TTC after miscarriage thread 10

[mummatara]

@AwayWeGo22 @bunnykins123 @calimc83 @FfayeN @Chellooo @Indianna2006 @LuckyMoonstone @Luna57 @Margo34 @MIW01 @MrsCristiano @Pancake92 @pangolin84 @TheBirdintheCave @theblueflowers

Sorry if I forgot anyone ❤️ also hope I've done this right 😂

It's ok :) I have Spain to look forward to now and lots of sangria waiting for me 😬

We've decided that my husband is going to have another sperm test when he gets back to see what his levels are like now and maybe I'll try and get a hycosy again as two months after that we got pregnant with our son (after 15 of nothing). There are plans at least to hopefully move things in the right direction rather than just waiting and hoping.

@bunnykins123 forgot to take one before I left for work, I will later!

@TheBirdintheCave ooo lovely! Have the best time! We are going to the Balearics next week so praying for good weather. Are you doing frag test? I've decided after another disastrous attempt this month, I'm getting the ball rolling with our clinic. The stress of ttc is getting too much for DH and it's becoming too much for me too now 😓

Ooh I've never heard of that test so I did a quick Google. I think it will just be a regular count/motility/morphology test. My husband has above average count and morphology but shocking motility. Before we got pregnant with our son we were told the only way forward was IVF with ICSI.

I hope the weather is good for you! We're going to Granada on Thursday. Blessedly their heat wave is just ending so we should end up with 25-27c instead of 37. I am concerned about rain though, the last forecast we looked at said there would be lots of storms x__x

I hope starting with the clinic helps you and your DH feel a little more in control of things. It definitely did for me last time.

@MrsCristianoX no scan, when I noticed the tests becoming faint I’d phoned the doctor and asked for hcg and they told me to phone epu and they told me to wait a week and phone to get a reassurance scan. Because I started bleeding a couple days later and had negative tests I never contacted further. I’m northern trust.

@bunnykins123 its not that I have regular cycles but they’re never like this. I had cramps a week after AF should of been due and I assumed that would be the start of it then it left. I just have normal CM, every so often I get a pain in my side like O pain but cm doesn’t change so I dunno what my body’s trying to do. I feel like I just need AF to reset my hormones it’s been nearly 7 weeks from my first MC bleed.

I’ve just been to the loo and had a tiny bit of pink cm again. Exactly like on Sunday night. So it’s not enough to make me fully panic, it was literally the lightest hint of orangey pink mixed with my cm, but I didn’t think I’d get any more implantation bleeding after a positive test. I checked inside and there was no blood around my cervix. But I can feel the anxiety swirling around now, making me feel dizzy and sick whilst I’m trying to work 😣

@Luna57 thanks lovely here's hoping🤞🏼 I was watching a you tube video last night ( I know I know I shouldn't but I did) of this lady that went for scans every 2 weeks from 7 weeks and they saw the sac but didn't see her baby until 13 weeks and bam there it was 😳 that just seems nuts to me wasn't in the uk and she didn't say what kind of scan she was having but how did they miss it until the 4th scan 🤷🏼‍♀️ I would be getting on the phone to GP to try and get some answers. I went for a scan 6 weeks after mine just to check no retained products

@LuckyMoonstone eeek so hard but if you have no more tests in the house you can do it 💪🏼 can't wait to see a pic

@bunnykins123 I'm really resolved to wait until next week now only 6 sleeps. I'm just trying to plod through the days trying to be a normal person 😂 my brother goes to OZ until next summer on Monday so we have some things we're doing this weekend for him which should help distract 🤞🏼

@Luna57 same I'm northern trust. But my tests were still v positive so I had to get scanned MANY times in the end. But similar situation don't come in if your tests are negative 🤷‍♀️

I’ve spent all of the morning in a state of anxiety. Running to the loo panicking every time I feel a bit wet, thinking I’m bleeding more. But I’ve still just got this pink cm. If I hadn’t done a test yet, I’d be looking at the pink cm thinking yesss implantation, this is a great sign. But because I’ve already had the BFP it’s making me really worried. I don’t know how I’m going to deal with feeling like this every day for the next few weeks, even months. I feel horrible, like I just want to cry.

