TTC after MC - June 2020 (Part 3)

[VP91x]

Hey lovelies,

New thread - currently CD17 (cycle #3) still waiting for peak OPK.

I hopefully have tagged everyone -

@SmileyT
@Rainbowhope11
@Hayleylou89
@Dipsy77
@HopeForRainbowbaby
@elliew818
@MissyBate
@MichT4
@NightDreaming
@NadJade
@Renna
@Re6ecc4
WellHurrahAndHuzzah
@ManchNic
@Jazper
@Dizzy201
@peonyrose87
@HE88
@mrsssk
@1990EM
@Chickoletta
@Tink20058
@sunflower96
@Meomeomeo
@chloedancer897
@Niisa
@Bellabubble
@Sallyjo27
@Ejb86
@Wishingfornumber2
@anaconda76
@AR52
@DontStandSoClose
@Donnat89
@Banbi
@Diorissimo1985
@DBTJ
@2020wish
@Eli2020
@NightDreaming
@Saim86

If anyone else would like to join please do❤️

@MichT4 that's really annoying, obviously he hasnt had his coffee yet and is being a dick, haha.

Ahh those days are just a domino effect of little things going wrong aren't they!? Maybe you can have a little lunchtime walk to reset xx

@VP91x yes definitely going to get out for a walk at some point.

Did you decide on today’s activity?

@MichT4 no not yet! Probably go to the nature trail or something get some steps in.

Just had blood streaked CM. I wonder if it's ov bleeding? 🤔

@2020wish cheesecake perfectly acceptable. So sorry about the bfn ☹ I know as her mum you will find the perfect words to tell your daughter.
never actually heard of SI before.. That's my mornings reading sorted.

@VP91x could be - have you had it before?

Fairly certain I've read about ovulation spotting so likely to be it

@MichT4 last month and this month I had a blood streak on CD16 and now this today which is similar. Weird! Took a pic for my weird and wonderful records 😂

@VP91x 😂😂😂 another picture for the mantelpiece

@MichT4 imagine 😂😂 ah, what a life.

@VP91x just wait til there's one of your blue vagina as well 😂

I really wish I hadn’t tested so early, I don’t feel any symptoms, anything I did feel a few days ago has gone (I don’t normally feel any symptoms until around 6 weeks so this is nothing new) and in my infinite wisdom I decided to see what my cervix was doing (after reading this thread haha!). It was low ish and pretty open yesterday. I‘ve had a go at checking it over the last few years so I know what’s open or closed (it never fully closes after children) high/low. So I decided to retest today and it is darker which is obviously great but I can’t help feeling twitchy, my period is still 2 days away so I can’t even begin to think I’m actually pregnant until my period date has passed. I so wish I’d been patient and just waited to be honest. I normally just test the day my period should arrive with a cheapy and then confirm a week later with a digital, I normally assume no period=still pregnant. Far less stressful than testing, seeing a line and then waiting to see if your period arrives or worse retesting and staring at lines, which isn’t exactly scientific!

@DontStandSoClose you are still really early to be feeling symptoms and it is probably just nerves, I hope you can do something relaxing over the next couple of days to take your mind off things and not think about retesting again until you do it with a digital?

I'm feeling a bit deflated, I still have some bloodstreaked CM, which looks a bit more like light pink spotting now. I'm convinced it's AF making an appearance early, though I never have had spotting before it's due pre MC. Not sure why but I think I managed to subconsciously convince myself I'd manage to catch the first cycle after MC. Feel so silly even entertaining the thought now!

@Dontstandsoclose please try not to worry. It is early for too many symptoms, and some people don't have them anyway - including you, as you said with previous experience.
I think the cervix is a really difficult one to use for any definitive answers, as is any of it really, except of course for the tests which you have your darker lines on (yay!)
All the signs are pointing in the right direction, so keep positive xx

@mrsssk when is AF due? Don't feel silly, it can happen and still might have. You're definitely not out yet

@MichT4 According to femometer and Glow apps, I'm due on Thursday which will give me 28 day cycle which I had pre MC, so this spotting feels quite early on! It started yesterday morning, so on CD 25.
I could do a test now I suppose but I'm not sure I am ready to see a BFN. If it's AF, it will just start and I guess I will just deal with it and process it when it happens. Everything just feels so much harder post MC which I'm sure many of you will agree with, I just feel hyper aware of every twinge, possible symptom etc and it feels exhausting!

On the plus side, I am back at work after my sick leave so that is at least occupying my mind most of the time

@mrssk this could be IB?

