TTC#1 - Looking for Others in the Same Boat PART TWO THE SEQUEL WHERE WE ALL GET OUR BABIES???!

[MocktailMe]

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Hi everyone!

I can't quite believe it but after a while year we only went and filled the last thread.

I'll tag you all below so that you can find me!

If anyone silently reading along wants to keep following - here's the place. If anyone wants to read the fertility journey for the last year have a look through the last thread.

@AnotherLiv I’m waiting for ovulation so also constantly peeing in a pot.

@MocktailMe I’m back from holiday and waiting for ovulation - had a bit of stretchy discharge and I’m CD13 post miscarriage so not sure when it will be.

We’ve BD a bit and it doesn’t feel weird so I think we’ll start trying every few days just to cover it. I’m off work this week so we’ve got time..

How are you feeling?

Hey char hopefully with the post hycosy and raised fertility from recently being pregnant you may well catch again this month. What good news that ovulation has returned so quickly.

I'll have everything crossed for you!

I'm currently 11DPO was negative this morning, so I suppose I'll have my answer for this cycle within the next 2-3 days either way.

@MocktailMe the familiar waiting game! ❤️

CD 1 again :( Disappointing as I ovulated right towards the end of our 10 day trying streak. At least I know I couldn't have done any more. It's possible I ovulated on the side without a tube.

We have now chosen our IVF clinic. I'll be ringing my consultants office on Monday to let them know which we have chosen and to tell them to proceed and send my blood results to them 🩷

Here's to a new cycle and most importantly a new chapter ✨

How's everyone doing?

I'm 8DPO today and have felt weirdly hopeful this cycle as we've done everything right, although we all know that's not how this works 😅 but I'm symptom spotting like mad anyway.

My progesterone test came back and looked good, my husband's blood tests came back and literally everything was bang on average. Other than his 1% morphology we can't see any reason why we haven't got pregnant yet, it's so frustrating.
If my period comes next week I'm going to phone the gyno clinic to see if I'm anywhere near the top of the list and if not I'm going private. So at least we have a plan!

@MocktailMe sorry your period arrived. Yes at least you know you did everything you could that cycle. You're taking the next step, and as daunting as IVF might be the pressure's off you a bit and you're in the hands of professionals. It's good to get the ball rolling on it.

Hey @Tater05 I'm pleased to hear your good test results! I know it must be frustrating to not have an answer but it does mean that you have better chances.

Thank you. Today's been a bit of a struggle but I am trying to remain positive for the future.

Hi ladies, I’m so sorry I introduced myself on here & posted a couple of times and then haven’t been on again. I’ve been on holiday, and it does wonders for the mental health! Back home & 7dpo and already feeling the stress of TTC again creeping in.

@MocktailMe your post further back about the sadness of life that doesn’t have a child really resonates with me. Having no children and 3 losses under my belt I felt what your wrote completely. I’m so sorry AF arrived. I hope once you speak to the clinic tomorrow you’ll feel like a step in the right direction

@Tater05 fingers crossed for this cycle for you. I don’t feel hopeful for this cycle for me. It’s the first one trying since my last MMC, and due to DP being away we only managed to dtd 3 days before ovulation & day of ovulation

@MocktailMe and @Tater05 its good to have plans.

I’ve found that thinking what the next steps are has helped me deal with when the present doesn’t go how you want.

@Tater05 I’ve found positive test results give me mixed feelings like it’s great there’s nothing wrong… but also tell me whyyyy?!

I’d definitely see if you go private if you can get a hycosy as I think that helped me.

@Figtree11 welcome! I’m also trying first cycle after miscarriage and also feeling familiar stress. But also always trying not to stress of course….

I’m currently trying to book a holiday so I’ve got something to look forward to which isn’t focussed on TTC!

@CharLdn the trying not to stress, but stressing at the same time is definitely what it’s like 😂 Honestly I have found going on holiday so beneficial for me. I manage to switch off about TTC and it helps so much. Does make it difficult coming back home though! Where abouts in your cycle are you?

@Figtree11 welcome back glad you enjoyed your holiday.

The sadness is all encompassing at the moment, I feel overwhelmed with grief. We had the funeral for our baby two weeks ago and honestly the hope of the current cycle basically powered me through. Feel very empty now grieving the baby and the recent lost hope. I do hope I'll be snapping out of this soon. I know there are brighter days ahead.

@MocktailMe big hugs - the constant hope/disappointment cycle is exhausting ❤️

Its so deeply unfair and it’s important not to brush past our feelings - all of them.

I do find it particularly hard when luteal phase sets in that we have to deal with being on AND all of the feelings too.

Sending solidarity!

@Figtree11 I’m CD 16ish post miscarriage we’ve decided to try even though I haven’t had a period as it was very early and I feel physically fine.

