't want to bore you all with the details but it tainted the weekend and I feel really for my lovely Mum and at me and my sisters for being so bloody petty.

Was lovely to get home to my calming DH and joyful DS but its left a cloud that will take a few days to shift...

Oh well, off to bed I 'heart' my own bed .

Just another quick sneak on before bed! Thanks so much girls can't tell you what it means to me to know you are all rooting for me

Neeko your philosophising was beautiful..I really hope your future lo will know just how much their lovely Mummy fought for them.

Will post properly later, but thought I would share something happy

Had a flash on Sunday - one of those moments when I realised something that I'd known subconciously for ages. Sometime over the next 12 months I'm going to fall pg again, and this time it will stick. I can't explain why I'm so sure, but suddenly I have total confidence that I'll be watching the next Olympics with a babby on my lap.

Suddenly I'm not stressing about TTCing, not worried about whether I get a BFP this month, next month or next year because it's going to happen. And not worried about another MC because it wont happen again. Feel like I have finally got my balance back :D I am probably now officially insane, but too happy to care. If the next one does stick I will go into business as a psychic

Even thinking that actually a BFN this month wouldn't be so bad, British cheese festival at the end of the month - 300 types of cheese and a CAMRA beer tent so not a good place to be pg :D

sending happy vibes everyone's way, will chat to you soon

Hmm quiet on here today! Just popped my head round the door after morning of meetings..!

Hey Hoping that dont sound insane, it sounds healthy, inspiring & wonderful! Im so glad you are feeling so positive. I honestly believe that positive thinking is half the battle in anything. I had a big grin reading that & I feel much the same.. My major meltdown last week inspired the same realisation, it IS going to happen! After the last mc all me & DH kept saying was 'we WILL get there, we'll keep trying till we do'. Im back in that mindset - dont know when, but it will. No pressure, BFNs used to be a case of 'oh well, not ready yet' & slight sense of relief cos with BFP comes the anxiety! Anyway this time round with BFP comes treatment that will make it work, so whenever that BFP comes, a new mindset will come with it . Until then BFN is not gonna equal doom as it has the last 3/4 months, gonna remember 'oh well not ready yet'.. Thinking, be nice to be pg again by xmas, which takes lots of pressure off instead of 'next month its GOT to happen'. Small steps as Vjay said...

Big waves & hugs to the rest of you! xxxx

Power of positive thinking today I'm not quite there yet - keep wishing for positive dreams / a sign and always imagine a sticky bean when I am meditating after my pilates class - it hasn't worked yet though !

Am only popping in quickly as I suspect my colleague has rumbled my excessive internet usage - he is at lunch at the mo

After thinking EWCM yesterday was maybe a one-off or not really proper EWCM (as I sometimes get confused !), I think I have ov pains now . A busy evening ahead perhaps

You will get there Jools my lovely, small steps.. pigeon ones if neccesary Wishing you a succesful night of BD! Iv never been able to work out my ewcm but mostly feel that ov pain! Hope you are feeling a bit less rocky - the offer is always there if you just need to spill it all out hon... xx

Am feeling AF pain tho not here yet? Was gonna update list as cycle now 31d but will wait til actually here! Just went & brought bumper packs of tampax & always (so heavy I now use both ). Stocking up, im really cool that I may need them for a few months still, how very refreshing this is!

Hi girls,

I didn't mean to leave it so long again, but my laptop died last week and have had to resort to sneaking on DPs when I can to get internet fix! Am up and running again though so am feeling a little less like my legs have been cut off

Was really worried I may have missed an announcement from Vjay, but nothing yet? Have all my fingers and toes crossed for a wonderful birth experience for you - and desperate to hear some encouraging news that it is much easier second time around!

mermaid you gave me a great laugh with your declaration of going commando! It was a beautiful scene you painted of your completeness at the beach, but the thought of you viewing it whilst shucking off your pants was priceless.

Huge congratulations to MLS on your news, sending you many sticky thoughts.

blue sorry to hear of your bust up with your sister - I bet the old pg hormones had more than a hand in that. Glad you had a nice (if emotional time) in Berlin.

Neeko, loved your armchair philosophy. Best of luck with the booking in too. Although this seems to have been the longest pregnancy ever oddly enough my booking in feels like yesterday - so it won't be long for you too I hope.

There have been a few ups and downs on the thread in the last week, but you ladies are nothing but amazing in your love and support for each other, it's so cheering to see and one main thing that keeps me coming back to this thread. Everyone is at such different stages, but we all have a small hidden space inside us that ties us all together - and you ladies seem determined to fill that space with love and support and laughter. It's just so lovely .

