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Here we go again . Let the good news flow....

So much to catch up on so grab a cuppa, if you thought Sparkly's was a long post you ain't seen nothing yet.

Firstly thank you for all your lovely thoughts I am feeling much more positive, I knew I should've posted earlier. I seem to have finally got it into my thick head that I only get 'bump pains' when I do too much (and that can be just sanding woodwork too vigorously) as I have done too much running around and bending down at work today and had sore bump. If I do nothing it is fine, so I just have to stop worrying. I think maybe part of my negativity is that I can't get my head around the fact that I am 17 weeks pregnant - I just never thought I would get here. But next time I wobble I promise I won't hide.

Scully I'm thinking of you and your little one - sorry your anniversary has come when so much positive news around but we haven't forgotton you and as negative as I feel sometimes I truly believe that we are all, every single one of us, going to get there. Eventually our little group will be kicked out of conception by those still trying. Be kind to yourself this week lovely.

Sparkly Yey you're back. Dp and I were the same after the m/c's. I kept reading all this stuff about how it can bring you closer and you should support each other and kept thinking we must be rubbish cos we just retreated into our own private little horrible places. You'll get there though and it's great that you have started talking.

Cricri Aaah Little Miss Cricri is here and what a gorgeous name. Shame you had to go to hosp after all your plans but hope still went fairly smoothly. Can't wait to here from you. Can you believe it? You're a Mum!!

Georgie Still really excited about your news. I have a good feeling about this one - if you can fall with all that's been going on with you it must be a sticky one!!

Mollie Get back here right now lady and spill the beans - you are the master of suspense. Why must we tell you off!

Ei Love the new name, are you a busy lady, haven't 'seen' you much. Are you OK?

Kate Last but not least. I have been mulling over your dilemma and have a cunning plan. Firstly I agree with the others - go for it!! and definately agree with Mollie, just have fun and get napalmed. BUT then I thought Kate will not be able to just forget TTC and will be counting days and planning around other things (ie trials!!! - you mad girl) so how about this....... for one month only DH gets to jump your bones WHENEVER he feels like it, no day counting, no waiting until you OV, just whenever he wants and if you happen to tempt him at OV time all the better. I just thought y'know might be fun before the 'proper' trying starts! I don't want to be one of those people who says just relax and it will happen but mine was kind of an accident and Georgie seemed to have stopped stressing about it last month (if only because she was stressing about builders and houses in Streaham and pooey pants etc etc and let's face there is only so many things a woman can stress about and still maintain her beauty and wit!!!)

Anyway, big waves to anyone I've missed Mibbes - only a few days to go at work I think. I have about 5 mins left on battery so am off to bed for crappy but great telexx

I love it when you lot do long posts - I like having something to get my teeth into
Right. I'm off for a read

Kate - can you do a long one too so I can have something to read ...am catching up with xfactor from weekend (how sad am i?!).

Teehee Am sending you a cross face - take it easy ma' lovely...don't do anymore than you have to. You're pregnant so enjoy sitting down and getting fat bigger. xx

yippee congrats cricri on the safe arrival of Elise - lovely name and not dissimilar to our girl's name . Hope you are well and enjoying getting to know the wee poppet - post pics ASAP ! I wonder who will have the first thread boy ?...

Sparkly lovely to have you back posting missus - take it easy, you have had a lot on your plate lately xx.

Kate no harm in having a wee sneaky BD around ov time and put it down to 'practising'...

Yes 3 days left to work ! And am almost 36 weeks eeeekkkkk me next ! All very scary and exciting at the same time

Yes Miss Sparkly - I'll try

Am loving coming on here with such fantastic news 2 days in a row First Georgie now CRICRI!!!! so great to hear about the safe arrival of your beautiful daughter Sorry you didn't get the birth you wanted, but it sounds like she's here safe and sound and that's the only thing that really matters Can't wait for the full unedited version when you have a spare 5 minutes - shouldn't have long to wait then

Mollie why do you need telling off young lady? Soon we'll have to tell you off for not telling us why you need telling off Hope you're ok, and that you've been putting DH's trip to Boots to good use

Thank you all so much for telling me what I wanted to hear for all your sensible advice Teehee you're quite right, there's no way I could just pretend I didn't know which day it was. I think we'll just see what happens this month and if it's meant to happen it will... god I hope this is the right thing to do... I spoke to my consultant today and suggested to him that I might be anaemic, he said my haemaglobin (sp?) is probably higher than his, and asked who'd suggested I might be. I told him it was my acupuncturist (sort of true) and he suggested I tell her to stick her needles somewhere else Don't think he has much faith in alternatrive remedies!

