Hello all. I’ve found this forum as I feel I need some support from ladies who have also experienced miscarriage. I hope you don’t mind me joining. In a nutshell myself and husband had tried on and off for 5 years (I say on and off as sometimes more intensely testing trying etc and other times just letting things be but no contraception that whole time). We had hospital tests and all unexplained infertility no problems found. We were just about to start IUI cycles and I fell pregnant during lockdown naturally. I honestly believe stopping work and stress did it for me so I think I know where I went wrong (I was working two jobs and long days-one being agency and neither under contracts so financially I never could feel secure). I’ve since left both jobs and got myself one contracted job in a school as a teaching assistant for next year so I know get my evenings and holidays back which I hope will help my fertility as I don’t think I was eating or sleeping properly and I’ve read this can affect the quality of your lining for pregnancy. Anyway...unfortunately towards the end of June I was getting brown discharge that was increasing, started off when wiping after wee, then it was going in toilet bowl during wee, dripping on floor when I stood up, I just knew something wasn’t right so I went for a private scan, we were so happy and reassured as scan showed no bleeding in uterus and a 6 week 4 day baby with a heartbeat. I was 7 weeks 3 days at the time so I was a bit concerned to be measuring smaller but people reassured me that they catch up. On Monday last week I had some pains that felt strong but I rested up and tried to keep calm, they didn’t last too long. Then Tuesday the pains were bad and every 5 mins like contractions and lasted hours, I’ve toilet visit my brown had red in. I rang doctors and they booked me into the epau at hospital for Thursday morning. Wednesday I didn’t get pain all day but I did have red mucus when wiping. By 9pm that evening the pains returned and were constant. I couldn’t sleep with them so I rang 111 and explained that I was in pain and wouldn’t be able to get myself to hospital in the morning. They sent an ambulance, half hour passed and nothing arrived, I went for a wee and the bowel was full of bright red blood this time, then I really panicked and rang 999 as 111 had told me to if heavy bleeding started. Ambulance came much quicker then and took me to hospital on my own due to covid (were in Leicester so on lockdown again). I waited in a little room and made a few toilet trips where I passed more blood. Unfortunately the nurse didn’t tell me till morning to use a cardboard bowel in toilet-I didn’t know this was my 1st pregnancy and 1st miscarriage! She informed me I had passed a big clot so I wondered if that was my baby and even worse I thought it’s been flushed away 😢 Hours later they scanned me and told me everything had gone-complete miscarriage. They told me they thought I was past the worst of it. Turns out they were wrong. Since then at home the pains been the worst. Worse than the night I was taken in. I had 2 hot water bottles, ibu and paras, then co-codamol. I was screaming in pain. Sunday night I believe I passed my placenta which made me wonder if baby was still there after all. Yesterday morning I went for a wee and heard a plop. I pulled it out and I’m pretty sure it was the sac. I had googled and checked with friends/relatives. My sacs amniotic fluid wasn’t there and I couldn’t see the baby but it had been inside me dead for probably a good week so it’s not a surprise. I put it in water in Tupperware and placed in fridge till husband got home from work. I called my Vicar and he came and did a burial with us in our garden which meant the world to give our baby a proper send off. Baby is now buried in a little box I made for it under a rose bush my mother in law bought us for a memorial. Today is a new day and I hope I can start to feel better and I’m so glad my baby wasn’t flushed away at hospital. I’m so glad it’s buried here with us and we have somewhere to sit and reflect. We are desperate to ttc ASAP. I’ve been advised to wait for a period mainly due to dates but in my head I think it’s a good idea to let your body have one cycle and clear anything else out. I plan to use my summer holiday to get in new better routines ready for when school starts back up. Lots of long dog walks for exercise, healthy eating and solid sleep routines. The money I would have spent on my ten week scan I will use to buy a blender to make myself healthy smoothies and so on. I pray we all get a happy ending and our rainbow 🌈 babies 👶🏼 🙏🏻