Catching up - ttc after miscarriage part 3

[Annny27]

Setting up this new thread for all the lovely ladies who have been on the ttc after miscarriage journey. And also all the ladies who have had their bfps but still want to stay in touch:)

Will post this in the existing chat :D

Morning! @SunnySideUp2020 yes you’re right it’s luteal phase! Maybe an autocorrect there 🙈
CD16 today and looks like I’m very close to my peak! Woohoo! I’ve felt really relaxed this month and been DTD because we wanted to and not just because we had to so hoping that’ll help!
@ELM7 did you manage to find a way to get round your partners bad back? Hope so, must be frustrating to have to miss a month!
Everyone else ok? Who’s close to testing?

My twin sisters due date was yesterday so I’m waiting impatiently for her to go into Labour! It’s a little hard for me as I would have been due next week but I’m mostly just excited for her. My time will come 🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Nuggetlover27 @SunnySideUp2020 sorry that was autocorrect it is luteal phase and it tried to autocorrect me there again😄😄

@scrumdiddly123 that’s looking good for ovulation very soon! That’s tough on you having your twin due but also really exciting and hopefully your new nieces/nephews will be a great distraction in your TWW!

Morning Ladies hope you are all ok.

Happy Friday. Glad we’ve got another week done. This week hasnt been a good one so glad to see the back of it.

So I am officially 1dpo and the TWW begins. We did manage to DTD on Wed evening but it was far from romantic and bless the faces DH was making because he was in so much pain with his back. I felt awful putting him through it. Am not expecting a BFP from it. But at least that should make the TWW less stressful.

@ELM7 glad you managed something. And honestly it only takes once...

@scrumdiddly123 oh it's a few hours away from positive!!!

@Leok83 autocorrect is annoying sometimes 🙄

Afternoon ladies :) cd3 now and I am over my depression and despair from cycle day 1 haha! Its always shit moving on to a new cycle!

We have decided to potentially wait for the NHS referral and not go private. I am only 28 and 6 months (5 now!) Isn't too much to wait and fingers crossed we fall naturally before then!

@Leok83 yes cycle buddies for the last time please haha!

@scrumdiddly123 definitely looks super close to ovulation :D

@ELM7 glad you managed to dtd even if it wasn't romantic haha!

@sunnysideup2020 how are you feeling lovely?

As happy as I will be for everyone to get their bfps I will be so gutted if I am left by myself if you all get your bfps before me haha. Let's make a pact for us all to get our bfps this month 🤣🤣🤣🤣

@annny27 😄😄 love the pact.

Feeling great. Unfortunately 😑 no symptoms at all. I am tired but it's also 31 degres in the house so that's probably why.
Boobs haven't even gotten bigger this month...
I am on a diet and exercising so maybe that's why.
I did an opk out of despair and i lt was blank.
Also took this quizz
patientplatform.typeform.com/to/ItAsFh

And i am not the quizz type of person
... said i am probs not pregnant 🙄🙄🙄

8 dpo... waiting for 12 dpo to test

@Annny27 👋🏼 don't worry you won't be left on your own as I won't be getting a BFP this month seeing as my body is refusing to ovulate. There's is officially 0 chance of a pregnancy happening here right now so I won't be going anywhere until my body sorts itself out and decides it would like to function properly. I don't think I'm asking too much from it 🙄

Hey ladies

Am I okay to still continue on this bus? Unfortunately my hcg levels do not indicate a viable pregnancy at this point! So 1 MC and Another MC/CP for me ☹️ any tips would be greatly appreciated xx

Hey all!

@Leok83 ah okay thanks for explaining that. I'm not 100% sure what my LP is for this month as I never got a peak on an OPK.

@scrumdiddly123 looks like you're nearly at your peak! 🤞🏻
I'm close to testing. Is it bad that as it gets closer and the chances of success get higher I get more scared. I'm so scared I will have another MC if I do succeed 😢

@Fizzl it must be so frustrating what you're going through. I'm sorry there's nothing any of us can do !

@Mococo1 so sorry 💜

@Mococo1 sorry your having a tough time at the minute, life is cruel. Of course you are welcome here though. I don't have any tips I'm afraid sorry! I think it's very much pot luck most of the time. Which isn't very helpful if your a control freak like me!

