Nice to TTC you, to TTC you nice

[PistachioLemon]

Follow on from 'Strictly come baby dancing - TTC waiting room and dance floor'...

will bring over the list in a second

Had my appointment today. Returned home with a pot for DH, who now has said no to being tested and does not want fertility treatment as we already have one child.

oh blackrock

PS LOL at incontinent, I'm going to try that next time!

Blackrock - hope that DH is just having cold feet at the thought of being scrutinised and will see sense shortly. Is it possible he was just having a bad day? Or perhaps he is seeing the stress TTC is putting you under and is trying to take the pressure off for another baby?

Hope you are ok. x

Oh no Blackrock...tell him that a low sperm count or other abnormailties can be a sign of stuff besides fertility that might have to be treated (like a varicocele causing testerone levels to slowly decrease over time--no good!).

Paha, swollen ankles, I wished. But will by no means discourage the effort. It's all worth it.

Oh Blackrock, that's really sad. Do you think he may be persuaded? I think that's terribly mean of him. Is he maybe scared that he may discover the 'problem' is him?

I do hope that you are able to talk to him about this and persuade him otherwise.

Thanks for support. Managed to get him to read the information that came when the appointment was made. After this he was more specific about not wanting IVF type intervention, which would be some time off anyway as we are at the very beginning of being investigated, so bit more positive.

Think it may be cold feet too. Hopefully by looking at us both they will be able to help us if there is a problem.

glad to hear he's a little bit more positive Blackrock.

Beanieb CD19cycle 24 TTC#1 (mmc June 2009)
ClaireDeLoon CD22cycle 25 TTC#1 (mc Sept 07)
blackrock CD23cycle 29 TTC#2
PistachioLemon CD27cycle 9 TTC#1
ButterflEi CD29cycle 23 TTC#2 (cp april 08, june 08, April 09)
Jaamy CD37 cycle 25 TTC#3 (mc Mar 08 and Sept 08)
Glastochick CD50 cycle 25 TTC #1
ShayeraHol CD54 cycle 21 TTC#1
JamieJay CD56 cycle 6 TTC#1 (mc June 2009)
louisbackagain TTC#1

BFP's (but not ready to graduate yet)
Zen1980 BFP 10th May 2009 cycle2 (after MMC Jan 09) cycle7 before that.
stillstanding BFP 12th June cycle13 TTC2

TTC GRADUATE LIST (we WILL be on it)
Moonlit BFP 17th September (CD33 cycle21 TTC#2)

Leaky BFP 2nd Oct (CD35 cycle2 TTC#3)
Saz007 (due May 2009)
Migola BFP 19th Nov (CD? cycle8 TTC#2 CP Aug 08)
Babybump2b BFP 30th Nov
VJay BFP 22nd Dec (mc June08 & Oct08)
theboob BFP
mummy2t BFP
herethereandeverywhere BFP 25th Jan
Comma2 BFP 24th Feb (CD30 cycle5
Kyte BFP 11th March
Sparkly (BFP 20th Feb) EDD 30th October
MollieMooma (BFP 6th Apr) EDD 16th December

Am hating this 2ww. Probably due about 7th September and it seems like ages away.

blackrock CD1cycle 30 TTC#2
Beanieb CD19cycle 24 TTC#1 (mmc June 2009)
ClaireDeLoon CD22cycle 25 TTC#1 (mc Sept 07)
PistachioLemon CD27cycle 9 TTC#1
ButterflEi CD29cycle 23 TTC#2 (cp april 08, june 08, April 09)
Jaamy CD37 cycle 25 TTC#3 (mc Mar 08 and Sept 08)
Glastochick CD50 cycle 25 TTC #1
ShayeraHol CD54 cycle 21 TTC#1
JamieJay CD56 cycle 6 TTC#1 (mc June 2009)
louisbackagain TTC#1

BFP's (but not ready to graduate yet)
Zen1980 BFP 10th May 2009 cycle2 (after MMC Jan 09) cycle7 before that.
stillstanding BFP 12th June cycle13 TTC2

TTC GRADUATE LIST (we WILL be on it)
Moonlit BFP 17th September (CD33 cycle21 TTC#2)

Leaky BFP 2nd Oct (CD35 cycle2 TTC#3)
Saz007 (due May 2009)
Migola BFP 19th Nov (CD? cycle8 TTC#2 CP Aug 08)
Babybump2b BFP 30th Nov
VJay BFP 22nd Dec (mc June08 & Oct08)
theboob BFP
mummy2t BFP
herethereandeverywhere BFP 25th Jan
Comma2 BFP 24th Feb (CD30 cycle5
Kyte BFP 11th March
Sparkly (BFP 20th Feb) EDD 30th October
MollieMooma (BFP 6th Apr) EDD 16th December

Wow,

Day one blood taken for tests and midcycle scan all booked up!

