Emmsys Onwards & Upwards part VII - hand-holders and hair-strokers welcome!

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Shiny new thread for us

The race is on for the first BFP!

Moon What a lovely thing for hime to say and yes we've turned out ok(ish)

Cupcake Monday will be day 13. I had a BFP on day 12 so plenty late enough. No shows unless you count emptying half the bath onto the carpet

Evening lovelies, hope everyone well.
Blue-So happy all was well with scan today, i was thinking of you , even though i didnt get chance to wish you well, fab bump pic too.

Thanks for all being lovely re my EDD on Sunday. We released a balloon, with a little note attached to my angel. I was suprisingly calm and didnt cry all day, DH was blubbing like a baby when we released the balloon, i think it was months of contained sadness released at once. So with cuddling DH, and trying to persuade DS that he wouldnt be carried away with the balloon into the sky, i didnt have time for tears [smile)

Thinking of you all, i,ll be back on some time tomorrow night after ive been to work.

Bloody hell you girls can really talk. It's taken me since 7am to catch up properly Prepare for the most MAMMOTHEST post ever!!

buddha I am really about your relative stalking you on MN. I hope that person is thoroughly ashamed of themselves because you deserve your privacy. I've had concerns about privacy myself and I think I know a good solution. I'll post more details when I get back from my hols Good to know you are still around anyway

4ever I loved your mammoth posts I feel for you with what you said about work. We didn't start seriously trying to ttc again till January, and this coincided with a period in work that was just mega-stressful and remained so until I got pregnant and read them the riot act. It feels like an endless cycle... you tolerate work because you want the stability if you get pregnant, but the stress doesn't exactly help ttc. I'm so sad that you have had such a rough time but I know that very soon you will get good news and it will be the lasting kind. This time everything will be different. You and dh sound wonderfully strong and deeply in love and those happy times you deserve are ahead It is great to know you are lurking not too far away because we miss our lovely 4ever.

moon hope you doing okay honey. Bless that lovely guy at work, I could give him a massive hug for being so sweet to you. It makes me feel better that you have people looking out for you at work and your lovely dp as well. Don't worry that sweet sexy girl will be back, and once battle commences next month with ttc, you will have something positive (and fun) to focus on

hoping hope you are enjoying your craft room. I can't help picturing an assembly line popping out emmsys hats. You've inspired me to join my local stitch n bitch group though I think it will be sometime before I get anything recognisable knitted . I'll be thinking of you and your #1 lost angel next week xxx

sabs how are you doing honey?

Big YAYYYYYYYYYY for seeing mermaid back, we missed you xxx

blue still laughing about your penchant for maternity porn I've read the midwife's pack from end to end but am still too afraid to buy a proper book Hope you were okay this weekend. I was thinking about you and annie xxx are you okay, shingles sounds really sore

annie big hug for you too. Your sweet ds really made me smile

barbie are you 12 weeks tomorrow? We will have to venture into big pants at some point (curly is such a coward ) but these medium pants are so comfy still! I totally understand what you are saying about starting another thread - I think we all hold back on this thread sometimes to be sensitive to others and feel guilty when we post what we know would have made us a bit before. But having said all that I couldn't bear to risk this amazing bond that we have all built up and I know that I will be on this thread until every single person is up the duff which I know will happen Still laughing about your orange puke what are you eating girl??

cupcake you made me cry talking about explaining to your little one about why they got the emmsys hat I hope that you can incorporate something about MC in your writing. You do have a lovely way with words Do you think DH could make me some watercress soup too - sounds yummy

ginger sorry AF arrived. Hope it meant day 1 of your pregnancy though

MM I'm afraid my tears continued when I read your lovely post. Having been there for almost the last year on this thread with you, I smile everytime I think of how much things have changed for you. All that was hopeless is now not

Neeko how is the ms? I have scientifically calculated that tyou are 6 weeks and 1 day today (keeping very careful track now to avoid stealing days off you again). When I get back from my hols you will be 7 and a half weeks. I bet time is crawling for you now but it will speed up Sorry to hear about your meltdown last week but it's a good sign that hormone levels are high And no, I am not going naked on holiday, though I have got a lovely new bikini that somehow (barely) manages to hold in my new enhanced boobs

gracie how is work going honey? Did you get the dining room done?

mrskate how is the pain? Try not to worry honey, we all had varying degrees of discomfort / pain in the first few weeks and I get that mad thirst thing every night as well xxx

baking how did the rescan go?

vj hope it's going well with the in-laws Well done for finally packing that bag

iggy best time to ttc after a positive line is supposed to be 24-48 hours after so you are still in this month fingers crossed for you honey xxx

Missing you jools come back soon

big waves to anyone I've missed. I'm off on me hols. Pls can someone text if there are any bfps

Have a lovely lovely holiday Curly! Ooooh when you come back you will be 14.5 weeks!! and Vjay will be so close to having little Optimus Prime! exciting.

annie bless your dh! That made me a bit emotional reading about him blubbing at the balloon release. Hope it helped you both come to terms with it all.

