Is this a line?

[MissParis]

It’s stronger in real life tho still very faint. According to Flo (which isn’t 100 percent accurate obviously) I’m 12dpo 3/4 days til period. Had loads of things happen this month that have been out of the ordinary for my cycle. Sorry for bombardment of pics I’m scared to death and couldn’t get it to look like it does in real life. Tho still faint in real life. Did with fmu but still early to test I think as haven’t missed period. I don’t know. Anyway does anyone else see a line? Can anyone please do that messing with the contrast thing you guys are so good at for me please? Thanks in advance

He said my baby’s outfit is cute. I instinctively pulled it to me. Some weird protective thing over anything baby related. I thought if he comes trying to touch my babies things I’ll fucking kill him dead. Now he’s given me the offer of his bedroom and he will sleep on the sofa cos it’s cold in here and he knows this camp bed hurts. My whole body hurts. I told him no cos he won’t leave me alone if I go in his room. He said he will. I said no. (I did consider it but no. Cos all my stuff is in here how I like it and certain stuff hidden away from him I need my hiding spaces) I feel like a lion mother in her den. If that makes sense. It’s mental. Anyway then he said do you want the duvet then. I said yes. Cos I have lined the very hard camp bed with all my flimsy throws and have one throw he won’t allow the heating. But the duvet folded over cos it’s less than a single bed size camp bed will give me more cushion. It’s like a rock this thing. I can take one more throw so I have two for warm. And the duvet for cushion

@MissParis If you use his bed he will think it's an open license to touch you etc.
I honestly feel like if you DON'T accept his offer, he will be suspicious, considering he keeps asking what's going on with y'all's relationship...

Sorry I was about to reply to the a and e comment when he came back and I forgot this question. @Releasethehoundss
good question. I’ll have a think on that. I’m not sure what he would usually do. He thinks me being tired during early pregnancy is me being lazy. He told me so. So no idea if he would normally take me to a and e. He likes to pretend nice. But now? For the control he would definitely take me. Suddenly lifts aren’t a problem anymore.

@MissParis can you tell him that you're going for a day out with a local mn lady because you two are in the same birth month club? That doesn't sound remotely like something a guy would want to do? Tell him yoire making friendships with ladies due around the same time. I'm not sure how prenatal groups work there, but if they're at a center etc. maybe he'd be less suspicious if you were dropped off and he just came back to get you? You could tell the ladies working the center to go along with you and you just need a safe place to make you calls and plans to get away.

@MissParis if you explained to the people at the center maybe if he asks they will confirm your story. Or better yet, if there are prenatal groups available, maybe that would ease his suspicions...

@Leanne053

thank you that means a lot. I lost my mum to a man like this. She had me young. Remarried. He battered and abused her in every way you could imagine and in ways you couldn’t. I saw it all. I had to defend her often. Saw her being wheeled out by paramedics throwing up pills the list is endless. She killed herself when she was 29. I was 13.

I always swore my baby would NEVER go through that. EVER. I made a foolish error on that promise to myself by not being careful re contraception. But I’m not scared of raising a child alone. I think I’d rather it. So it doesn’t ever see that. And I can’t turn back time. Baby is in me. And I will fill my promise if it kills me. In fear of sounding like a drama queen.

A man means nothing to me. NOTHING. Compared to my baby. Nothing. NOTHING. I’m so angry thinking of him putting my baby through what I went through and my mum. FUCK NO. Fuck right off. No man is worth it. None.

@Releasethehoundss

I started reading your post. But first I want to get settled and really read it when I got to the part where I think this is going. I don’t want to skim read out of respect. So let me go to the toilet AGAIN (thanks baby!) get my bed sorted. And I will read. It’s not a skim and reply post is it. And I’ll reply when I have read. Xx

@MissParis the anger will help your resolve whenever he starts loving you. I wouldn't be surprised if a proposal were in the works... Stay strong and keep talking to us here if you need to...

@MissParis that was supposed to be lovebombing you lol. Fat fingers. Errr!!!

@MissParis you are not responsible for this man being an abuser. Please stop telling yourself you have made an error. You are not the abuser he is.
You now have to be brave and walk away. There's a lot of support out there for you in the form of women's aid, citizens advise etc.

Please for the absolute love fo god do not put him on the birth certificate.

So sad to read what you've been through OP please be brave and get out and make a life for yourself! You deserve to be happy even if that means doing it on your own.
I'm doing it on my own. You can do it!

@Releasethehoundss

oh I know. He’s tried it already. That’s what I mean it’s weird when suddenly you can somehow observe almost from the outside, cos I genuinely don’t care about anything except getting away. So it’s easy to see the cycle that they usually use so easily to draw us back in. It’s rather sad isn’t it? Cos for me there’s no more feelings for him to draw on. His only card left is that if he starts crying at me or something. Begging etc. Im a soft touch he knows that. Except I’m not anymore. Which he doesn’t know. He’s done the love bombing loads. It half worked and half was like whatever I’m starting to lose feelings and wanting to leave. Then the pregnancy and the escalating happened. Anyway. Sort myself then read your post xx

@Cupofteaonesugar

thank you ❤️ He absolutely isn’t going on the birth certificate. That was one of my first thoughts when this started

@Releasethehoundss
genius idea about the centre thing. I could call them and explain when he’s out and see if they can do that. Or even just go to it. He isn’t gonna question it if I show him a real centre nearby.

gonna read your post now. A bit scared, but at the same time so appreciative that you shared that.

xx

@Releasethehoundss

was just getting to the end of your post kind of. And my eye flicked to don’t touch the food. And I wanted to say- yesterday he made a tea. I only dared drink a bit. First thought in my head was I’m being crazy but anything could be in there. I didn’t eat last nights food. I just drank the tea he made and now regret it, I think my anger has made me feel a bit complacent if that even makes sense. That was foolish. I won’t be eating today’s forced food either. Gonna continue reading now xx

Good lord, I hope you are able to leave and soon!

Cut all ties ( if you are able ) tell him there is no baby and make sure he can't find you.

I was married to an abuser and they have a hard time letting them their punchbag go. Get away a soon as you are able.

Congratulations on YOUR baby ❤️

@Wagsandclaws

thank you! Oh yes it is MY baby indeed! Mine alone. I have a feeling it is a she but maybe I’m being mental haha

Hi all. The lovely @Releasethehoundss
has made a new thread for me, a safe thread so that if dick head keeps trying to look over my shoulder like before, I can have the safe thread. So if anyone wants to come and join us I would appreciate it. Also it’s so nice to just have a thread where I can enjoy and celebrate my pregnancy too. Without anything else. I’ll try and tag all tomorrow but would appreciate the support over there so it looks more real when he asks “just pregnancy advice” etc. Thanks again everyone. I will keep updated here, but not as often but will post on the other one often so you know I’m ok and with my many questions like Releasethehoundss answered- can I eat cottage cheese? Etc 😂

New thread pregnancy over 35 (all are welcome)

☝️ It’s this one. I’ll try and link it

I hope all that made sense. @Releasethehoundss Explained it to me better !

www.mumsnet.com/talk/pregnancy/4634071-new-thread-pregnancy-over-35-all-are-welcome?reply=120006950

has that worked?

Have I got line eyes i feel I can see lines evap or faint possitive
More visible in person I'm due in 3 days been getting cramps after intercause and slight lower back ache and boob's feel a bit tender