Issys girls.....10 down, only 4 to go! :-)

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So here it is... our shiney new thread... hope you all see it soon or i will be here all on my own.

irish thats brilliant news... im so so so happy. thats really made my day.

After the pains i had the other day. the gp assured me that it was ovulation pains and to bear with it. so i did and they have gone now!
i will be really peed off if i have my blood test next monday and they say that i didnt ovulate.

I have decided tho that this is prob gonna be my last month ttc. its hard enough when you arent in a hormone induce rage let alone on this horrible stuff. I just think that its not fair on anyone when im like this and this could go on indefinatly if the clomid isnt working.

i will miss you all so much. u all have become part of my everyday life and find myself tellin RL friends your woes and good news

its day 14 now and the ov pains have subsided. i wonder if its coz ive already ovulated???

Oh Bubble, don't go! I can't tell you not to give up ttc, as obviously that is your decision and I have no clue how difficult it is to be on Clomid. But maybe you are just having a bad day? Maybe you'll feel different tomorrow? Please still be our friend! (Sunnydale's needy child issues come to the fore). We are such a mixed bunch of people anyway - it's not like we're all pg, not by a long chalk. So you don't need to feel like the odd one out.

I guess Sif isn't coming back either.

I feel rubbish today. Maybe it's the weather. I suppose I mustn't have cried enough or whatever. I suppose I should have expected it. It just hit me that DD will be at school by the time I have another DC, so I won't even get to spend my maternity leave with her. This lost baby would have been due in Feb - perfect timing. 7 months off then she would have started school in Sept. I know you can't plan things but still, this realisation is painful to accept.

Also my DH never asks me how I'm feeling. I know he is devastated by the loss of his father, but I'm grieving too, and while it's not a competition or anything, I still feel a bit like I'm expected not to be sad, just because my baby wasn't an actual person. It's pretty miserable chez Sunnydale. We're trying to put a brave face on but we're both v distant from each other, rattling away on our respective keyboards in different rooms. I so hope DD isn't picking up on it. I couldn't bear it. It's not like we're arguing at all - it's just a tough time. And raining. I'm trying so hard to count my blessings but part of me just feels angry at what I lost and could have had.

Irish, any more symptoms?! Hope you had a nice relaxing Saturday since your drink was cancelled!

OH MY GOD!!!! How exciting Irish!!! Congratulations!!!!!! Can't post much as I'm in the middle of cooking a late supper... late because ds has been a bit of a cheeky monkey tonight... couldn't not post and say congrats.

I'm in work tomorrow so plenty of time for posting I'll do a proper catch up then....

Bubble don't go

Night night all xx

Morning girls!

thanks sunny and head

i dont feel too emotional. just fed up of this whole thing. we have been doin a modified version of the deannas plan but i cant help feelin that there is no point bdin if im not ovulating. still... dont know for sure that the clomid hasnt worked this month and i didnt bother with the opks so no way to tell til next week.

sunny i hope you feel happier soon. i know in these dark days its difficult to imagine ever feelin happy again. sending you

can we do a list again.. of the pg ladies.. id love to know your due dates and mile stones and i cant seem to remember everyones. surely some of u must be gettin close to the 20wk scan and finding out the sex!! [excited emotion]

my SIL has just had hers and she is having a lil boy. my poor mil is desperate for a grandaughter after 5 sons and 2 grandsons!

taking the dogs and the kids to the woods today. goin to try and keep them out the house as much as possible. the dreaded 6 week holidays are here.

Hello all!

bubble sorry its all getting to you, all the ovulation pain you got must be a good sign though and surly can't be for nothing!?

sunny sorry you are feeling so low, have you tried sitting down and telling your DH how you feel, i know he is going through his own stuff, but you are absolutely entitled to grieve as well, and this is clearly very upsetting to you, he should know how feel. Sorry as well about the realisation about your DD, its so hard not to start planning, I was so excited about a spring baby... and it would have worked perfectly with a big holiday we have planned for next year, but we both just need to try and put this to the back of our minds, pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and start again. It just wasn't meant to be, but I believe it will happen for both of us and when it does it will still be perfect!