@LuckyMoonstone I got my BFP 12dpo. And then 13/14dpo. I had like brown tinged CM. So obv old blood. That was coming out. Maybe from implantation. And took a while to make its way out. But would be similiar time to you getting pink which is fresher. Only had it for couple days an then it stopped. So all can be normal. Don’t panic.

@mummatara you can do this. Just try keep distracted 💪🏻

Hi all just came here to have a mini vent! We started ttc it’s been going good but last night after ttc, I just felt so sad like this is not fair! I look around these days and all I see is babies and prams! Also baby Leo’s investigation into his death starts tomorrow so my emotions are everywhere. I just cried after ttc last night and I have never done that before, DH just sat and held me he understood the emotions I was going through. We talked as well this morning.

After dropping DS to school this morning I just felt so sad, as if I am not appreciating what I already got and felt so guilty I am so occupied with having another baby and that I might be missing out on my DS time and he is growing up so fast! I don’t want to take him for granted 😔

But also DS wants a sibling so badly he is almost 6, and he was so heartbroken when we lost Leo. We really want this to work out and be pregnant very soon I can tell DH also feels the same but I am so scared and nervous about what happened previously and trying so hard to be positive about the outcome.

I don’t know just felt to share! I hope everyone is well- sorry for the long rant!

Awww @Daisy155 I’m sorry you’ve been feeling like that 😔 it’s so tough! Big hugs xx

@Daisy155 aw it’s so hard hun. Ttc is hard anyway without loss and want to siblings for other children and people who worry about never getting to be a mum. It’s all valid.

i know what you mean though. I have felt at time almost guilty an I need to be grateful for DD which I am. Of course. And don’t want to waste her childhood about a baby which may not come. But it’s natural to want two or even three children. And just because you have one. Doesn’t remove that want.

I have felt LOTS of emotions around failure at not giving my DD a sibling earlier due to health issues. Did we leave it to late to try. But it just wasn’t an option before. I hoped for a smaller gap too when we started.

DD will have just turned 5 if this pregnancy works out. But we started when she’d just turned 3. I’m praying this bean is okay in there. I have an early scan Thursday and I’m pooping it. But I need to know.

Thank you @LuckyMoonstone and @Indianna2006 you have literally described how I feel, I was questioning if I left it too long! I kept saying to hubby when he wanted to try oh we need to get this done first before second one, oh we need to get better jobs etc! And that feeling to give him a sibling is always on the back of my mind now! I was so happy when we got pregnant because it took us such a long time to try for him! I think I also got triggered by going back to DS school there were other mums due the same time as me which was August.

I am the only one that came back after school holidays with no baby! And they all asked me and I had to explain to them and you can see the pity in their eyes. But I am stronger than that I have had a long walk this afternoon and wrote down a plan, picked up DS earlier he was meant to be at the after school club. am going to use this maternity leave to spend as much time with DS and get pregnant again! I can do this.

Good luck for Thursday, I hope everything will be ok for you and that baby is ok, I have my fingers crossed for you ❤

It's so moving to read all your stories, from losses to successes. I'm really keeping all my fingers and toes crossed for you all.

I'm still getting a very fain BFP on those cheap test strips. It's now been two weeks since my MVA. Starting to lose the will slightly, it's so frustrating. I'm also losing a bit of old blood still. Hopefully once that's cleared, my HCG will finally drop to 0.

@RaliaMusca its ok to feel that way, we got each other and it is frustrating! Fingers crossed for you as well everything clears up for you xxx

Welcome new ladies, sorry you find yourself here.
@LuckyMoonstone so glad your test is looking better each day 🥰.

Been struggling to keep up as my work has gone rather busy because of the Queen, but it's passing these last couple of days waiting for AF at least. Thinking of you all xxx

Well it’s over before it’s even started. Been bleeding all night. I can’t believe it. It’s just a never ending nightmare.

Oh @LuckyMoonstone I’m so so sorry. That’s just awfully unfair! I hope you’re holding up ok. CPs are so horrible and especially sh*t given what you’ve already been through. Sending love xx

@LuckyMoonstone oh lovely I'm so so sorry. If you can, log this with your GP so it's on your record. Sending so much love xx

@LuckyMoonstone I'm so very sorry it is soul destroying 😢

@LuckyMoonstone so sorry lovely 😖 life is so cruel xx

@LuckyMoonstone oh hun I'm so so sorry 💕

Thank you. I’m totally crushed. Feel awful for DH as well.