Hi ladies, remember me (mm chaps at the door), not posted for a while but still here lurking.
4ever so sad reading what you are going through right now, it's frustrating that life is so cruel at times, but always remember you are not alone and we do all know the feelings that you are experiencing now. When you said about your lo could have been having it's first birthday soon it really hit home to me, the first lo I lost would have been 1 last week and it's hit harder than I thought it would. I guess it's a reminder how long our journeys have been. I like to think that all of this will just make us love our lo's even more when they do arrive and you and your DH will just make the best parents ever..........keep hanging in there, you are much stronger than you think.
iggy it made me a bit sad reading how you feel about us preg ladies but I totally understand why you feel the way you do. I had to take time out from the thread when we were taking a break from ttc and everyone was taking about what CD they were on. Maybe like mermaid suggested another thread to run alongside this would be good, whatever you decide all the lovely ladies will still be here whenever you need them.
mermaid you sound such a brave lady and I am glad you are now in a good place. It sounds such a big decision to not ttc but sometimes these decisions just happen naturally and we almost come full circle. You sound very much at peace with life now, just so glad you are not leaving us.
jools so sorry you got AF this month, I so hope you have a happy ending because you will make such a brilliant mum. I can see why you would think about putting a timescale on ttc but there is no rush to make any decisions, if it helps take a little time out to find the old jools. I always remember your kind words before I was preg and you deserve this so much.
MLS wow fantastic news, sending you sticky vibes your way, you take care now.
neeko haven't been on yet to say but so glad the scan went well, let's keep the good news coming.
emmsy thank you so much for posting on our thread, we all need reminders and inspiration to get through those dark days. By the way I agree with the others it does feel like we have been visited by a celeb, take care.
barbie mmnn so still in small pants...........they must be feeling rather tight by now, only joking you move when you feel comfy my lovely, won't be long till your midwife appointment now.
curly hope the holiday went well, liking the big pants. Sorry you are still puking away but if it's any consolation I am too, was at the docs on Mon and she says there is a good chance I will have it all the way through now, the meds are helping, don't care though everytime I feel this lo move it's more than worth it.
vjay no news yet, oh this stage is horrible you just want to get it over with, fingers crossed not too much longer for our first graduate.
moon so sad reading your posts, it is heartbreaking and we all understand, your poem brought quite a lot of tears to my eyes, it was beautiful. The dark days are so hard and I wouldn't have got through them without the ladies on here, hang in there it does get easier.
blue your facial got me thinking it's time for a pampering session over here, thank you for you text, will reply after this.
Big hellos to buddha, sabs, cupcake, hoping, gg, mrskate, annie, baking and anyone I have missed.
Well highs and lows here, major high last week with my scan, it was wonderful and I think I finally let myself fall in love with my baby in that room. No idea on the flavour although DH really wants to find out, I would rather wait and have a surprise. Three days after that was my first anniversary of the EDD of the first lo I lost. Didn't think I would feel so bad by now but I don't know if it was the emotions of the scan or horrormones (probably both) but it hit home hard. I keep feeling so guilty that when I got my BFP that time I kept thinking the timing wasn't ideal as I was due the same time that DD started school. It's almost as if I wished it away. I feel guilty rambling on about this when I read what some of the other girls are going through but I don't really want to speak to anyone in RL about this, I feel the view would be it's so long ago and your preg again so get over it.
Anyway thrown myself into some projects in the house that we want to get done before our lo arrives so keeping busy helps. Got to go now, shopping trip to the B&Q now, need to come up with ideas for the baby's room.
Take care everyone mm xxx