Hi Ladies,

Sunny - I agree with girl that you should speak to your DH, you shouldn't have to go through this alone and he's probably dying to give you a big hug but doesn't know how to as is swamped by his own grief . Really felt for you and the age gap/timing. I was same as last pg was due start of this Aug which was great timing for DS starting his ante pre-school year and I would have been there to take him every day.. But its in the past and you will make new memories with new lo and think how excited your DD will be at having a little brother/sister and changing nappies etc. also gives her more time as the centre of your universe

Bubble - really hope you don't bow out lovely, I know it can be a scunner keeping on keeping on but give clomid a chance, you've only been taking it for one month and you have a duty to give your MIL a grand daughter - think of the brownie points .

girl - you're sounding very positive today. Hope your recovering and planning ahead...

Irish - still beaming for you and hope its sunk in by now

Head - looking forward to your long post later! did you get to hear the hb last week? What BPM was it. Any incling as to what you're having?

Have found list and updated where possible. Not sure of some EDD's (wasabi, Issy, sif and irish please amend!) I have moved mine back to my original EDD as there is no way I'm due one whole week ahead. My 20-week scan is in a fortnight but I don't want to know the flavour. They don't tell you up here anyway unless its obvious. I do think its a girl tho' .

TTC
Girlwithacurl TTC#1 MC Sep 08
Bubblebell TTC#3
Sunnydale TTC#2
Suzibhoy TTC#1

BFP
Wishing BFP 16/3/09 EDD ???
RipMacWinkle TTC#2 BFP 30/3/09 EDD ??
JumpingJellyFish TTC#3 BFP 31/3/09 EDD ??/9/09
Bluesatinsash TTC#2 MC Aug 08 MC Dec 08 BFP 14/4/09 EDD 25/12/09
HeadFairy - BFP 22/04/09 EDD 27/12/09
Issy TTC#1 MC Mar 08, CP Sep 09, IVF BFP 9/5/09 EDD ??/1/10
Sifuentes TTC#1 MMC Dec 08 BFP 11/5/09 EDD 15??/1/10
Wasabi TTC#2 MC Jan 09, BFP 25/5/09 EDD ??/1/10
Irishmumwannabe TTC # 1 ? BFP 17/7/09 EDD ??/3?/10

Morning all... (just sneaking in under the wire as it's five to midday!)

blue I did hear the heartbeat at my mw appt the other day, good and strong, but the little blighter was hiding behind my pubic bone and the mw was struggling to get a count, but it sounded slower than ds's to me, so perhaps it's a girl. No idea really though. Next scan is at 22 weeks on 24th August (right smack bang in the middle of my nights ) for me, and we are going to find out what flavour then.

bubble Glad you aren't too down, but sorry it's all so frustrating. I hope the clomid starts to work it's magic soon enough. Are you having tests to confirm you're not oving or is it just that you feel you aren't?

sunny you poor thing, I hope things are starting to pick up. Have you tried talking to your dh? Sorry, that sounds really obvious doesn't it? I'm sure you have. One thing I've learnt from my mcs is that time really does help. It won't stop you thinking about it, but it will make the pain less, so I hope you can hang in there.

As for the timing thing.... well it never really does work out in our favour, that's the cruellest lesson in life I think. I was really excited to be having dc2 before ds was 2 (my due date would have been June 15th just gone) but that was not to be. Then I got pg again and the due date was ds's birthday, which I thought was even cooler. Again, not to be. Now I'm due bang in the middle of Christmas, which for me isn't ideal, but what can you do?

You know what you will have though, when you do have your next baby, you'll be able to have the morning with your baby, snoozing, not getting dressed, chilling out, and you'll have afternoons with your dd who'll be all excited to come home and tell you what she's done at school that day. You'll be able to give both of your dcs their own time, and that's very special indeed.

Blue I'm very of your Springsteen/lie in double whammy. What a lovely time you had.

How's tricks wasabi issy?

girl I hope you're recovering well and you've been spoilt rotten the last few days.

Things are going well chez nous, I'm starting to get a bit panicky about how much we've got to do, but I'm doing my best impersonation of an ostrich This weekend I have to clear my beloved roof terrace of all our plants as they can't go in to storage, so we'll be up and down the stairs like a demon. Who needs stairmaster?

I'm really looking forward to moving in to my sisters... finally I won't have to haul ds up flights of stairs on our way back from the park (with promises of half an hour of Thomas on tv as a persuasive tool!), finally I'll be able to saunter up the road to ds's childminder... finally we'll be able to have a party and invite all our friends round

The last one's a joke of course, though we are going to have some friends over for dinner, but we'll avoid the temptation to trash the place (as if, we're all parents of young children and we're all approaching our 40s, we'll be in bed by 9pm!). I am very tempted to start potty training ds now though, he can pee on her carpets

Have a great day everyone xx

Thanks girls!

head ive had day 21 bloods taken over a few months and it seems i havnt ovulated since the mc earlier this year!!! Didnt ov with the 50mg clomid either..... lets hope the 100mg does the trick!

hope you all get what you want baby wise... i know the ideal is just to have a happy healthy baby but sometimes you cant help but prefer a girl or boy!!