Sparkly I don't think this is anywhere near as long as some of my marathon efforts, but I need to go to bed soon so I hope you'll forgive me! Hope you're not working too hard. I totally agree with what Teehee said about what she and her DH went through after her mc's. It was exactly the same for us, and if that's her, you and me all having the same experience then we must be normal mustn't we?!? We didn't go through it in the same way after we lost Thomas, I think because it was such a long drawn out process which we went through together, but after the first one we had a complete meltdown. I can't remember what triggered it now, but I remember suddenly being in floods of tears while we were eating dinner one night after he said something extraordinarily insensitive It's such a tough time. Be kind to yourself, Teehee's right, we WILL all get there.

Scully hope you're doing ok - am thinking of you xx

Mibbes you must be MASSIVE by now! How many weeks are you now? Not long to go! This thread will have 3 babies by christmas!!

Fruity you're not the only one who thinks your pg is going quickly, can't believe you're nearly 20 weeks already!

Right then. That'd better be it from me for now. If this is DH's lucky night I'd better wake him up, peel him off the sofa, and let him know!

Lots of love to everyone I haven't mentioned - and of course to those I have as well xx

Hello Mibbes! Cross posts! You cleverly answered my questions before I asked them!

Just a quickie as I'm knackered, but firstly have to say congratulations to CriCri on the safe arrival of Elise, beautiful name, can't wait to hear all the gory details and to see the pics.
Right I didn't mean to put anyone in suspense, but I do need telling off! I can't figure out why I want to torture myself, a friend at work told me about her daughters unplanned pg, which I was pissed off fine with, she was accompanying her to the scan yesterday so I wished her luck but did say don't be offended if I don't ask about it all tomorrow (as she knows my history). So what do I do first thing this morning. . . . ask all about it and what does she do . . . . give me all the details about how she saw it waving, how clear it was, how beautiful, moving blah blah blah Not really what I wanted to hear! But it's my own fault for asking. So what I want to know is why when I know it will upset me do I ask, how the hell will I cope when it is SIL going for the scan and why can't I stop prodding what is obviously still a rawness inside me! I am so cross with myself, so please tell me off, don't be nice and tell me it's OK, bollock me please!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry just realised you are all being really positive on here today and we've had lovely news too! Good job it's late at night really!

Will catch up tomorrow with the rest of you if you don't mind as I'm falling asleep at the keyboard

Oh no it looks like I've killed the thread off! Hope your not all too scared to come and tell me off!

Well my catch up:-

Fruity I sincerely apologise for laughing at your beauty related accident, I am sure it was very traumatic and should be treated sensitively and diplomatically. I promise to take it far more seriously next time and not make light of such a distressing incident
TeeHee I am officially telling you off so I hope you can see me pointing my finger at you and wagging it! Please please take it easy on yourself both emotionally and physically, you have a precious cargo on board and you need to let it sink in that you are well on your way to getting exactly what you deserve
EI How are you hun, are you on the 2WW now, we must reintroduce the stats list especially as the pressure is on for the rest of us to produce next year!
Mibbes OMG 36 weeks already! And only 3 days left at work, bet you are so excited! Do you know what flavour it is, my memory is atrocious, see we definately need the stats list back!
Kate Loved what your GP said about the accupuncture, did make me laugh and give me wonderful visions of needles everywhere Unfortunately not been putting our recent purchases to good use, just not in the mood lately so probably good thing we're not TTCing til 09!
Scully Hope you are OK this week hun, keep your chin up and sending you a huge bottle of champagne, some chocolate and a big fat hug x

Hope are new mothers are coping admirably and hello to everyone else x

OK Mollie lie on my couch and I will psychoanalyse you!! Maybe, you ask because deep down you have emotions that need to come out and that is a good way of doing it - kind of like picking a scab, or maybe you are just a mad old bat who needs to learn when to button it, young lady!!
(oooh - hope that was a sufficient telling off- I feel bad now and want to tell you it's OK but you did insist)

Sparkly I promise to be good from now on, I think I am slowly learning my lesson!! I actually think that all pregnant women should be allowed to spend the whole 9 months sitting on a couch/bed/lilypad and get paid hansomely to do it.

