TTC after MC - August 2020 (Thread 11)

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Hi ladies 🥰

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If anyone else would like to join please do xx

@Northernsoul90 I think it's a good decision. I put Ava on the day after I came back - temps high and I had a real glimmer of hope. Yesterday they dropped off and then I panic! It's silly. I put it on last night and then thought better of it. It's a strength to know what works for you 🥰

Thank you @Rebecca1992 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼 xx

@Northernsoul90

For anxious mummy's to be, somebody on the thread posted these commandments (or something really similar) a few threads back. I can't find it now but have just googled and it came up. 🌈✨

I loved this last time and it's lovely to see it again. I screen shotted it last time and read it every day xx

@Northernsoul90 That brought a lump to my throat, it's so hard to be sensible and kind to yourself when it hurts so much. Thank you for posting it x

@Pugprincess what times your scan tomorrow? Xx

@MichT4 I totally understand what you mean, I think it's hard for us to get too attached because of our pasts. We put a guard up as we think we are protecting ourselves but in reality if the worse was to happen we would still be heartbroken.

So ladies I'm currently at soft play, first time in over 6 months. The girls are buzzing. A little bit of normality for them.
Hope you are all ok xx

@Northernsoul90 thanks for the commandments, I have just saved them xx

@MichT4 good luck for today and hoping you get the answers you need. You are an inspiration. You are not being negative, you are protecting yourself and that's totally understandable.

@Northernsoul90 looks like a great chart. I had a massive temp rise today so dunno what that means! I'm so interested in the data Ava is giving me. It tells me how much sleep I'm getting and how much is deep sleep. Turns out I don't sleep very much!lol

@Pugprincess good luck for tomorrow. I have everything crossed for you xo

@chloedancer897 thank you ☺️
Sounds to me with that temp rise that you did ovulate yesterday. How lovely to see such strong data a few days into your Ava!

@Lollol86 yeah it is hard to allow yourself to let go of the anxiety. Let's hope I just have wee tests hate and that everything is ok 😂

Soft play? I thought they weren't going to reopen. Hope you're managing to relax and don't have too much of a headache 🤕 xx

@MichT4 yes they are back open, the one I’m at they have reduced the capacity to 30% but there’s on 14 people here including us. I’m definitely relaxing, been sat here on my own for the last hour whilst the girls play, heavenly 😂 xx

@MichT4 thank you! And I just think the way you’re handling all of this is great and balanced.
@Northernsoul90 thanks so much for the commandments. I have taken a screen shot and will read every day
Ladies, just been to my home OBGYN - she’s the best. I have been with her for over 20years. I see her twice every year when I come home so trust her completely. She did the smear test as usual and ultrasound. She said all is looking great, ovaries etc. She saw the follicle that is maturing. She said it’s probably a week or so until I ovulate. So she said I should be fine for when I’m back home next Tuesday. She also said I should start taking progesterone as soon as I’ve ovulated for two weeks, then test on 14dpo. So I’m going with that I think. She said you only take progesterone for the TWW and when pregnant continue. Xxx

Here is my chart. Massive temp rise? Dunno. But I'll know better in this TWW. At least the temping is keeping me occupied 😂

@chloedancer897 oh sorry, ovulated 2 days ago! Lovely temp rise.

Thank you @Firevie. Your appointment sounds fabulous. Did she prescribe you progesterone then? I'd like to take it but it seems impossible to get hold of! xx

@MichT4 yes she did. My doctor in London also prescribed progesterone but said to take it as soon as I get my BFP. So I have his prescription already but my doctor here said I should already take it once I ovulate next week as it will help implant. So I’ve taken a prescription from her also because I had read/heard how difficult it is to get over NHS and if I went back to my private doctor in England he would prescribe it but then I’d first have to pay £300 for consultation so I just got it from my doctor here. Xxx

Oh my god you're so lucky @Firevie
Can you get me some?? 😂 xx

@MichT4 lol 😂😂 You won’t need it! You will have your rainbow baby even without the progesterone - once we all have our rainbow babies we should organise a meet up. Would be lovely to meet you ladies. Xxx

Been reading up since yesterday & you ladies really are an inspiration, I hope you all have your bfp's and happy healthy little ones in no time! Thank you for allowing me here xxx

@chloedancer897 You've definitely ovulated from the chart!! Lovely temp rise. Ahh I forgot you got the Ava... are you finding it useful then? Xx

@Firevie Sounds fantastic and really good that everything's healthy... it looks like ovu will be at the perfect time for you! Has she prescribed the progesterone due to previous miscarriages? It seems like gold dust to get prescribed on the NHS 🤣 xx

@gizmo167 How are you today? This group really is a godsend and has helped me so much in healing from mc and moving on to ttc xx

@Northernsoul90 lol at progesterone being gold dust - certainly seems that way from what I’m reading here. I’ve had one MMC (first and last hopefully) so not sure if it’s because of that but perhaps just increasing chances next time it will stick at the off chance that my body produces a bit less of it. We haven’t done blood tests so don’t know for sure but yes my doc at here in Vienna already told me over the phone when I had my MMC That she would prescribe it to ensure it sticks. And my doc in London said he is prescribing it just in case my body doesn’t produce enough as that may be the case considering I have longer cycles. Hope this makes sense xxx

@gizmo167 how are you?x

@Northernsoul90 I'm really enjoying it. It's definitely giving me more accurate fertile windows than the OPKs alone so I'm hoping I will have a better idea of when to DTD in the future

Haha I hope so @Firevie

Although not this time sadly - my results from the other day were negative anyway 🤷🏻‍♀️. Not sure why she couldn't have called to tell me that. So I have to call and be referred to RMC now, but if the wait is too long I'll probs go private. I'm just worried I haven't had AF. She said I might not bleed and could catch again but not sure that's a great idea. She said that sac will come away with my next bleed.
I actually feel really teary, I feel like I'm losing all hope. She said the UK done prescribe progesterone as a matter of course because there's not enough evidence. She said they prescribe it after investigations sometimes as a 'let's see'. I think it's terrible they won't try things until you've been through it.

Anyway, not a surprise result, but still very sad xx

@MichT4 what does that mean?

@chloedancer897 they didn't need to check the levels because the levels on Tuesday were below the pregnancy level. So she thinks I've had a complete miscarriage.
I'm not entirely sure what any of it means but I'll just crack on and get the referral and keep trying and hoping in the meantime

@MichT4 I'm so so sorry. I really hope you get some proper answers soon and a quick referral. I do recommend going privately if you can because sometimes it takes ages and once the ball is rolling you will just want answers. Sending you love today, I'm so sorry xoxo

Thanks @chloedancer897. I was expecting it but the glimmers of hope I had have been dashed. I do feel a little sad really. I'll be ok, it's another knock, hopefully my last. I just wonder how much more I can deal with. It's consuming me and all excitement of having a baby is dwindling away

@MichT4 I'm sure it's hard to remain hopeful given everything that's happening. Give yourself time to heal from this and I know you can pick yourself back up. We have all benefitted from your positivity and ability to see the good in everything. My husband got me a necklace last month with a pearl on it with a card saying not grit, no pearl', basically it means that we need to work hard, we need to push through adversity to get to the pearl that we need. It will all be worth it in the end, I promise xo