Ttc #1 - cycle 7

[rosiej95]

Really fed up of AF showing up month after month now 🤦🏼‍♀️ we've been taking the see what happens but dtd lots approach. But now going into month 7 so We've decided to use the clear blue opk's to see if it gives us a better chance. 🤷🏼‍♀️
Now to just wait for AF to disappear 😀

Any one else ttc #1? 😀

CD1 this morning right on schedule. Cycle 13 is the one girls!! Here we go 💪🏻💪🏻

Hope you’re all okay this week x

Well just rang for my results and they said satisfactory and need a follow up. The receptionist said it wasn’t obvious that one was standing out more than the other and it may just be discuss how improve but I’ve got wait till 9 August. Urgh!!!

@Amy259 sorry AF has arrived for you, hope you’re ok ❤️

@AZ1992X that’s such a frustrating phone call! I don’t have the patience to wait for 2.5 weeks, I’d be losing my mind!

@Amy259 I am already 😂 … just keep wondering what it is and wondering if that could have contributed to the MC. Going to be long couple of weeks.

@AZ1992X no wonder, I would be the exact same. And I bet it’s absolutely nothing, you’ll have all this worry to be told they’re fine but here’s what you can do to make them even better!

I thought I was absolutely fine today, then saw my ex-business partner (who totally screwed me over earlier this year) just posted the “tea and toast” photo from the hospital, meaning she’s just given birth to her second baby - her first is 16 months old. So she has two babies, I have zero! And she’s an awful person. How is that fair?! 😂 I shed a frustrated tear and reminded myself that her having or not having babies has absolutely no link to me not having one.. onwards!

@Amy259 they did say it was nothing to worry about but just want to know 🙈. Also think maybe my hormones could still be all over the place?

Life does seem unfair at times doesn’t it! I’m sure our time will come & will be worth it when it does ❤️

Morning all!

How are we all doing?

@Loops01 are you nearing ovulation yet?

Hi, sorry been absent recently as just not really feeling it at all recently.

Tests are really low just now still. Had 0.4 on cd9 then 0.1 from then til now. I'm cd12. Last month I had a rise from this cd but will have to test later this evening as working. Not noticed any real cm. If I don't get a peak within the next wk then I'll be out as dh and I are opposite shifts then he is away for 3 days and then we don't have days off etc together again until the wkend after. Just fed up of ttc and the constant disappointment and then being back to work and not seeing dh again is shit.

It's good that your results were back and were satisfactory at least. It may just be a bit off due to mc like you say. Hopefully you can find out soon!

Morning @AZ1992X! I’m okay thank you. Had a weepy day yesterday which is very unlike me, woke up feeling better today but then walked by a woman who lives a few streets over from us on my morning walk.. she’s the local trouble maker, on an ankle tag, heavy drug user, alcoholic.. and now sporting a protruding baby bump!! Trying to laugh at the unfairness of the world rather than break down - I think my jaw hung open when I saw her! How are you doing?

@Loops01 sorry to hear you’re feeling low again, it really is a lot isn’t it? Hopefully you start to see it rise soon, did you do the same soy dose again this cycle?

@Amy259 yeah I did the soy again. So read that if you take for 3-6 months in a row it might mimic clomid in that way so I think I've got another cycle or 2 of it left. Surprised its not the same as last month and I am looking forward to just stopping everything after I've finished it all cos I really can't continue anymore. The low feeling in relation to ttc is the lowest I've ever had. I keep comparing and seeing everything and I can't really cope anymore. To the point I feel like we will have a baby but it'll be ivf. Silly to think it but I just have the feeling that we will have naturally at some point and we will have unknown infertility and it'll take ivf or similar procedure in order to have sooner rather than later. Just that feeling. I am just fed up of the constant negatives and changing lifestyle and it makes no difference. I've stopped buying anything related to ttc or baby and I stop myself from crying almost every day because it's so shit but just need to get on with boring life without ttc/pregnancy/thought of baby and changes it brings. It is starting to get my family down now too as they have known for some time now and they are desperate for us to say when we are and every month its like nope no good news still. Just too much. I didn't think I would be this bad but I didn't think ttc would be this bad. Just trying to cut it out of my life. I want a baby and to be pregnant so badly but it's not working so will just do a few months of pills and opks then that's me. Will still try cos ill never stop but 🤷🏼‍♀️. Done. I don't know how those of like 4 years with unexplained infertility do it.

