The Hut of Gl/Doom Part VI - And Yes, We've Tried Fecking Relaxing!

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new home. I liked the decor in the old one, nless someone wants to redecorate!

im so sorry. thats truly shite x

thanks annie I have just been reading the AIBU thread about ttc and relaxing and totally agree with all of what you say. Especially the bit about 'you would understand if you had children' Days after my EP, whilst still in major discomfort from it one friend told me I ought to try being pg if I wanted 'uncomfortable'

I know It wasn't quite so bad when a good friend said something a bit insensitive as I knew she was only trying to make me feel better but the first 'friend' was only wanting to turn the attention back to herself and her pg.
The most insulting thing anyone has said to me is 'oh I'll send my DH round - he only has to look at me and I'm pg again' I sometimes want to point out to them that there's no way I'd want their DH's child and that the problem is me, not DH anyway. Why do people always assume it's the man's fault? Because it's not, and all that does is reinforce the fact that my body 'doesn't work' in the way it's meant to.
Sorry, think you touched a nerve there

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shreks, how late do you think you are?

have you seen scorpios sad news?

Can I just be sad here for a while? I'm fed up with ftc.

DH keeps saying to his friends he is sorry he can't be there with them today (fighting away) and is 'gutted' he isn't there.

I'm not sorry in the slightest.

Thanks NoMore it really does suck doesn't it?! I think I have just about given up. . The vodka makes me feel way better though LOL.

oh Bucky I know what you mean Want to tell me your story (I don't think we'ver 'met' before) or do you just want to sit in the corner and slip into an alcohol induced coma?

OK NoMore, here goes, I've seen you 'around' loads as I have been here since 2006!

Started ttc April 2006, BFP July 2006, MC Sept 2006 then NOTHING despite temping, OPKs, a truckload of FA, blood tests, ferning, Preseed, not thinking about, thinking about it and BDing till it is now my least favourite activity in the WORLD! LOL. Then in November 2008 I got a BFP at 5 weeks and then MC'd 2 days later! Two days! , wish I hadn't even found out about that one. I was some way along the NHS fertility checking route and my doctor said the BFP would void my IVF chances as it showed I could concieve naturally, but the hospital don't seem to have got any records of the MC so I am still soldiering on. I am on Clomid at the moment (despite having perfectly good HCG and LSH tests and the doctors thinking I am ovulating normally). 2nd month doesn't seem to have worked (got a BFN yesterday at CD26). We were diagnosed with unexplained infertility as DP is fine too.

I am 37 this year, and I am just tired of seeing people getting BFPs at the drop of a hat and having no control over my own fertility. I try to be happy for everyone but am getting a bit bitter and twisted now. Or more to the point petrified that everyone I know will have a baby except me!

So, I am now officially a Maulky Drawers Bucky and need a good slap . How about you? I know you have been here as long if not longer than me....

Bucky thats a long, sad story

My 'story' isn't really a story. I have 3dc already; i had a mc last week at 6 weeks with dc4. So shocked. I am terrified of not getting pg again; of miscarrying again.

I've seen your name but never really crossed paths with you I think. My story is similar in terms of timescales etc, but without the m/cs. I had Clomid for 6 mo based on one low progesteone blood test then IVF (once) on NHS. I don't think your BFP will have invalidated IVF funding though, the wording on my 'terms and conditions' was "no living children from either partner" I had a EP in Nov when on Clomid again (thought it worth a try whilst waiting to save the money for IVF) and am now waiting to have a L&D before carrying on. Now of course we're almost there with the saving and we have to wait. DH keeps saying if L&D does the trick then we'll have £4k to spend on the baby/help to cover my mat leave but I'm just fed up of all the waiting and the fact it's all out of my hands again.

Scorpio it's horrible isn't it? and it takes all the joy out of a BFP if you're worrying your socks off that it'll all go wrong My Dsis is the same, she refuses to get excited about BFP as for her they always end in m/c. It kind of tars the excitement/joy of a BFP. I cried so much when I got the BFP that confirmed the EP as I wanted the first time I saw a BFP of my own to be so special.

I know, nomore. Hopefully i will see a BFP one day again, but i will practically have to ignore the pregnancy until i get a scan, at 6/7 weeks. Each day, especially 5+4, will be like a rollercoaster.

I forgot to mention I had an L&D as well. So much to remember! Or forget depending how you look at it. Well fingers crossed for you all. I just needed to have a moan so thanks for letting me get things off my chest, I feel a bit better. .

Sorry to hear about your MC scorpio. It is a horrible experience I feel for you. (hugs).

The worst part of ftc is that for half the month you have to think about everything you are doing to yourself so I feel like my life is stunted. That probably sounds a bit weird, like I would be smoking crack or something if I wasn't ttc but even going out with the girls drinking wine, its also at the back of my mind. I just want to be able to relax and get a face full of botox if I want to if I can't have the baby I dream of, IYKWIM. Ah well. .