July/August baby threads, where are you now? Wishing, Sunnydale, Homeinthesun, Headfairy, Bubble, etc..

[Issy42]

Please don't be offended if you're not named, you're still welcome, I just have a rubbish memory. I can see a couple of you on November thread but there's a whole load of people not there. Just wondering if you wanted a little thread to keep in touch?

Headfairy - just replied to you on grapefruit thread. So sorry about your sad news. Was hoping a new thread might provide you with support from old friends.

And Sunnydale, I know you're wary of new threads, so though you might also like the company of old friends.

Wishing and Bubble having your weird long cycles and missing whole month's threads, thought this might be one for you too.

So what do you say? I'll start a list just in case:

Issy, ttc#1, cycle 14, ucl 28ish, cd 23/10dpo, mc Mar08, cp Sep08, IVF in April.

Good afternoon all

Head I am so delighted all is well with the bean! You must be so relieved

Sadly today was a no-go for me. They used the high definition scanner to check positions of everything prior to the CVS and found that the placenta is still a bit too close to the bowel so they'd rather wait a few more days in the hope the bowel is moved well out of the way (don't want to risk perforation!). Plus as I have only been off aspirin since last Thurs (which I'm on due to high risk of pre-eclampsia) they're a bit concerned about bleeding. Feel emotionally drained already, hardly slept last night and the disappointment that they couldn't do it today was pretty tough. Plus they printed out more pictures from the scan which I really can't deal with right now (they are hidden now by DH). So I'm back down again on Thursday, and will have to go alone as DH can't take any more time off work, and will have to travel via bus as won't be allowed to drive myself home apparently. Not helped too by hospital being 1.5 hours from home by car, so extends the trip a lot.

It is such a rollercoaster, I feel so exhausted already. The consultant warned me too that Thursday the bowel may still not have moved adequately so provisionally we may have to come back again the following Tues. Argh! Just want to close my eyes and sleep for a week

Blue I've been on aspirin this pregnancy and my last and it definitely causes some brown spotting- I've had it for about a day each time twice so far (will be 12 wks on Thurs). With my first non-aspirin pregnancy I never spotted at all and it does still freak me out, and I've been lucky enough not to mc previously, so no wonder it scares you. Really hope the hypnotherapy helps- my friend is a great believer in it.

Going to attempt to bury myself in work now, but my heart is not really in it.

blue I'm so sorry those scans haven't been able to reassure you more. I hadn't realised you'd had them. I really ummed and ahhhed about even telling you lot as I had always vowed that I wouldn't tell anyone til I got to 12 weeks, but you know what? You really won't miscarry because you've talked about it to us or anyone else. The only reason we miscarry is because there's something wrong with the baby. And you really have no control over that. That in itself is an issue for me as I'm a total control freak, but I totally know what you mean about tempting fate.

Your mantra must now be... "talking abotu this will NOT cause a miscarriage". It's such a big burden to carry all on your own. It's great having dh/dp to offload on to sometimes, but you also need someone who has walked the exact same road as you to really understand.

You will get to 9+3 weeks, you will see a fabulous bouncy bean and you will be very happy about it. Keep telling yourself that over and over again.

Jumping I'm so sorry you couldn't have your cvs today, what a total pain in the neck. Of course it's right to be careful, but how frustrating for you after all that worry and sleeplessness. Can you find someone else to drive you there? It'll be so much easier having someone to talk to and take your mind off it. I only had to wait half an hour this morning on my own and my mind was going crazy. An hour and a half on a bus would have finished me off!

sorry jumping meant to say thanks for your kind words. I am indeed relived, though like Blue I'm still not going to be totally relaxed until I've got through the first trimester (and even then i won't be happy until I've got my baby in my arms and everything is all right with the world!)

Afternoon all,

Just checked in to see how the scans went.

Head FAB news that all is well. I'm so happy for you.

Blue I can completely empathise with your feelings and fears. I know that if I manage to concieve again I will be exactly the same. It's partly for that reason that I had hypnotherapy a few months ago to make me feel positive about concieving and learn to relax generally. I found it very helpful as it also helped me to deal with the birth trauma I incurred having DS. I had so many negative feelings bound up around pregnancy and birth it was time to get rid. I still practise the relaxation now and put myself into a light hypnotic state. I find it very effective. Stress is inevitable when you are a parent and I find "scheduled" relaxtion times help.

I waffled a bit there sorry. I hope you (and think you will) find it helpful is what I am trying to say!

Sunny So sorry it wasn't to be this month. I will prob be joining you in the sad corner next week.

Bubble Inclined to agree with what the others have said about your ds's ages and how that may affect your decision to take them to Cyprus separately. Can definitely see that it could be presented very positvely as special time if they are the right age.

