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[lardybump]

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guess whos back back again.....

well long time no see.;..flying visit/update im afraid...

turns out i may be having more porbs than i thought, had another immese cycle still not had AF but got to CD 67 and thought fuck it i cant take this anymore, so put self back onto pill for a few months in the hope of getting cycle back to normal.Maty also change jobs,a s work isnt helping - super stressful, wishing i was dead rather than going, doctor said its either change jobs or get signed off!!! Have also embarked on health regime, now going to an exercise class once a week, not having bread during the week, getting on my exercise bike etc....

Hope all is well with everyone, not even sure anyone will remember me but hope so! not strong enough at this point in time to come back properly, but i will be back when im pg, sowith any luck see you all in 2-3 months

much love to all of you - cosmo, playing, NJ, Kays, diege, teuch, Lardy, star, Pop, glask, ses, gruffalo..and anyone else ive forgotten - from an upbeat and hopeful,

BB xx

Hey BB!! Sorry to hear you've been having such a tough time. V impressed with your health regime! Look forward to welcoming you back when you're happily pg in 2-3 months. Should hopefully be about the same timing for me if all goes ok!!

Thanks for your responses to my Q ladies x

LB - So sorry to hear you are having to go through such a tough time. Please don't feel you have to leave us though, if it helps to vent on her about what you are going through, please do. We will all be hear to listen and give advice where we can. Be strong for you, DD and bump, and don't listen to what DP is saying. Sounds like he is trying to blame you for his own issues.

BB - I know we don't do hugs but (( )) Good to see you! Of course we haven't forgotten about you. You are the founder of this brilliant thread after all. Look forward to seeing you back f/t before too long. Sounds like you are doing the right thing for your body and sure all will be working as normal before you know it.

OH LB, this is definitely a time for thread hugs I know it's hard to tell from your postings alone, but it really does sound like you're in an abusive relationship...the comments your dh made are, as Cosmo says, a reflection of his own 'issues' and screwed up mind. I feel very, very for you, as I have been in a similar relationship many years ago where the same things were said to me. He's trying to get you scared by mentioning custody issues etc, and this is real bullying that you shouldn't have to put up with. Do you have family/close friends that you could confide in? I remember keeping everything to myself as I felt really embarrassed about it all, but that's what men like that want you to do . Sorry if this all sounds negative, but your post did trigger off warning bells to say the least. And what an awful thing for you to deal with when feeling so rough too.
Don't you dare leave the thread - I feel especially close to you on this thread, and you really helped me when I felt so awful about that Nov 05 thread business. Keep strong, and we are all here for you .
I think you would also get some excellent adviceif you posted in 'relationships', as sadly this sort of thing is all too common .
SES, many congrats on the job - excellent news! Enjoy your wedding recpetion, and you too Tinks?
BB, good to hear from you. Sorry that things are difficult at the moment, with work and ttc. It does sound like you have a strategy in hand though, so fingers crossed things will work themselves good soon! Does sound like a new job is much needed!
Hi to all - have a banging headache here - weather related I think.
Speak later, diege xxx

So sorry for being such a pain. I have been thinking hard about what to do. I was in a violent relationship before I met dp so never thought I would feel this way again (although dp has never been violent towards me). When we are not fighting dp is the most loving, gentleman that I know. But when we argue he throws the most hurtful things at me. I don?t want the relationship to end but I don?t want to go on like this. It seems to be happening every Saturday. He has just called me and was talking as if nothing has happened.

I told him that it was unacceptable the way he spoke to me and that I am so upset about it that I am thinking of leaving. He was shocked and said ?I am really sorry but you know I don?t mean it I am just letting off steam... I don?t know what to do about it do I let it drop now he knows how far he pushed me? What if it happens again? I am still so upset.

I have written down everything that I do in my week and everything that he does. And I am going to ask him where he feels I can fit in the ironing and other housework safely. I will then show him where I think he can fit it in during his week. What do you think?

He has asked me to give up working on Saturdays because we don?t have enough family time together but work won?t let me (I am contracted to do set hours 6 days a week). Do you think this is an issue? We only get Sundays to spend as a family but we would not be able to survive financially if I gave up work altogether. And would find it hard to get another evening job around here where I can work from home.

Thank you all for your lovely comments you have made me cry again......

Aww Lardy. I think you are approaching this very sensibly by writing things down and approaching things practically. It's harder for him to ignore things and change the subject if they are in black and white. Regarding you giving up working Saturdays, I think this is a bit of a red herring tbh. It's as if he's blaming your work for the problems you're having, whereas you would have another set of problems if you gave up work. And esp if it's not doable with your work anyway, then I think that stops that one straight away. Tis good that you're looking at where he can contribute more, otherwise it again looks like you're sitting down to see how YOU can manaage things better (when it looks like you are doing brilliantly - it's he who has the problems!!). I would be a teeny bit concerned about how easy it has been for him to 'forget' his comments and make light of them; he obviously has a lot of anger issues pent up that get directed verbally at you. You are right not to let this pass as it needs sorting asap.
Good luck! You are a strong woman, and you have the weight of the wagon behind you!!!!

