Thanks for the new thread @VP91x just having a chance to catch up now . Really lovely to come on and see how everyone is doing and how supportive everyone is on here 💕 so now that the shock has worn of ever so slightly and I’ve stopped crying long enough to type I just wanted to share my own slightly terrifying news 🙈☺️ What a rollercoaster 24 hours this has been ... from starting the cb ovulation kit thinking I was Cd 10 today and gearing up to ovulation and lots of dtd to a hospital trip for suspected uti and finding out we are expecting a 2nd set of identical twins !! Please try and bare with me whilst I rewind a little and try to make sense of it all alongside yous . So after loosing our identical twin boys back in April at 16 weeks I had a d&c on May 2nd for retained placenta . We then decided to start ttc again straight away dtd as soon as I stopped bleeding a week later and tested negative so around May 11th . I then had my typical ovulation pains on May 14th dtd that day and again on May 16th then I got cold feet and panicked thinking I’m really not ready emotionally for another pregnancy so will wait a while if not successful already . I had what I thought was a light period at the end of May and was in a better frame of mind so thought ok let’s just see what happens next month . Dtd regularly throughout June , experienced ovulation type pains twice Both a week apart , blood tinged Cm on wiping mid cycle , horrendous cramping for the next two weeks then my first proper “ period “ from 25th - 29 th June Which I thought was my weirdest cycle yet but was very relieved that my body finally appears to have reset itself following the mc and we could start to move on and ttc properly . The past few days since this period finished I’ve felt a bit off but one of my girls had a sick bug , I had what was like the start of a cold and I’ve not slept much so didn’t think much of it . Went to bed early last night not feeling very good and very run down with a pain in my right side and remember thinking it could be early ovulation but wasn’t in the mood for dtd so thought sod it what will be will be and went off to sleep after taking a few paracetamol . Wolk in the night needing a wee with the lingering pain took a huge dizzy turn and the next thing everything went black ! Luckily my daughter and neice had been camping out in the sitting room so had alerted my other half to me being passed out in the hallway . When I came too a few minutes later I was very groggy and still dizzy but just wanted to go to bed so assured him I would call out of hours in morning if still felt rotten . Didn’t feel much better when I wolk around 8 so gave them a quick call and waited on a call back to be advised that it sounded like the start of a uti so to up my fluid intake and see how it went but to call back if I felt my Symptoms were worsening . By 10.30 I was in agony so called back and they agreed to see me and take a urine sample , got myself ready and headed off thinking I’d be back home with some antibiotics and hopefully napping by lunch . Have to say I was slightly bemused when the doctor kept asking if I could be pregnant again despite me saying no I’ve just finished a period and really didn’t think much more of it as he tested my urine for both infection and pregnancy so you can imagine my shock when it was a blazing positive 😱 Good job he was keeping a 2 meter distance as I honestly thought I was going to throw up over him with shock . The next thing I know they are arranging for me to be taken round to the early pregnancy unit to be assessed . I was in too much shock and in a bit of a mess by now so couldn’t even bring myself to call my other half . This isn’t how it’s supposed to be well atleast it wasn’t in my head . All alone trying to process a positive test and prepare myself for bad news again due to the recent period / bleeding and having to pass the scan room where I found out I lost the twins was almost too much . I was so thankful that they agreed to take me a different route into the department which is just through the double doors and the ladies in epu were so so lovely . With a little persuasion and their support I was able to compose myself enough to agree to some bloods give them my dates and have a transvaginal scan while at we waited on the results . I had been prepared the best that I could be for the possibility of further bad news or it being too early to tell me anything much but was glad that they were willing to help me find out what was happening so far . I’m sure you can then imagine my utter disbelief and dare I say horror as I lay there unable to open my eyes to look at either the screen or sonographer thinking just how raw my last loss was and that I hadn’t moved on as much as I thought I had , just willing her to say something - only to hear the words “ Congratulations “ “ twin pregnancy “ And baby A & B “ again . I don’t think I’ve stopped crying since 😭 I lay there for what felt like forever and a day while she told me that they appear to be identical again and searched for a membrane between them after Assuring me she had found both heartbeats . they assured me last time that identical twins are always spontaneous and something like 1 in 65,000 pregnancy’s are monoamniotic like my boys had been yet here I was again hearing the same words that’ pregnancy had started with willing for them to assure me it’s different this time and they couldn’t 😢it’s just too early for them to tell for sure . On the plus side tho they both have strong heart beats and appear to be growing well so far . I have been referred back to my original consultant , sent home on strict bed rest and high dose folic acid and can only hope and pray that a membrane is visable when they re scan me in 2 weeks . The baby’s are both currently measuring 9 weeks and 1 day meaning I must have conceived them just 2 weeks after the d&c . I really don’t know how I feel right now at all other than terrified . I mean of course I’m delighted and feel true my blessed to have fallen pregnant at all I just can’t get over this overwhelming fear that lightening may have struck twice . I left hospital in a daze and couldn’t even speak when my other half picked me up I was so upset . I just passed him the scan photo which I’ve attached . he thought i was an old one and I loosing the plot Couldn’t understand why I was showing him it till I pointed out the date . He now just doesn’t want to talk about it at all has completed shut down and thinks we should just forget about it till the next scan at least . Don’t get me wrong I totally understand his fears and reason for thinking this as there’s no point worrying till there is something to worry about but there is no way I can just forget about it So I’m hoping he is just in shock and in need of time to get his head around it all . I’m going to need his support to get me through each day . I do also have a uti so started on some antibiotics to hopefully clear that up and there was a visable hematoma which likely explains both the bleeding and pain I’ve been experiencing . I guess now all I can do is sit tight and wait while I hope that we get a happy ending this time . I’m far to scared to be joining any pregnancy threads at the minute keep thinking I’ve an extra few weeks of panic this time as had no idea it was twins till my 12 week scan last time so will hang around here a little longer if that’s ok ☺️ I might not be a very active poster if this progresses like last time when the awful sickness kicked in just after 9 weeks and I could barely function but I will most definitely be dipping my toes in waiting to see all the other beautiful bfp’s heading this way in the near future . I just know this is going to be a very lucky place to hang out 💞
xx