Thoughts please? 😣

[Stabal]

MMC in May after TTC for 2 years and no luck since. Decided to give up tracking this month and didn't even reorder supplements because I've been extremely down about it all and every month is devastating. Last month I had a short luteal phase of 8 days when I'm normally around 15 and my whole cycle is usually between 32-35, ovulating around CD19-22. So I've not been tracking but still doing my temps every morning. FF is saying I've ovulated already (BBT attached) which is early for me. Yesterday temp dipped, I had a few cramps in the afternoon and some spotting by last night. Today I've had more spotting this evening. Yesterday was tiny red tinges when I wiped, today is more brownish and more on the tissue when I wipe than yesterday but not enough to need a pad. So I decided to take an OPK and it was positive.. What do we think? AF arriving meaning a really short luteal phase again or FF is wrong and this is ovulation bleeding? I don't normally spot before AF or with ovulation and it seems odd to be having ovulation bleeding days before ovulation would actually be happening? Ready to just rip out my ovaries at this point as it becomes increasingly closer to my due date 😔

Oops, would help it I attached said BBT chart 🙄

Implantation bleed? I've never had one but the timing would be right?

@kirinm in a normal length cycle I'd be considering that but CD9 is really early for me so I can't imagine anything going correctly if it's a messy cycle and we only DTD on CD9 and CD11 so not much chance unfortunately! I'm hoping FF is wrong and ovulation is still on the cards. Exhausting!

@galatea098 thank you! Yes I'm slowly losing the plot to be honest. It took so long to finally fall pregnant to have everything crushed at a scan at 9 weeks after seeing my little bean's heart beating fine at 6 weeks 😔
Here's my last 4 charts. My temps are usually higher post O so I definitely think FF is wrong. When I enter the positive OPK it takes the crosshairs away so hopefully this was ovulation spotting! I had some more today, back to red tinge in EWCM. 🤞 for you and your TTC journey!

@galatea098 I think everything in the world right now is making a lot of cycles messy! We're doing really good with the BDing this cycle because we're in N.I so currently in a second lockdown and both of us are off work again 😂 it's nice to not be manically tracking with the OPKs and just enjoying time with my fiancé that we don't normally get

@galatea098 God it feels never ending doesn't it! I can't decide if I'll go back to the OPKs next cycle or not. In one hand it's nice not peeing into a pot 3 times a day 🙄 and feeling regimented but on the other I'm stressed I've no idea what's happening lol. No, it's dipped low again so honestly at a loss what's going on! I was very crampy last night and no spotting today so maybe today is ovulation? Who knows anymore! Where abouts in your cycle are you?

Hiya @galatea098 sorry, I never got a notification for your reply for some reason! Yes the spotting and cramps stopped so all in all 3 days of some spotting upon wiping with some cramps but no indication of ovulation. Your chart looked promising though, did it stay raised?
Yesterday I got a letter for my HSG so I'm not too bothered now this cycle, I'm happy to be moving in the right direction for some possible answers! I was waiting for AF end of Feb/March to get my HSG then but fell pregnant and I was told after my miscarriage I'd have to wait until a year after falling pregnant before investigating started again so really chuffed that doesn't seem to be the case 🤞

@galatea098 I'm sorry 😔 it sucks when you know your body so well and have to just wait it out

Hey @galatea098, any sign of AF?

@galatea098 gah! So sorry. It's good to have the attitude of seeing a positive to the situation though. Onwards and upwards 🤞
Nothing to report here, still no rise. I feel like I'm in my luteal phase though. Feeling rough, headachy, nauseous, all things I usually get PMS wise so I'm losing the plot thinking if my BBT is wrong or the thermometer batteries are low etc 😂

@galatea098 so my story is a bit different because I'm overweight. I initially mentioned it about 4 years ago to my GP but they brushed it off and gynaecology fobbed me off with pills and mirena coil for my pain over anything I mentioned to do with conception (I have pcos and endo). January 2018 I'd had enough of putting hormones in my body to pacify my pain etc and told myself I'd have to suck it up if I ever want to become a mum. GP referred me to gynae again but warned me they wouldn't do anything and sure enough my gynaecologist said they couldn't offer me any help. I lost 4 stone between March 2019 and August 2019 and GP was confident they'd see me now. My periods were irregular until July 2019 and by October I was ovulating again, GP had done bloods every month until this point. Seen a consultant in November who done some more tests and then referred me for an HSG and I just had to phone radiology when I got my next period to arrange an appointment for it. But my dad passed away in October so my mind was all over the place and didn't contact them then and decided in February I'd ring on my next period to get it done but that period never came as I'd fallen pregnant. February 2020 was the 2 year TTC mark for me so all in all 25 months of trying before I managed to conceive! I wish I had a more positive story for you but mine is definitely not the norm, I have pcos and endo against me. From the age of 18 when I was diagnosed with PCOS they told me there was 95% I'd never get pregnant.. But I managed it and hopefully I'll manage it again 🤞

@galatea098 aww thank you! Some days I don't feel so strong and want to give in. Really struggling to hold it together these past 2 cycles but I think that's my own fault for putting pressure on myself to be pregnant again by the time my due date comes along to lessen the blow. How long have you been trying?

@Stabal have you had a progesterone test? I’ve been obsessing about my temperature rises and I was reading that if your temperature doesn’t get to 37 degrees or close to it after ovulation it could mean you have low progesterone.

@Overlyanxious I have done last year every month for 6 months. Just this cycle it seems I'm going to ovulate late or not at all

@stabal - that’s so annoying. I hate when my body decides to do something different.

@galatea098 I know what you mean. I go between being really positive and then thinking it will never happen. I’m having tests done - but I’m 37 and I think my Dr thinks it’s best to check now in case there are issues. Perhaps if you get to a year of the tracking and no baby then you should have some tests. There are various things on the internet as well about what your BBT can tell you - so as I said earlier if your BBT isn’t high enough after ovulation it can mean low progesterone. Low temperatures (I can’t remember how low - possibly around 35 ish degrees) can indicate thyroid problems. So if you haven’t got those issues that’s a couple of things you can rule out.