Sorry to see you back at the top Blackrock. I shall be joining you tomorrow - I've been having progressively heavier spotting today. Which means the Clearblue fertility monitor is coming out to play in the morning

PS was about to ask when the midcycle scan is. Doh, that would be errrmmm, in about two weeks. Glad to see your DH is perhaps softening to the idea of sperm tests. My DHs sperm test is on the 8th so not long to go now.

ho de hum. am so fed up with the waiting. Feeling low today as I can see that people all around me are popping babies out or selfishly gearing up to have the next one, which no doubt they will achieve without hassle and then rub in my face ... actually I know that's not true but still, it makes me feel a bit crappy all over again.

I am thinking I might make an appointment to see the consultant at the fertility unit just to see where we should go if this round of clomid doesn't work. They only gave me three months so maybe I need to get another three months or maybe I need to think seriously about giving up on the dreram of kids and spending all my money on traveling the world and becoming interesting or something.

hope all ok.

Hey Beanie. I was a bit fed up this morning too but I'm about to set off on a walk - which ends at the pub - so that has cheered me up.

Maybe you should make an appointment with the consultant - it might cut down the waiting time if, as you say, the clomid doesn't work, and if it does work (which I'm still hoping it will) then you can always cancel.

PistachioLemon CD1 cycle 10 TTC#1
blackrock CD2 cycle 30 TTC#2
Beanieb CD20 cycle 24 TTC#1 (mmc June 2009)
ClaireDeLoon CD23 cycle 25 TTC#1 (mc Sept 07)
ButterflEi CD30 cycle 23 TTC#2 (cp april 08, june 08, April 09)
Jaamy CD38 cycle 25 TTC#3 (mc Mar 08 and Sept 08)
Glastochick CD51 cycle 25 TTC #1
ShayeraHol CD55 cycle 21 TTC#1
JamieJay CD57 cycle 6 TTC#1 (mc June 2009)
louisbackagain TTC#1

BFP's (but not ready to graduate yet)
Stillstanding BFP 12th June cycle13 TTC2

TTC GRADUATE LIST (we WILL be on it)
Moonlit BFP 17th September (CD33 cycle21 TTC#2)
Leaky BFP 2nd Oct (CD35 cycle2 TTC#3)
Saz007 (due May 2009)
Migola BFP 19th Nov (CD? cycle8 TTC#2 CP Aug 08)
Babybump2b BFP 30th Nov
VJay BFP 22nd Dec (mc June08 & Oct08)
theboob BFP
mummy2t BFP
herethereandeverywhere BFP 25th Jan
Comma2 BFP 24th Feb (CD30 cycle5
Kyte BFP 11th March
Sparkly (BFP 20th Feb) EDD 30th October
MollieMooma (BFP 6th Apr) EDD 16th December
Zen1980 BFP 10th May 2009 cycle2 (after MMC Jan 09) cycle7 before that.

PistachioLemon CD4 cycle 10 TTC#1
blackrock CD5 cycle 30 TTC#2
Beanieb CD23 cycle 24 TTC#1 (mmc June 2009)
ClaireDeLoon CD26 cycle 25 TTC#1 (mc Sept 07)
ButterflEi CD33 cycle 23 TTC#2 (cp april 08, june 08, April 09)
Jaamy CD41 cycle 25 TTC#3 (mc Mar 08 and Sept 08)
Glastochick CD54 cycle 25 TTC #1
ShayeraHol CD59 cycle 21 TTC#1
JamieJay CD60 cycle 6 TTC#1 (mc June 2009)
louisbackagain TTC#1

BFP's (but not ready to graduate yet)
Stillstanding BFP 12th June cycle13 TTC2

TTC GRADUATE LIST (we WILL be on it)
Moonlit BFP 17th September (CD33 cycle21 TTC#2)
Leaky BFP 2nd Oct (CD35 cycle2 TTC#3)
Saz007 (due May 2009)
Migola BFP 19th Nov (CD? cycle8 TTC#2 CP Aug 08)
Babybump2b BFP 30th Nov
VJay BFP 22nd Dec (mc June08 & Oct08)
theboob BFP
mummy2t BFP
herethereandeverywhere BFP 25th Jan
Comma2 BFP 24th Feb (CD30 cycle5
Kyte BFP 11th March
Sparkly (BFP 20th Feb) EDD 30th October
MollieMooma (BFP 6th Apr) EDD 16th December
Zen1980 BFP 10th May 2009 cycle2 (after MMC Jan 09) cycle7 before that.