Still no temp rise chez cupcake

morning all

just got back from docs ive got another week off but this doc wont give me a scan even tho the other doc said i could how annoying

Hi kate...glad you will still be resting. Prob best not to get a scan at this stage really though as chances are you wouldn't be able to see a heartbeat yet. And remember, bean doesn't need the scan

Yippeee that mermaid and curly are back

jools is back from her festival but i see from her fb page she is in agony because of her back again ill send her all our best wishes for a speedy recovery.

curly i cant keep up with you, you jetsetter! hope you have fun this next week...ill be 12 weeks on sat, scan on sunday to check everything is ok...shitting myself looking forward to seeing little wiggler again.

annie bless dh! i cried reading your post, balloon thing a fab idea, i got mine from clinton last time. Im glad you can buy such things, it had a space to write a message on the tag.

vjay have you instructed dh to come back and post for you in case you go into labour? my dh knows where to find you should he need you all!

mrskate at your doctor however take it as a good sign that he isnt worried enough to refer you so you shouldnt be either. Enjoy your next week off, although i did find that my week off was the longest of this pregnancy so far...and i ended up getting so bored i googled and scared myself to death!

neeko calms??? oh my dear god! (barbie writes mental note to herself to remember that trick for future reference ) my family were the complete opposite, they would wake us up! my dad would always dress up and do something silly, the poor man got so excited every year he would be noisy on purpose to get us awake!

cupcake symptoms sound promising

Hi to everyone else, just back from work and need to eat. Worked so much today i couldnt even have my break, ill be back later to finish post xxx

Hi gals,

I'm working from home today as my shingles are v. v nippy so I'm topless at my keyboard covered in calamine lotion letting them air, I'm a vision for sure .

cupcake - ooooh, I had/still HAVE a raging thirst. Looking goooood.

Barbie - tsk, tsk you should not be going without food, nails can wait but babybarbie needs fed!

Neeko - lol at your Mum giving you Calms. You could report her to the social! How's the ms today?

Annie - your balloon ceremony sounded just lovely and really nice it let your DH express his pent up feelings like that. Hope you walked back patting your bump and smiling .

I got a lovely message on FB from MLS last night, really hope she's back here soon.

Hi all. Dashing in for a quick post.
Blue ow, ow ow! Hope you're better soon.

Barbie Eat, eat, eat!

Cupcake Have you tried changing the battery? ap[ologies for stating the obvious. Either that or your body is enjoying all the BD and doesn't want to stop For reassurance my temp stuck at 98.2ish with my BFP which was lower than previous months before AF and remember no two pregnancies are the same.

Curly Happy hols. Wow them all in that bikini.

annie what a lovely DH you have.

Only felt queasy today so a bit better. Off out for dinner tonight. I'll be 40stone come March
Catch up tomorrow. Love to all.

Hi everyone

Sorry to go awol - major league meltdown that is still kind of ongoing. I thought I might come back this week, having had a few days away to rediscover the real Jools, but obsession and depression returned as soon as I logged on again.

Sooooo, all I've done on this thread is check the last list to establish that all the medium and big pants are still present and correct (congrats Kate ). Apologies for not catching up individually - will make up for it soon. I've missed you all, but just don't want to get sucked in to complete TTC madness again - I sort of lost my way and my identity for a while.

I will now disappear off again to obsess wait out this 2WW without turning into the mad woman who lives on mumsnet and logs every twinge into Fertility Friend.

Lots of love to you all. I will return properly when I'm feeling a bit better about life, the universe etc. x x x

today is not a good day, i woke to find blood, lots and red now going to race around dubai scan, my doctor is off today....why oh why cant life ever be easy for any of us

oh Barbie!! I'm sorry you're having a rubbish time. I have everything crossed that its all ok with your Bean.
I'm just running out the door to work, please please can anyone near a mobile phone update me when Barbie's had a scan. I don't think I can concentrate on work knowing Barbie's having such a bad day.

I will try and post properly tonight after work, i'm just really tired now I'm back at work, I'm always lurking but often asleep before I reply to anything!

Oh barbie hope everything's ok....Will be thinking of you...

Gracie will try my best to text you if we get any news on here...

Barbie Oh god I bet you are beside yourself, really hope you can get a scan sorted asap. Will keep lurking all day to check on you chick. Sending you calming thoughts, hope you are not in any pain
PMA x

barbie really hope you can get in for a scan this morning. Thinking of you loads x will be checking back.

neeko lol, no it's not a battery issue... and sorry for confusion, I didn't mean the rise for ovulation- I've had that (the bd fest has ended for now!) was just expecting it to go up again around now if I was pg. But that does reassure me that yours was lower around your BFP. Glad you felt slightly better yesterday

Hi jools we totally understand needing to clear your head a bit and stuff but thanks for checking in! Hope this 2ww passes quickly.

