10th Month TTC..anyone else in a similar boat?

[IslaO]

Hi everyone,

I am trying hard not to catatrophise here but 10th month of actively TTC and nothing. I have been tracking ovulation and doing all I can but I’ve had no luck. Friend after friend announcing pregnancies and I’m getting increasingly panicked and down about it all. Is 10 months normal? Or is it likely to point in the direction of a problem?

thanks everyone x

Yeah I think so too thanks

Ready to go for next cycle, I have opks maybe use them this month and see how it goes but I’m honestly not trying as hard as I did this month as it got me nowhere all I don’t was stress and over think! Xx

Sorry @Angie2018 I tested negative all through so doubt it was a chemical. Just late ovulation I think which delayed my period :( but never mind. I feel tired and crampy today with it being day one! Feeling yuck and blehhhhhh lol. Fingers crossed for all you ladies still in the TWW x

@Watsochick ah bless you, yes late ovulation will delay your period. Hope AF buggers off for you soon. Thank you, I am fed up already and I am only 4dpo 🤣 I'm just bored of all this. I think it will happen in a few months I don't think it's going to be this month. I am too used to the disappointment to think positive now x

@Angie2018 yep I know how you feel, I’m scunnered with it now with the tracking and letting it take over itl happen if it’s going to happen. I’m so thankful for my wee girl I have she keeps me on my toes just now.
AF has been here almost a day and I’m ready for her to go it’s so heavy and draining the life out me !!!
i felt the same this month I wasn’t positive at all 🙄 x

@Angie2018 Nice to have someone who seems so alike with our journeys so far! My cycles can be between 27-31 days with 12 day luteal phase so ovulate between CD 14/15 to maybe CD 18/19. I am CD 13 today and feeling a bit achy this morning so thinking next couple of days. I am only tracking BBT this cycle so just BD when we can until BBT confirms ovulation has happened. How are you feeling being in tww now?

@Watsochick I am definitely also feeling the same at the moment with not trying so hard as the months go on, it doesn't seem to make any difference with it happening and just consumes that month. I really try not to think about it as much throughout the month, especially in tww and keeping my mind occupied. It must help having your daughter to concentrate on and take your mind off of it? How old is she?

@Watsochick ah how old is your little girl? That's lovely you have her. Hope AF does piss off for you! I just have a hunch I won't be successful this month. I'm already feeling shit about it x

Well ladies, I’m officially going mad. CD 29 and fully convinced, despite a BFN on CD 27, that I have lots of symptoms of early pregnancy. I’ve let myself believe it for the first time in a few months and now I’m terrified of AF arriving and shattering it all. This journey is an emotional rollercoaster!!!

@Angie2018 hope you’re doing ok in your TWW.

hows everyone else feeling today?

@IslaO oh wow how long are your cycles normally? When is AF due? Maybe test again if you can?? I physically can't be positive nor bring myself to think it's happened this month. In actual fact I am fully expecting AF on the 31st and I'm grieving it already 😂 it's fucking bullshit right???? 🙈🙈🙈

Thank you! I'm doing ok though, 5dpo today. Only two more days and I will start to get my normal pre AF symptoms so will accept I am out more on Sunday!!

@Angie2018 i was exactly like this a few days ago and to be honest, exactly like this for the last few cycles. However, I’m off work this last week and too much time to think and I think I’ve let my guard down. I’m away with friends now and disappearing to the toilet every hour or so, wiping like a maniac and inspecting the toilet paper. I’m convinced AF is coming and also that this month feels ‘different’ in equal measure and it’s a worse feeling than when I write it off. Ugh!!!

im assuming that you’re the same as me at this stage- just hardened to it each month so your guard is up and expecting af on Sunday. So hard isn’t it?

@IslaO yes totally hardening to it every month that goes by tbh! The more disappointment each month, the less hope I have for the following month. I already know it's just not happening. So next week is wallow for a bit then accept it then move on AGAIN 😓

I really hope this month is different for you, and for me too. When is AF due?