Just updating

Anyone with any news? PL sorry to see you back at the top but not long now until you can start using the monitor

Lou - how are things with you?

Hello all!

Sorry forgot to update. Was really gutted this month. Lots of weeping and wailing and staying up all night trying to make sense of things. DH and I now have a plan in hand. Bit long winded to go into here but basically we have decided to give ourselves until the end of the year and then give up. Either way I can then make plans about work/home/life and MOVE ON.

PL - hope the walk and pub went well and managed to blow away some of the fed up feeling.

Blackrock - good to see the tests are progressing. Hope it won't be too long before you have some answers.

Beanie - hoping clomid has done the trip again this month. Did you make the consultant appt? How great would the cancelling-the-appointment phone call be?

PS you can still travel the world with a baby!

Back from a very muddy camping expedition yesterday so washing the mud encrusted everything today. When did BD in a tent get so uncomfortable? Used to do it all the time. Guess am just getting old !

PistachioLemon CD4 cycle 10 TTC#1
blackrock CD5 cycle 30 TTC#2
Jaamy CD13 cycle 26 TTC#3 (mc Mar 08 and Sept 08)
Beanieb CD23 cycle 24 TTC#1 (mmc June 2009)
ClaireDeLoon CD26 cycle 25 TTC#1 (mc Sept 07)
ButterflEi CD33 cycle 23 TTC#2 (cp april 08, june 08, April 09)
Glastochick CD54 cycle 25 TTC #1
ShayeraHol CD59 cycle 21 TTC#1
JamieJay CD60 cycle 6 TTC#1 (mc June 2009)
louisbackagain TTC#1

BFP's (but not ready to graduate yet)
Stillstanding BFP 12th June cycle13 TTC2

TTC GRADUATE LIST (we WILL be on it)
Moonlit BFP 17th September (CD33 cycle21 TTC#2)
Leaky BFP 2nd Oct (CD35 cycle2 TTC#3)
Saz007 (due May 2009)
Migola BFP 19th Nov (CD? cycle8 TTC#2 CP Aug 08)
Babybump2b BFP 30th Nov
VJay BFP 22nd Dec (mc June08 & Oct08)
theboob BFP
mummy2t BFP
herethereandeverywhere BFP 25th Jan
Comma2 BFP 24th Feb (CD30 cycle5
Kyte BFP 11th March
Sparkly (BFP 20th Feb) EDD 30th October
MollieMooma (BFP 6th Apr) EDD 16th December
Zen1980 BFP 10th May 2009 cycle2 (after MMC Jan 09) cycle7 before that.

Hey Jaamy
sorry to hear you've had a bad time this month. I have prepared my DH for next week when I will probably be doing the same kind of weeping and wailing. I hope you don't have to decide to give up. I am wondering the same but don't know how I will ever be able to stop that hopeful feeling each month.

PL how is the monitor going?

lou are you still about? How are things with you?

PistachioLemon CD7 cycle 10 TTC#1
blackrock CD8 cycle 30 TTC#2
Jaamy CD16 cycle 26 TTC#3 (mc Mar 08 and Sept 08)
Beanieb CD26 cycle 24 TTC#1 (mmc June 2009)
ClaireDeLoon CD29 cycle 25 TTC#1 (mc Sept 07)
ButterflEi CD36 cycle 23 TTC#2 (cp april 08, june 08, April 09)
Glastochick CD57 cycle 25 TTC #1
ShayeraHol CD62 cycle 21 TTC#1
JamieJay CD63 cycle 6 TTC#1 (mc June 2009)
louisbackagain TTC#1

BFP's (but not ready to graduate yet)
Stillstanding BFP 12th June cycle13 TTC2

TTC GRADUATE LIST (we WILL be on it)
Moonlit BFP 17th September (CD33 cycle21 TTC#2)
Leaky BFP 2nd Oct (CD35 cycle2 TTC#3)
Saz007 (due May 2009)
Migola BFP 19th Nov (CD? cycle8 TTC#2 CP Aug 08)
Babybump2b BFP 30th Nov
VJay BFP 22nd Dec (mc June08 & Oct08)
theboob BFP
mummy2t BFP
herethereandeverywhere BFP 25th Jan
Comma2 BFP 24th Feb (CD30 cycle5
Kyte BFP 11th March
Sparkly (BFP 20th Feb) EDD 30th October
MollieMooma (BFP 6th Apr) EDD 16th December
Zen1980 BFP 10th May 2009 cycle2 (after MMC Jan 09) cycle7 before that

