Why did I do it?
Do what I hear you ask.
Take a pregnancy test - a BFN.
Honestly, sometimes my stupidity amazes me. I mean what the hell did I think was going to happen. DH and I have only been trying 2 weeks, I have PCOS and I don't think I'm anywhere near due a period.
So again I ask why did I do it, especially as I'm now sitting here miserable, thinking it's never going to happen and almost ready to give up.
I'll tell you why I did it, because I'M CONVINCED I'M PREGNANT .
Why am I convinced, I don't really know considering it took us about 2-2 1/2 years to conceive last time, but the lower abdominal cramping might be a good place to start.
It's entirely possible I am pregnant, given that last time I knew as soon as I'd conceived. It might be that I tested wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too early.
This is not my fault. I want to be pregnant. I am doing everything I can to get pregnant including having sex every other day, taking metformin and prenatal vitamins, trying to follow a healthy diet and abstaining from caffiene. It is not my fault I have PCOS, it's not something I asked for. It is out of my hands that DS goes to nursery in November, I have to go back to work and even if by some miracle I did get pregnant the baby would not be born soon enough to stop DS going. Idealy another baby would have been conceived sooner to stop there being such an age gap, but that wasn't possible.
It is not my fault, I'm doing everything I can. It's just so bloody annoying.
On the plus side DS is taking a nap.