TTC Thread 15...........a thread full of babydust.

[geordie]

here it is girls.

ttc 15

the last one of 2005 I think.......

However- I am sending loads of babydut to you all

I really hope this beanie sticks......cos as much as i luv you all I really want to join a antenatal board!!

Geordie
(and beanie due august 15th 2005!)

ok. am off this time.ciao.laters everyone

ooh, yes, where in London, , sil now lives inRudy. i used to live in Battersea.

cm & jb, when r u due to b reunited with dh's?

Hester, so sorry, love.

ernest - not soon enought! he he 13th jan. (at last check)

Hester - hon, I've been thinkin about this all day. I really feel for you. I do hope you're PG, but for your own sanity if you're not, don't worry, it will happen again. There will be days when u're down and you want to curl up into a ball and cry - that's ok. there will be days when u curse the gods and shout and scream at them - that's ok. and there will be days when u wonder if that was u're only chance at mother hood and now it's gone -again that's ok. it's all normal. you need to greive for the loss of your baby. but please, let me reassure you. you will become PG again. might not be this cycle of the next but I believe we all will when the time is right. But please hon, don't you for one minute even think we mind you getting upset here with us, we've all cried together, we've all laughed together, (and for the most part we've kept each other sane). so u lean on us as much as u want, and don't worry about it. I will say thou, and I know this will sound harsh - (but it's a lesson it took me too long to learn after my M/C) it's better to grieve straight away and learnt to accept the process than to put it off and focus your attention elsewhere only for it to come an bite you on the bum at a later stage. it's no good thinking 'what it' or 'maybe' or she/he would look like this or what would happen if.... you will eat urself up inside doing that, and believe me hon, it won't alter the course. it's ok not to be the strong one all the time. anyhow, I hope it helps to know ur not on ur own thru this and I understand what ur going thur (even if I was a lot younger). Email if u wanna have a chat anytime. thoughts are with u and urs. Hopefully thou, just hopefully you'll be PG again, but remeber it won't replace the one you've lost, nor will it take the pain away, however you will find peace and joy in the sadness. Take care hon. keep ur pecker up

MB XX

(sorry didn't mean that to be so long or like a lecture!) ooh and choc helps as well. lots of choc..... it's good for u u know, i read somewhere)

Sorry to hear how you are feeling, Hester. Sorry about AF, Tania. Not much going on here. AF is due Wed. I have sore boobs, have been feeling sick to my stomach the past few days, and am very tired. But I think very much that it could be due to the stress of my sister's cancer. Good morning to all.

Awww Hester massive hugs... you can take me off the list girls! I'm not sure this is AF though all I can say is OWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW and chunky (eww tmi!)...and OOOWWW, did I say OOWW?! sniff don't want to think about it...

It's really more stabbing than cramping, well cramping with this stabbing pain in the same place... felt like contractions earlier!! Thank god for painkillers... good luck to everyone waiting to test and I hope this is the month for you Hester I really do!

hugs to colinsmommy too!!

jimgleballs that was such a lovely message. i felt tearfull myself, hester has a good friend in you...

It was a great post by jingle sniffle

how is everyone today. all well i hope. i on the other hand did a test today and have a slight faint dot. was due today and tested about 2 hours ago on the smallest of trickle of urine. so im hoping for good news when i test again tomorrow. need to buy new test. have been using the name predictor in pink box. any ideas on a good brand?

I used to like clearblue +/- ones, the digital clearblue are expensive, yet fun :o... first response I think gives the clearest result (as in the background isn't already faintly blue, and I've heard that clearlue digis aren't as sensitive..) if you already have a faint dot don't get a cheapy! You deserve a good one... Although if you want a cheap option everyone says boots ownbrand are pretty damn good :)

WELL DONE!! By the way!! :o

I'm going to go sit in the bath and sniffle to myself while eating chocolate... rather than sit here depressing everyone... does kizzy's news call for a new thread?

not quite, we'll wait for the ultimate BFP! he he it's lookin good thou kiz!

thanks
partner just returned and he is laughing saying im only 2 hours late. so postive...

Im on another night shif tonight, and i really want to have a morning urine test. so i could wait till monday morning. what do you reckon are my chances of waiting till then. lol lol. looks like a expensive few days testing for that pink dot/ line..

Well, just come back to the thread and in tears again - this time in a good
way! You are all so lovely. Jingle, what can I say - your post was so
thoughtful, so caring, so moving; it meant a lot to me, thank you. MIFF -
you always step in with the right word at the right time, not just for me
but for so many other people on Mumsnet. Thank you so much.

I still feel very nauseous but have resigned myself to not knowing what's
going on for a few days (my period isn't due till Wednesday). Every symptom
I am having I have previously had before both periods and pregnancy, so who
knows. Realised earlier that I don't feel as though I am waiting for a
period; I feel as though I am tentatively pregnant and am waiting for a
miscarriage. I guess I'm still working through those feelings; it has been
less than a month.