@Nuggetlover27 thanks - it's rubbish! It's really starting to get to me I think. I've noticed I'm quite irritable and my poor husband is probably getting the brunt of it. I also nearly lost the plot with the dog last night because she was walking around on our wooden floor (I mean, how dare she 🙄). It would never normally bother me but I could feel myself getting irrationally annoyed with her and wanted her just to sit down! I obviously didn't lose the plot with her (because she is my substitute child and is very much loved and doted on😂) but it made me realise how irritable I'm being over really small things. I also just feel quite miserable and teary. Works been an absolute disaster this week too and I will be working well into the weekend which has also narked me!

Anyway.. happy weekend everyone 😆 bring on the wine I think! (After doing another pregnancy test just to be 100000% certain, of course 😑)

So sorry @Mococo1 😞 my last MC was a pregnancy of unknown location with slow rising HCG. Unfortunately it took a good 6 weeks for the HCG to clear my system so I could carry on TTC. What were your levels? Hope you’re ok, it’s so tough I know. I had three miscarriages in quite quick succession and obviously still trying now. Just got to stay hopeful that it won’t happen again x

Haha @Annny27 I’m definitely in for that pact too! Wouldn’t that be amazing if we all fell at once 😀
Sorry you’re still stuck in limbo @Fizzl! I would be going out of my mind by now 😖 really hope something changes for you soon x
@ELM7 looks like I’ll be a couple of days behind you then! It really does only take one time so you never know 🤞🏻
When will you test @Nuggetlover27? Any symptoms?

I found out I had had a second miscarriage on Saturday, on Tuesday had surgery to remove.
Hoping to start TTC again after first AF.
I fell for my daughter just 3 months after my first, so hopefully we can fall quickly again.

Morning!
Sorry for your loss @Em39ma, fingers crossed you fall quickly again!
I definitely ovulated yesterday so 1dpo today, going to try really hard not to symptom spot and obsess during this 2WW!

Welcome to the 2wwe @scrumdiddly123 6dpo here and my little boy told me I have a baby in my tummy. I so hope he's right!

*2ww

Ah @Ejb86 how cute! How old is he? I definitely think kids have a 6th sense about things like this. Fingers crossed he’s right 🤞🏻🤞🏻

@scrumdiddly123 he will be 2 and a half tomorrow. He'd absolutely love to be a big brother to a rainbow baby. He knows about his sisters though and talks about them too.

@scrumdiddly123 honestly I wasn't listening to the lady on the phone I just zoned out completely after she said it's bad news so can't remember the figure- my test this morning I took was very very faint in comparison to last week so hoping the HCG cleared soon. It took six weeks for my period to come back after previous miscarriage @6.5weeks but hoping since this one is early I can possibly just start ttc straight away. Unfortunately I haven't even started to bleed yet so need AF to come first

Wish I knew what the problem was ☹️ seems horrible to have all this bad luck x

Afternoon everyone :)

@Mococo1 i am so sorry you find yourself back here 💗 its really awful:( are you going to have to go back for further tests?

@Em39ma sorry that you find yourself here but welcome xx

@Ejb86 that's so sweet your little boy said that! If he is right that will be a story you never let him forget haha!

@scrumdiddly123 tww:D good luck, keeping everything crossed for you!

@fizzl any indication of AF yet? I can imagine you are feeling pretty down about it all :( what does your DH think?

@sunnysideup2020 sorry that you aren't feeling any symptoms but its not over toll she arrives!

@Nuggetlover27 are you now late? 🤞🤞

Dont want to make this all depressive but I'll be honest, I am losing myself in this process. I don't want to see anybody, I fear a pregnancy announcement on every call, every meeting and I just am living in terms of my cycle. It really sucks. I don't want to be this depressive shell of myself but I fear thats whats happening:(

@Annny27 no nothing 😞. Had another cry about it all today. My husband is so laid back. He just keeps trying to reassure me that we will get there and it'll happen eventually. I did lose it a bit and point out that it wasn't scientifically possible whilst I'm not ovulating to get pregnant. I then told him that I wanted not to care and to go back to being chilled and laid back like we were last year ttc but I can't because of what's happened. Then he's suggested we leave it a few months and try and forget about trying for now because it's not worth me getting so down and upset about it 😞. I told him that wasn't the answer but I think he doesn't really know what else to suggest right now because the reality is it's just shit.