Thank you diege . He does have to change the way he talks to me. He is on his last chance, I can do this on my own I know. If this ever happens again I am off. And I will tell him this tonight.

Good luck for tonight . You are definitely approaching this the right way, and you're right in facing it head on. Strike while the iron's hot, however stressful, and whatever happens you'll know that you were true to yourself and doing the best thing for your dd and beanie .

Thank you again Diege you are wonderful. I am off now but will speak to you on monday. Thank you Xxxx

Evening all, PIL have now left so got 2 seconds to myself for a catch up.

LB, sorry you've had such a stressful day but glad Diege was here for you x and (((((hugs))))

Ses, if I don't get on tomorrow good luck for your Monday test, fingers crossed for a BFN!

BB, lovely to see you, albeit briefly, everone's promised not to leave me so we'll all be here whenever you're able to come back!

Teuch, how do you know this stuff? I love it

Evening everyone, just dropping into say hi. Been stripping walls all day and have got loads done.

LL I am sorry to hear about the bust up with DP. I know abusive rows very well and its just awful, and I can imagine hell if your pg and not feeling well. Please keep posting here - and vent, dont bottle up. You are stronger than you think. Take care.

Welcome Dinky and Congrats on the job Ses!

I'm having up and down today on the 2WW. Nearly bought some tests in Sains last night but couldnt do it- think I didnt want the temptation in the house, but during today I've somehow decided that Im not going to get a BFP. Its funny, but a feeling I have.... And DH is seeming really keen and keeps commenting on it [hmmm]

Another 6 days to wait.

morning all....

LB sorry to hear of your troubles yesterday, glad diege was here for you, you know what is right and wrong and if he does it again i know you've got the strength to walk away from it, you and your children dont need that sort of behaviour from the man who is supposed to love you all. Be strong and hope things work out!!

BB hello, nice to 'see' you (however brief) hope going back on the pill helps your cycle, lets keep our fingers crossed it does the trick and you'll be back pg in no time!!

GYo my DH was like that last month, kept saying 'you could be eating for two' 'dont wanna risk it just in case your pg' sort of thing.... he was really adamant we were, this month we both dont feel we are... but you never know eh!!??

Iwas going to take the kids out today, maybe go to the park or something but its peeing it down, and they trashed their room (very silently i may add) this morning, ripped the curtains down, ruined video cases and ripped some of my things that were in a drawer in there!! wasn't happy at all, so have confiscated lots of toys for bad punishment!!

Also yesterday while i was making tea DS ruined a present i got off my great grandma (who is close to the end of her years as i type) and ripped a little bit on one of the portrait pictures we bought of them, so i wasn't impressed!! AND WE WANT ANOTHER???? i swear if he carries on like this we'll probs stop ttc for a while... his terrible 2's are coming very late!! he was a little gem until recently!!

morning

had a great time @ the wedding and was mostly dry which was very lucky. did lots of dancing in eve and didnt go to bed till 12:30pm.
had a lay in and going to relax today
have scan @ 9:20am tom cant believe it.

lb you are being sensible about situation so sorry that it talks to you like that.

bb gr8 to hear from you sounds like you are being very healthy good luck

Morning . Sounds like you had a good time last night Tinks! Wow, 12.30am!! Don't remember the last time I saw that time!
Hi Glaskham - sympathies of the trashed bedroom front - have a similar scenario to go and deal with myself in a moment (there ate noises...)I also worry about new baby and tantrumming toddler. dd3 has one or two a day, but remember dd2's lasting till age 4 (still has the odd one at 5) so on that reasoning I'd be into my 40s before ttc no.4. Me and dh have decided that we are really going to try and be calmer and less shouty - hard when you're both tired, but it does seem better when we can 'stand back' a bit from their screeching/whining and put it into perspective. My children sound delightful don't they .
More marking for me today - I am seriously starting to lose the will to live...and of course the highlight of the day Nadal in the men's final ...
Oh and a guilty confession...spent £306 in the mini boden sale Couldn't stop once I'd started, although it is going to be funded by the marking money so not as bad as it sounds!
LB, hope you were OK last night - was thinking of you - and will post as soon as you can to let us know how you got on

Hi all,

I have not long got up after my hen night out in London last night. It was quite eventful!I actually got a lift back early with a pregnant friend as I couldn't last any longer. Got home 1.30, in bed for 2pm. I didn't drink though so am feeling ok now.

So sorry lardy for all your troubles, but you sound very strong and I know you well get this sorted. Good luck!

Glask and Diege, your dc sound a bit of a handful, but it's all worth it right???