Am feeling incredibly uncomfortable and fat at the moment. Fidget is bashing away at my ribs at all hours (at least he/she/it is head down now). Midwives have signed me off for home birth and might even be dropping some of the kit off next week - eeeek! Have been nesting like mad - got the carrycot and baby clothes out of the attic over weekend so I can wash and air them. Have even started packing a hospital bag (just in case). Knowing my luck this one will be reluctant to emerge and I may have another 6 weeks to go . Sabs, hope you are not feeling this uncomfortable - scary time though eh!

Love to all I have missed, hope each of your journeys finds a smooth path.

hi girs,

Phew so many big long post...lovely to see everyone very positive, even webble is upright! by the way 4ever i have been searching for a weeble, i just want something i can remember all of you lovely ladies by and a weeble seems very apt! if when i have this baby it will take pride of place in the nursery...so far no luck, but i have my mum coming from england in 4 weeks so she is on the look out for one, although she was a bit when i asked for one.

lion nice to see you again, and nope you havent missed anything from vjay....the lady is keeping us all waiting, the champagne is going to be very very cold by the time she pops!

I cant reply to each of you, because everything has already been said and i dont want to just repeat it for repeating sake...im just so [happy] that everyone is cheerful and positive....long may it continue.

Nothing to report here, slowly peeling off the chicken suit, im sure by next thurday it will be off completely and i can shift my fat butt into the bigger pants it needs

Dh is away for tonight, ive been to the gym, going to wash the barbiemobile in a minute and then do the washing. Dubai is very weird at the moment due to ramadan, feels like the life has been sucked out of the place, the rising temp and humidity isnt helping...oh to see some rain

mls if you are pregnant you dont have to fast during ramadan, or if you are on your period. You are excused from not drinking/eating in public as well but most dont in order not to offend anyone. Its hard though, i drink loads due to the heat and to stop the sickness but i have to hide in the staff kitchen at work to do so, so im constantly in and out of there. Just been to the gym and drinking is banned full stop totally unhealthy i would think....even i wasnt allowed to drink.

Sounds like a right royal pain Barbie and VERY unhealthy

Right, I'm shamelessly picking the brains of any Emmsys Angels that are familiar with Cornwall

DP, some friends and I are off to Padstow for the first weekend in November - my 40th birthday treat is going to be dinner at Rick Stein's restaurant . We've got the train more or less sorted - advance tickets have gone on sale for £22.50 each way - bargain ! I haven't yet sorted out accommodation - would like somewhere in the centre as we won't have transport. 3 nights in a nice, clean, friendly B&B that do a good breakfast - just looking for recommendations really and hoping someone on here might have some ideas ?? Thanks !

ill help you jools....love padstow, fab choice....mermaid is also from that neck of the woods so it might be worth texting her too?

try one of these

Just called my mum to find out the name of a fab b&b we used to stay in, but its too far from the centre....im sure any in padstow will be nice, its so cute there its hard not to be

Hello, no news I'm sorry, optimus is far too comfy . Saw the midwife, she's is lovely, she's booked me in for a sweep on Monday, and is getting in touch with the consultant to see if I can be induced early, hopefully next week sometime, this is ofcourse if optimus doesn't arrive first. I just want to avoid what happened with ds's birth. Other than that, baby optimus is fine, I'm fine just tired, and getting excited

blue glad you've had a nice holiday, are you back to work now?

Hi all. Glad my philosophy went down well. Been feeling a bit about it all day.

Blue sorry to hear that family grief got in the way of a lovely holiday. Siblings have a way of being able to push each other's buttons like no one else can. Try not to worry about your mum too much. She dealt with it when you were 12 so she can deal with it now and mums are very forgiving.

Hoping and 4ever hope the zen like feelings last. Well done to both of you.

Jools Hope you're wearing a satisfied smile right now

Barbie sounds unhealthy to me. Good luck on the weeble hunt. Damn the buggers who shut down Woolworths. They sold weebles. I'd be interested to know what things you have to remind you of the rest of us.

Vjay sounds like next wek at the latest. so excited for you.

Lion you'll need to come back on and tell us all about the home birth after the event. Hope you're not uncomfy for too long.

Hi to everyone else, especially my partner-in-crime.

Went to midwife today. Wasn't the usual practice midwife who is actually a bit scary but a lovely different one. She said "How are you feeling?" and I burst into tears I think it was just being back in that room as the last time was for my last booking in and it reminded me how carefree and happy I'd been (a feeling I'll never have again in pregnancy ) Midwife was lovely though and kept me there for over an hour as she had no other appointments. That was supposed to be my happy experience this week so I think I might need shares in Kleenex for tomorrow and Friday!