Kate I'm glad you spoke to your consultant and that he has given you more confidence - he sounds quite funny too, which is a rarity in the medical profession.

Get your rocks off, get your rocks off honey...

Gues what I've been doing?!?

Anyway....

Mollie I'm nopt going to tell you off I'm afraid, but I will offer to hold your hand. I honestly know exactly how you feel, I do exactly the same thing. What's more, I have a terrible habit (which I will tell you off if you copy ) of looking on the facebook pages of people I know in RL who are pg to see if there are any scan/bump pics for me to torture myself with... no idea why I do it, but as Teehee said it is a bit like picking a scab. Not healthy, you know it won't help, yet somehow compulsive. Maybe there's some sort of support group we could join? "I refuse to give myself a break anonymous" we might need to work on the name though... Hope you're feeling better today lovely, we're all here for you

Teehee less than 3 hours til good news o'clock! Am loving the idea of a lilypad, as long as it would be somewhere significantly warmer than here atm!

btw, I just got my report through from my review on Monday, I can copy and paste it on here if you're really bored interested? I absolutely will not be offended if not! xx

Shall we start the list again? I'll put the bare bones then people can add as much detail as they're comfortable with

Molliemooma CD11 TTC#1
Kate2179 CD13 Cyce 1 TTC#1
HappyAndEiKnowIt
Scully
Sparkly
Piper

Infanticipating
HeyThereGeorgieGirl 4 weeks pg
TeeHeeLady 17 weeks pg, EDD
FruitynNutty 19 weeks pg, EDD
Mibbes 37 weeks pg, EDD

Graduates
Emmsy GIRL! Amy
CriCri GIRL! Elise Vivienne 1st November

apologies to anyone I've missed

Corrections/updates:

Molliemooma CD11 TTC#1
Kate2179 CD13 Cyce 1 TTC#1
HappyandEiknowit
Scully
Sparkly
Piper

Infanticipating
Mibbes 37 weeks pg, EDD 6th December
FruitynNutty 19 weeks pg, EDD 22nd March
TeeHeeLady 17 weeks pg, EDD 11th April
HeyThereGeorgieGirl 4 weeks pg (BFP 3rd Nov CD?? Cycle?)

Graduates
Emmsy GIRL! Amy Louise born 7th October 5lbs 12oz
CriCri GIRL! Elise Vivienne at 0630am 4th November, 7lbs 15oz

Afternoon. Ooh I'm getting good at this keeping up-with-MN malarky

Just updating myself:

Molliemooma CD11 TTC#1
Kate2179 CD13 Cycle 1 TTC#1
HappyandEiknowit
Scully
Sparkly
Piper

Infanticipating
Mibbes 37 weeks pg, EDD 6th December
FruitynNutty 20 weeks pg, EDD 22nd March
TeeHeeLady 17 weeks pg, EDD 11th April
HeyThereGeorgieGirl 4 weeks pg (BFP 3rd Nov CD?? Cycle?)

Graduates
Emmsy GIRL! Amy Louise born 7th October 5lbs 12oz
CriCri GIRL! Elise Vivienne at 0630am 4th November, 7lbs 15oz

I'm pretty sure I will give the group our 1st boy. I just have a feeling. Will be fantastic as he can have all DS's clothes and save me a fortune. I'm still saying "she" though when I talk about her I just hate saying "it"

TeeHee Thank you for you analysis most appreciated, and your couch was quite comfy I'd love to visit again! I think your DH should be treating you like a princess and waiting on your hand foot and finger and you can show him this if you like. I can get my finger back out again too
Kate Somebody has been busy then Thank you hun, and can I confess I do exactly the same thing, in fact I even went onto You Tube and watched people talking about their m/c's how bloody sad is that! Think I just wanted to cry! I'm so glad to hear that I am not the only mad bat out there! I luurrvee you for putting my mind at rest as I was beginning to think I was going out of my mind
Fabulous list by the way

