Faith, trust & baby dust! ✨💕✨ TTC 12 months + 🤞🏼 On this rollercoaster together with a little love, support and giggles to get us by! 💕

[HopefulGlow]

Hi all!

We were getting to the end of the previous thread, so thought it’s best to start a new one.

A quick catch up I think mainly everyone on the old thread is as 12 months + TTC.

Newbies are always welcome.

Just sharing our journeys, supporting each other when possible, and having somewhere to moan and let it all out

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@AZ1992X that’s good news, are you having a chill weekend? And a week of working from home sounds ideal too.

Everywhere seems to say that when implantation doesn’t succeed early on and we have a chemical, it’s assumed that egg just was sadly never destined to implant. Some crazy stat like it happens with 1 in 4 blastocysts apparently. It didn’t make me feel any better at the time, but there’s a bit of comfort in knowing its super likely it wasn’t anything to do with me, my hormones, or my body? And that there likely isn’t a problem causing them, which I also guess means it doesn’t make us any more likely to have another one? I know all of that info probably doesn’t help right now ♥️

We have a neighbour’s birthday at our local tomorrow night, which we’ll stick our heads into but I can’t say I’m buzzing for a night at the pub 😂 other than that, just chill xx

@Amy259 Yes, just going to have a fairly chilled weekend. Maybe watched some films and do some online shopping. 😌

Bleeding seems to have really slowed down now so I’m hoping it’s about over and I’ll start tracking again in just over a week.

Thank you - it has a little bit, just need to think positive thoughts that next time will work out well.

That sounds like a good idea just making an appearance to show your face and then having a chilled weekend. Xx

@xoJellyBean what can they do to help/assist with TTC now they know what the issue is?

I am now in my TWW, 5 DPO. I have plenty to keep me busy and this week has gone quickly, fingers crossed next week will too :)

I noticed you and @Tinkerbell098
had similar issues with your bloods and getting the correct results from your doctors. Would you recommend asking for a detailed report? My doctors just said all okay and then booked my scan. Should I be checking to make sure they are okay do you think?

@Amy259 oh my goodness 😭😭😭 I’m so happy your scan went well!! 💕💕💕💕 do you feel better after seeing the little bean and hearing their heartbeat? 💕💕💕💕

@LA9610 I’m so sorry you’re feeling out this month. 😔 definitely give yourself some TLC and pop on some Christmas films 😁 I love your optimism!! I’m sure if you ask Santa very nicely there could be a Christmas evening present 😂😂

@AZ1992X I’m so happy you’re holiday went well and it was a welcomed distraction.

But I’m so sorry the bleeding continued. I would definitely speak with your doctor and explain. I really hope you gets answers and a solution.

I’ve also just seen what Amy put about the doctors and getting help, I didn’t know this would affect your chances to get referred. Definitely keep it on the DL if it delays things then?

All these silly rules about help and referrals frustrate me so much!

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@AZ1992X thank you 🥰🥰 hope you're doing okay?!

@HopefulGlow I've just booked my CT scan for next week - they want to know what the 'mass' is first then hopefully I'll be starting clomid next cycle 🤞🏻 although now I feel under immense pressure to lose weight!! 🤣

AF arrived for me on Friday, weirdly on time even though I didn't ovulate! 🥚

@xoJellyBean so glad you can get in quickly for a CT scan. Fingers crossed for your clomid starting too, that’s so exciting!! ✨💕✨

@HopefulGlow the joys of going private! It's costing me just short of £1k 😫 they told me I would be waiting 12mths+ for the NHS. It's in a very sad state at the moment😢 how's your Sunday going?

@xoJellyBean sorry I didn’t see this!! My Sunday was good thanks, we went on a little road trip randomly. how was yours?

I can’t believe how much it’s costing you 😫 that’s so expensive. I mean it completely worth it, but it’s such a shame the NHS wait is so long 😔 what does the private costs include?

I don’t want to jinx it, but we may finally have a house! Just waiting for the paperwork to finalise. Yaaaaay

I’ve been feeling shocking this week. Took a covid test, and negative! But my OH keeps saying what if it’s a symptom 🤞🏼 Period is due on Sunday and I’m trying to think realistically. 😫

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Morning ladies!