I know it's really hard. I'm 3DPO and already thinking I feel various things - crazy! It's definitely all heightened because of MC, as I woulnd't have thought a thing beforehand.
I wouldn't test yet, because if it is IB, it will still be a few days before you have enough HCG, but just don't lose hope yet.

It's good you have something to distract your mind. Thursday will come round quick enough (or sooner should you decide you want to).

@mrsssk has it been consistent like everytime you wipe? Is it alot?

@DontStandSoClose I agree that you should try not to worry about not feeling much yet plus what you might of felt a few days ago could be the progesterone rising and making things more heightened. Your line has gotten darker so all positive signs. ❤️❤️

@MichT4 the TWW really is the pits!!
The first time I got pregnant I was so blissfully unaware of everything, missed my period took a test and got 2 pink lines. What I'd give to go back to those carefree days eh?! 😅
I hope the next few days go by quickly for you too x

@VP91x it's not been consistent, on and off from yesterday morning but was more noticeable when I checked my cervix position in the mornings. It's not a huge amount either, noticeable when I wipe as very light pink and a couple of small drops on a panty liner throughout the course of the day yesterday. Could well be IB but I'm really trying not to get my hopes up!
Hope you're feeling better today too x

@mrsssk I reckon it could possibly be IB because of the colour and inconsistency especially as its not developing and mostly when you check CP, but yeah so difficult to read into anything on the TWW isnt it?

I'm the same as you both times I have just tested because I thought I was about a day or so late to rule it out 😂 I miss that person!

@MichT4 had a little chat with my partner whilst we are on our way to IKEA (queue dependant as little miss will freak if she's waiting ages) and he said that he has found it hard this month to see me always testing and being disappointed even when I'm not showing it etc and it's alot of pressure when it's something we both want. So, I'll try and not be too annoyed at him today even though I am still upset xx

@mrsssk thank you. I’m hoping a few days off this week might make the time go quicker and I’ll be more distracted when I’m not in my office working (at home). Last month I was convinced I was because I felt sick and my boobs hurt, but I took a test which was bfp and AF arrived later that day. Was unnecessary heartache getting so certain, so I’m going to try my hardest not to overthink anything in this TWW. Hard to do though!

@VP91x firstly I am so jealous you are going to ikea. I really want to go but have terrible expectations of it being like hell. Let me know what it’s like (even though I don’t go to your one, but still).
That’s so good that you spoke to him, and it’s understandable he feels that way, it must be really hard for the boys to see us doing what we do and then feeling like it’s their job to do the next bit. It does become like a pressure pot, which is why I think it’s good you’ve spoken about it.
You’ve both worked hard at this journey this month, and I’m sure you’ve covered all bases 🤞🏼 xx

@MichT4 yeah, I do think it does affect them differently doesn't it? You dont realise it becomes an underlying stress. No queue at all!! Feel like I've won the shop lottery 😂

Oh my god @VP91x you are going to have so much joy in the next hour or so 😂
Yeah I think it does. My OH has been so good this month, I have to say, but sometimes after DTD I’ll say something about it leaking out or whatever (standard 😂) and then I realise how negative that must be for him when we have just had sex. I think they are sensitive to things like that when they realise how important it is for them to do their bit.

Anyway, enough talk about boys, go shopping and enjoy!!

Hey ladies in my phone. Its been a while since I was here. Had a positive test back in May and lost the baby last week at week 10. This is mc number 2 for me now and struggling more this time round. I have another scan next week to ensure everything is OK and am so on edge currently. It really is such an emotional journey and I am worrying that I am starting to feel bitter at how easy some people have it. None of my closest friends have ever had a mc and so I am now worrying I will be that friend who cant have a baby. Urgh! Sorry for the brain dump x

@busby85 oh no, I am so sorry to hear this news, sending lots of love and virtual hugs.
Please don’t apologise for brain dumping, that’s what we are here for.
I think we’ve all had that bitterness before - I definitely have - and it’s totally normal and expected.
I hope you are being well looked after. Try and relax, rest, cry as much as you need. Hopefully the scan will come round quickly and you’ll at least know all is ok xx

@VP91x I was wondering if his reaction was just to stress or pressure. They do notice things even when we think they don't. I think this journey is so difficult. It happens to us, we feel like we are doing everything and all they have to do is DTD but it obviously takes a toll on them too.

@busby85 I'm so sorry you've found yourself here again. I hope you're ok xo

@2020wish you aren't out until AF arrives. Would you not wait until then and not say anything to your daughter yet?