Emmsys Onwards & Upwards part VII - hand-holders and hair-strokers welcome!

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Shiny new thread for us

The race is on for the first BFP!

Good morning, sorry I've been awol, but I'm still quite poorly . I saw the midwife yesterday and baby is fine so that's the main thing. Sent off some more samples so will get results back in a week , but I hope I've had baby by then .

Had a quick scan through the posts, and sabs and neeko glad you both had positive scans

barbie stay away from your lovely dh

Got to go but will try and keep up xx

vjay sorry to still feel crappy but good that its nearly all over for you now...but boy (cuse the pun) is he keeping you waiting!

Im staying far away from hubby, went to bed at 8.30 last night totally knackered and he slept in the spare room...

Having a lovely day in work today, just had a facial which is normally over 100 pounds and just had eyebrows tinted and threaded, hair booked for sunday, going darker. I will be a yummy mummy yet
Its rude not to let the girls practice on me, dont you think????

neeko yes we have a next here, thanks for the recommendation, unfortuantly they do not do mat clothes. However i found a cute london based store called blooming and found a perfect dress in the sale reduced from 120 to about 30 quid....bargin. Although i do feel a bit of a fraud wearing it, because its quite floaty to cover bump you cant really see the bump and there for it just looks big!!!

jools honey i hope you are ok, relax and enjoy the hotel room, glad you had a good sleep, not that im stalking your updates on fb or anything

hi to everyone else xx

vjay poor you for feeling so yuk when you are meant to be blooming and moving wardrobes around single handedly cos you suddenly just have to. Great news that all is well with that cheeky little chap though Really hope you feel a bit better this week though your boys must be getting excited. We need your address by the way so we can send stork related products

sabs too, reckon you are going to have a little wopper there

neekotheknackered where did your holiday go? whooosh! poor you, rest lots.x

barbie threaded eyebrows always wanted that done. Sorry dh is still poorly.

jools shucks and double shucks. How are all your appointements and tests paning out cos I have forgotten I hope you are ok and still feeling okish today.xx

love to all, cucake hope the sun is coming out for you a little.

havn't heard from ginger for a while so hope you are ok lovely lady and mm too no doubt blooming away.xxx

mls hellooo

Right I'm going to try and catch up in some kinda order
annie Did you decide whether to go on your trip to Blackpool? Love the name Ellis btw Glad your scan went well
4ever Was really pleased to hear you can have your treatment when you get your BFP, I really hope it takes some of the pressure of for you. Love the weeble analogy With regards to the staring and broody thing, so been there too. My DH used to catch me just looking at a baby and I'd well up, he'd just give me a squeeze and try to distract me, but unfortunately you can't get away from the little blighters! Gorgeous pictures btw
Mermaid I love the way you sound so at peace with your decision to hang your hat up, and I shed a few tears. But as I said by email I'm hoping a BFP will sneak up on you now when you least expect it How much longer until the kitchen is done?
Cupcake Thinking of you honey
Sabs So pleased your placenta has moved, I hope mine does the same. Sorry to hear about your Grandad and the crappy grievance outcome, what a pile of pants!
Lionstar 33 weeks time flies! Lovely to hear from you, will look forward to your birth announcement
Gracie How are you hun?
MrsKate So glad your scan went well, how has it been back at work?
Neeko Hurray for your wonderful scan, so pleased all went well and you saw the HB, will keep everything crossed until the next one, although I am sure I don't need to
Iggy Lovely shoes Sorry to hear AF got you
Moon Sorry TEW got you too The poem you posted had me in floods of tears, very moving
Jools I was silently hoping for you this month, it is so hard not to get your hopes up, well impossible in fact. Hug coming your way
Blue Hope you have a lovely time in Berlin
curlybigpants Loving the new name I too still get m/s and I'm 23 weeks! Its pants isn't it? But at least mine is usually evenings so doesn't interfere too much
BakingQueen How are you feeling today this whole process is such an emotional journey, don't be hard on yourself, we have all been there in one way or another so please make sure you keep sharing
Barbie Is DH being a typical man? Is his flu worse than anyone elses? At least you have the perfect excuse for not running around after him
Vjay Sorry to hear you're not feeling well, I hope you get better very quickly before labour begins, you're gonna need all the energy you can get for that one