Sorry I’ve been a little quiet, just needing some time out. Part of me is thinking of having a cycle off and enjoy the run up to Christmas without thinking about anything ttc but I’ll probably change my mind next week.

@HopefulGlow I’m thinking maybe I should tell my gp. It was to be referred for fertility services in April if I failed to conceive but I think it needs to be investigations for miscarriage rather than ttc? If that makes sense.

Keeping my fingers crossed everything goes through on the house & for a bfp this week 🤞🤞

Xx.

Morning @AZ1992X 💕 don’t worry about being quiet, that’s totally understandable that you need some time off. Just know we are thinking of you.

Yeah that sounds like a good idea! Maybe your gp can investigate. It would be great to find out if there was something you could do to help. How are you and your OH coping?

I think if you need time off, go for it. 1 cycle is nothing if it means you’re feeling more festive and it helps your mental health.
I really hope you’re taking some time for you though!

I had a bath last night and a cry 😅 I just get stuck in this loop sometimes of feeling frustrated there’s no answers, feeling broken that I can’t do something we were born to do, telling myself to be realistic as it’s only been 14 months, telling myself other people have been struggling more and longer, and then feeling like I’m ungrateful for the things in life I do have. 🤦🏼‍♀️

I dreamt my mum and sister were both pregnant last night….😂 i remember getting really frustrated in my dream 😫

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@HopefulGlow no worries!! I had a pretty chilled day, trying to rid allll stress for my life🤞🏻🤣

My husband was hesitant at the start because he thought I should be able to get all these tests on NHS but the waiting times made us decide to stick with private. That amount covered CT scan of my abdomen and pelvis and then the follow up appointment for the results! I hope that's the end of it 🤣

Yayyyy, congrats in the house 🎉🥰

Fingers crossed and stays away for you this weekend🤞🏻 when will you test??

@AZ1992X hope you're okay, I think it's good to give ourselves a break especially coming up to the holidays 🥰🥰

Also, my scan is in a few hours! I am sick with nerves🤣🙈

@xoJellyBean good luck for the scan. Keep us updated on how it goes. Definitely a good decision to go private (I know it hurts when you see the bill), as I am still waiting for my scans which were ordered months ago. At least it'll get you somewhere and you'll know what the next steps are.

@xoJellyBean haha how did ridding yourself of stress go? 😂😂

I was like that too before my test! Luckily they let my OH come in the room with me, it was just weird haha I’m really hoping everything goes well for you and they give you some answers!

I’m the odd one out here I think. I won’t test 😂 unless I’m late. My periods are usually bang on time, and recently have been first thing in the morning too.

I used to test but it got too much seeing negative tests all the time. I used to record it too, but again, it got too much.

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@Tinkerbell098 thank you 🥰 I feel much better for going private and I'm thankful I can. The guy in before me told me he's been waiting 1 year & 7 months for his NHS scan and has had enough! How's your day been?

@HopefulGlow it went well until I went to work on Monday 🤣🤣
I'm the same as you with testing! A negative test has become worse than getting AF for me. I've got 1 pack of FRER's in the house and will only use if I'm almost sure I am pregnant lol if I start clomid I'll see how I feel and start testing and will record too 🤞🏻

Scan went well, glad it's over. Will know my results in a week!

@xoJellyBean work always ruins it 😂😂

Same!! I have one FRER and one digital and loads of cheap strip ones I got with my LH kit. I found a couple of videos the other day from my first few months of testing, it broke my heart seeing my face get more disappointed as I did another month.

So for me, I just try and manage my disappointment with AF instead. 😅

So glad the scan went well, hopefully they won’t be too long with your results. But with it being private they will probably talk to you more in depth about it too 😁 ✨💕✨

@xoJellyBean glad the scan went well and you'll hear back next week. That's so quick! I think going private was a great decision. I was in for a blood test yesterday as they wanted to test for PCOS but the nurse was unable to get much blood out of me!! She said I had tiny veins and cold hands so kept prodding in few different places and still couldn't get enough. Nightmare! She said they'll try to test with the amount they got, if not, will have to come back in a couple of weeks. Oh well!

