Knock Knock ...... Can I come in, after my little absence? I have been lurking but have been feeling really down the last week so haven't felt like posting. Prepare for a bit of a me me me post I'm afraid.
There is absolutely no drama and I really have no good reason for feeling , well is not quite accurate, imagine a kind of grey coloured grumpy emoticon. I just do not know what is wrong with me - I should be excited about baby arriving, everyone else is but I'm just not, frankly I think I am just petrified! I just feel like everyone in RL expects me to be acting or feeling differently and I guess with everyone's talk on here of scans and water births and new prams I just wanted to hide - Sorry that sounds so selfish and horrible and really I am still interested in what is going on with you all (which I will prove in a minute when I've finished whinging and moaning!!!)
I have just spent the weekend in London with my Stepmum saying how exciting it all is and asking me every 5 mins if I am OK and if she needs me to carry a bag that contains 2 sandwiches and a bottle of water and I know all of those things are really nice but I just wanted to scream!!
So, ladies I need your help, if you could just give me a quick reassuring hug followed by a shake and a good slap and instructions to pull myself together that would be great - I mean I've been trying and failing to get this far for so long am I a complete loon for feeling this way!
Also staying away from you guys hasn't helped so I'm going to try and get back to normal posting wise in attempt to cheer myself up - you know like pretending your dead confident when you walk into a party when in fact you aren't!!
Strictly Live was great but the tubes and trains were a bit of a mess so lots of round the houses and changing, hence knackered with horrible bump ache today so taking it easy.
So list first then catch up with you all...
Piper CD4 TTC#1
HappyAndEiKnowIt CD8 TTC#2 cycle 16 (CP/MC april & june08)
Molliemooma CD8 TTC#1 Cycle 4 (mm/c Jan08, mm/c Aug08 & CP Oct 08)
Sparkly CD30 TTC#2 Cycle 3 after m/c
Infanticipating
FruitynNutty 34 weeks pg, EDD 22nd March
Teeheelaydee 31 weeks pg, EDD 11th April
HeyThereGeorgieGirl 18 weeks pg (BFP 3rd Nov) EDD 10 July
Scully 18 weeks pg (BFP 8th Nov) EDD 13 July
BellaHarry 15 weeks pg EDD 29th July
Kate2179 BFP 18th Dec
Graduates
Emmsy GIRL! Amy Louise born 7th October 5lbs 12oz
CriCri GIRL! Elise Vivienne at 0630am 4th November, 7lbs 15oz
Mibbes BOY Evan, born 3rd December, 6lbs 5oz
Georgie Thanks for noticing I'd been a bit quiet - gave me the shove to 'fess up. You sound so much happier about your build, I'm really pleased that your new builders seem to be the real deal and great that you are feeling excited about the "grand designs" bit, as you say the fun bit. Also just looking at the list and that you are 18 weeks already - so fantastic - we will need some bump pictures soon.
Scully The heat must be horrible but glad you are nowhere near the fires. Will things cool down for you at all or not significantly enough for it to make any difference.
Fruity Blimey a toenail and ewwwww! I would take it in the shop first and speak to the manager - Get as much as you can from them - if you play your cards right you may get that dream changing bag after all Sorry to hear you are having such a struggle with St George's - have you found anyone who is being helpful - GP, midwife, DP? Know what you mean about not believing button will be here soon, we have crib in our room at the moment as we had to move out of nursery while it is decorated and carpet put down - every time I walk past it I feel a bit odd/scared/happy/hormonal.
Bella You are so organised, you put me to shame! (and make me panic that I will just not be ready) Did you say what colour the Buzz is, if you did can you remind me? I really wanted to put George (cat) in ours but he loves getting in stuff and I really don't want to encourage him as am paranoid about him climbing in with baby, so I put a bag of spuds in there to see what it was like to push with weight (hope there's no resemblance when he/she arrives)
Mibbes Glad to hear you are still with us and that all is OK, if a little hectic. How is the BF going? Please give me some hope that it can get easier as I am worried about it already.
Cricri Shame you can't put Elise in her wetsuit for her bath seeing as she seemed to like it.
Kate Good luck for today, although you may not read this so I will probably send you a quick text too. I'm sure all will be fine. Like Scully I wonder who will sleep in the daybed or is it for further down the line? They're lovely though - I think we will be making an IKEA trip next week as half term.
I don't think I've missed anyone or at least I hope not, although hello to Mollie and Sparkly if you are still lurking. Ei has been a little quiet too so hope you are doing OK lovely and you are back to full fitness.
Anyhoo - really am going now, as I said pats on shoulder and slaps most welcome and hopefully normal service will be resumed shortly.