I always wanted 3 boys and a girl... but DH said this is our last baby so would prob rather a girl just to try a different flavour i dunno... would be nice to get pg first LOL

blue thanks for the list i can look forward to your sexing scans now

Hi everyone,

Well the news from the peanut house is that I am officially 12 weeks today. Woohoo! And I have spent most of it feeling like shite so that tells me that all is probably well in there. I keep retching and have a feeling of total body tiredness for most of the day. I managed to snooze when DS was napping and then bless my lovely DH he came home early from work and managed to take DS out to feed the ducks and generally lark about while I got some more rest in. Tomorrow may be somewhat more difficult.

Have got my 12 week NHS scan on Wednesday but my midwife managed to find a heartbeat with her Doppler last Wednesday which was really lovely and reassuring to hear. She said it was good and strong so fingers crossed it stays that way.

Irish FABULOUS news about your BFP! I must admit I had looked at some of your symptoms and thought that it sounded positive. Congratulations to you and Mr Irish! You must both be over the moon.

SunnyI?m so sorry that the Sunny house is anything but sunny at the moment. It sounds like things are very difficult for you. I totally get your anger. After I miscarried I had it too ? this fury that it just wasn?t fair. Only time fades it I?m afraid. Try and stay communicating with your DH even if it sometimes takes the form of yelling. MY DH took the brunt of my feelings at times and it was hellishly difficult but eventually I managed to open up and explain why I was so angry. We got through it but its hard ? more so in your case because of your DH?s loss too.

Blue So glad you had a fab time seeing Bruce and spending some nice time with your DH. It must have been such a rough year for both of you and now you are back on the road to something good. Excellent stuff!

Girl How are you? Your last post was short but positive!

Bubble I?m so sorry to see that you are so down about ttc. I would be sad to see you go but respectful of any decision to stop ttc. I am hoping though that the upping of the clomid dose does the trick!
Head Glad all the preparations are going well. I know that when we move I am going to find it hair tearingly stressful (I am a total creature of routine and hate chaos!) but I will just have to lump it.

Hope everyone else is ok and managing to stay flu free.....

That's great news wasabi - I do think we should be issued with 'sanity intact - just' t-shirts on getting to 12-weeks Hope you get a lovely picture at your scan on Wed .

Big pat on the back for mrwasabi too for letting you rest - bless him .

Head - enjoy your sister's house, garden, everything!!! I feel your having a boy for some reason and I think wasabi is having a girl and sif a boy. Jumping I think is having a girl and Irish - still thinking about that one but erring towards a boy.

to all and Hi sif if you're lurking.

ooooh spooky blue Are you psychic? We should add those predictions to our stats list... I'm convinced it's a girl for me, but I'm almost always wrong on these things. I'll know in about 5 weeks when I have my next scan.

wasabi congrats on getting to 12 weeks... hope the nausea and exhaustion start fading soon!

Hi guys, hope you're all well.

Came home to two lovely pieces of mail - an evening invitation to a wedding being held at the castle we had ours at which we've not been back to since (you can only go if you hire it out/are invited to another wedding) and a letter stating I'm 'low risk' from my triple bloods . Fully expected to be high and maternal age alone was 1:137 for Downs but increased to 1:377 after bloods. Their cut off is 1:250 so am deemed low. Was 1:8338 for spina bifida. I know its not a guarantee but I'll take it for now.

to all x

That's great news Blue. We must have birthdays very close together because my baseline risk was 1:137 too. Will be lovely for you to go back to the castle too.

Sorry, too tired to write a proper post. Hope everyone's well. I have a free weekend this weekend so will try and catch up properly then.