Hi girls, how have you all been? Sorry I've been quiet, been trying to take some time off mentally but the TWW is getting to me🤣. I haven't managed to catch up on all the messages but hopefully you girls can keep me right.

I mentioned on the last thread that my best friend is pregnant, well today she announced it on Facebook and I'm feeling quite hurt.. am I being too sensitive? I am heartbroken seeing the scan pics and the comments of congratulations pouring in. I feel so silly to be trying control her happiness, or to be telling her how she should be navigating her pregnancy. Perhaps @amy259 has a different perspective, given you have been on both sides of the coin? Personally, (if I'm lucky enough to get there!) I won't announce on social media, purely because I know how distressing I have found announcements, and I don't want to think I would contribute to anyone feeling that way.

I'm trying to keep my mind off of TTC and subsequently I am pulling away from pregnant friends (which I have a lot of!) in turn, making my world very small. I've been finding things a bit easier by doing this until something crops up, usually online, and I feel the emotions flooding back alongside an overwhelming feeling that I'm burying my head in the sand. I know my pregnant friends aren't doing anything 'to' me. I'm just finding it all so hard to be around 😭. Xx

@HopefulGlow I think once you hit 6 months of trying and getting negative tests it just get worse 🙈 plus we are technically saving money 🤣 I'm hoping to get a copy of my scans, I find it soo interesting and I'm seriously considering a change in career to radiography 🙃 how's your day going? Any symptom spotting?👀

@Tinkerbell098 thank you 🥰 do you know which blood tests they are doing? Mine were the SHGB, testosterone and also androgens! Hopefully they've got enough blood 🤞🏻

@User1400 sorry to hear about how you're feeling. It's completely valid! I have a new baby nephew and I still cried bucket loads when he was born even after knowing this day was coming the last few months.
I totally agree with you about announcements on social media, it can be so distressing for people. I've cried at all recent announcements... TTC can be such a lonely journey. Hope you're ok🤍

Hi ladies, I hope you’re all keeping well and getting excited for Christmas - howwww is it one month today?!

@HopefulGlow ahh amazing about the house, fingers crossed it’s all smooth sailing from here!

Sorry to hear you’ve been feeling rotten, are you feeling any better now?

@AZ1992X how are you doing? ♥️ Have you seen the NICE guidelines have been updated regarding progesterone? Now any woman who has had one miscarriage (versus 3 before!) should be considered for/given progesterone suppositories in her next pregnancy. It was in the news this week as a huge breakthrough for women’s health, you’ve prob already seen it but just in case you hadn’t.

@xoJellyBean glad the scan went well! 🤞🏻 all is well and you can crack on with clomid soon!! I’ll keep an eye out for your updates.

@Tinkerbell098 that blood taking experience does not sound fun! I’m not really a queasy person but I think someone poking around too much would be a bit much for me!! Hopefully she got enough 🙈

@User1400 ahh I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through that today 💔

So I feel pretty torn about announcements really, In general, I think of it as I can’t expect others to manage my emotions - like if there was something/someone on insta or fb that made me feel down about myself (in any way, not just ttc) I feel that’s for me to manage and unfollow or whatever, not them to change/manage themselves based on just me - does that make sense?? And I think it’s a lot to ask that people don’t share their joy if they want to?

BUT I think in this case, if I knew my best friend was struggling with TTC, I would’ve 100% messaged you to pre-warn so you could use the “snooze for 30 days” feature on fb so you didn’t need to see it. She didn’t give you the chance to protect your heart from it, and I would feel hurt by that too ♥️

I’m not sure what we’ll do yet - when ttc I would’ve probably said we wouldn’t post it, but I do flip between now. Ttc took away all the joy of trying, so I’d quite like to feel just normal now and do all the normal pregnant couple things like posting a cute announcement photo, and not have our journey so far taint any more of it, but I don’t know. If we do put it online, I would maybe put something at the end acknowledging it all, but I just don’t know. It’s a really tricky one!

Evening ladies!

I’m not doing too bad thank you, it’s been a busy week at work and I’ve definitely welcomed the distraction. I’m off out Saturday for a drink/meal for birthday celebrations which I’m looking forward too.

