TTC after loss part 5

[Ella31]

Just continuing our old thread. I've added anyone who has asked to stay on here. As always, anyone who is trying after a loss is welcome to join and those who have been lucky since are welcome to encourage those who are still waiting for their rainbow (if you want to stay of course )

Also for the next thread, I'm going to let someone else take over creating the new one if people don't mind. I've a lot on at the moment with tests and I'm back to work in the next few weeks after my bereavement leave with my boys. So if anyone would like to take the mantle, feel free.

Im 2dpo today and have another ultrasound on Wednesday to see if follicle has burst followed by pdg blood test.

@Onthedouble123
@DonnaWhat
@moosey89
@Bellebg
@Lovedatforme
@Ncl31
@PearlCat
@LucyCL
@CadoAvo
@ThelastRolo20
@Figtree11

Grief never really leaves us, I think it just changes its presence over time. It's a reflection of the love you have for your boys ❤️

When you get your BFP you may feel any number of things, all of which will be totally normal xx

Totally agree with you! I created my TTC after CP thread because I didn't know why it was happening and was hoping to hear from people about their experiences and suggestions. It also wouldn't exist either...

I am a sentimental person and I cry easily no matter how small the thing is. 2 MCs have just made me more emotional and teary. Maybe it is also because of the rise in progesterone in the luteal phase... Maybe I am really holding back!
You might feel anxious, nervous and relieved when you get a bfp again. I agree with @ThelastRolo20 Any emotions would be normal after having losses. x

Congratulations @Bellebg and @MisssMarionheres hoping for viable pregnancies for us x
I am 5+4 and so anxious, i spent 8 cycles upset as not even a late period and now I'm petrified it will all go wrong again. But trying to stay positive in the midst of it

It's so stressful. I'm 8 weeks and still in a constant panic. I've decided against an early scan too as I don't want to get my hopes up so holding out for my NHS one in two weeks (I'll only be 10 weeks as they've gone by my lmp but I ovulated later).

Can be hormones inclu pregnancy

@worldwidetravel2017 thanks, def not pregnant so must be hormone surges

@LucyCL @Ella31 i cried just yesterday! It’s a cruel journey to be on

@MisssMarion congratulations on your BFP! That’s amazing news.

sorry I’ve been missing for a while, I still haven’t ovulated and I’m now CD21. I’m feeling really sorry for myself and not sure what else to do other than keep throwing myself into the gym to get my BMI as low as possible.
its now 33.5 down from 38.7 which I know is good so I keep telling myself that.
we have our review appointment with the fertility clinic at the end of the month following my drug trial. I have no idea what to expect from it so just have to wait and see. Fingers crossed they say they can help us with NHS IVF, if not I’ll be cancelled our Mauritius holiday to use the money from that.

@DonnaWhat I'm still here. Feeling very rough 😩 which I'm hoping is a good sign but I know ultimately doesn't mean anything really. Booking appointment tomorrow. Hoping I get a scan appt pretty promptly after that because I'm already 10+2.
The feeling so rubbish does, to an extent, distract from the wider anxiety which is a silver lining I guess. Doesn't take it away completely but just taking each day at a time and plodding on.
I do worry about bonding (if God willing it does continue right through as a successful pregnancy). I can't bring myself to believe everything will be fine so almost won't let myself imagine the little bean in there nevermind them possibly ending up a real life baby! Hopefully at one point you do reach a stage where you can let the guard down and start to believe this is happening 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Onthedouble123 it socks that you can't enjoy the pregnancy but I have everything crossed for you and hopefully you can let your guard down and enjoy the fact your growing a beautiful little bean xxxx

Just a little update from me, my consultant scanned me today at 5+2 and could see the sac transabdominally which they couldn't pick up on my last MC so that's a positive! She's bringing me back in again next week.

I've been put on progesterone to help with the pregnancy too so fingers crossed!