TTC
Girlwithacurl TTC#1 MC Sep 08
Bubblebell TTC#3
Sunnydale TTC#2
Suzibhoy TTC#1

BFP
Wishing BFP 16/3/09 EDD ???
RipMacWinkle TTC#2 BFP 30/3/09 EDD ??
JumpingJellyFish TTC#3 BFP 31/3/09 EDD ??/9/09
Bluesatinsash TTC#2 MC Aug 08 MC Dec 08 BFP 14/4/09 EDD 25/12/09
HeadFairy - BFP 22/04/09 EDD 27/12/09
Issy TTC#1 MC Mar 08, CP Sep 09, IVF BFP 9/5/09 EDD 17/1/10
Sifuentes TTC#1 MMC Dec 08 BFP 11/5/09 EDD 15??/1/10
Wasabi TTC#2 MC Jan 09, BFP 25/5/09 EDD ??/1/10
Irishmumwannabe TTC # 1 ? BFP 17/7/09 EDD ??/3?/10

Hey all,

Have added my stats below after successful scan yesterday. Nuchal measured 1.9mm which is fine but obviously I have to wait for the blood test to come back. I get the feeling the baby was getting quite annoyed as it took ages to get nuchal measurement as it kept wriggling into the "wrong" position. I had to go for a wander and a drink then try again but the probe was actually quite sore as she was pressing really hard around my section scar and then around my hipbone. I told it that it would get some peace and quiet now - no more scans for a while. Maybe it is like its Mummy and like its own company!

Blue That's great news about your test results and also about the wedding invitation! I would LOVE to go to a wedding where we had ours (a vineyard/brewery - typical!) and I'm sure you feel the same. I am loving your gender predictions by the way! I shared them with Mr Wasabi and he was happy as he would quite like a girl this time round. I change my mind every 2 minutes so no idea at the moment. The sickness has really ramped up this morning which is exactly the pattern it followed with DS - hitting a horrid peak at between abotu 12 and 14 weeks. So, another boy for Wasabi?

Hi to everyone else - it's been quite quiet recently. Hope all is well.

TC
Girlwithacurl TTC#1 MC Sep 08
Bubblebell TTC#3
Sunnydale TTC#2
Suzibhoy TTC#1

BFP
Wishing BFP 16/3/09 EDD ???
RipMacWinkle TTC#2 BFP 30/3/09 EDD ??
JumpingJellyFish TTC#3 BFP 31/3/09 EDD ??/9/09
Bluesatinsash TTC#2 MC Aug 08 MC Dec 08 BFP 14/4/09 EDD 25/12/09
HeadFairy - BFP 22/04/09 EDD 27/12/09
Issy TTC#1 MC Mar 08, CP Sep 09, IVF BFP 9/5/09 EDD 17/1/10
Sifuentes TTC#1 MMC Dec 08 BFP 11/5/09 EDD 15??/1/10
Wasabi TTC#2 MC Jan 09, BFP 25/5/09 EDD 02/02/10
Irishmumwannabe TTC # 1 ? BFP 17/7/09 EDD ??/3?/10

Congrats wasabi on a successful scan and I don't blame baby for getting annoyed at all the poking! Nuchal results sound great too . V. at you getting married in a vineyard/brewery. We did the vineyard tour a few years ago in California and it was so beautfil, although I was drunk and everything looks gorgeous when you're three sheets to the wind .

Hi Issy - looking forward to your mega post at the weekend .

Hey everyone

just checking in to say hello - am so wrecked this week - hoping it's just work and not going ot be like this for the next 8 months - plus have hoirrible nausea every day.

Also the boobs are getting very sore and think will have to get a new fitting done...

Will write personals and more at the weekend when not in work.

cooeeee!!!!! have not been able to even lurk as silly boy at work has made threads inaccessible again. grrrr.

I will change my name tres shortly.
congrats to irish and wasabi. nice to see all going well. dp looking over shoulder - but will just quickly say im deu on12.1.09 and will be back indisguise soon i promise11
PS BUBBLE don't leave us!
xx sorry fr typos.

ps shhhh don't tell rl i was here.

