TTC after loss part 5

[Ella31]

Just continuing our old thread. I've added anyone who has asked to stay on here. As always, anyone who is trying after a loss is welcome to join and those who have been lucky since are welcome to encourage those who are still waiting for their rainbow (if you want to stay of course )

Also for the next thread, I'm going to let someone else take over creating the new one if people don't mind. I've a lot on at the moment with tests and I'm back to work in the next few weeks after my bereavement leave with my boys. So if anyone would like to take the mantle, feel free.

Im 2dpo today and have another ultrasound on Wednesday to see if follicle has burst followed by pdg blood test.

@Onthedouble123
@DonnaWhat
@moosey89
@Bellebg
@Lovedatforme
@Ncl31
@PearlCat
@LucyCL
@CadoAvo
@ThelastRolo20
@Figtree11

I hope it does too.

@Ella31 i hope you got on ok today?

@Ncl31 I’m sorry about the bfn. I’m impatiently waiting for AF to finish

I hope I'm asking in the right place. I can't tell if I'm going mad or not but I'm sure I can see a line. Can anyone help please?

It's not a very clear picture. Can you retake it?

Sorry I've been so absent. Dying sick the last few days. Scan went well. I'm 8 weeks tomorrow.

Thanks @ThelastRolo20 all good thankfully. Very nauseous so trying to survive at the moment. Hope you are good

I am so glad the scan went well.

I see something, very faint. See if you can take another photo. It’s tricky trying to get the focus on tests, almost like amateur photography and capturing it at the right angle with enough light and clarity!

My lines started out like that, faintest of faint and then got stronger every other day.

That’s great news @Ella31, hope you feel a bit better!

That's great news @Ella31 - hope your sickness doesn't last too long!

Well - I just got a phone call to say I've got the job I have been interviewing for! So excited, not sure how to handle TTC at this stage....I have 1 months notice in my current job, given how long it takes us to conceive I'm thinking we just keep trying because the odds are against us but I don't want to screw over a new company....guess it would be a 3 month maternity leave if we get pregnant in the next 4 or 5 months! Cross that bridge if we come to it I guess.

@Figtree11 wishing you have a smooth cycle ahead and positivity.

@Ncl31 I’m sorry about your BFN and the wait for AF can get the better of us. Be gentle with yourself in the meantime.

@Ella31 I'm so happy for you! Obviously not about the sickness - can you take anything to help?

@moosey89 congratulations! That's wonderful news, don't you worry about timings etc - having worked in HR, I've known a few pregnancies come to light not long after people start and I'm always just delighted for them ❤️

@Ella31 glad alls well

@ApplesNest thank you. I’m worried it will be another 5 weeks until I ovulate again. How are you?

@moosey89 great news! I think I’ve learnt from life that nothing goes to plan, so I’d just go with the flow and carry on as you are

Congrats on the job. Trust me, you'll cross that bridge when it comes and only be too glad. Hopefully this is the start of all good things to come

Thats great @Ella31! Hope the rubbish symptoms are somewhat comforting, pregnancy is a rough ride no matter how wanted it is.
Congratulations @moosey89! That's awesome. I really wouldn't worry about TTC, lots of people fall pregnant accidentally right after starting jobs. I had a interview when I was 19 weeks and told them I was pregnant so that I was being honest; I didn't get the job and I found out on the Monday that my baby had died. I will not be disclosing that unnecessarily ever again, if the situation comes up.
The answer to my lh tests quandry was, I had a proper peak the next day ☺️ feeling relieved everything seems to be back to normal.

Thanks everyone! We're just going to carry on TTC and see what happens. If we get pregnant we will be so happy (and simultaneously anxious!) and will just deal with whatever situation we end up in!

It was a good day - my boyfriend also passed the next of his electrician qualification exams. One step closer to his career change!

Great news @Ella31

Urgh I feel down tonight. Yesterday DPs friend announced their second pregnancy. Today it was someone at works last day before maternity. Tonight a friend of mine & DPs has announced their pregnancy.
I’m 9 weeks away from my second due date.

When will it be my turn 😢 I’m so tired of all this

I feel this so much, you are not alone and our times will come ❤️

I had a cry in front of my manager yesterday, luckily she's more like a friend and was so understanding. She even said I didnt take enough time off after my miscarriages. But I've been stuck in a rut for a couple of weeks now. She knows about my losses and asked me how I was as she noticed I was withdrawn recently. It actually felt nice that someone noticed and asked. I really didn't think the grief would get harder. To top it off, looks like we will be skipping this month as our donor has other things going on. Sigh.

@Ella31 lovely news!! 8 weeks already! Hopefully the next few weeks pass quickly and your sickness eases up. Is your husband looking after you? 🥰

@CadoAvo i’m so sorry you are struggling too. I have cried to my manager before too! It does help to let people know how you are feeling.
I had been holding in tears all day, and then another pregnancy announcement in the evening pushed me over the edge & I just sat and cried.
You’re right, the grief doesn’t seem to get easier at all. I hope you are feeling a little better today x

@Figtree11 honestly, cry it all out whenever you need. It sucks when you want something so bad any everyone around you seems to get it so easily yet here we are with heartbreak after heartbreak. I had a complete meltdown when I found out my brother and wife were expecting their second last week xx

Thank you @moosey89 i am surrounded by pregnancy announcements at the moment. I feel like I am muting someone on Facebook/instagram each week because I just can’t cope with seeing it. I hope you are doing ok this week x

I had a team building day yesterday. We were at a stately home/garden.
Lots of babies in prams and that stab of recollection that I thought when I got in the initial invite that I would have to be on light duties. My colleague was there very pregnant too.

I'm entering my fertile window. My partner and I are knackered with first week of school. I haven't told him, i don't know why I'm hesitant.

@Superscientist its so difficult when you go to events that you imagined you’d be pregnant for. I think it’s natural to be hesitant about TTC - it’s such a rollercoaster journey after all we’ve been through. It’s not exciting anymore