Hey Fairy,
Some of the other ladies on here, may well remember the story anyway so I'm happy to share. You never know when it might help.
One thing that I do want to mention (which won't make you feel any better now but when you look back, it may make you realise that what you are going through is, unfortunately these days, the norm), is that the latest figure is 1 in 3 pregnancies now end in early MC. A lot of the reasons why these numbers keep rising, is because of the early testing that you can do nowadays. Years ago, before these were available, people were probably having as many MCs but they didn't realise because they didn't know they were PG and just assumed that they were having a late AF. Imagine all the people that aren't even TTC and just assume that they're having a late AF, they could easily be having an MC and not realising!! I know that when it happened to me, I felt a failure. Two of my sisters had no problems (although one of them took a year to conceive) and none of my close friends had had MCs, so I really wondered what was wrong with me. But I spoke to my GP and it really is so common...
So, my experience started very similarly to yours, although I was only 5 weeks at the time. One Sunday afternoon, I went to the loo and noticed some browny blood in my underwear and then again when I wiped, only very small amounts all the way the ordeal though. The following morning it was there again, but hardly anything at all really. I called the local GP and she said that it could possibly be a MC or it could be implantation bleeding. I prayed that it was that. So the spotting continued, mostly first thing in the morning and later in the evening, didn't really seem to have a lot in the middle. It would occasionally go a pinky/red colour but was mostly brown. I managed to get an early appointment at the EPU on the Thursday. They had to do an internal scan because they couldn't see anything on the abdominal scan and even then, they just saw a very small amniotic sac. So they said that I was either a lot earlier than I thought, or that the PG had gone wrong. They then took some blood and told me that I needed to have more blood taken in 48 hours to see if the HCG levels had risen.
Anyway, on the Friday evening (I had the second appointment for bloods on the Saturday...), I started suffering with cramps and the bleeding turned red. So it had gone on for about 6 days by then. I knew that was it but DH didn't want to believe it. He thought I was still going to be Ok. The bleeding wasn't very heavy and the pain was just like a period, not horrendous, but I guess everyone's pain threshold is different.
On the Saturday morning the bleeding was still there, but not too heavy. We went to the hospital to have the bloods taken and I told them what was happening. They then told me that the HCG levels from the blood they'd taken on the Thursday was really really low, and coupled with the pain and bleeding, firmly believed that it was an MC. For me, the actual MC bleeding only lasted a few days, but the hospital called on the Saturday afternoon to confirm that following the second lot of blood results, the HCG levels had virtually dropped away completely.
By the Sunday, even though I was still bleeding slightly, emotionally, I had already started to recover, I think perhaps because I'd known that something was wrong for that whole week and was expecting it.
I don't know if this helps or not, but my main message to you is that we are all here for you. Bubbap and I have been where you are and know that you just have to get through this in your own way. The Doctor told me that I could start trying again as soon as the bleeding stopped, if I wanted to, other doctors recommend that you wait for your first AF, but normally because of emotional reasons other than anything physical. Only you will know what's right for you.
Please look after yourself sweetheart and remember that your DH will also be feeling awful, not only because he's also suffering, but that he can't help you with the physical aspects and that's hard for them to take sometimes. If you start to get pains and the bleeding does get heavier, take some paracetomol and it will help.
Thinking of you constantly honey and feeling for you so much.
xxxx