. 🦕 Catching up - ttc after miscarriage part 6 🦕

[Annny27]

Hi ladies! The dinosaurs are around plus a few newer ladies too :)

@kiwi17 well they have referred me to a miscarriage unit which is strange as they don't class ectopics as miscarriages so I am guessing that could be pointless... I am trying to decide wether to pay for a hycosy or not... erm I think the fact I have had it happen twice now has kinda made me feel like it's always going to happen especially as they kept my tubes in which is what's sort of a little off putting not sure I can play Russian roulette with my life anymore I was so positive last time but no I feel like it will potentially be disappointment after disappointment xx

@Sweetbabydust1989 aww I'm sorry that sounds really hard. It's all so rubbish and you're right I can see how negative you must be feeling. Will the hycosy help? I'm not very clued up on it but would it be worth it? Hopefully the miscarriage unit will prove useful and at least give you some support. Really hoping you get some answers soon and find some peace with it all

@kiwi17 thanks lovely well the hycosy can only tell you if there are blockages not if they're working...,yes I definitely feel so negative about the whole thing now I have binned all tests and deleted all tracking apps... if they would of took my tube I would of felt differently about things.. iam seeing a consultant tomorrow to talk things through about both experiences I am waiting for the whole we don't do surgery if levels are such and such regardless of it happening twice I no I will walk out if I get a fob off about it all xx

@27DONFIN Oh gosh, considering your work circumstances you are a trooper! I had a bit of a downer yesterday, had a lovely Mother's Day breakfast with my mum and family and then one of my close cousins text me "happy Mother's Day from your angel baby in heaven" and I lost it 😞 like it was bitter sweet but very unexpected and thinking about our loss got me and DH very emotional so I did have a moment at home..

@Sweetbabydust1989 I hope the unit can refer you on to get further testing done. I can't imagine how you feel, but I will remain hopeful that you will be able to have a completely healthy pregnancy one day - sooner than later!

@kiwi17 Haven't tried the SMEP method exactly (as in timing when to dtd) but I remember the time I fell pregnant we dtd at least once every day on each of my fertile days and it worked. However we tried the same thing again after the miscarriage and had no luck... i think if I do opk and temp reading to see exactly when I O, it could work but I'm just trying not to think so hard because I have a bad tendency to overthink fertility stuff 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

@danisaui31 thanks lovely... I honestly don't no what's going to happen I am not sure wether to try one last time and hope for the best I suffer with anxiety so I think the testing mine cause me more harm than good xx

@danisaui31 awww that would make all of us emotional. Are you in America? Just with you celebrating Mother’s Day? Here in the uk Mother’s Day is March. So odd that we celebrate it at different times x

@Babyghirl tell me about it! Haha

@kiwi17 I know, when it’s just very light it plays with our mind and gives us a little bit of hope 🤦🏼‍♀️

@Sweetbabydust1989 I’m so sorry, hopefully the referral will get you some answers xx

@Sweetbabydust1989 anxiety on top of everything you are going through, I can only imagine the mental and physical impact this is having on you. I don't want to say try again as if it's that simple but I'd encourage you to take that step in trying one day when you are feeling up to it, x

@27DONFIN hehe I'm in New Zealand, so strange that it's different days. Dh is American and they celebrate Father's Day in June while we are September lol.

Well ladies the excitment and hope may be short lives as I have had brown, pink and some red bleeding today.

Absolutely gutted ofcourse and dont know how I will find to strength to muster on for goodness knows how long again 😥 I will take a test in the morning just to be sure but it's not looking promising is it

Spotting* not bleeding it's only been a few drops

@danisaui31 oh it's been a mentally draining few months especially me and the other half have decided not to plan anything just go with the flow no ovulation testing kits at all... I feel calmer since deleting all those apps... my dear friend sent me a little care package she is very spiritual she put some crystals in it with a beautiful rose quartz necklace and a bracelet I though the gesture was lovely... I just pray at least one of my pregnancies end with a little bundle... it was horrible when I had my bloods done the other day there was this man with a newborn in those hospital beds pushing it back to the maternity ward i stopped dead and went completely numb then burst into tears I felt like a completely weirdo as I couldn't walk behind him I had to wait for him to turn the corner before I started walking xx

@Annny27
Hoping it turns out to be nothing and little bean holds on 🍀🙏🤞💚 x

@Annny27 still have everything crossed for you lovely, hope everything is okay despite the spotting. I had a family member spot early in her pregnancy that didn't get any heavier and her midwife said it was common. Let's hope it's the same for you!

@Sweetbabydust1989 I am glad that you feel calmer with the apps gone and aren't testing. My last two cycles were completely irregular which threw my tracking off so I've had to go back to opks this cycle to find where I'm ovulating now, I was so annoyed. aw bless, that is such a lovely gesture from your friend! I pray that you will have a full term healthy pregnancy, sooner rather than later. I've always wanted a big family like 3-5 kids and now I just pray that I get one even if it's the only one I have, fertility has never been a known topic in my family so me being the first startles everyone. It's just hard and draining. Awww big virtual hugs, I bet seeing the man with the newborn was salt in a wound, I get like that a lot around babies. Love seeing them but wishing it was me who had the baby. We just have to wait and stay hopeful, xoxoxo

Oh no @Annny27
Sending hugs
Hope this is just early pregnancy spotting and not a chemical 😔
Really hoping that test is nice and dark today
🤞💕

The test this morning , the line was barely there so I imagine this is not working out :(

Not sure whether to be happy that we conceived or sad that it didnt work out again. I guess a a mixture. Not looking forward to the proper bleeding starting 😥

@Annny27
Awwwww I'm so sorry to c this msg on waken up was hoping and praying from I seen ur test that things would work out for you this time around big hugs 💚

Thanks @babyghirl ❤ have to tell my husband when he wakes up he will be gutted again :(

But we will pick ourselves up and try again 🌈🙏🏻

@Annny27
I always hate that part but I just hug him, hopefully when you get the other test and op if needed you rainbow will just be around the corner 💚🍀

@Annny27 I’m so sorry even reading that I am still hoping when you said it’s spotting. Are you in any pain? XX

@babyghirl I am wondering maybe next time they will advise giving me aspirin or something!

@27donfin no pain (had a few cramps yesterday but normal early pregnancy cramps) and had no bleeding this morning yet but the lighter tests speak for themselves really :/

I need to tell the fertility clinic so they can advise for future cycles and also advise whether I need the anti d shot (I have negative blood type) but I realllllly hope it doesnt reset the clock of two years since the last pregnancy for IVF referral!!!! If it does then I will go private for ivf if we get to november (that was when nhs should be)

@Annny27
It should nt reset the clock for ivf as it still took nearly two years to conceive after your first loss x

@Annny27 I’m so sorry it’s not looking like this will be your rainbow. I don’t know what to say as it is just heartbreaking. And I really hope they wouldn’t start the time again for ivf.

The only decent thing to come out of the awful phone call I had with consultant was to take aspirin. Obv I have no idea if it will make any difference but just feels like I’m doing something to give the next BFP a fighting chance. So I take 150mg everyday now.

@Annny27 So sorry to hear about your tests 😞

@ELM7
Did they tell u to take it nw everyday while ttc 💚

@Babyghirl yes she said to take everyday and not just after ov or once I got a BFP. So that’s what I’m doing. It seems the recommended dose has gone up too it use to be 75mg but now seems to be 150mg.

It’s the standard one if you read Dr google. Some people swear by it for helping them get their rainbow and other things you read say that it isnt good to take. I’m working on the got nothing to loose so worth trying.