Morning ladies. Been MIA a few days as am just SO down about not getting pregnant. I KNOW I am being ridiculous as I'm 41 and we've only tried 4 times but I just can't seem to lift myself out of this depression. Just keep going up to DH and crying on him. He is very much (at least on the surface), if it happens it's a bonus and I'm not sure if he's just doing that to make me feel less down or if he genuinely isn't bothered if we don't manage to have another. We are obv trying at the moment, on flashing smileys at the minute so have DTD last 3 days but I just know it is going to be yet another month of disappointment. And I really want to start running again and getting fit/losing weight as am quite disgusted at my body, but since having DC I find tampons don't stay in as well and feel can't run in big fat sanitary towels as you can see them. Gosh I'm a bloody bundle of fun today hey?!!!!
@BuffaloCauliflower welcome and sorry for your loss. Not sure if it helps but I had a MMC at 9.5 weeks in 2017 after conceiving first time, and then we got pregnant again on 4th try.
@Sazzy312 welcome and sorry for your losses. We tried pre-seed and acupuncture, I mean god knows if they helped but it made me feel like I was taking some control.
@YellowFlower22 - thats a lovely dark OPK and yes, I am feeling like I have zero control over anything at the moment, especially my own head!!!! Damn TTC. I do think it's possible to ovulate twice in a month if your hormones are all over the chipshop.
@bookishtartlet welcome!!
@Sunandshowers sorry you are having cramps/bleeds but hope the chocolate was good.
It's times like this, I just want to claw my way out of my own body, like I can't stand being me anymore. FFS. TTC is just a nightmare (I clearly have lost my positivity today, hopefully it will return shortly).
Raging at DH this morning as cleaned "his"bathroom floor yesterday and he bought a stupid torch that shows up wee in UV light and said that I "must've just pushed the wee around all over the floor"!!!!! I have told him he can clean his own bloody bathroom floor in future!!