Hello ladies

Vjay.... come on girl we are all waiting!! Should I send round a vindaloo or a pineapple? Keep bouncing on that ball - if all else fails you could always bounce on the pineapple!

Blue sisters always bring out the worst in us & whenever I go home I always revert back to a monosyllabic moody teenager! I hope you're feeling a bit better about things now.

Lion you brave lady with the home birth - good luck! BTW I've heard that you get a sieve with the birthing pool!

Jools hope mission seduction worked tonight GO JOOLS GO GO GO!

Barbie I've looked on good 'ole Ebay & there are hundreds of weebles on there. Also there are Weebles cd's called 'Welcome to Weebleville'! I reckon that is where our greenhouse situated is only sometimes some of us need to take a short holiday in Normalsville but we all come back to Weebleville eventually!!

4ever..... ahem 31 days, when did you last do an hpt?? With my dd I had TERRIBLE af pains for a week until I realised af was late, did a test & had a bfp.

Hoping good to hear about your flash on Sunday. It's kind of what happened when I was at the hospital last month after I'd been told I'd had a mmc. The lovely doctor said WHEN I next get a bfp to call her, not 'if' but 'when'. It really made me relax about the whole thing & realise that yes, it was going to happen.

Mermaid how are you doing? Feeling a bit draughty with no knickers yet?

Neeko how about you going 2 weeks overdue & I'll drop 2 weeks early & then we can keep saving each other for the next 8 months right until the end??!

I tentatively joined the April antenatal thread & there is a lady on there who is 41 who's just found out she is pregnant & her dp is keen for her to not continue with the pregnancy. It's quite a shock after being on this thread where we are all so desperate for a baby. I want to beg & plead with her not to anything rash & I've told her that if she makes the wrong decision she will regret it for the rest of her life. It's all so desperately sad.

Morning!
Quick lurk on the way to work. Vjay's due date today!

urrrggghhhhh....morning sickness back with a venganc seems be that everything i eat gives me indigestion as well...also the heart palputions are getting worse, seems to be whenever i get a little bit hotter. Docs next week so will mention it all to her then.
On the plus side im 15 weeks tomorrow or as i prefer to say ill be into my 16th week

come on vjay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Morning lovely ladies! Quick lurk for me too!

Waves to Gracie xx

Barbie loving the weeble in the nursery! You could call it Emmsy in honour of us all! Not good re lack of drinking at gym?! gym?!? Hope you're taking it v easy lady?!

Vjay long soak in the bath, followed by a curry followed by a pineapple! My SIL ate pineapples every day for a week & my niece was born bang on her edd! We could all hum mantras 'come out optimus come out'

No MLS! Nice thought but as said, my cycle is 31 days now, already done 3hpts over prev wk (hence meltdown) & sure enough AF arrived yesterday. Ouch!

Neeko glad you got MLS to bounce off hon! Your philosophising yest was indeed lovely, we were all on a bit of a deep one werent we?!

Hows the lovely Jools today? Hope your all post coital (sp?) have image of you puffing on a pretend fag with wild hair & your knickers hanging off the light!!

Blue Berlin sounded lovely but emotional! Sisters eh? Iv had some battles with mine! She is 21yrs older than me - 55! (mums 1st marriage, then mum met my dad & had me at 41, dad was 23! Wah hey Mrs Robinson!

Hoping - hoping we are still sharing the same zen karma of yesterday for today and forever onwards!

Lion how exciting & scary to be planning a home birth!

Right be back with a list update & then crack on with work. I told work on monday I didnt wanna transfer to oth office in oct. May mean I have to change the job I love & face poss redundancy next year, but honestly, not commuting makes it worth it & not having to try & get pg as 'reason' to get out of it has got to be alot healthier! Now getting pg is just for us, not for work/treatment etc & pressure being removed feels bloody amazingly wonderful!

Here we go! Missing the lovely Mermaidnopants! Hope you are enjoying last bit of school hols my lovely? Is DS in school yet? xx

Small pants

gingermumi ttc#4 cd 28
cupcake ttc#1 cd 17
bakingqueen ttc#1 cd 9
iggypiggy ttc#1 cd 9
Jools ttc#1 cd 9
4ever ttc#1 cd 2
Bluemoon
Sophable

Medium pants

MLS BFP 18th August
MrsKate BFP 26th July
Neeko BFP 19th July
becks BFP 8th June
Barbie BFP 6th June

Big pants

VJaybigpants due 26/08/09
Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09
Anniebigpants due 1/12/09
Buddhabelly due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 25/12/09
Scorpio due 25/12/09
mm1509 due 5/1/10
GracieGirl due 06/02/10
Curly due 07/02/10