Gracie hope work aren't tiring you out too much! Are you getting a bump yet?

blue hope the pain is less today.. you did make me laugh with the image of you 'airing' at your computer!

iggy how are you feeling? Hope you're being nicely distracted by the court cases! Read any more good books?

becks and buddha only one more sleep for you both til your scans thinking of you.

Oh barbie will so be thinking of you today. I hope everything is ok xx

cupcake I am getting distracted by books and cases which is good! I have TTTW and one called man gone down by michael Thomas - both on the go! But did have strange ttc dream last night which involved opks and lots of people testing... How are you? Still thirsty? That was def one of my symptoms! But am sure you trying not to build hopes up... I have everything crossed it is your month!

Jools I can completely understand meltdown etc. Hope you get a chance to chill and not obsess for a while, I totally need to do the same! Glad you posted and hope to see you back whenever you want to be. X

Neeko how are you?

curly hope you feeling less sick?

vjay are you getting impatient?

mermaid hope you now not being rained on!

4ever hope you chilling out and enjoying yourself x

Hoping how are you feeling? I hope more happy?

buddha so awful about your relative. Hope you ok

Bakingqueen any news from you?

gg how is the office job?

mrskate how are you feeling?

mls hope to see you back here soon x

bet I have forgotten people, so hello to you all!

I bet I have forgotten people

I haven't

Oops... Messed that up a bit!

Also annie hello!

And moon how are you? Enjoying lots of dog walks I hope!

Hi iggy...I saw the trailer for TTTW a couple of days ago and it brought a tear to my eye so who knows what the actual film might do to me!!
The thirst has kind of gone and you're right, I am trying not to build hopes up...but it's not really working
to your dream! We can't even escape in sleep!

blue sorry! Didn't mean to miss you off! Shingles is horrible, my mum had it last year. So painful... Hope you feel better soon x

I have no news girls... Just the usual hope that I might not have missed the boat this month coupled with the feeling that I probably have...

just shows what level my obsessing is getting to! Tormenting my sleep too!

I haven't got far in TTTW, but am liking it! Film is out soon isn't it?

hi all

im not feeling to bad today iggy thanx just tired and very very bloated.

barbie oohh no i hope you have got your scan thinking of you lots and lots xxxxxxxxx

Hello all sorry not been around for last few days been busy with work, major flood in new house and general clomid induced hormone breakdown in which I had full scale crying fit at dh last night. Had scan on Monday follicle 2 mm too small went on Tuesday had injection to stimulate ovulation told to bd mon, tues, wed, thurs then every other day. Lost it with dh last night as he has gastroenteritus and I told him that it was inconveient that he had done it deliberatly and I had had to have a huge injection in my bottom and he did not care. Think he thought I was losing my mind - in the cold light of day think I was! Even cried at Toms Midnight Garden on TV the other day whats that all about?
Hope your all well back later will try and catch up then x

Oh no sorry just had quick skim and seen Barbie's news. Got my fingers crossed for you and thinking of you hope you get youjr scan x

Hi girls im here

So sorry for making you all worried. As you can imagen i was beside myself and couldnt get hold of anyone. The blood was more than my normal period before any of this crap even started so i panicked. The doctors didnt answer my calls so i got in the car and drove break neck speed across dubai in the vain hope that if i turned up they would see me To cut a very long story short, they must of seen the state i was in cos i was rushed to a room and made to lie down, while pulse and temp was monitored. They picked up on heart pulputations and temp was high but i was cold. Worried them enough to squeeze me in between clients just as dh arrive from work. Had a scan and saw the baby, no movement...until the doctor pressed my belly and the little thing wiggled like mad (it was asleep!) All looks good apart from im in the 2% of ladies who placenta (sp?) seems to be in the wrong place? its touching my cervix and will cause more bleeding as i grow. The pains i have been having is due to a growth spurt...im 12 weeks today! The doctor says i have a small cervix and i will feel uncomfortable as the baby grows hence the back ache too! I have to have my proper 12 week scan on sunday and will be monitored weekly to check placenta...
Never have my emotions conflicted so much. Im not allowed to have sex or do any activties which can cause another bleed. So i have to rest for a week and then regular checks.
Im back in work now...only for an hour, and only for submitting reports. I will read the thread and get back to you all later but i just wanted to update.

Thanks for thinking about me xx

In order to lighten the thread up a bit after dramatic morning here is a quote from dh

Getting ready for swimming yesterday dh says

dh "barbie i think you need a new bikini"

me "why, this one is nice and ive only had it three months"

dh "yeah its nice but not on you"

me 'why?"

dh "the bottoms makes you look like you have 4 bums!!!!!"

He must of seen the look or horror on my face cos he said its ok, it all baby!

What, on my backside???? oh dear all this over eating has taken its toll

Least i can go shopping for a new one...and he is paying!