My LH is just rising so I think I’m ovulating now.

@MocktailMe i am so sorry you are struggling. It’s a really hard place to be. For me, the few days after AF arrive when I am TTC I find so difficult. Hopefully in a couple of days the hope for the next cycle, or the next steps you are planning, start to creep back in

@CharLdn oh that’s good, and it’s come back quickly. I ovulated on cd26 this cycle (I have pcos) and the wait caused me so much stress! I’m 7dpo and I’ve been looking back at my last pregnancy & what dpo I started having symptoms so I’m feeling pretty confident I’m out this month

@Figtree11 I feel like TTC is an endless waiting game - last time I didn’t test positive till about 13 DPO - but the one thing which was an indicator was my body temp stayed high.

Not that you need more symptoms to spot!

I just find it hard because there’s such a crossover between pre menstrual and pregnancy it’s such a mind game. Hang in there - hopefully answers either way this week 🤞

I know how hard it is but try not to count yourself out at 7dpo - it really is too early to call it at that point. It's impossible though to switch off from thinking about it - I try to keep myself busy and out and about as much as I can but it's still there in the background!

I've called my consultants secretary today and confirmed which IVF clinic to send the bloods to. We have two in our vicinity and I've looked through a lot of reviews and do feel happy with our selection. I've had to forward my HSG result on, which I've done, so that's it now - nothing more for me to do as yet.

Unbelievably, I've discovered my workplace has an IVF Policy - this is insane considering we don't get sick pay and I earn pennies above minimum wage 😄 However, it's all good news, and means I can have some paid days off per cycle. So I will also be penning a letter to HR to make them aware soon.

Feels honestly quite anticlimactic now 😂 the doctor is on annual leave this week so I know nothing will be sent to the clinic until next week BUT the ball is rolling!

Until then, I'm on what will be the last day of my period (CD 3) and gearing up to go again. My boyfriend thinks I'm being daft to be so negative after only two failed cycles post surgery, and without the cloud of hormones attacking my brain I think he is probably right.

@CharLdn it really is, and I’m an inpatient person so hate waiting 😆 last time I tested the day my period was due, so think I’ll do the same this time. But I just had a strong feeling I was pregnant before because of sore boobs & cramping. But I can’t remember if I had symptoms with the 2 pregnancies before that.
Thank you - let’s see what the week brings!

@MocktailMe I’m similar, I try keep busy & tell myself I’m not thinking about it. But then I am thinking about it as I’m telling myself not to think about it! I had such strong symptoms last time that I guess I just feel disappointed already which is stupid.
Thats great that you’ve got the ball rolling. And even better that your work has an ivf policy. I think it helps knowing you’ve got some next steps starting to form. My DP would be the same as yours, but I definitely have the same mindset as you! It’s hard to stay positive

Guys 🥹 I'm in total shock.

17 cycles, not even a hint of a second line, and I've finally got my BFP!!!

I've spent the last few days going crazy over very faint lines on cheapies, they looked like indents but for someone who's only ever seen absolute stark negatives it was hard not to get my hopes up. So today I went to Boots for more tests and absolutely was not expecting this second line! I tried the digital and finally saw those words!

I'm only 11dpo so it's still early and I know it can still go either way so I'm trying to keep a realistic head on, but after a year and a half with nothing this is huge progress, however it goes from here.

I would also like to say that this month is easily the most obsessive I've ever been about it, so I'm not sure about the whole 'relax and it'll happen' thing. I've been the opposite of relaxed!

Oh congratulations 🩷🩷🩷✨✨✨✨

Your first BFP and it's SO long awaited 🥰

I know it's extremely early days (and I think we have all had it go various ways) but there is no reason to be anything but excited and positive and so so pleased! I'm really happy for you.

Keep posting as I know these next few weeks can be such a whirlwind!

What lovely news x

@Tater05 congrats to you !!!!! If it helps my first test post MC was 1-2 weeks also on a digital x

Thank you @MocktailMe! Will definitely keep you all posted, you've all kept me sane in this thread over the last year!

Thanks @KTB34, yes that's good to know!

I'm attaching my easy@home tests in case anyone ends up in the same position with them, it was so hard to tell if they were indents or faint positives. I still can't believe it went from the 11dpo with FMU to the BFP later in the day.

Congrats @Tater05 !

The ten and eleven dpo I would have thought were likely early positive, the 9 I would not. Those tests take a while to show progression though - I tracked my last pregnancy on them whilst having bloods taken and whilst I knew from bloods the HCG had more than doubled the actual line difference was barely even noticeable! I think that BFP Digi is much better for spelling it out!

Fantastic BFP @Tater05 ! Here is to a sticky one! 🙌

@Tater05 yesss 👏 👏 👏

So thrilled for you ❤️

Are you in shock?!