Not much to report from the Buddha household, RL has taken over somewhat so apologies for huge catch up. I hope I haven't missed anyone x

Hey Buddha nice to see you hon! Glad Im not alone in the mad staring then! Thanks for your nice words! Hope all is well and you are in full blooming stage now and enjoying it?! You so deserve to hon xx

Im at your pamperingathon Barbie! Sounds bliss! You'll def be a yummy mummy! We wanna see pics soon lady! BTW thanks to all for the comps on my dress - was £150 down to £45! Us girlys like a bargain dont we?!

Jools hon - boooooo hiss booooo... Really wanted it to be your time - hang in there girl - if you feel like you're returning to the slippery slope just shout OK? xx

Hope all is well in the world of Mermaid today? x

Anyway - list update, most of us small panters are avoiding the meticulous countdown like the plague at the mo - bloody good thing too I reckon! DH used to laugh that all our scan letters said; 'conception - spontaneous' ! Think us small panters need to return to that school of thought instead of military timed regiment act of biology! Nonetheless Im still updating, my cycle is getting well long so no comments or ideas please ladies! Last time this was done was the 12th so just dont want us losing track completely!

Small pants

MLS ttc#2 cd 28
4ever ttc#1 cd 25
gingermumi ttc#4 cd 21
cupcake ttc#1 CD 10
bakingqueen ttc#1 cd 22
iggypiggy ttc#1 cd 6
hoping ttc #1 cd 2
Jools ttc#1 cd 2
Mermaid ttc#2 cd ?
Bluemoon ttc ? cd ?
Sophable ttc#2 cd ?

Medium pants

MrsKate BFP 26th July
Neeko BFP 19th July
becks BFP 8th June
Barbie BFP 6th June
Curly BFP 4th June
GracieGirl BFP 30th May

Big pants

VJay bigpants due 26/08/09
Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09
Anniebigpants due 1/12/09
Buddhabelly due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 25/12/09
Scorpio due 25/12/09
mm1509 due 5/1/10

AGH - I need your advice girls - just got e-mail from ex manager inviting me to her leaving lunch on fri - she goes on mat. She is due 7th sept, I should be due 8th sept . TBH found it hard to even look at her or chat to her lately. Dont think I could take a lunch with half the office gushing about babies?! Dont want to seem rude though, she was manager when my dad died a couple of yrs back & was great. What to do? If I do go I know I'll feel shit & bitter about things... Also, shes been v awkward around me & hardly talks to me anymore, dunno if she just feels bad & dont know what to say... AGH?!

awww wobblyweeble 4 ever i would polietly decline stating you have a pre arranged appt, but send her a nice card or something. If she is such a good manager she will understand, and if not? who cares...by the time she gets off mat leave you should be planning yours! barbie is 4everhopeful for you!!!

Hi All

I hear there's a heatwave down in England, can you send it my way as its pouring with rain here - again?

Hi Buddha - lovely to hear from you . Done any pram shopping yet? It's great fun .

Barbie - I had a facial yesterday too . Had a full 'extraction' one so I am blackhead free and shiny. Only downside was it is too uncomfortable for me to lie on my back so had strange sideways s-shape position going on.

Vjay - this baby is taking his time! You must be getting to the scunnered stage waiting and not feeling well to boot. Really hope baby is here before your tests come back (a week - ).

Jools sorry AF got you .

Neeko - so so pleased is all went well yesterday . Lesley Reagan writes about how reassurance scans can aide a good outcome, something about the mother feeling 'looked after' which has an affect on her hormones . I know I would have completely fallen apart if I hadn't had my fortnightly ones, although the night before stress nearly did me in anyway...

Cupcake - I meant to say 'Hi' yesterday . Hope you're getting to a better place, CD 10 already, nearly time for action this month. I miss your warm posts...

Talking of which, MLS - hope you're OK too. You must be close to testing... Miss you loads too x

4ever - you're near the top of the CD tree...

