cooeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here I am!
Hallo everybody
Well. It's been quite a week in me-ville.
First things first - bfn - and the f does NOT stand for fat, let me tell you. I was totally convinced I was preg since about 6dpo - I stupidly tested a couple of days early and couldn't believe it when my staring very hard did not produce the required line on the test. I had been nauseous and tired and everything. So I spent the day before AF in a deep, dark hole, watching one tree hill (which for those who don't know is an american high school tv show where everyone is always in a deep dark hole).
I had invested way way too much in this month being le month. I thought that having a christmas baby would somehow compensate for the awfulness of not having my july baby. I had decided whan I would leave work, how much of a bump i would have in the summer hols. Ugh. It's embarrassing to fess up to frankly and obviously i haven't to anyone in RL. Anyway. Many tears were shed i'm afraid to say. What a shame we can't think ourselves pregnant,eh!?
I am slightly concerned though because the AF itself is still not like what it was before. Have any of you experienced this? I think maybe I should have some tests - hormonal and the like. I don't want to be any more left behind my RL mates than I already am ifkwim. And I so want to be somebody's mummy! It's like an ache.
Anyway. On the positive sunny easter side - jesus is alive!!
no
but seriously.
We had a lovely lovely week on the boat. Travelling down the thames through london from east to west at dawn on a gloriously sunny day was very spesh indeed.
And how are all of you? More sickness in Mallory Towers I see. Are you all better now, head? did you manage to get some action with post stag DH?! Are you still loving the chocolate??? oh and in response to the post about saying San. I didn't do poshy schools but to my mum's dismay i did LOVE Enid Blyton boarding school books
Blue Awesome effort my friend, [takes hat off] fingers crossed xx Just think - if it is your month you can tell the LO that s/he was conceived on the set of an 80s power ballad - kind of - That would be a pretty cool beginning if you ask me.
bubble have you tested? you must have by now... I really hope it has been a lucky month for you.
girl hope you have had a productive weekend
jumping poor you having to try to use your brain for anything more taxing than the telly. That sucks. But hopefully will make these tricky weeks pass faster.
Hi wasabs I hope all is good with you. I will be joining you on a much more low key cycle this time.
oo and issy very exciting nerve-wracking time for you - fingers tightly crossed xx
Sorry to anyone I have left off the personals but if I go back a page again I will lose this message innit!
Anyway. I must go as have a pint waiting for me in the pub.
I'm ok but not great. I have been very brave these last few months but now I just feel gutted. My body has totally let me down man.
I really HAVE to chill the feck out about the whole thing now though and I will do. I know that I will have a bambino, and it doesn't matter when really as long as it's healthy etc. I can't think anybody would ever think - god I hate having a birthday in january - i wish i had never been born it's such a shit birthday, for example, so fuck the having a month off shit as well - woops language Sif! sozzzerrrsss
Gosh sorry for a slightly marathon and morose post. I am actually fine. Saying goodbye to PMT is always a relief in itself is it not?
will have to buy my own laptop soon to get past the terrible work situation-Don't know when I will be able to post again but will do what i can.
ok I really must go and collect that pint or it will get warm
TTFN xx