I also wipe like a maniac from 7-14dpo, constantly checking my cervix position and how it feels. Constantly squeezing my boobs to see if they hurt or not, constantly waiting for my normal feelings in my cervix before AF comes. I get lightning crotch a few days before AF but I am sure I can feel it move and change position etc. so this normally starts at 7dpo.

I hope it's your month!!!

@Angie2018 a few hours have passed and now I’m sure my cramping is AF coming. Wow this is a rollercoaster! Looking around today at all the babies and children on the beach, I was thinking- getting pregnant surely isn’t that hard? All of these women have experienced the feeling of a BPF. I really want that feeling!

i know the boob squeezing feeling.. you squeeze so hard they are Definitely sore and then you question if they are sore from the squeeze or hormones?!

@tingalayo how are you doing? Are you in your TWW?

@IslaO I really hope it's not AF coming for you!! Are you waiting on any tests or are you going to get any?

It is such a whirlwind of emotions isnt it!! I've convinced myself I'm out already this month and I will only be 5dpo at around midnight tonight 🤣 I'm analysing every little thing and attributing it to AFs arrival in 10 days.

I just no it's not my month. I'm feeling heartbroken this PM. Argh! It's so hard!

I am right with you there.... desperate for that feeling of a BFP and very soon!!

@IslaO I'm 6dpo and boobs have just started hurting a little bit, which is pretty much clockwork for me. You sound like you're having a bit of a nerve-wracking time. I can definitely relate to a lot of this symptom checking stuff you and @Angie2018 are talking about! My boobs always hurt from about 6dpo and I take it as a sign that I'm not pregnant if it starts to ease up. That causes a lot of paranoid behaviour though like lying down and standing up quickly to check they definitely do hurt when flopping back down! And the wiping like a maniac. The day before I did a pregnancy test with my DD and my spotting hadn't started yet, I was at work going to the toilet every half an hour and reporting to my husband on Teams "all clear at 11.30 captain" 😂I hope I get to have another day like that.

@tingalayo that last bit made me laugh 🤣🤣

Yeah it's so hard, I normally run down the stairs with no bra on, that's normally a great test for me to see if my boobs hurt!

I normally get very sore boobs from 6dpo until AF. But the month I had my chemical I didn't have any symptoms until implantation. And sore boobs weren't one of them!!

I actually think sometimes the lack of sore boobs can be a sign if it's different for you. My boobs weren't as sore last month though and it was closer to AF when I noticed them being achey.

The one thing that really gave it away from me was my very light cervix cramps / lightning crotch from 6/7dpo. I always get that pre AF. The one month I got pregnant I didn't have it.

I just know it's not my month again. I am soooooo expecting the lightning crotch in a couple of days. 😱

My wee girl is 2 in August 💕makes it all worth it. But makes me want it more !!sending love and baby dust ladies x

@Watsochick ah that's amazing!! Thank you and you you too x

Morning ladies! Must say, really love reading your posts! @tingalayo , let’s hope this month you’re reporting good things back to the captain again 🤞

Im on CD 30 today and despite cramps going from light and fleeting, to longer lasting and slightly more moderate all last night, I’ve woken up with no AF. Even as I type this next bit, I’m wondering if I am making it up, but I have some acid reflux, quite gassy and one really sore boob. Flo app says I can test today but I can’t bring myself to. I tested on CD 26 and was negative so I really have no idea what’s going on. Terrified for that first spot this month as I have really let myself believe it in some ways (totally convinced I’m being crazy in other ways). Late last night I even let myself calculate approximate due date and that is dangerous! Haven’t done that since month 2 or 3.

Have in laws coming to stay from tomorrow so if AF arrives then, it will be so difficult to keep up the front. MIL mentioned about me wanting to be ‘an older mother’ recently. I’m 33 and never mentioned this 🙄

@Angie2018 hope you’re holding up ok in the endless part of the TWW.

@SFrancis1 @Shaker21 how are you ladies doing?

@IslaO morning lovely! I mean I've read this sitting on my sofa getting excited for you.... omg please test. Your symptoms do sound very promising. Cramps in early pregnancy are VERY common, acid reflux I had with my chemical, and I was very gassy! I don't want to try and get your hopes up because if AF comes it will hurt even more but I think a negative 4 days ago doesn't mean it won't be positive now. HCG takes time to build up and be detected. How many dpo are you?