@Loops01 I’m CD3 today and wasn’t going to do soy again because I noticed no difference, my cycles are regular, and I’ve read soy can do harm if that’s the case.. but I need to make the decision today. If it had made my ov stronger like you, or brought it forward also like you, I would be definitely going again, but I’m VERY tempted to stop everything except prenatal this cycle.

I know, the feeling of despair is like northing I’ve ever felt before either. I’m toying with telling my family, I haven’t yet but I’m getting to the point where I need them to know when they tell me about baby announcements etc that it’s tough. I’m trying very hard not to resign myself to feeling like we’ll need ivf but can 100% see how you’ve got there and will no doubt feel the same soon. I’m desperate for more tests at this point, I may pay for a private scan this month.
I also find it increasingly difficult to distract myself from it, anyone else? It’s every day, whenever I’m not busy or mentally distracted, this is what I think about. I’d love to get that under control!

I saw on another thread a girl who was on cycle 13 or 14 and decided no more OPKs, temps, anything, after tracking every cycle. They just dtd every second day from CD10 and that was the cycle she fell pregnant. She said she was annoyed everyone had kept telling her to chill out because she thought that was nonsense, but the month she banned tracking she did feel less stressed and she did fall pregnant… I love the idea of it in theory but I’m just not sure if not knowing when ov was, how many DPO etc, would actually stress me more!

@Amy259 glad you’re ok & completely normal to have days like that. Glad you’ve managed to pick yourself back up. Agree on that it does seem so unfair - it really gets to me when I find out people get pregnant unplanned like how?!

Not too bad here - had my second COVID jab Thursday and it literally wiped me out all yday - had a fever and felt very unwell all day. Luckily feel much better today. So glad I went at this point in my cycle and it’s done now.

I think I’m going track few more cycles and if they are the same may have break from tracking. Worth a shot 🤷‍♀️

@Loops01 sorry you’re having a rough time recently and it’s completely understandable to feel like that - it’s mentally draining. ❤️

You’ve still got time for this cycle so hoping you start to get a rise soon in your opks 🤞

I have thought about doing that but the problem is that we can't dtd every second day for work. So like just now when it's meant to be my fw I won't see dh until Monday morning and then Tuesday night. That's it from yesterday. Plus it's that other thing of 'trying not to try'. I think it'll work when it's meant to and everyone has a different idea of what ttc is. My friend who has been 'trying' for 11 months now apparently didn't even know what the fertile window was. Didn't know why it's that length or anything. Didn't even know when ovulation was. I have a fear that she will get pregnant before me because I've been telling her things and I can't hack that. Yeah my cycle was off cos of vaccine anyway and last month was the first normal. Will see what happens then that'll be me. Not doing everything any longer. 12 months of trying clearly made no difference so why would another few months of pills etc. Just want them finished. I'm actually avoiding a family event next wkend as I don't want to see dh's family anymore. Having just found out we are trying it's just awkward. Esp since SIL is due in just over 3 months. It's like a reminded of what could have been me if we got pregnant as quick.

I'd leave the soy if you aren't sure! No point trying to fix what's not broken. I don't regret but I don't like my family knowing. It's an extra pressure. It was a relief at some point but largely didn't help things. My family have accepted it now but constantly live in hope and it's not easy to deal with. Very lonely and isolating.

@AZ1992X thanks. I'm sure I'll get a rise at some point whether it be tomo or cd25. Don't care anymore really. Ovulation happens every month and we've managed all but 1 cycle whether it be 1 day in fw or every day. Makes no odds anymore as its always a negative at the end so not too fussed when it comes. Any positive from now on I probably won't believe and with everyone's experience I prob would worry too much. Used to say to myself that I'd let folk know from 12 wks. Now I'm not telling really anyone until 28 wks. I have to tell work at the moment but hoping I can get a change to work situation so I don't have to tell them so early as I don't think I could manage the loss when everyone else has kids or is pregnant. I try not to think of it cos it's all negative lol. Sorry for being the negative Nancy but its why I'm not as active on here now cos I have no hope or crossed fingers etc anymore. They are all broken haha

Good morning all

So glad I'm not alone of feeling negative lately.
I'm completely fed up of ttc now tbh
I'm 6dpo & will test Friday but not feeling very hopeful :/
How's everyone one else doing?

Morning Rosie. Not too long to go, just try to keep yourself busy til then!