Hope everyone is doing okay x

Thank you all for your kind messages. @jellyfish2 @DonnaWhat @LucyCL @Ella31 @Figtree11 @Onthedouble123 @ThelastRolo20 @Lovedatforme @LozElle @Gracie1825 @Ncl31

Apologies for disappearing, I’m still in shock and feeling all sorts of feelings (not the relief I thought I would just yet though). It hasn’t sunk in yet, but it’s still very early days I guess. I’m taking it one day at the time, with no symptoms which doesn’t help my anxiety. I’ve been checking my line progression to spot a chemical but I think I’m just fuelling my anxiety… Let’s see.

I’ll stick around if that’s ok, I can’t wait to see us all get our 🌈 babies…

Completely normal, I've yet to feel excited and I'm not sure I will until way down the line. Hoping after my scan I'll relax a little but yeah I think taking it day by day is all you can do. I didn't have any symptoms for a while and now all I have is extreme tiredness, a bit nauseated especially if hungry mixed with heartburn and slightly achy boobs. I felt much worse with the MMC. I have everything crossed that this is your rainbow 🌈.

@Lovedatforme that's a great sign and a lovely bit of reassurance.

@MisssMarion we all understand, pregnancy after loss is so different - it's unfair. Taking each day as it comes is the right thing to do xx

@Gracie1825 @jellyfish2 I’m feeling exactly the same. It’s so conflicting, I’m so so beyond happy to have fallen pregnant again but also completely terrified and finding it impossible not to spend every second of the day feeling anxious about it.

Because my cycle was a little off after my mmc I’m not completely sure when I ovulated and how far along I am which is making me feel so nervous for a scan.

Sending hugs to everyone who’s feeling the same xxx

@Ella31 how did you get on yesterday with the ultrasound & blood test?

The ultrasound went really well. Confirmed there was a corpus luteum which happens after ovulation and a thick uterus lining . But my progesterone came back at 25 and they want 30. It was taken 5 days after ovulation so I'm doing a retest tomorrow 7 days after ovulation. It's so confusing to be honest. I ovulated day 18 and cycle is 30/31 days so some say it should be done 7 days after ovulation.

That sounds really positive! Fingers crossed progesterone is where it needs to be tomorrow at day 7 ❤️

How are you feeling about it? X

I was so good and now I'm so stressed and upset. Is progesterone an easy fix? I've cried so much today. Doesn't help that my boys are 9 months gone this week and should be 9 months old. Will I ever bring a living baby home at this point.

Thats great that the ultrasound went well. I don’t know much about progesterone, but can they give you some progesterone? With my previous pregnancy I was given the suppositories but not too 7 weeks. I’ve heard of many women having it right from the start.

I’m really sorry you are having a bad day. It’s so hard when you have milestones like that. I feel very positive that you will bring a baby home. But I know me saying that doesn’t really help xx

I'm hoping so. The clinic is so cold. I asked the midwives what next if tomorrow's test shows low progesterone and they wouldn't tell me. We've a consultation with the fertility consultant on Wednesday so hopefully it will be clearer. I just wish they'd give me some piece of mind. I had 2 healthy boys 9 months ago and carried that pregnancy right through bar until they got the twin condition. What could have changed in 9 months?

It’s really not helpful when they are like that, as if you don’t have enough to cope with without staff not being understanding. Doesn’t take much for people to be a bit kinder & more personable. I hope they are more helpful next week

edit - meant to tag you @Ella31

@Ella31 I hope your repeat test shows good numbers. But I really do think it should be an easy fix- I've been on progesterone suppositories twice a day since testing positive. Ladies have them as part of HRT I believe. So presumably no reason why they couldn't prescribe pre-positive test?
Like you say though you had enough progesterone to support multiple pregnancy a matter of months ago so fingers crossed nothing to worry about at all.
Pleased the scan was positive!
Hope everyone else doing well. Anyone due to test in next couple of days? Xx

7dpo today. Bfn lol😅🤣 bit early I know. Had repeat blood today for progesterone. Won't know till Monday.

How's everyone else?

No news from me. I don’t think I actually did ovulate so not following any DPO. Just going to carry on trying without tracking & then maybe in a few weeks I’ll start testing once a week or something