Irish still feeling thunderous? I lapse into occasional dark moments. It's worse when I spend a lot of time alone if dh is away with work. I strongly feel however that I am bloody well entitled to the odd black mood given my still relatively recent mc and the fact that every third day somebody else I know announces their pregnancy. I don't cry anymore but, well, as I said, I am entitled to brood occasionally. As are you.

Issy Sorry to hear the evil ms has kicked in. It totally sucks.

Hope all is well with everyone else. I am ok today, just doing all the usual stuff with DS. Monkey Music and shopping this morning followed by a hearty lunch, a walk, a snack (I know - how much can one small child eat?) and now, finally, a nap.

I am in 2WW hell. As Head so wittily set it out I am currently in the Head v Heart deadlock. I am CD22 and have a 28 day cycle so will know soon one way or another. My temps are higher than they were last month but this is only the 2nd month I've temped so I don't know if its significant. No other symptoms apart from faint nausea from time to time but I get that from general hormonal ups and downs so that isn't a big deal either.

Sorry, also meant to say Jumping I'm so sorry your CVS was a non starter today.

Seems so cruel to think its going to happen and then realise that it isn't. I hope you find some distraction through work.

Hi all, just catching up (with work and MN...) I can't possibly do a weeks worth of posting, and would probably forget someone and mortally offend them, my particular speciality! So in the spirit of the original idea for the thread I am just going to tell you all about my holiday...
My DB got v drunk on Monday and went to bed early, as he was supposed to be sleeping in the sitting room he crashed out on my bed... which we had to chuck him out of in order to BD... (we could NOT have done so in the sitting room!!) he was not a happy bunny. Managed again on Tuesday, then the catholic guilt/fatigue took over. Tuesday we did a murder mystery for my dads b'day, which he messed up by playing a bit of the tape too early and telling us all who the murderer was... doh. It rained pretty much all the time, my mum kept going on about how she thinks my DB is an alcholic and I spent all day Thurs driving around trying to find a water slide pool to no avail... Apart from that it was great!

so well into 2ww now...

will just say a quick to jumping... can't imagine what is going through your head, hope it all works out. and blue really, really hope everything goes well for you this time. head glad to hear all is well with you, and issy would feel bad about the MS but kind of inclined to see it as a positive really!

Hi to everyone else... goo dto catch up on your news!!

oh girl - your holiday sounded very err eventful . Where to start? your DB almost thwarting your bd efforts, the old alcohol ding dong or the murder mystery debacle - well done you for managing to bd in the middle of all that I went to murder mystery a few years back (cue 6 drunk couples standing in a kitchen reading their lines). Our host made the mistake of plying us with too much alcohol before it all started and it decended into a farce - reading the wrong page, not noticiing when the murderer revealed himself etc. etc. Ah halcyen days...

jumping - I was gutted for you that they have had to postpone your CVS - do they not realise every day is like a week in pg world? But as Head says better to be safe than sorry. Have you been able to get someone to go with you? Really hope you don't have to get public transport back on your own..

wasabi - ah the hell that is the 2ww, keep busy and try not to symptom spot. Thanks for your kind words and good to hear you found hypnotherapy helpful. I really hope I can be there for you when you enter the hell that is the weeks following the BFP..

Head - thanks again for your words of comfort and empathy, I felt better writing it down today and really hope my sesssion tomorrow clears my head. I've always been a supersticious person - I used to walk home from school avoiding the cracks in the pavement - that kind of thing - its a wonder I ever get anything done .

Off to bed, night all x

Jumping Im sorry that the cvs didnt happen. cant imagine how disappointed your feeling. sending you hugs and hoping that this is all over with soon and you can swoon over your scan pics

HF so pleased the scan went well

Blue i hope your not feeling as worried about it all today. i know that a silly thing to say when its built in us to worry we worry now and the 2nd trimester and third then when baby is here Im sure that everything will be fine and am sending lots of sticky thoughts to all you PG ladies

issy how are you?

girl i couldnt help but laugh when reading your holiday post... It sounded like a sketch from faulty towers
GD luck for your 2WW

How is everyone else?

Still no AF! bet she shows when im on holiday... cowbag that she is.

With regards to Cyprus... Thanks for all your reassurances. I dont think it will be too harsh on DS2 so will go ahead with my original plans

(DS1 is 8 and DS2 is 2.)

Hi All

Jumping sorry to hear aboutyour CVS being delayed - hopefully you'll get it on Thursday.

Head good enws about the scan - fingers crossed for the next few weeks as well.

Bubble hope AF stays away for your holidays.

Girl your holiday sounds like mine would be - DB drinking, DM going mad about it - full of slip ups. I think that's why we don't do holidays as a family - besides the logistics would be horrendous.

Blue hope the hypnotherapy works for you - let us know how you get on.

Wasabi I think we might be on the 2ww together well if I'm going to have my "normal" cycle then it'll be next Thursday / friday.

