oh no coolkat . Thinking of you. Please come back and join us when you are ready and lots of love.
DG - I am so sorry to hear about your BFN . It is devastating and you are doing everything right. Thinking of you too.
I tested yesterday (2/3 days early) and it was a BFN for me too, so I am out this month . The sore (.)(.) are lessening (always happens before AF) and I don;t feel any different. That has been 12 months of TTC#1 for us (6 months of that tally, TTC obsessively) and we did everything we could. I just can't work it out, so I suppose it's off to the doctor for me now. I have regular as clockwork cycles, clear OPK readings, very regular BD-ing and still absolutely nothing.
I had a mini meltdown on the way to work this morning. Another typical day on London Underground and when I didn't get on a train I burst into tears with everything. I am so worried about everything to do with TTC. Even my career is tied up as I stick at this job to get the maternity pay even though I hate it, I want to move out of London, "to bring up a family" supposedly, but also because I am desperate to go back to my friends and family in Scotland. DH wouldn't go without us having LOs.
Sorry, I am making a big deal, but I am floored today, really. Maybe a year isn't that long, but bl**dy hell it feels it. G8D I am welling up.
DH is going to go for a sperm test, but we may go privately to speed things up. He isn't registered with a GP in London (not through lack of trying - typical London surgeries, bursting at the seams with patients and closed lists), so it may be simpler to go with a clinic for the initial check out and we can rule out/in that being an issue. Neither of us have any (known) previous TTC form - no DCs, no MCs, nothing.