Fab new list Kate. I'm not sure what cycle on I'm now so I've just added cycle 1 after m/c. I'd like to see your report - I might might understand it but I'll have a nosey peek. P.S. You're a filthy minx
Fruity I wonder if you will have a boy - you'll know in a week! Have you thought of names yet?
Teehee Can you try and set up that policy so it applies to me if/when I get pregnant? Hope you've been taking it easy today.
Mibbes Only 2 days left at work!! I remember starting maternity leve - I was only 29 weeks but DP was off for the summer and there was no way I was continuing to go to work.....
Cricri If you're reading this then I hope you're all doing ok. x

My sister is coming over for some fireworks tonight....Oh, and I suspect I may have ovulated Mon/Tues. BD'd over the weekend but was too nervous to attempt it after that. It's so strange that I go from being desperate to be pregnant to being terrified of it ever happening again.
I managed to finish my first assignment (for this year) today - only another two to finish this week. Also met with my tutor and he thinks I'm on course for a 2.1 for my degree and a 1st for my teaching - so much work to do before then though.
Better go - DD is testing my phonic awareness

Molliemooma CD11 TTC#1
Kate2179 CD13 Cycle 1 TTC#1
Sparkly CD19 TTC#2 Cycle 1 after m/c
HappyAndEiKnowIt
Scully
Piper

Infanticipating
HeyThereGeorgieGirl 4 weeks pg
TeeHeeLady 17 weeks pg, EDD
FruitynNutty 19 weeks pg, EDD
Mibbes 37 weeks pg, EDD

Graduates
Emmsy GIRL! Amy
CriCri GIRL! Elise Vivienne 1st November

Nice to have the list back Kate Thanks for that, it's good to know where everyone is so to speak and isn't it fab to see 2 little Missess on there.

Back from midwife appointment and everything is fine. In fact she said strong heartbeat, perfect blood pressure and perfect iron in blood. Basically I am perfect which I've been telling DP for years! Feel so much better now that I've heard that heartbeat again - I could listen to that sound ALL day.

Mollie I probably won't show DP your message, he will roll his eyes and think I've been slating him on MN again!! but he is starting to 'get' that he needs to look after me. I think the fact that he can see a bump reminds him I am actually pregnant.

On a different note, even though my 2 cats spend much of their time chasing or avoiding each other (well George chasing and Biff avoiding) they are currently both huddled behind the sofa together hiding from the fireworks!! Bless.

hi ladies

Molliemooma CD11 TTC#1
Kate2179 CD13 Cycle 1 TTC#1
Sparkly CD19 TTC#2 Cycle 1 after m/c
HappyAndEiKnowIt CD19 TTC#2 cycle 12 (CP/MC april & june08)
Scully
Piper

Infanticipating
HeyThereGeorgieGirl 4 weeks pg
TeeHeeLady 17 weeks pg, EDD
FruitynNutty 19 weeks pg, EDD
Mibbes 37 weeks pg, EDD

Graduates
Emmsy GIRL! Amy
CriCri GIRL! Elise Vivienne 1st November

i have updated my stats so all can see i have absolutely no idea whether i have oved or not etc and i am surprisingly not all that bothered
i hope everyone is doing well and is having a nice time this bonfire night
mollie just a quick one to say i wont be telling you off as i do the same thing[lush] (i went as far as practically facebok stalking a friend of mine who had a baby few weeks ago as i was dying to see some pics and then i had a little cry when i saw them i wish it was easier and there was less of the obsession and upset that follows this awful experience but i thinkn it goes hand in hand with moving on and getting rid of excess emotions that are bottled up as far as i know it doesnt make you crazy to do that it just feels a bit like mental torture at the time hope you are feeling better
teehee i hope you are puttingb your feet up lovely wow 17 weeks already
mibbes i cant believe you are so close now has it gone as quickly for you as it has for us?
scully i hope you are ok and you havent struggled too much with the past few dahys {{{{{{{{huge hugs}}}}}}}}}
a big hello to everyone else
xx ei xx

hello ladies - lovely to see the list back but very scary that I'm next , we seem to have lost some details along the way and I have moved a week too far on - eeekkk ! Hope this is ok now:

Molliemooma CD11 TTC#1
Kate2179 CD13 Cycle 1 TTC#1
Sparkly CD19 TTC#2 Cycle 1 after m/c
HappyAndEiKnowIt CD19 TTC#2 cycle 12 (CP/MC april & june08)
Scully
Piper

Infanticipating
Mibbes 36 weeks pg, EDD 6th December
FruitynNutty 20 weeks pg, EDD 22nd March
TeeHeeLady 17 weeks pg, EDD 11th April
HeyThereGeorgieGirl 4 weeks pg (BFP 3rd Nov CD?? Cycle?)

