December 07- MC Avengers in big pants, going through, been through or pg after a mc, still here, still eating cakes. We will not be beaten!

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OK so I have a reasonably positive start to the new thread.
What I thought to be AF turned out to be a bad case of theruns
And so when I poas'ed last night I actually got a BFP

Very nervous about it, but happy too. I actually went to the place(shopping centre) I got the positive with my dd for good luck
My dh thinks I'm mad but hey don't they all
now if I can just get past the nine week stage without going insane

ALBS glad your finally able to admit your pregnant

Lissie glad your getting that referal at last
ilts sorry it didn't happen this time

Oh Lcy Thinking of you tonight and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything is OK. Don't give up hope - bleeding doesn't always mean the worst. Good luck at the doctor's tomorrow.

Thinking of Lcy, so so sorry, lifes a bitch at times. They say things happen for a reason but I think thats bull at times like this.

Its crap crap crap.

{{{hugs}}}

Love to you both. X

Lcy I'm so sorry. Have you got any pain? I know you must be thinking the worst, but I hope there's still hope x

Evening. It is all shite. Is nobody having a good day out there? Why is it that nice people have crap happen to them. Not once but sometimes as many as 7 times!

I am really sorry for all you girls who are currently going throught the trauma of MC. Nothing I can say will make it better or make it go away, but please take strength from the love and support that is so freely and willingly given here on the big pants thread.

I am in London tomorrow for an appointment with the allergy specialist. Are there any questions anyone would like me to ask? I shall be probing deeply any link between mc and allergic responses. I know I read years ago about some womens bodies treating the embryo as an invading entity and sending out antibodies. So shall find out if true!!

Also anyone in London fancy a quick coffee/meet at lunch or after work let me know I shall be mooching about on my own. Might do Natural History as DDs cant moan its boring if they are at home

Hi Ronshar,fab to hear from you - great you are seeing the specialist. I have always thought that my body rejected my beanie - from the word go i felt like i was having an allergic reaction to the PG. My belly was really swollen and i had rolling cramps all the time - I constantly had a hot waterbottle on it - the monh beforei had the same thing and then a really heavy period afterwards.This year I have had it happen a couple of times again so am getting suspicious
I am in Camden tomorrow - in a meeting until 4.30/5pm - if you are still around? would love to have a coffee - my train goes from KC (we could pop to the longest champagne bar - just for market research you know )

Lcy So sorry. It is so unfair and horrible.

verso The hospital signed me off for a week after my ERPC and there is no way I could have gone back sooner. I think popsy said she felt like a wimp the other day with all the strong positive ladies that posted. I was the same and had 2 weeks off in total, sort of before mc, during and after. Even after that I felt like a emotional mess - still do sometimes and it was in October.

loveangel it all just takes too long to get better doesn't it. Be patient - we'll get there (wherever there may be). I have decided not to allow myself feel mean-spirited when I feel badly towards pg people. I know that I don't really hold it against them but it is OK to feel as we all seem to. Feeling guilty about it only makes it worse. iykwim

popsy totally agree with your list and pretty stationary is a real weakness.

Shopping is the therapy as far as I can tell - and what a great time of year to indulge !

Big hugs to everyone tonight - lots of sad posts to catch up on.

Aaah - Ronshar and Popsy around at the same time. So much wisdom !!

How were the hcg results Twighlight? Really hope you have some good news for us on this bleak evening!

Was lurking on the antenatal thread earlier - somewhere I have no right to be but seeing all the pregnant ladies gives me hope (cos I am a saddo!) and saw Kasha's name mentioned, I didn't realise she was pg? Or am I being thick? Sorry if I missed it!
Lcy - so sorry you're having to go through this again, thinking of you.

Lcy- I'm keeping everything crossed for you. I know exactly how you must be feeling right now.

Verso and loveangel- big hugs to you both too. Life really is crap sometimes.

kate don't even go there - I see it like picking a scab - totally can't not do it but when you do it really hurts!

luce, this is just - so horrid. i am so so sorry that you are going through this right now. i really hope with all my might that its just a stretching womb or nestling-in bleed or something . . . it is possible, you know that right?

i know that no words can console you right now - we all know that feeling of despair . . .

but just realise that here, on big-panted avengers tonight, we all are all gunning for you - with thoughts and vibes and everything possible, that it will work out just fine.

hope you can get some rest

xx

Hi all, sorry not been around for a few days while I got my head sorted out at bit.