Not tested this morning, will do opk this afternoon before my lateshift but no sign of a rise yet but I'm cd14 and as long as I peak between cd18 and cd21 I'll be within my normal cycle range so not worried. If its outwith then that's the way it is. Not in my control. Noticed cm changes start yesterday so hoping its not too far away. After last month being a 26 day cycle I forgot how much I liked the shorter cycles. Gets it over and done with quicker 😂

Hi ladies, hope you’re all having a good week!

@rosiej95 sorry to hear you’re having a tough time of it at the moment ♥️ seems like a tough cycle for lots of us at the moment, it’s such a mental battle isn’t it? I’d give anything to be pregnant, but in the meantime I’d also give anything to be able to chill out and relax.

@Loops01 how are your OPKs doing?

@AZ1992X how’s your cycle going? Nearing ovulation now?

Not much to report here, CD6 so in a fairly boring phase of my cycle. Acupuncture this afternoon so that’ll be nice. Going to switch my prenatals to a more natural one with less additional chemicals in it, and have hugely cut down (added) sugar this cycle - so I’m now living a REALLY lovely alcohol-free, caffeine-free, (mostly) sugar-free, nut and seed filled existence. Really buzzing about it 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

Hey everyone, hope you’re all ok ❤️

@rosiej95 , sorry you feel like that, it’s completely normal too though - we all have our ups and downs. Think we’ve all had more downs that ups recently though. Let’s hope one of us gets some good news soon. 🤞

Really busy week at work for me which is good as I’m keeping busy. I’ve decided to try the every other day from CD10. On CD12 now so probably still have little while to go (likely 18-20 I reckon).

That’s amazing @Amy259 - wish I had your restraint , I’ve cut alcohol completely and switched to decaf tea however I do have a sweet tooth which is my weakness (in fairness I eat healthy 95% of the time so decide the odd biscuit or sweet won’t do me no harm). 😂
What vitamins are you trying?

@AZ1992X that’s exactly like me, which I why I said mostly for sugar 😂 I’ve read a lot about how insulin mimics ovarian hormones, and when we eat added sugar l our insulin spikes, so if that’s happening throughout the day your body thinks you have plenty of hormones and reduces their release - leading to immature eggs. So my theory is if I have no sugar all day but the odd bit of chocolate some evenings, my insulin will really reduce. It’s the last thing I’ve given up because I’ve got a sweet tooth too - and they add sugar to so much!!
I’m generally healthy too and we only eat fresh etc so I’m still refusing to give it up completely, I need some bloody pleasure haha.

I’m thinking these. A few natural fertility experts rate them highly as they’ve no rubbish in them and folate rather than folic acid. I’ve cut out all my add ons so want to take a decent prenatal.

www.cytoplan.co.uk/shop-by-range/womens-nutrition/pregna-plan

Hahaha @Amy259! I hope you can find some joy in that existence! I still enjoy the seeds and nuts but did have a 2 day headache with the sugar but you feel better for it after it.

Cd14 with the tests getting darker but was 0.4 yesterday with 0.3 today. Not too fussed. Still feeling that way of well if I ovulate now or later I'm not fussed as it makes no difference. Although it would be nice to have it nice and early so I can save on tests but oh well!

@Loops01 this baby better be damn cute 😂😂

I’m still toying with not using OPKs this cycle.. we’ll see how that goes as we get closer to ov day though!

I have about 15 max left and I'm not getting any more. I'll still track other things but its so much money for nothing. The other part of me likes the premom and seeing how the cycles go.

Sure it will be cute ☺

So my GP’s next step was referring me to gynaecology for scans to check my tubes, for fibroids etc. She said we need this before we can then be referred to the fertility clinic - so this is the referral before the real referral.

So she did that on 24th June and I didn’t expect anything within the first couple of months, but decided to call them today to ask about wait times… I’ve been itching to do private bloods and scans but didn’t want to spend the money if it was coming up soon-ish.

A year.

Their current turnaround time for gynae referrals with no cause of concern/pain/illness - one year. So we’re looking at next summer before we’d even be on the fertility clinic’s wait list 😂😂😂

A year?! So do you need to have that before your fertility referal?! That's crazy! I know that the scans can take a wee while because it's at certain times and there is a covid backlog but that's crazy. From that other forum it looks like they don't really do anything treatment wise until you've been trying for 2 years - do they mean that? If you are worried I would pay for a scan. I know I feel better having paid the £135. Obviously it doesn't cover tubes but she was able to see a bit of one and she was happy with it and I have no 'symptoms' of blocked tubes. I wouldn't pay for blood tests really because I think a lot of the figures can change within a few months for the majority. Totally up to you. So sorry to hear its that long. Crazy!!