We're off to price real wooden flooring for the hall plus paint for kitchen, I'm in full titivating nesting mode and DH is looking rather ashen. Ah, its only money...

Sorry 4ever x-post. I would decline, you have to look after yourself and she hasn't been very supportive to you... As barbie says, send her a nice card.

Thanks sweetie - Im a very wobblyweeble today... Think that is the best option & was my gut instinct. In fact DH & I already planned a trip to Hampton lido & a meal along the river on fri afternoon (part distraction!) so wouldnt be around for the gift giving bit. Just stomuch flipped when I saw the mail & worrying she will think Im just blowing her off & being bitter about it, Im not, I do wish her well, just crucifying me that its not me too... Card sounds good & will summon strength to try & gently chat to her to reassure her its not her its me! That old chestnut...!

*4ever weeble off to Hampton Lido send nice card.
As often discusssed here it is a weird and hard one as we are the unclean so to speak.
This taboo of mc seems so entrenched, so blinking sad. But chin up girl somehow we will wobble you to the finish linexx

blue my dh was more than ashen faced when I came home with the quote for my wood floor going to have to nail a bit on each foot for the effect instead. Glad you are ok and bustling along.x

hi all

Am not deserting you - but v.quick wave to all you lovelies xx

Have no news... am just gearing up for BD action in a week or so - but think will be away from DH at 'key' time so probably another dud month for me

Knock knock.... may I come in please?

Ooooo can I have this old upturned flowerpot to sit on? Phew its hot in here, is it the weather today or because you lot have been gassing so much?

I've missed you all lots (even though I've been quite a prolific lurker . There have been times when I've been dying to post but I needed to stay in Normalsville just a little longer to get my head together. My mc last month was still so raw & everything that everyone said reminded me of what I'd lost.

Anyway, this month I got the battleplan out in the loft again & the bd action was planned with even more military precision than usual. I'm on day 29 now & started spotting on Saturday, thought it was strange how my temp refused to dip. A certain someone who's name starts with Nee & ends in ko kept badgering me to do a test so yesterday I finally caved in......

I'm pregnant.

Now I am armed with a big bag-full of progesterone suppositories from the lovely doctor at epu that I saw last month. She is also going to scan me in three weeks. I'm not going to get carried away, not going to plan, or stare out of the window in wistful daydreams. I'm trying not to think of the three days of spotting I had as a bad omen - I'm just going to roll with it & whatever happens happens.

Right I'm off to catch up with the thread now. xxx

P.S. It's good to be back!

Mermaid - I think you asked about my MC results - well that was what sent me well and truly into meltdown - had the appt 4 weeks ago, just after 2 weeks of symptom spotting and being convinced I was PG, only to be faced with a very nasty and heavy AF.

The results were all clear, but I wasn't emotionally very stable that day and ended up in a puddle on the floor. When I explained that I was just crashing after being convinced I was PG that cycle, they got me to do another blood test that came back with slightly elevated HCG - can't remember the numbers, but apparently enough to indicate something had happened. So, I wasn't going nuts but had probably had another CP - a year almost to the day since the first one.

All that kind of sent me over the edge for a while - add in the extremely bad back, therefore inability to exercise and I ended up in a very dark place for a while

Think I'm going to have to put a time limit on this TTC business before it takes over too much of my life and stops me living it.

right, going to stop now before I start crying again as I'm supposed to be meeting colleagues in the bar and don't want red eyes ....

Jools I'm sorry to hear you've had such a shit time. There MUST be more tests they can do? Especially taking into account your elevated HGG last cycle.

MLS!!! I'm so pleased you're back! I missed you! And you've had a BFP too, welcome back to medium pants.

Jools would a hug help?

Just a thought girls, but Curly and Barbie do you think we ought to shove up to make room for MLS in the medium pants? maybe about time we moved ourselves into the Big Pants zone?

MLS if you're feeling brave enough to update the list to put yourself in Medium pants, I'll let you do the honours for me too if you like. My due date is 6th Feb.

Vjay How are you feeling my lovely?