Lcy so sorry, I've got my fingers crossed that beanie is still OK. I had a period-type bleed with DS from 4-6 weeks (didn't know I was pg and thought it was just AF until the penny dropped) and he's fine, I'm so hoping that this will be the case for you too.

kate no I'm not p/g I guess for some reason I'm still on the stats list, tbh I don't have the stomach to go over there and correct it...

verso so sorry you're feeling low. I'm in the same boat - we'd planned a 3 year age gap as he was a very difficult baby, DS is now 2.6 and I'm 38.5. Still determined to keep trying though .

Sorry I can't contribute any good news today, I can't even provide cake as I've put myself on a strict low GI diet to get me and my hormones in shape for TTC again - I want to get down to the same weight I was when I conceived DS (77kg) - only 3kg to lose but not easy with PCOS.

evening ladies sorry it has been such a horrid day for a lot of you, I don't even want to say anything as I know I am so lucky right now, all I am doing is counting down the days to the magic 12 weeks but I know I will never rest easy until I have my baby in my arms and know I will never ttc again so therefore never go through a mc again.

Lcy - what can I say? Can't find the words, want to offer some comfort and support to you. It's all so bloddy unfair am so and for you. Rest up and take time to heal yourself xxx

Ronshar - hope your appointment goes well for you tomorrow

kate2179 - don't be ashamed for lurking you must always have hope it's what keeps us going in the dark moments

jules - how are you doing?

hello to everyone else especially those going through a rough time right now, it will get better you got to hang on to that x

So sorry Kasha, I wondered if it might be something like that. Am more than happy to skulk over there and quietly take you off if you'd like me to. All in your own time.

Thanks for the message Kitty, love the new name by the way, shall I see if MN will let me be Christmaskate? (Christmas cake - geddit?!?)Maybe not...

kasha we could be twins could pretty much have written your post, am 39 in Feb dd 2.6 PCOS was a stone lighter(64kg) when conceived dd. Since MC have been less strict with GI as chocolate is needed.

evening ladies all around huge hug. I am doing my best to keep positive while allowing assorted daily wobbles, it is only human and, I fell sane. it is an awful cruel thing that happened to us

Popsy, excellent idea. Champagne in Kings Cross. If you email me your telephone number I shall call you tomorrow to arrange a time etc. [email protected]. I am going to The London Chest hospital in E2. But my train goes from Victoria so can meet anywhere really. I shall check mail in the morning. Leaving at 10am.
OOOO I am so excited. Answers and meet with Pops all in one day

& I ate a whole tub of B&J. Fossil fuel I think, it went so fast I didnt bother reading the front!

Hi Ronshar, just emailed you. Text me when you get my number so I know you have it
Good luck today and see you later yipeeeee
xxxxx

So cool! Wish I was there too. Have fun later ladies x

Just been to the loo and when I wiped there was a lot of red blood with about 3 little clot bits in it

ooo I'm so excited.

Bugger Kitty. I missed your post.
Dont panic lady. It could be nothing. Call EPU and arrange a scan. If you can, sit down and do nothing for the day.

Remember Healthy and Well, Healthy and Well, Healthy and Well.

Hey all

I've not been around much and just read back over yesterday and such a sad day so sorry Lcy, how are you today?

Kitty - is that sweetkitty? Sorry I hope it is just spotting and nothing to worry about

Any news from Jules?

Thinking of you all.

good morning all, how is everyone today?

kitty bugger! hold your nerve

thinking of you all

Oh Lcy I am sorry, it's crap isn't it.
Kitty how far gone are you?
Hopefully it's something and nothing and stops really soon.
jules how are you doing?

I'm feeling marginally better. went shopping and got half my christmas shopping sorted. though it was hard with all the pregnant woman and tiny babies around.
It's my dd's birthday tomorrow so I need to pull myself into cheery happy mode. we're having a party at the weekend (which I've toned down) hopefully I'll get through that without tears.

going to be cake making again tomorrow
so if anyone wants them, but they'll be topped with barbie sprinkles.