Black mood gone away - think I was just tired after my mental working hours last week and then had an incident on Sunday with my own DB. nothign much just a little bit of stress. Went home last night and DH was all lovely and gave me a big glass of coke when I went in, he'd lit the fire and cooked me dinner and jsut told me to relax. It was so nice. (He's off on study leave at the mo)

Anyway that's all my news - hopefully TEW will not come near me in the next week - fingers crossed.

Hello to everyone that I've missed and I hope you're all keeping well

I hope the witch stays away from you Irishmummy Glad you had a nice weekend as well.

Girl Brilliant post, made me chuckle. It sounded worthy of a West end stage. I hope your 2WW goes quicker than mine is this month!
Like Blue I also did a murder mystery a good few years ago. We all got really pissed far too early - not helped by the fact that 6 of us were in the pub beforehand and were late for the actual start. By the time the culprit was revealed all anybody really cared about was getting the next shots poured.

Hope everyone is having a good day. I really need to pee (again) but can't as the bathroom is next to DS's room and I don't want to wake him!

have just tempted faith and bought a Mooncup - friends in work have been raving about them so I aaid I'd try one - they don't know I'm ttc - so have bought it in a (vain) attempt at keeping her at bay.

Hope everyone is in good form today - I'm in such a better mood after my moody Monday. Positive thinking and all that.

more testing for me today - procrastination is the name of teh game though I think.

Talk to you all later

Morning all, irish - glad to hear your feeling positive and have banished the black mood. Lets hope your mooncup stays in its packet (does it come in a packet ?)

Sending you and wasabi the resident shedload of babydust for next week .

bubble hope the old cow stays away over your hols. I'm v. of you going to Cyprus, its one of my favourite countries and the last 'adult only' holiday DH and me took - memories of eating drinking and sunning ourselves by the pool - ahhh.

Head and Issy - hope your both OK and not too floored with the ms.

I've been to hell and back since I last posted. Had some more bleeding yesterday morning which had a tiny stringy clot - blood pressure off/heart in boots and on phone to EPAS who secured an appointment for me this morning. Of course I had my hypnotherapy session to go to and as I was sure I was about to mc the hour was spent trying to help me 'trust' my body and cope with the uncertainty of early pregnancy. Won't bore you with the details but alot of snottery tissues were required. Woke at 2am this morning wide awake with 'Don't Give Up' by Peter Gabriel going through my head. Scanned this morning and baby there, heartbeat there, measuring right for dates cue me crying again, DH almost collapsing with relief and the sonographer giving me a big cuddle. Spoke to lovely midwife after who is scanning me in 2 weeks as is v. concerned about my mental health.

So I'm off work today, DS is at grannies and I am spending the day believing this is going to work, I have to banish negativity and fight for this pregnancy - as God is my witness!

Sorry for me post .

Off to look at the garden and breath in positivity x

Hey blue my God you ahve been through teh wars haven't you? I really hope the hypnotherapy helps you to stay calm.

So glad you got yoru scan - and that teh little bean is looking good. I can't imagine teh relief you must have felt to see it. At least you have a lovely midwife as well who will no doubt keep you on the right track. ,,hugs.. and lots of sticky dust for little bluebean

Also - we all need a "me" post every now and then - keeps the rest of us sane to knwo we're not the only ones. 9just mistyped there and put - Freudian slip? )

As for the mooncup - I hope it comes in some sort of packet - red faces all around for me and the postman if not.

teh = the
ahve = have
yoru = your
knwo = know

So sorry for the misspelling - trying to post in work and not have people looking over my shoulder at the page.

blue what a horrible couple of days, can't imagine, but all is well, and you have to keep believing that it will be. I hope you do get some positive help from the hypnotherapy, and so happy to hear that your bean is safe and well, and totaly oblivious to the heartache it is causing.

irish i did the same as you and bought a moon cup a couple of months ago, I was also hoping that I would be tempting fate and never need it... it is great though, and is much better for you, maintains a better environment etc! If its the same as mine it comes in a box with a very fat instruction booklet... all you need are the diaragrams and some patience. Also don't cut off too much of the stem!!

Hi everyone!!!
Finally cracked and insisted that they let me back on this thing. well actuall i just said can i go on it and they said yes. so simple!

HUMONGOUS congrats on the BFPs. They've made me feel quite teary!

I am in the stage I am calling prepregnant. I.e. i am 5 weeks and 4 days. Will have a scan at 8 weeks to see how we;re getting on and then might consider myself properly preg. Like Head i thought that an ok there was a total ok but still 90% will do for me.YAY HEAD!!!!!!YAY BLUE AND ISSY is it twins?? Sorry only had a quick read through...will read back preoprly when i have time.

Am confused as to who is ahead of who. Is the lovely Blue now 9 weeks? Head? Issy? I must know!