It's so hard isn't it, I am awful, every month I recalculate the due date so I know.

I mean I don't know what planet she's living on but 33 is not old at all. I am 33, and plenty of woman and men have babies in their 40's. It's this strange view from that generation that in your thirties is late because they all started late teens and twenties. In reality 30s is the norm now!!

The TWW is dragging and I'm finding every single tiny twinge as to why I can't be pregnant. And then keep saying, my body wouldn't even know I am pregnant yet even if I was so whatever I feel I would feel regardless.

I just want next week to be here as I normally know from 7/8dpo that AF is going to come.

I so badly want this BFP this month! The baby would be due around my 34th bday and it would be an Aries like me which I would adore 🥰

Hope you are ok and please keep us posted, I am so desperate to see your BFP as it will give me the hope to keep going knowing someone in the same boat has managed it!! X

Morning girls 😃

@IslaO Ohhh I can imagine how you are feeling right now!! Do you know what CD you ovulated and how many DPO you are right now? I really hope it is positive for you....like @Angie2018 said it would be so nice for us to know someone in the same boat had finally got their BFP!

I am currently CD14....temp was still steady this morning at my normal 36.40C. I would normally get a slight dip in temperature the day before I ovulate so potentially waiting for that to happen and get a heads up its on its way. I am thinking the next couple of days surely must be it...latest I have ovulated previous months was CD 17 so hopefully not long. I have had some aching and ovulation pains yesterday morning and this morning so it is doing something. We are just BD and keeping fingers crossed.

How are you doing @Angie2018 ?

Morning @Shaker21 !! I am ok thank you, you? It sounds like ovulation is imminent for you if you are having pains, hopefully you get a ride tomorrow or a dip so either way you know it's been or about to happen! Like you say keep BDing and I'm sure you will catch!!

I'm sitting here being majorly impatient, convincing myself I'm out, then convincing myself I have a chance, then getting sad because I'm still waiting, then feeling positive and telling myself it's only month 7. Minus 3 months because of what Covid does to sperm.

So I keep trying to tell myself the doctor would laugh me out of their office and just tell me to keep having sex 🙈

I keep trying to remind myself that it's just time and the right egg and the right sperm but I'm impatient. And worrying!!

How you feeling with it all??

@Angie2018 You sound so similar to me lol! I do tend to go up and down throughout the month, I did have a bit of a down day yesterday and feeling all a bit fed up about it all. I get extremely impatient also and the more it doesn't happen the more I worry and wonder why it hasn't. I already feel like it wont happen this month because why would it...it hasn't happened other months lol! So yeah already feeling negative before I have even ovulated 😂I can't even imagine how I would feel getting the BFP because it feels like it will never happen!

@Shaker21 omg literally everything you just said! I am EXACTLY the same. I have zero reason to not believe I have a chance this month, but of course I don't because why would I?! It's not happened yet and been successful so why on earth will I get it now?? I am genuinely a bit fed up with it all! Trying to hold out worrying too much until Sunday. By 6/7dpo last month I could tell my period was coming in a week. I had all my normal signs so I reckon il know by then. If I don't KNOW il be slightly more positive. I always hate the first part of the TWW. Because nothings happening that we can actually feel & even if we feel something it can't mean anything either way so it's hard. 🙈

@Angie2018 Yeah I feel the same...the last few months I have got really sore boobs from about 2/3 DPO and they then ease off towards AF so feel like I already know by then that I am out! Need to try and stay positive and that there is no reason why it couldn't be this month...this will be our month!! 🙌

Morning all happy Friday. I was away all day yesterday so got a wee catch up with all of this last night. I had more jelly discharge yesterday not a big pile but it was like clear glue. Have had sore boobs but again I've always had this so not getting my hopes up. I'm on day 21 today had my period this day 3 weeks ago which was a week early not sure weather it will come early again r go back to my 28 day cycle. Im hoping to test after the wknd but feeling so nervous already. @isla Pay no attention to the mil I'm 36 wish I was 33 defo not too old.