TTC May 2023 💖 Previous MC March 2023 (thread 2)

[Sez281]

Hi ladies, just thought I'd create a new thread for anybody that wants to continue.
@Jadeypie
@Westy22
@Freddie15VES
@fleur89
@Strawb28
@DmcinT
@HopeAndStrength
@xxcxdonxx
And @SnookyPook for if/when you feel like you might want to come back xx

Sorry if I've forgotten anybody, I realise most of you guys have had your BFPs and there's only a few off us left waiting, but at least you know the thread is here so come back and keep us updated with all your lovely pregnancy stories 😊 For those of us still here, hopefully it won't be too much longer 🙏💖 xx

Awww @xxcxdonxx I don't blame you for being a bit sad about it. At least you know that you're pretty much guaranteed to get it prescribed next time. Hope you're doing ok in general🙏🌈xx
My gp actually prescribed them for me in my first pregnancy at the start of the year. She only did it due to my age and the fact that I'd a bit of spotting at the start, I had no previous pregnancies or MCs at that point so I was always grateful for her doing that. (I'm in Ireland though so maybe it's a bit easier for gps here) I actually have a box of them here waiting for when I get my BFP🙏 (I did a boots test this morn which had an indent 🥴) I'm only 8dpo I think so I still have a couple more days before AF due 🤞

@Westy22 how are you getting on? Xx

Morning,

I'm not bad, went to test this morning but must've been half asleep as I used an opk test 🤣 god's way of saying pack it in. So I'll probably wait till tomorrow. Not gonna lie I feel rough as toast, achy and dizzy so think I'm coming down with something. Was being very negative last night about the whole thing but today I feel more like it is what it is and we move on if I've not caught this month. Getting some achey feelings and my boobs have been sensitive since Sunday night so think AF is on route.

Your tww seems to be flying by @Sez281 🙏

Ah thank you for sharing that info @xxcxdonxx it's good to know, my gp isn't the best but I'm going to start challenging her a bit in regards to some support and maybe get progesterone test done to see if I'm actually ovulating. X hope your feeling OK

@Westy22 pmsl that's like something I'd do with opks 😂 Sorry to hear you're feeling a bit shitty, I think it's the time of year for it to be rampant, definitely doesn't help the tww when you're sick and not sure what's going on 🥴 I'm still hopeful for you but I know what you mean about accepting it. I'm going to get preseed if AF comes in 2 days so weirdly kind of looking forward to trying that next week 🤷‍♀️😂

@Westy22 sorry to laugh at your misfortune but that did make me chuckle about the opk. Hopefully you're wrong about AF on her way... so many early pregnancy symptoms and pms symptoms are identical!!

@Sez281 oh goodness... an indent is tantalising.. did it come up after the window?

I've booked in for some generic blood tests at GPs, including prolactin and thyroid. Can't hurt to check. They didn't have a slot until next Weds though, which will be the day before AF due. Wondering if they'll throw a HCG one in too 😂

@SnookyPook I'm sure it wouldn't cost them anything to tick an extra box on the bloods 🤷‍♀️😂 It's nice to get a full work up done every once in a while. My last ones came back all good for thyroid etc, although my cholesterol was a little high which I need to work on!

The indent came up within the timeframe. I took the test outside to see it properly and took this pic around the 5 min mark. I know in my heart it's not a real line. I need to stop wasting my money and just wait a couple more days 🙈

@Sez281 oooh.... I don't know... admittedly I've no experience with evaps etc but I'd be feeling hopeful if I'd got that. Came up in timeframe and the thickness looks good... Everything crossed for you! Are you going to check again on Thurs? I know you've said you don't feel it in your heart so who knows but please allow me a nugget of hope on your behalf! 🤞🏻🌈

@SnookyPook that's ok you can be hopeful for me 😂 Ive just had such bad luck with indents that I don't trust any of them. I'm so annoyed at myself for testing at 8dpo. I just saw CD30 on the Premom app and it threw me so much as I'm usually well into AF by now, if not finished! I'm off work today which doesn't help as I've too much time to think (and google) 🤯 so I'm going to get stuck into some cleaning and maybe try a walk with a good podcast to take my mind off it 😂

@Sez281 ohhh i duno that could possibly a start of a bfp! I have everything crossed for you 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 defo get stuck into the cleaning to take your mind off it otherwise youll be staring at that test in every angle of the house haha. Xx

@SnookyPook that's what I done got all my hormones checked thyroid ect. And I'm glad I did because now I've got something to go off these whacky cycles. Xx

@Jadeypie I broke it up and threw it in the bin after 10 mins cos I know what I'm like 😂 I'll test again tomorrow. Hope you're doing ok and AF nearly finished xx

@Sez281 haha I don't blame you! And I'm only on cycle day 4. But it's definitely af not like last cycle where the spotting dragged out till my actual af was due. I think I spotted two days before it properly started. I'm not doing opks this cycle because I genuinely think I'm not ovulating just going to wait for the specialists and go from there x

@Jadeypie at least it's not a half arsed period and spotting like last time, nothing worse! You're right not to do opks if you don't think there's any point. And you just never know, you might ovulate every couple of cycles and this could be the one you catch without tracking 🤷‍♀️🤞 xx

I'm officially driving myself crazy🤯. I need you guys to stop me testing next cycle 🫠I did 2 easy@homes in the same sample this evening and there's a faint line on both. I watched as the dye ran through them but it kind of stalled so I'm convinced their evaps and god is just punishing me for being so stupid and not waiting 🙈🙈 I did one in water after then and it was bfn but I still think the 2 I used were faulty. I'm out for the day tomorrow so going to test once in the morning with boots then forget it for the day.