I feel sick as a fucking dog the whole time. scuse le francais but really. this is a total piss take i HATE it. so early too. ugh. best be worth it this time. I am currently listening to a CD called Morning Well. It does help a teensy bit by tickling your inner ear or something. even bought some online book with a failsafe technique.

Anyway so much to say and to ask but no time now as have to try to do some work. seriously struggling thugh and it's not even got as bad as it's going to yet. GREAT.

Anyway much love and hand squeezing to you all at this nerveracking time - are we all due in Jan if all goes well?.

and vats of fertilisation vibes to those of you currently on the job xxxxxx

will catch up very very soon. GOD it's good to be back!!!

jesus Blue just read your last post you poor thing. Can you not get signed off work? What a total nightmare. Huge if bear hug for you. That's so scary x

big sif hug for you...doh

sif you old devil welcome back! You've been busy since we last 'spoke' ! Big fat congrats on being pregnant - well done you! Morning sickness is awful, awful, awful just go to bed early and eat what you can - its the only way to get through it. I'm munching on fresh melon just now and its yum.

re: dates: I'm due 25th Dec , Head 27th Dec , Issy early Jan < post-xmas credit card bill emotion>... and you my pretty lady? oh its sooo good to have you back.

irish and girl - thanks for supportive words and LOL at your spelling irish - I am so like that - I call it my dyslexic typing - thank god for spellcheck.

Really enjoying my day home alone - pottering, listening to my cds and generally doing feck all .

Sif Great to have you back a HUGE congratulations! I am so happy for you.

Blue So glad you have had the reassurance of the scan but so not glad you have had such a torrid time. Stick with the hypno and enjoy your nice pottering day!

Lol at mooncups and embarassed postmen Irish. I have heard great things about mooncups but am not keen on the thought of all faffery. Hopefully you won't be able to persuade me otherwise because you won't need it for a long time!

I am so desperate to be pg this month I really am.

Hi you guys. It's so nice to 'see' you again!
I am due 12 Jan ish, I think. Trying not to know exactly cos i have july 4th forever imprinted on my mind now
but this is a day so won't dwell on such things.

So jealous of everyone being so far ahead of me. Time has totally stood still.

Fingers crossed this is your month wasabs. I so know that feeling xx IF it makes anyone feel an better i had more symptoms the month i was convinced i was but wasn't than the one i was. actually i had no symptoms really til I tested (about 3 days after AF due) then they all came flooding.
melon sounds nice. Am now obssessed with getting my hands on some juicy melon. It's mostly been tuc biscuits and fresh mozzarella in the last 24 hours for me! NOT SURE THAT'S VERY HELPFUL FOR A SPROUTING BEAN.
oops caps frenzy.SOZ.

Vit B6 is doing sweet FA for me. gutted.
Fingers crossed that we're all sticky ones this time. it's looking good so far.
how many weeks are you and head then? is it 8 or 9? can't work it out. seems so grown up to little piddly 5 and a bit me. If only i could fall asleep and awake with a 16 week little bump.

head this means that if all goes well our prayers have been answered about not having to go back to work after christmas. fingers tres crossed xxxx

does everyone recommend holding off til 8 weeks for a scan if poss for best 'reassurance'?

and thanks for congrats.
having been off for a while my mnetiquette has deserted me

OMG SIF that is such brilliant news - congrats on the BFP and also on getting back on here. Hope the MS isn't too bad.

wasabi here's your sister - it doesn't seem fair that I'm not. My BIL was told that he had a 1% chance of fathering a child due to an incident involving a rusty nail when he was younger - but my sister fell pg after being with hinm for 3 years. (She wasn't actively TTC but not using contraception IYSWIM ) Now her DS is 4 and I'm just wondering why I can't just fall at the drop of a hat with seemingly healthy DH and my family history. (I have 9 siblings for anyone who doesn't know)

I think we're going to see how it goes this month and then when we get back from hols we are going to get tests started etc. (Go on AF - see if that doesn't tempt you! )

Sorry for that just needed to vent that for a minute.

Now I need to get back to work - talk to you soon.

Sif I saw Zita West on The Wright Stuff this morning and she said that anything goes when it comes to fending off morning sickness - just eat whatever you can keep down.

You have however made me fancy some Tucs - not had them for ages!

sif lovely to "hear" from you again- and huge congrats!! That is just wonderful news Really hope time flies (as if it ever does when pregnant) until your 8 wk scan.

Just popping on to send you all lots of love & luck over the next week, especially those on the 2 (or less) ww, and also those managing ealy pregnancy and all it entails...
I won't be online at all until next Weds now, and by then the CVS will have happened one way or another and I'll be on the wait for results... Thank you so much for you support over this time. Just hoping in 10 days or so time the wait will be over and I might have some good news too..but I'm barely daring to hope...just to make it through this that's all.

Have a good weekend all - and rest of week etc too! xxxx