Thanks all once again. You're great.

Colinmummy, I hadn't picked up that your sister was so ill. I am so, so
sorry. You must be feeling so scared. Huge, huge hugs for you.

Fastasleep - you ok, lovey? That sounds really rough. I hate to say this
as you didn't, but are you thinking.. miscarriage? Huge hugs to you as
well; so sorry you're going through this.

And finally, the good news! KIZZY KIZZY KIZZY! Sounds REALLY hopeful.
Will you come back and tell us the moment you have confirmation? So
thrilled for you! (And not a little relieved that we will soon be starting
a new thread; my machine keeps crashing!) and xxxx to you and all.

PS. So sorry about funny layout - PC keeps crashing so had to cut and paste from email...

Hester: I hope that you are still feeling pg but if not that you now know that there are other mners here for you.
JB what an amazing post! I tried to say some of the same tings on the ttc after miscarriage thread and it all come out sounding so contrived. You have a big heart. When does your DH get home? Does he have leave after Christmas? My DH is home today after a 3 month absence. He used to be gone on deployments of 7 months following all of the work-up so I feel wimpy that this seems likes such a hardship this time. Our youngest has never spent this much time away from daddy and he doesn't seem to know how to feel anything but anger about it. Should be an interesting day.
Kizzy: Hoping for a strong dark line today. I used the boots own brand and I coudn't complain but then again I don't have anything to compare it to!

I agree that it is nearly time for a new thread but I have not even caught up with this one yet!

I forget who asked but YES, I am now in Canada. Discovered MN in the spring when I was first PG with the twin miscarriage. We decided to make the jump over the pond in September as this is where all of our family and friends are. (London is such a cold place when you are a foreigner...) I suspect that we will be back in the UK eventually as DH loves it there. I would ber happier with life in Scotland so he applies for every position posted there. Ironic as my mum emmigrated to Canada from Scotland in the 1960's.

Sorry! Didn't intend to write a book. Ignore me. I am just too excited to think! Only 3 more hours of single-parenthood!

hester hon - [blush} ty well as u say, it's only been a month, so stop expectin so much from urself! ( i know this is v v easy for me to say and hard for u to do) but over the next 3 days (and I have my finger waggin here at u now) I want you to relax, sleep, (cos i'm sure you've not beed sleepin to good), spoil urself rotten - maybe with a shoppin with PD if she's avaliable - Lakesides good if ur C/C can withstand it! :o not too mention all the diff foods hmmm. (anyhow) how about hou just for tonight, have a nice long swim in ur tub. (if u can with a nice glass of wine and some chocs) to relax, and let DP pamper you for a bit. what else? oh yeah have a glass or two of wine, cos if ur PG then it's best to do it now as you can always claim u didn't know! :o (ok fingers stopped waggin now)

again I know it's easy for me to say, and harder for you to act on (again taken 6 yrs for me to be completely ok with my M/C) but you have to try and enjoy the time you have esp when PG, try to put all of those niggaling doubts to the back of your mind, and focus on one day having your own baby in your arms... and when u do, we all want a pic.. ok.... promise me now.......! you'll be fine hon. X a wise woman once told me (my mum) that if you expec the worst 9/10 it will happen, but it's a nice surprise if it doesn't. I want you to try and think ok I'm PG this baby will be the best little bundle, and the most spoilt little person going! - not to mention u'll have neough sleepless nights when the bump starts moving about - so until u know either way then try and rest up!

CM - I'm so sorry about ur sister, is it a treatable form of cancer she has? have they given her a prognosis (if that's the right word) u know thou science is a wonderful thing and the medical world can work wonders these days, am I right in sayin ur in the states? (if so at least ur medical teams are better equipep than ours, and i'm sure she's having the best possible care) try and stay positive thou. tell her not to give in and fight the cancer every inch of the way! (and eat loads a choc!

(you may have realised i'm a chocoholic - no wonder i've put on 1 1/2 stone since getting married there now i've shocked myself! he he he.)

(sorry didn't realise that was so long!)

CM - he's been away 3 months, we're ment to have 6 weeks together when he gets back - but hey this is the british army so ur guess is better than mine! lol. it's the longest we've been apart since we've been married which is hard, but he's been ringing and emailing loads. The dogs are really missing him as well - I think they're feeling abandoned - Sas has 'abandonment' issues but then again she's always been a daddy's girl!

that was ment as ty hester!

Hi girls...guess what....af came today!
My cycle this month is 27 days and I ov on day 19/20.....so I have a LP of 7days!....GREAT!

JB just sent you an email!

backatcha jedds, sorry about AF hon, what a bit*h the old girl is. i'm right in thinking this is a short month this time?

(best get off i'm being shouted for dinner) - urgghhh the festive trudge later on with the kids to view the local xmas lights.......

Hester...sorry honey for the BFN! .

You are finding this difficult I know but you are so brave! I take my hat off to you.