Graduates
Emmsy GIRL! Amy Louise born 7th October 5lbs 12oz
CriCri GIRL! Elise Vivienne at 0630am 4th November, 7lbs 15oz

Sorry Ei, didn't answer your question, yes it has flown in, I can remember coming on here with my BFP news like it was yesterday !

Kate yes bump is geting HUGE !

Fruity I swear you've been cheating, how on earth are you 20 weeks already ? Your PG is going soooo quickly I reckon you'll overtake me and be next !!!!

{{big hugs}} to Mollie, Kate and Ei I feel so much for you ladies and what you are going through, I can't pretend to understand but I can send you all big love and sticky baby vibes xx

2 days to go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry (oops baby brain strikes again) Sparkly & scully big hugs to you ladies too xx

Oh and teehee congrats on being perfect

Wow. Loads to catch up on. Where do I start? Hmmmmm.

Kate Check you out Miss Thing . You'll be swinging from the lampshade next! Really glad you've got your mojo back. And bet DH is walking into work looking rather pleased with himself.Am really, really hoping that something good comes out of this month. Even if it's nothing more than just making you feel happy and connected to yuor DH again.

Mollie TeeHee's done a fan job on her couch with you. No telling off from me. Because (whisper) I do exactly the same thing. Ask stupid questions. Then have to plaster smile on face and feel crap for the rest of the day. But hey. You're only human. And a nice person. And not one to be rude to people.

TeeHee Hello Perfect Lady . Really glad that everything going well for you. Make sure you put your feet up once in a while though.

Fruity Am hanging head in shame for laughing at your hair striaghtening incident . Are you sure it's a boy?!?!? Am positive it's a girl! Anyhoo, you'll be finding out next week. How exciting.

Scully Thinking of you. ((((((hugs)))).

Ei You sounds very chilled me lady. Am liking the new zen attitude. pass some my way please!

Sparkly Fab news about your assignment. And even better news about a 2.1/1st. That would be amazing. Only managed a 2.2 myself. All my own fault. Didn't work hard enough. Sometimes think Uni is wasted on the young. Bah humbug! So will you be able to relax a bit after last 2 assignments are handed in?

Mibbes They had better have got you one big ass cake for your last day at work!!!!

Right, better go wake up Libs, then off to get Mollie from school. I'm off to see doctor at Parkside (private hospital in Wimbledon) tonight to see what he can recommend to help me hang onto this pg. Am already taking small dose of asprin. Feeling ok. Just tired and stressed with the build and Streatham. But there is light at the end of the tunnel. So deep breath and plough on thru!

Mollie: that should be that TeeHee has done a FAB job on you. Not fan job. Although, maybe TeeHee could do a side line in fanning people [hmm}.

Hello ladies!
Haven't had chance to catch up on the thread in detail but I saw all your good wishes and knew you'd want to see photos so I've just uploaded some
We're all doing very well thank you, Elise seems happy and content and is feeding well. My milk hasn't come in yet but fingers crossed BF will continue to go well when it does. She is utterly adorable and DH and I are very proud parents indeed
Unfortunately I did miss out on my home birth in the end and had to be transferred to hospital, but the main thing is we're both safe and well. We got home yesterday afternoon as we had to stay 24h following the ventouse delivery. Will post a birth story in due course and link to it.
Hope you're all OK - will catch up in due course but just wanted to say hi to you all.
Mibbes You're next

Cricri Oh, she's wonderful. Just so pretty. And what a lot of hair! Love the name. And glad that you had a positive birth experience. Even if it didn't go exactly to plan. Rest up young lady. It's bloody hard work from here on in! Give us a cuddle then . xxxxxxxxxxxxx