Well I said I'd post at the weekend and am just about making it .
Head - How's the packing going? Not long until completion now. Do you have a completion date for the one you're moving into yet? I know what you mean about Christmas timing, January wouldn't have been my first choice either, but I've found some lovely Welsh names which mean snow, snowdrop, snow-white, so not so bad after all.
Sunny - Hope you're bearing up. Really feel for you at the moment. When do you have the chromosomal screening? at your manager.
Blue - Glad you had a great time with Bruce. Sorry for not reading back but what's the theory about heart rate and gender? I have to ask, what do you think I'm having? Curious to know if you think the same as my mum.
Wasabi - I'd really like some of your blueberry muffins. Have you moved yet? Sorry, can't remember where you're at with that. Well done on reaching the 12-week milestone, even better to be 13 tomorrow, end of the first trimester (well one of my books says it's at 13, the other says 14). Great news on your scan. My bean wouldn't stay still either, until the sonographer paused for me to see him/her moving then he/she froze - I think I have a cheeky one!
Girl - You're sounding very positive. I too have heard a few times of people getting pg from the ovary with no tube.
Sif - Sorry you've been 'outed'. Hope you can find a new disguise soon.
Irish - Has it sunk in yet? Sore boobs and feeling totally shattered are par for the course for a few weeks yet - in fact I still have them, but not to the same extent. So sorry about your work colleague. How's your niece's friend?
Bubble - So sorry you're feeling so disheartened. I know you have to make the decision for yourself, but you are so close to getting referred to a fertility clinic, can you not hold on a little longer? One you get scanned it will be so much easier to diagnose the problem. You may be growing perfectly good follicles but just not releasing them and an hcg shot would fix that easily.
Hi Suzi & JJF - how're you doing?

Can't believe it's been so long since I last wrote a proper post. Busy doing all those things I put off until I was 12 weeks; choosing a nursery, making a shortlist of names before my next scan (thought it would be more difficult to choose once I know the gender as you still need both in case they get it wrong), finding failing to find petite maternity clothes. Have had a shopping spree recently, despite supposedly saving for maternity leave. Already splashed out on new glasses & a new telephone (mine was beeping after only 20 mins - so annoying) and today got a new watch (catch had gone on my old one), 3 maternity tops and a new bra - all with 10% off in Debenhams - bargain! Then went online and ordered loads of maternity trousers from Next - I won't keep them all but they don't have them instore to try on. Have spent loads of time choosing baby names - have a preferred name for each gender now but both have several variations so just need to determine that and choose middle names.

Hi Issy - lovely to hear from you. You've been a busy bee bucking the credit crunch with all that shopping but why not! Sorry I missed you out of the gender predicition - I think you're having a girl . Heart rate old wives tale is anything above 140bpm = girl and anything under = boy.

I love choosing names too and have double to think of as we don't want to know sex at 20-week scan. I'm convinced I'm having a girl though so have been concentrating on girls names. My DS's name starts with a vowel so would like a name of the same so looking at all the A, E, I, O and U's!

Great to hear from you too Sif, come back soon OK?

Head and wasabi - hope your respective moves are going well and you can get into full nesting mode soon. I'm already off down that road as we're doing up the hall/stairs/upper landing as well as finally getting new couch/side tables for living room.

girl, sunny and bubble - how are you all?

Irish - counds like you have a very sticky andhealthy bean in there if she/he's making you feel so sick so soon. Hunker down for the next few weeks, it will be worth it .

No other news from me other than its eight days 'til my 20-week scan and I'm getting more and more nervous....

Love to all x

Hello all!

Not been able to get online for aaaaaages, and I've so missed it too .

Irish CONGRATS on your news, so so soooooo pleased for you, after waiting so patiently for so long!

Will catch up with you all later, hopefully. Start a new job (25hrs a week) next Monday, so will get a bit more access to internet then, but will be writing short posts as the new job guilt will be there! All a bit crazy at mo with house move and last throes of phd so very inccomunicado with the world

Had my 20 week scan last week, which moved my dates back again, now due on 7th Dec. All fine, which is such a relief after all the CVS etc. Didn't find out sex, which was hard to resist, but suspect a boy as sonographer when trying to get littlie into a better position said "come on, wee man"! and I thought I spied something when they were measuring femur length- but not going to hedge bets on anything!

Blood pressure still behaving but now to be monitored every 2 weeks, thankfully by community midwife. Getting a bit nervous because in the next 8 weeks is when signs of pre-eclampsia started for me last 2 times, just praying this is out lucky #3.

Will do better at catching up with you all later I hope, so for now a big hello and lots of love to you all xxx

Hello everyone,

Sorry for complete lack of posting - have changed desks at work and realised that there is another MNer sitting across from me who can see my PC whenever she likes. let's hope she hasn't seen me posting before now.

Issy wow you have been busy - so glad to catch up on all your news and kudos on the shopping too.

Jumping you've also had a mad time haven't you? thanks for your good wishes. Hope the new job works out well for you as well. so glad all your scans are working out well.