DH has gone on a very long bike ride in the rain, the nutter. Just for fun

I need to work on my dissertation today but don't want to!grrr!

Hi all! Back from wedding in Brighton and had a really good time. Nice good and a good party afterwards and both brides looked fab - on ein a gorgeous shocking pink party dress and the other in a bronze coloured corset top and trousers. I confess I did make the most of being able to drink.... and well why not!!

LB - thinking of you [hugs]

Gruffalo - do spill on your "eventful" hen do!

Diege - I'm sitting here watching the mens final at the moment and Nadal is playing well but sorry I'd still like Federer to win!

Hi Ses

Glad you had a good time at the wedding and had a good drink!

We were on a party bus for the hen night with another hen night downstairs and upstairs with us were a drunken stag party. The very first journey there were lots of stripping from them and many bum bearing escapades and unfortuneately the stag was sitting right next to me and my pregnant friend. When we got up, both of us had our bottoms slapped by which we weren't amused (both stone cold sober and stag and co were not attractive )

Our hen party were up to various drunken antics including one girl who was dared in the second bar we visited to get one of the stag party to give them their boxer shorts which he did in the middle of the dance floor and got chucked out for indecent exposure! He then promptly decked the bouncer (albeit later after he had been let back in after our hen had a word with the bouncer about the dare)and proceeded in getting the whole stag party chucked off the party bus! Phew I better stop before this turns into an essay!

Eventful though

Sounds like a good time was had by all, although as soon as fists start flying that's normally when I want to leave...

A good hen do needs to be eventful though

Gruffalo- it is worth it.... i think we all just got a bit stir-crazy (myself & kids) as we normally go out at the weekends to get the kids some fresh air, other than the nursery run each day we rarely get time to do anything else in the week so we'd all been stuck in the house since monday really...

We went to my mums as the sun came out at 11ish, and they were little angels!! dd fell over and has cut her finger open though, and wont keep a plaster on it... so keep checking it, its still covered in blood though (after 3hrs) and she wont let me clean it... hopefully she'll put it in the bath and it'll clean up.

So YES IT IS WORTH IT!!! I wouldn't be doing it all again if it wasn't!!

glaskham, DS (19 months) has been chasing me round with his shoes and the keys to the backdoor today he's not subtle

Its been hammering it down all day and I don't have any wellies for him....suppose I could have let him out in his sandals as they would have dried out, maybe I'm a bit of a stick in the mud? Blasted weather has made today very tedious!

Feeling very stroppy, tearful and bloated so a fair sign AF is once more imminent. If she arrives again then I'm definitly booking an appt with the doctor as this will be six unsuccessful cycles and I have endometriosis so want to talk about it sooner rather than later.

Speaking of appts, I also have my consultant appt booked with ENT dept to look at getting my tonsills removed..its in beg. of August. I hadn't really given any thought to the fact they won't be able to do it if I'm pregnant but I'm not going to stop trying for that!

I've got a dental hospital appt coming up as well - perhaps I should a tonsillectomy and dental deep clean all at the same time and under full sedation!

Glask - glad you had a good day! I have to say I have been cooped up inside all day and indeed it has made me feel stir crazy!

Cals - sorry to hear that you think that AF is on the way but you never know till she comes! (which is what is driving me crazy!)

It is good that you are getting your appointments sorted, at least if your are not pg you can them out the way before you are!

Hi All,
Been away this week - thought I might get a chance to get on last weekend or Monday before we went, but was all manic! Had a lovely week off work though.
No time to catch up fully, but...
LB - sorry to hear you're having such a tough time of it. Sounds like you have absolutely the right attitude with writing things down, etc. I have to agree with what Diege said - sounds like he is a bully.
BB - welcome back, albeit briefly. Your new approach sounds good - I defo need to try to stick to the diet thing myself.
Cals - sorry to hear AF sounds like it's on the way, but as you know it's not over until she sings.
Loads to do tonight... back in work tomorrow and then DH has his op on Tues (as long as he doesn't get bumped again), so making the most of him being able to do things (round the house - pick up your filthy minds) before he's laid up for ca. 3 weeks only doing phsyio and planned exercise.
CD21 for me today - definitely waiting until a week on Mon to test. Can't believe how tempting sypmtom spotting is. Been feeling a bit sicky last couple of days and DH said "Wahey, super sperm does it again" until I pointed out that you don't get sickness before you're even due AF!! Think he's getting a bit over-excited
Right, really off now. Hope to drop in again during the week, but it is going to be MANIC!

Evening all, how good is the tennis?! Go Nadal!

Wow - what a match! That was amazing. Anyone else see it?

CD 13 today. Been having ovulation pain on and off today and CM very slippery but not EW just yet, so think ov must be imminent. We GOF'd this morning and will try to get another in tomorrow.....then the waiting game begins I guess. If I ov in next few days, would 19th July be too early to test?