@Amy259 I know I cannot believe it’s only a month away! 🎄⛄️ I’m so excited, been ramping up my Christmas shopping too whilst all the sales are on.

I didn’t know about that and have just been looking at all the articles etc.. that’s great isn’t it!
Hopefully next time I’ll be offered it - I did see on one article that they have to confirm the pregnancy by scan but you’d have it up to 16 weeks.

How are you doing? , are you feeling any better at all?

@xoJellyBean Thank you ❤️, I’m glad to hear your scan went well and it won’t be long till you get your results.

@HopefulGlow Thank you ❤️, you’ve all been so supportive - it means a lot.

How are you doing??

I finally decided to call the doctors this evening to only get the we are closed message when they should still be open. Sums my luck up! Will try again tomorrow but it’s normally a few week wait for none urgent appointments.

We’re both doing ok thank you, he’s been supportive as always. When it happened I thought I was ok and then ended up going upstairs and just crying my eyes out and he just hugged my tight and I immediately felt better.

Sometimes a good cry is just what you need, it can be very overwhelming ❤️
& I would defo have felt frustrated if I dreamt that too!

Xx

@xoJellyBean they wanted to check for diabetes, cholesterol, prolactin (as the previous Day21 test showed elevated levels), SHBG and testosterone.

@AZ1992X yeah it’s great news, the whole waiting until 3 thing is a bit barbaric! Hopefully you will be offered a really early scan then onto the progesterone 🤞🏻 Did you manage to get through to the doctor this morning?

Are you far enough on in this cycle to know if you’re ovulation has been affected this month?

Sadly not, feeling absolutely rotten. Have the cold just now too which isn’t helping! My midwife told me to phone the doctor so picking up an anti-sickness prescription this afternoon 🤞🏻 My wonderful DH tells me I look like shit! 😂

@Amy259 I got through but it’s not till 16 December, I asked for the same GP that I spoke too as he knows the story and was helpful last time.

Not yet it’ll probably be next week I would be due ovulation so I’ll keep an eye on symptoms. Not sure if I’ll bother doing opks yet - still haven’t decided if to try. Part of me wants a break but I keep thinking I’ll regret having a cycle off so I’m torn.

Aww sorry you’re still feeling awful, hopefully the tablets will help you a little 🤞🤞 x

@Tinkerbell098 your bloods experience sounds awful!! Hopefully it wasn’t to painful and they got enough for what they need.

@User1400 we all need some time off sometimes. It can all get too much, so don’t worry.

I think it’s hard about the announcements because I do get what you’re saying. It hurts so much but I would hate to think someone else is dulling their excitement because of me. As she is such a close friend, I would have hoped she would have thought of you and let you know in advance, at least so you could try and prepare.

I think the hardest thing for us to get our head around, is even though people may not have struggled like us, it doesn’t stop their joy and love and finding out the exciting news.

I think I would post my announcement, mainly because I have only close friends and family on my socials. I haven’t told anyone about our struggles, I don’t know if I will. Now whenever I see someone post a pregnancy, I have to try and remind myself I have no idea of their journey.

I hope that’s okay and I haven’t upset you too much. I completely understand where you’re coming from but please don’t think about shrinking this experience for yourself, worrying about others.

@Amy259 I’m feeling better now thanks! It’s just been a crazy week so looking forward to a nice weekend now. AND ITS SNOWED!!! So I’m super happy 😂 how are you feeling?

@AZ1992X so glad you got your cuddles, but I’m so sorry you had a big cry! I can’t imagine all the things you were feeling ❤️❤️

Did you manage to get through to the doctors? I hope they can help you soon ❤️

Due on my period tomorrow ladies and apart from feeling a little rough and tired this week, I think due to stress, I’m out this month. No signs and I feel nothing 😩

OH has his SA on Tuesday morning, I was shocked at how quick it was for us to get in! So now we can’t even have sex for 3 day!! 😂

I have another busy weekend so hopefully that will keep me occupied and minimal tears. I would like to stop crying about TTC now. 😣 ✨💕✨

@HopefulGlow hopefully af stays away for you!! Have everything crossed 🤞🏻✨