TTC#1 - Looking for Others in the Same Boat PART TWO THE SEQUEL WHERE WE ALL GET OUR BABIES???!

[MocktailMe]

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Hi everyone!

I can't quite believe it but after a while year we only went and filled the last thread.

I'll tag you all below so that you can find me!

If anyone silently reading along wants to keep following - here's the place. If anyone wants to read the fertility journey for the last year have a look through the last thread.

Good luck @MocktailMe when starting your first IVF protocol. Hope everything goes smoothly and the retrieval and transfer is nice and easy for you. You’ve defo got this, I think the positivity alone of what the outcome of these procedures could be will really help your recovery, as mentally you’ll be in a good place. Look at everything you’ve been through also, without all that positivity surrounding it. I’m sure there will be difficult days but it’s all for a good cause and being upset or struggling doesn’t matter, but you will get through it. Got my fingers crossed for an extra special Xmas this year for you.

glad all is well @Waitingformiracle and @Tater05 your pregnancies will begin to fly by now. Then time will feel like it’s slowed to an almost stop towards the back end 🤣. Make the most of feeling fab as from experience you really do start to feel “pregnant” from about 32/33 weeks.

Good to have something to focus on and a plan @CharLdn.

After I’d literally given up hope this cycle and decided to disassociate from the whole process - I’ve tested positive today.

🤞 it’s second time lucky 🤞

Oh my gosh @CharLdn this is the best news!!!! Huge congratulations I am so happy for you 🙌❤️

This is 14 dpo - no squinting here!

Oh wow @CharLdn that's great news...did you wait to test on 14dpo???

Second time lucky 🍀

Omg @CharLdn ! No second guessing there! Fingers firmly crossed for a sticky one 🤞

@MocktailMe I’d planned not to test until CD 30 because my period was later last month but I wanted to go to the pub for a red wine so I thought I’d test just in case.

It was the day before my periods due.

I’m happy because already the lines are darker than they were last time so hopefully this is a sign it’s different 🤞

Wow that's incredible willpower I am impressed! Worth waiting as well as you get such a lovely clear line.

What great news. Deffo worth missing a red wine for! How are you feeling?

Just me and @PearOpal to go 😬

@CharLdn definitely no squinting there! And those particular tests I found didn’t go as dark for me so those are strong lines! Really thrilled for you!

@lavafield congratulations!!! So happy to hear your little one made it safe and sound. I hope you’re setting into motherhood well!!

@CharLdn AHHHH CONGRATS!!! I’m so so so happy for you!! Absolutely over the moon to read your good news 🤗

@MocktailMe honestly I’d 1000% given up hope and had basically decided to disassociate from the whole process because testing before my period is due seemed like a complete waste of time and money.

Considering my odds had been 1/23 cycles it seemed safer not to hope.

So not sure about self restraint but more economic and psychological factors.

Have you started meds yet?

@PearOpal thank you it feels very surreal.

I’ve not really had any symptoms apart from a bit of cramping on Thursday but last time things started to shift around week 5.

How are you getting on?

Im doing well. Just started back on another TWW so…here we go again. I’m still feeling much calmer won’t the whole thing but it’s definitely hard seeing so much success when I’ve never even seen a hint of a BFP. Maybe this will be my lucky cycle though, who knows!

@PearOpal I always try to think mindset matters for your own wellbeing but not actually for success. I swing every day between believing with all my heart that my first IVF transfer will be a huge success (almost like I've earned that) and then change my mind to thinking we won't even get an embroyos to transfer at all. It's a massive rollercoaster and I do soothe myself by remembering that if it will happen it will happen regardless of how I feel about it. All that to say, if you feel wobbly, it's okay to have a wobble. I'm genuinely really happy for the ladies on this thread, everyone deserves happiness so much, but I can't pretend I don't find it a bit hard to hear at times too (sorry ladies, you've all been nothing but kind to me, but sometimes it can feel tough!). So I get it xx

@PearOpal @MocktailMe those feelings are so so valid and I completely understand them believe me. I did have to take a break from on here for a while because I was finding all of the success very overwhelming so I totally understand. Also, I can only speak for myself but I’m sure the other ladies might agree that we can 100% keep the chat about pregnancy and success out of here if you are finding it triggering because nobody wants anyone to feel that way ❤️

@PearOpal I get it it’s like ground hog day, definitely a marathon not for the weak! For context it took me 18 cycles in a row before I had a positive. I gave up having hope or a positive attitude and viewed the whole process like a gym routine. Sometimes it’s easier to just disassociate from the whole thing.