Blue I think this one is going to cause me lots of trouble Like the sound of your nesting btw - must get on to DH about doing the hall...... Nice one on your test results as well.

wasabi that's good about your test results as well - hope the house move is going ok.

Head hope you aren't too stressed about the house moves and are enjoying your siter's house.

girl and Sunny hope you are both ok and taking care of yourselves and also being taken care of. Sunny hope your DH is getting through his grieving as well - it must be a very difficult time for you both.

Sif yay for you coming back, but boo for that IT guy in your work - can you make out like you have a research project that you need access to this for

Bubble hope you are ok and lurking maybe? Let us know how you are from tiem to time.

So have now had to resort to wearing my sports bra to bed as it's absolute agony trying to turn in bed at night.
Have had a migraine all weekend went to bed at half eight on Friday, barely got out of it on Saturday but yesterday was up early full of beans and spring cleaned my whole living room. regretted it immediately as I was so knackered afterwards but I do have a shiney clean room now.
Had a mare today trying to register with a doctor near me. I rang them on Thursday and arranged to come in today - when I got there couldn't register as the office manager wasn't in on Mondays... to my shock I just said ok walked out the door and rang DH in tears because I couldn't register. I'm praying it's just hormones. It was so weird. There are no other doctors near me that are accepting new patients so have to wait now until I get another day off work.

Next weekend I am working from Thursday to Monday with the weirdest work patterns as we are going live on the project we've been working on since I started work. DH might come up to me on the Saturday night as I am being put up in a hotel.

Anyway I'll head on now having typed the longest post I've done in ages - hello to anyone who I've missed and sorry. Talk to you all as soon as I can.

P.S. I am not going to put my EDD on the list just yet - but it is around the end of March next year.

Morning girls!

how is everyone!

the clomid worked this month!! had a progesterone level of 50 so got to wait now and see if AF shows up or i got lucky! fingers crossed eh!

if im honest, i think AF is lurkin. my (.)(.)
are sore/fizzy im dog tired and quite emotional! i want to go get a BD digital with conception thingy coz i know they work early but pls someone retrain me.. early testing is WRONG!

Hello all
Bubble that's so great that you ovulated. Hurrah! You must be feeling so happy about that, after all this time. Even if this isn't your month, at least you are on the right road now. And hey, sore boobs might be a sign of you know what!

Issy good to hear from you. Sounds like you've been busy on the shopping front! Totally understand about not doing the nursery until 12 weeks. Glad you are feeling so industrious and positive. I think you're having a girl too!

Sif lovely of you to pop in. Glad all is okay but boo to the IT person

Blue great news about your results, and how lovely to get a wedding invitation anywhere, never mind there. I haven't been to a wedding in years. All my friends are either gay or perennially single. Bless them all. Would love to go to a gay wedding, mind.

Wasabi great news about your results too - that must be such a relief for you. Here's to relaxing and enjoying the rest of the journey.

Head how are you? Are you at your sister's now? I can't quite remember. Hope you are relaxing anyhow.

Jumping good luck with your new job, and great about the scan too - although how funny, yet annoying, that they said "wee man". That happened to a friend of mine, too - although with two girls, she was desperate for a boy so was very happy.

Irish how are you feeling? Sick, by the sounds of it! Well, it's a good sign really. Hope you find a doctor soon - seems ridiculous that you are PG yet can't find a surgery. I don't blame you for being upset. Those hormones will be working overtime, so be kind to yourself. Crying is normal!

Girl, thinking of you and hoping you are ok. Are you on any MC threads? I'd like to join one but they look a bit scary. We could join together?

Nothing to report here really. I'm in the waiting room of the waiting room, ie waiting for AF so can start TTC again. Every night I rub my abdomen and say "I love you", as I don't want my body to think I'm angry with it. What a loony! Issy, turns out the blood tests I had last year indicate that the chromosomal abnormality was a one off, and that it shouldn't repeat. My only option now is to pay loads of money for a private doctor, as the NHS one doesn't seem to think any other tests are worth doing. I could have an ultrasound scan to see if I've ov'd yet, but it would be a bit premature as my MC was only three weeks ago. Three weeks! It seems like an eternity already. Me and DH are still not good. He never asks me how I am; it's very strange. It's like he's scared of saying the wrong thing. He has gone to see his mum and taken DD with him, so I'm on my own for a few days but I don't mind - maybe I'll cry and that will be a good thing. Maybe I need to be on my own to grieve. Or hey, I could just watch Sex and the City and eat biscuits