@Westy22 did you test at all today? X

They look like decent lines @Sez281 are you sure there evaps?? 🤞 you surely wouldn't have lines on all the tests you've done today and them all be wrong?!? X

I got a negative this eve, I wanted to cry. I hate everything about ttc. It's driving me insane 😭 I honestly feel like it's never going to happen for me x

Sorry for being so negative 🙈 I'm just having a moment, think I need AF to arrive to snap out of this...keep thinking I'm going to be 37 soon and it only gets god damn worse lol

I'm convinced by yours @Sez281 surely three tests wouldn't give you a positive?!? 🌈

@Westy22 Jesus don't be sorry, it's ok to be pissed off. I know my tests are dodgy and I'm going to end up disappointed too. This ttc lark is awful. I long for the days around Christmas/New Year last year when I had never done a pregnancy test in my life. We were not actively trying but not preventing. I didn't actually know what the tww was and I had never heard of MN! When I found out I was pregnant at the end of Jan it was just by chance, I was over 5 weeks at that stage. I know how you feel about the age thing too. I'm turning 41 in 3 weeks, I can almost hear the clock ticking on a daily basis 😰 If AF arrives in a couple of days I'm going to take a step back for a while. I have my appointment with fertility consultant in 2 weeks so I'm just gonna relax a little. You're still not out just because of test this eve. Until AF shows you just never know xx

I'm praying there not for you ❤️

Your story sounds so like mine, I was oblivious to it and then my world changed. I need to get a new hobby because its taking over me and its not fun. I think this month felt different so I hoped, then I was given a new colleague to manage 3 weeks ago who I work closely with and shes 4 months pregnant and her lovely bump reminds me everyday of what I want 😭 it's just sh!t. I'm sure I'll be fine in a few days when my hormones settle x keep us updated about you xx

@Sez281 so I basically think they are positives and not indents or Evaps. I understand the what ifs because of past experiences you've had recently! But girllll I think your gona be getting another in the morning!! Urghhh I feel excited for you xx

@Westy22 yeh the ttc obsession kills you that bit more with every negative test!! Amd loss. I also remember the days being so clueless and I wish that was the same now. But what I will say is this shit show of a journey has connected me with some lovely people and learnt me things about my body that amazes me. I'm taking a step back from all tracking apps and stuff and finding myself again. Enjoying being healthier and not being some nut over cm cervix ect hahah. You'll be OK @Westy22 it's fine to let it all consume you it's a massive journey to be on (we all feel the same) xx

@Jadeypie I might do the same actually it's a good shout about stepping away from the apps, or maybe I turn off notifications so it doesn't ask me how I'm feeling every few days and if ive notived any discharge 🤣 I wish my OH would acknowledge this struggle I think I've kept so quiet about it he's oblivious, I need to try and let him know then maybe he will act like he cares about it a bit...lol I just went upstairs and cried into my dressing gown because the massage gun for my back wasn't charged 🤣🤣🙈 it tipped me over the edge.

I'm not going to lie you guys have been the biggest support, just having someone to talk to who knows your situation and has been there, is the biggest help.

I also agree with you @Jadeypie about @Sez281 🤞🙏🤞🙏

@Sez281 I think those tests look really promising!! Totally get why you are finding it hard to be hopeful but I will hope for you, good luck for testing in the morning!
Sorry I've been quiet not been on mn much, mostly because work has been mental and I'm just knackered in pregnancy, but love to check in with this thread and see how you're all doing. x

Ah @Hankthehonk good to hear from you. How is it going? Ok apart from the tiredness I hope? 🥴🤞How far along are you now?

@Westy22 I could have written that about my OH. He doesn't get it at all. He's not the type to ask questions and just goes along with it. 🙄 I didn't tell him I tested yesterday morning but he knew something was off as I was in a world of my own. I told him last night about the other 2 tests and how it might be a tentative positive but then I got really upset as I didn't think his reaction was good enough 🙈 I mean he was just being cautious about getting his hopes up and he was right to as I had a bfn on the boots test this morn. The easy@home still has a whisper but I don't trust it. I'm still only 9DPO so will just let it play out now.

As @Jadeypie says it's ok to lose it every now and then.. it's a shit process. But it is nice to know that we're not alone xx

@Sez281 @Westy22 yeh my oh hasn't a clue either. I don't tell him anything because he's a worrier and I think if he knew the ins and outs and indents and evaps he would just feel too presured and worry about me and how my emotions are so I find it easier to keep him in the dark he doesn't even no when I'm in my fertile window (think it's obvious tho when I start being all seductive 🤣🤣)

@Sez281 it's so so early and you could be one of those with a better test in the evening. I'm still hopeful for you. Try not test for another two days xx

@Hankthehonk it's always nice when one of use pop in. Hope it's just the tiredness kicking your bum and none of the other symptoms pregnancy brings. Xx

Nice to hear from you @Hankthehonk ! Glad all is progressing nicely 🥰

@Sez281 deffo still early days. Everything crossed that this progresses for you!

@Westy22 it's great having this support isn't it. I don't think most of our OHs have any idea what we go through each month!

HI Ladies, I have joined after your lovely comments. I am so happy to find people who are in the same boat xx

Hi @LouiseM29 this is such a great thread and everyone's lovely and supportive!! welcome 🥰 have you been on your journey long? As u can guess some of us are still plodding along while others have their little rainbows on the way xx