4Ever I agree with everyone else, send a nice card and miss the lunch. My friend who shared my due date (3rd sept) gave birth 8 weeks prematurely so at least I can hide that week and not have to pretend to be really pleased for a friend who's doing what I should have been doing.

Waves to Buddha, iggy, Blue, Moon, mermaid, Cupcake, bakingqueen, Hoping

MLS, Curly won't be on Mumsnet till the weekend, but asked me to send you her love. x

GG thanks for the welcome. I hope I'll be staying in the medium pants list for a bit longer this time. I'll update the list when I find it. Hope your complicated few days have sorted themselves out now.

Blue jealous of your extraction today, I'm having a head massage & pedicure on Saturday which was a birthday present. Thanks for keeping in touch with me in rl. I'm with you on the perenium massage, it's definitely the way forward! I wouldn't get dh to do it though, eeeeiiiww!

4ever I agree with the others, why put yourself through that? Sometimes you have to be a little selfish in the name of self-preservation. You don't want any comments or suggestions re your cycle so I definitely won't suggest temping then!

Mermaid so glad to read that you have found yourself in a good place & you are willingly drawing back from the monthly hell that is ttc.

Cupcake I hope you are seeing some light at the end of the tunnel, the thread isn't the same without you.

Moon hope you are feeling stronger now that you are ttc again. I glanced at your poem but couldn't bring myself to read it as I don't intend to cry again for a very long time.... happy thoughts, happy thoughts...

Buddha can't believe you are 23 weeks already - time for some bump pics to the Emmsy's email address methinks.

Barbie you glamourpuss I bet you look fantastic. I had my eyebrows threaded for my wedding & I swear I looked like I'd had a face-lift. Also so pleased for your good scan (see how long I've been away for). One of my friends had placenta previa & she had some pretty major bleeds throughout but rest assured - apart from obviously being alarming they did her or the baby no harm & Oscar is now 22 months old.

Vjay sorry to hear you are poorly-sick. Being ill when you are heavily pregnant is the worst thing, you can't take anything for it, you can't get comfortable & all you want to do is lay in bed & be looked after. I thought you were in labour a week or so ago... what happened??

MrsKate glad your scan went well too, hope you are taking it easy at work.

Hoping hope the evil witch isn't being too unkind to you & hope she buggers off again too.

Sabs it sounds like you have a nice healthily sized baby in there. Glad everything is in the right place now.

Iggy I hope af has packed her bags & gone now & you won't see her for at least another 9 months. Remember this could be day 6 of your pregnancy.

Curly how is the puking now, still bad? You can pass some of that nausea my way, I really wouldn't mind you know!

Baking this is the first month on clomid isn't it? It has a very good success rate so there is absolutely no reason why it shouldn't work for you when you try it again the cycle after next. Hope the horrible hormonal meltdown has left you feeling cleansed rather than drained.

Neeko ahhhhhhh my lovely Neeko that puts the thumbscrews on me & makes me pee on sticks! I hope your sixth sense is correct. You are nearly 9 weeks now, are you getting a bump yet? A couple of my friends who have already had one child were in maternity wear by 11 weeks. Get thee down to Next woman!

Right I'm off now after my mammoth curly-esque post. Sorry if I've inadvertently missed anyone.

Oh one more thing, I wouldn't be MLS if I didn't regale you with something silly my dd said to me. I was naked & putting on my body lotion the other day & she was staring intently at my boobs, I asked her what was wrong & she reached out & said "Want to touch the owls"!

Small pants

4ever ttc#1 cd 25
gingermumi ttc#4 cd 21
cupcake ttc#1 CD 10
bakingqueen ttc#1 cd 22
iggypiggy ttc#1 cd 6
hoping ttc #1 cd 2
Jools ttc#1 cd 2
Mermaid ttc#2 cd ?
Bluemoon ttc ? cd ?
Sophable ttc#2 cd ?