I totally get you about feeling like your losing yourself. I feel like I'm a shell of myself too and I miss my old life before the miscarriage. That doesn't mean I don't want a baby, I just don't want all this stress and worry and feeling like I can't enjoy my life. I know this just all feels a bit heightened at the minute because of covid but I miss just not caring about where I was in my cycle, how many glasses of wine I drank, drinking coffee and eating what I wanted without thinking 'will it increase my risk of another miscarriage'. It's all totally irrational but I just can't go back to being carefree. I even brought nail polish the other day which is non-toxic and fertility friendly. I mean, seriously 🤦🏼‍♀️ maybe the GP was right about me being stressed but I feel this lack of cycle is what's making me more stressed and anxious about it all.

Sorry that was really long and depressing too but I get you 💐

@annny27 I will be going in on Monday for a scan to rule anything else out..I still haven't had AF come through but I want it to come so bad so I can start ttc again. I'm going to ask for further checks as something must be wrong - it's my second loss in the space of 3months (and I can't help but think something is really wrong and docs said they wanted to scan as well so..) DH is looking into private tests as don't think we can stand another loss so if that means waiting for a few months before ttc again it's what we've gta do 😑

@fizzl I'm sorry you are feeling so stressed out I can imagine ttc taking over your whole life but I think we just need to realise some things really are out of control! Don't lose yourself in the process hun, hope things look up for you 🥰🥰 x

@Fizzl @Annny27 sending hugs ladies 💕💕
It is definitely not easy... but our poor DPs just don't know what to say anymore..

@Mococo1 hope your scan gives you answer x

10 dpo here and tested with fmu but bfn.
And my first reaction was "yeah ofc, what would it be any different than the past 5 months" 😒😒

I know it's early but i also know i am not pregnant... so Anny i will be with you for month 7.

Hope the other ladies are doing well 😘

Morning ladies

Sorry for my late reply
@Fizzl sorry that it is all getting to you. Are you feeling any better now? I hope that this week is a better one for you. ❤️ Give your fur baby a big cuddle, I find that helps (when my cat will let me 😂) I'm glad your husband is there for you to help you through it. I think the "relax and not think about it" advise from anyone is so frustrating, don't they understand we can't forget about it even when we try ? I understand where you're coming from about missing the old you. TTC took over me every month and now I'm late I've got to the point where I'm so scared to test because I feel sick with worry about having another MC. It's the control freak in me.

@scrumdiddly123 still no obvious symptoms for me. I'm going to test today. I'm so nervous!

@Em39ma sorry to find you here 💐

@Ejb86 your little boy sounds so cute! I hope he is right!

@Annny27 yepp. Now officially late. I know what you mean about TTC completely taking over. I would find myself not doing things each month incase I was pregnant. It's so draining. I hope you're feeling better today? ❤️

Morning everyone.

@SunnySideUp2020 sorry it's a BFN. It gets even harder the longer it goes on even though you're expecting it now. Hopefully it's just because it's early days but I know what you mean about just not feeling it.

@Mococo1 I'm so sorry the pregnancy was not viable. That is so hard on you. Hopefully the bleeding starts soon for you to try again.

@Em39ma sorry for your loss and welcome. x

@Fizzl are you going to ask at the centre on Tuesday about a scan? I know I'd be going out of my mind by now if I were you needing answers as to why everything decided to pause. How long again did your gp actually expect you to wait for AF? Because surely you are coming up to a second missed one now which would definitely warrant investigation. They could give you clomid to kick start ovulation, i would just ring and demand some clomid by now actually. You are being way more understanding and level headed about it than I could ever be and I can imagine how much stress you are under with it all.xx

@Nuggetlover27 did you test yet?

I'm feeling you all on this losing yourself in TTC. I've literally felt so down the last few days since AF arrived..just an underlying sadness I can't shake. And just feeling how unfair it is to have had all our hopes ripped away by cruel MC and the least we deserve after it is to fall again easily but the world can't even give us that. I'm generally trying to be positive by second day of AF for new cycle but just stuck in a slump now. DH has actually taken to manually moving my face into a smile because it's been so rare to see me smile over the last while. I just feel like it's all on top of me and I think @Annny27 you hit the nail on the head with the feeling of just wanting to hibernate and come out when you are pregnant.

Anyways my rant is over, I'm off for the next few days and going to will this positivity out of me if it's the last thing I do!!

@Ejb86 @ELM7 @scrumdiddly123 fingers crossed for your TWW! One of us has to get a BFP eventually so hopefully it will be all 3 of you!!