@MocktailMe I also completely get that it’s hard to hear success I’ve struggled too at times so I’ve dipped in and out at times for my own sanity.

I also muted all the babies and pregnant people on Instagram too - even close friends as I’ve found that jarring.

I personally wouldn't want you to stop the pregnancy chat - my mood on this fluctuates a lot and some days I absolutely love to hear the updates and they give me hope. Other days, I know to stay off the site completely!

Especially your story @Waitingformiracle having IVF success gives me so much hope.

I just wanted to check in to say I've officially started IVF and done my injection!! It stung a bit as the medication went in but mostly it was a psychological battle to actually put the needle in. I feel so much better having got it done and whilst I'm still a bit overwhelmed thinking about adding the other meds in in two weeks for now, for down reg, I really do think I've got this!!!

@CharLdn What a lovely update from you! It looks like it is a good sign that the lines are that strong with a day still to go before your period is due. Hopefully that means implantation took place earlier rather than later , which is sometimes considered to be better for pregnancy outcomes. Fingers crossed for you!
@MocktailMe when do you start your medication?
Thanks everyone again, our little man is growing!

@MocktailMe oh sorry somehow the thread was not updated for me when I was typing. I see you have already started your injections! Well done! You have got this! 🙌

@MocktailMe yay well done!!! First one down is a big step ❤️

Well done @MocktailMe there is definitely a bit of a mental game of ping pong sometimes before you build up the nerve to stick the needle in 🤣 but it gets easier. How long will you down regulate before starting stims?

Thank you ladies ❤️

I'll have a scan on the 2nd to see if I've fully down regulated and if I have I think I'll start that day or the next. If not it will be a few days later and adjust the dose, but it won't be before.

Oh @CharLdn congratulations 🥹 that’s such lovely news. How are you feeling?

@MocktailMe Sending you so many positive wishes for your IVF cycle. Really hope you get some perfect Xmas news.

Also echo what @Waitingformiracle has said in terms of the keeping the pregnancy chat down low if wanted on this thread. I have over recent weeks tried to keep my updates to a minimum anyway tbh but come to offer support. Here’s to hoping one day soon we can have another thread elsewhere that’s us all discussing pregnancy/babies 🤞

Ohhh @MocktailMe that’s such exciting news! I’m glad we get to be on this journey with you! You’re right it’s ok to wobble. I think I’m just in a weird spot as quite literally all of my co-workers here have either just experienced a traumatic loss or have recently found out they got pregnant unintentionally and all of them have decided to confide in me but no one else. I’m happy that people trust me but it’s certainly messing with my mentality a bit.

I truly appreciate you all. I know I’m not the most consistent presence but seeing all of you on your journeys brings me joy.

@KT199 I’m OK I think I have quite high hcg levels as clear blue say I’m 2-3 weeks at 4weeks and my tests are so much darker this time.

I’m also feeling knackered/nauseous which is all helping my anxiety after loss. I just want to get through to the first scan I’ll have at 7 weeks with the epu as it feels exciting but very precarious at this stage!

How are you getting on @CharLdn ? Has it started to sink in properly now?

I hope you are still feeling sick!!! In the nicest way possible as I know that would make me feel lots better too!

That 2-3 is a great sign and I hope it's reassuring for you. It really does seem different to last time so far ❤️

I'm on day 7 of injections and feels like I've been doing it forever now 😅 this chemically induced menopause is no joke...disrupted sleep and hot flashes are the worst...Ladies, I have seen the future and it is not bright!!! Trying to feel greatful for the stage of life I'm in with having periods as I'm not looking forward to doing this again for real!!!

Although when chatting to a lovely older colleague of mine she did point out most people don't crash land into the menopause in a single week of hormone overload - she says nature eases you in much better than this 😅

Trying to simply take it a day at a time currently. I'm trying not to assume it will work, but also not talking myself into anything too negative. If anything, I'm trying to be quite factual about it all. This bit is to calm my ovaries, the next bit is to stimulate them etc etc rather than constantly think 🚨🚨THIS IS TO GET ME A BABY 🚨🚨🚨 although it is very hard not to focus too hard on the end result!

I hope everyone is well and would love an update from you all xxx