Monitor's great thanks Beanie... am on to peeing on sticks every day which is novel

My walk to the pub was wonderful - lots of Sunshire, birds singing, loveliness. Ahhh. When I go there I called DH who was working and he came and joined me... it was a win win situation which I'm thinking of repeating today.

DH has his sperm test on Tuesday, but I'm not convinced he's going to go. He says he wants me to go into work as usual and that he'll (ahem) deal with it himself. But I know he's so busy with work (he's working again all weekend - for the third weekend in a row) and also a bit frightened of the test that it's probably likely to fall by the wayside. My plan is to do gentle reminders maybe once or twice and then leave it...do you think that's a good idea? I've never been in this situation before and don't want to put too much pressure on the poor guy.

got, it should be got, not go...aaarrrghhh

I went with my DH. We had to go to the clinic at the hospital and I stayed in the waiting room while he did his biz. he seemed quite keen to do it but took longer than I thought he would so maybe the pressure was on a bit. Hope you get it sorted and he does do it. Not sure what to suggest but maybe just chat about it a bit with him. We found the whole thing quite amusing so joked a lot about it which kind of took the heat off.

Am kicking myself for testing this morning (BFN) because now I am clinging on to the hope that I might be in the same situation as when I got pregnant before and just not far gone enough. I didn't get a BFP until day 30 last time. Last month my cycle was 28 days I think, and I wasn't on Clomid, which is quite long for me. This month (on clomid) I am up to day 27. Usual cycle is more like 25 days.

wah!!!

Hi girls,
oh man, I'm so sorry about everybody feeling down...what can I say, try to not... life still feels like an unfair crap shoot once you have kids. I don't know....I might be going blind on one eye bc of pregnancy, not to talk about being in so much pain I cry every night etc, and still having to get up bright and early to take care without a break of my darling daughter and read humpty dumpty with a smile for the 200est time even though i want to be in bed, crying with the cover over my head... I love them more than anything, but there are plenty of times when I long very much for my old life...haha, sorry, I'm sure you'll hate me for this, but that's prenatal depression for you. Can't wait for postpartum, yikes. Sorry everybody. I hated posts like these when I was ttc. just want to say not to think life isn't worth living without kids if it doesn't happen.

Oh no, I feel really bad about what I wrote but can't delete. I just wished I'd been a bit more zen about it when I was ttc, but what applies to me does not apply at all to the next person. Sorry again.

hey comma, I know what you mean. I just spent 20 minutes watching the 5 year old daughter of one of my best mate having a complete meltdown because she wasn't allowed to come for lunch with us! I asked her if she fancied any more kids and she said she'd rather stab herself in the eye

Hope you are ok and not too depressed by the pregnancy lows.

Oh girls I wish I could wave a magic wand or even a more unromantic big shitty stick and get you all what you want
You all deserve so much more happiness than what you have at the moment, you all made me cry (bloody horror-mones)!!!
Jaamy I can't change your decision but I hope it brings you some peace, and maybe just maybe without all the pressure a BFP will just sneak up on you?
Beanie I'll be watching and waiting to see what happens with this cycle, come on clomid!
PL Good luck for Tuesday, I think as Beanie said making a joke of it is probably the best way of dealing with it. Maybe he wants to go on his own coz he's who knows how our men think
Comma Sorry to hear things aren't too good for you at the moment How much longer til your EDD? Are you able to take anything for the depression?
Big weekend waves to everyone else

Just made a cup of tea and some banana and chocolate muffins. Please share them with me as I think we all need to sit down and have a relaxing chat.

The thread feels a bit low, and not surprising really as everyone is impatiently waiting, hoping or making difficult decisions.

I have a scan apppointment tomorrow, so wish me luck that it's all straight forward and functioning... when the app. came through DH asked me about his test, so think he has changed his mind, on the basis that they are going to check to see if we are both functioning.

We've decided, as we have one lovely DS, that we won't go further than clomid. Hopefully, this will do the trick.

Now we know what we want to do, I feel much better and I think DH does too.