Medium pants

MLS BFP 18th August
MrsKate BFP 26th July
Neeko BFP 19th July
becks BFP 8th June
Barbie BFP 6th June
Curly BFP 4th June
GracieGirl BFP 30th May

Big pants

VJay bigpants due 26/08/09
Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09
Anniebigpants due 1/12/09
Buddhabelly due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 25/12/09
Scorpio due 25/12/09
mm1509 due 5/1/10
GracieGirl 06/02/10

evening all

i am taking a little time out from mn, thought i was ok but really struggling again, feeling like such a failure and i cant think of anything but having a baby, its taken over my life so i need to somehow sort my head out. its too much having to listen to the 3 pg girls at work day in day out, i dont know how i manage that but i have to do something. sat here crying as i dont know what to do with myself. i will be back. until then look after yourselves xxx

Had to pop in to wish you all the very best in your quest to conceive! My last child took the longest to conceive for me, probably due to the fact I was knocking on a bit. I was 43 when I gave birth to my beautiful Amy!
I had 2 m/c inbetween my last child and Amy and also a lot of undiagnosed health problems! (mainly joint problems and some problems with my eye's) I wouldn't give up on my dream of 1 last child, and really wished for another daughter. I can't really explain my desire for 1 last child? I felt ashamed that I had already had childen but still craved just 1 last child before my child bearing days were over!?
I was told at one of my miscarriage scans that a Dr Ellard from Arrowe Park Hospital on the Wirral had done some research into his recurrent miscarriage ladies and that he decided to prescribe 5MG of Folic Acid instead of the standard 500mg that you buy over the counter. It has to be prescribed by your GP! I don't know if that helped me keep hold of my Amy, but I sure think it's worth a try!! I also took baby aspirin from the time I found out I was pregnant until I was 34 week's, but I can't really recommend this as there has not really been enough research on it.
Amy is 10 months old now, and a real dream!!!
Good luck Girls, Hang on in there!! XXX

mls hello missis! fab news on bfp....glad you are back here, we have all missed you! Been keeping a quiet eye on you a fb as you know but its nice you are back in our green house again.

gg im too scared to move into big pants just yet can i have just one more week squeezing my fours bums into medium pants??? pretty please??? the waiting between the 12 week scan and the 16 week midwife appt is driving me around the bend...some days i wake up and my stomach is just like pre bfp and i wonder how can there be anything in there when are you meant to feel flutters? i wish the little bean would just do something to signal he/ she is ok and happy in there. Wishful thinking on my part though. So i will change to big pants on the 9th of sept after my next appt.

jools i so want you to get your happy ending my heart is in my throat everytime i read one of your post. Like emmsy1 said though dont give up hope, maybe step back and enjoy life a bit more inbetween but never give up on your dreams.

weeble have you decided not to go? i hope so, the day out your hubby has planned sounds so much better anyway!

bluemoon i hope you find some answers in your time away from us, in the nicest of ways dont rush back, do as mermaid did and take time in discovering who you are again. live life to the fullest, dont dwell on what you dont have, but take time to appreciate what you do have. See you soon and heres a big hug to take with you.

mermaid threading really is the way forward...the first time i had it done i thought i would look and have no hairs left, its amazing how they do it, sadly there isnt many places in the westcountry which offers it.

neeko are you still sleeping

A big hello to the rest of you lovelys....not much news here, dh is feeling slightly better, the doctor thinks i might have anemia (sp?) been really tired again, im pale, and the heart palputions are happening more and more. I have to see how i get on this weekend and then go visit her if i still feel the same.

Oh and ramadam starts today/ tomorrow when ever they spot the moon...so no music, drinking/ eating, singing having fun for the expats here, although i have to say im really interested in it all and cant wait to see the difference it makes.

Emmsy wow I feel like we have been visited by a celebrity! Thanks for your inspirational story. I hope some of the lurkers, the dispirited & the scared witless (me) take heart from it.

Moon totally know where you are coming from. Go & get your head together & try & find a bit of 'normalness' whatever that may be. I hope you don't stay away too long.

Barbie when I was pregnant with dd I didn't start to get a bump until 14 weeks but it totally depends on the size & shape you were to begin with. As you are naturally slim it will probably be later than that. I started to feel the first flutterings (like little bubbles popping in my tummy) at 17 weeks but again that can vary from person to person.

Right off to start my day now - praying for some sun like yesterday.