New thread for the crazy gang - part 3!

[Beau2020x]

Heyyy girls! Here's our new thread - sorry if I've forgot anyone!

@Katie1109
@Ellsbells112
@Mrslane2019
@BFP2020
@Symptomspotter86
@Ange211
@Mumofboys17

And for the BFPs already who want to keep in touch
@sunflower2019
@quiffy
@fredthespider

@Beau20 was that on a FRER at 9 and 10DPO? x I'm off today but I'm out shopping I might do an opk when I get home out of curiosity :) I just wish I didn't get my hopes up so bad. One minute I think its definitely not our month yet again and then I start thinking well I've got plenty of CM coming out and landing on my panty liner when normally its still there but sitting inside and I had heartburn in the evening for the last 3 days, which I don't usually get x

@Ellsbells112 hahaha yeah same here I only watch it because my mum used to watch it and now I'm hooked. Plus being a Northern lass I can relate hahaaha.

@Katie1109 yeah a FRER on both days :) I love how FRERs are sacred ha! Oh don't want to waste a FRER I'll pee on a OPK instead.

It's cos it's all so bloody expensive!! Mines been hiding in my drawer since Jan 😱

@LV1987 you're not wrong!! I wasted my last FRER, not buying a single more. I have one clear blue digital but even considered throwing that out seeing as I'm never gonna get pregnant ever!

There is a deal on amazon for 4 FRER and 2 One-step for £13 if anyone is interested x
Anyway, I have just remembered that I started to take primrose oil this cycle up to ovulation, so increase in CM at this point might be associated with that? There's another hopeful symptom gone lol x

I wasted the last one I used as well... Thought AF was late but these long cycles tricked me and I hadn't even hit O day 😂 obvs that was a RBFN!!

@Beau2020x 🤗🤗 you will get pregnant. I don't mean this in a horrible way but it's nice to talk to women who are still trying, at least then you kind of feel normal and know it can happen! I know its shit and I don't listen to this myself but a year is normal to be trying for. I made another thread asking women who had been trying for longer than 6 months and I had people come back to me and say yes it took them. 8 months 10 months etc. We've got this we will get our bfps and it will be allllll the sweeter.
Lol I've got all the advise but behind closed doors I'm constantly on Google and constantly worrying 🤦‍♀️😂

@ellsbells112 awww that's so lovely, thank you xx I know it will happen (I've been pregnant before luckily) but it's soooo feckin hard when you want something so bad. I'm getting to the point now where I don't want to even see babies, people pregnant nothing. I have this awful awful jealousy inside me but at the same time I look at that person and say to myself " you really don't know how lucky you are while being so so happy for them at the same time. It's horrible. I'm not even concentrating in work my whole life revolves around having a baby and TTC and it's ridiculous.

@Beau20 I know exactly what you mean. I feel like my life has been taken over by TTC, I am literally not interested in anything else whatsoever! And the jealousy I know how horrible this sounds but I just feel so bitter and angry about people around me who are announcing pregnancy or going into labour and God forbid we meet some friends by accident while we're out and my OH picks up the baby - I instantly feel sad thinking I will never see him do that to our own and its depressing x I guess what I'm trying to say is you're not alone, we all go through these feelings and I think its perfectly normal when you want something so badly x We are all here for each other to listen to moans, groans and bitching x and that's what matters x I know it will eventually happen for all of us, but unfortunately I don't think anyone who is TTC has got any patience, that goes out the window and I constantly think I want my baby NOW! x

@Beau2020x @Katie1109 I'm exactly the same. My OH looks at me when we see a pregnant lady lol its all I think about and I constantly think there's something wrong with me. Beau2020 I know you've been pregnant before with your partner so that's great that you know you can, I've been pregnant before obviously too but hit with this partner. I think the reason we go mental is because its the unknown. We don't know when it will happen or how or if! It's just a waiting game and who the hell can do waiting games?! It does take over your life, I'm constantly worried if I have a cup of coffee or if I go too hard in the gym ffs my friend wants me to go to arave with her in April and I never go out! I'm not booking it till I'm sure I'm not because I'm really hoping I will be by then!! I know I'm going Amsterdam 12th March for a party weekend with my OH but I don't care give me a baby before then lol I will take the L I will sit in the apartment being sick for 3 days while he raves I honestly would be the happiest girl. Alive. Further more I won't even GO and I'll waste the money spent on it on my side!!! Happily if I just got pregnant. So I think we all feel the same, it's a deep sadness that only the Ttc ladies understand xx

@BFP2020 hey long time haven't heard from you? How's it going?

i get you girls it effect everything you find yourself on goggle everything and anything no concentrating it the front ,back and every space in your head it so draining

after my OH test i kind of relief relax i know we didn’t do it properly but it made me thing there might been a reason why we weren’t getting pregnant
my af was due today but nothing 🤷‍♀️ which is really unlike in normal day before he app not get my hope up as know it coming it i did test monday and i was bfn so surely it would pick up by then just that last little torment for the month

sorry read back my stupid phone taken so if the letter out

Good God woman @Mrslane2019 sort our your writing!! 😂😂 I'd like to understand you! Hahaha
That's interesting, you never know you could get a late bfp result, it happens

im sorry 😂

It's okay haha @Mrslane2019 do you feel like af is going to come? Maybe you should test with a first response tomorrow if it doesn't show?

i was expecting af to come couple of day ago because i had pain over my ovary but not had any of the normal cramps 🤷‍♀️i’ll try and pick up a test after work
anything like last month i brought a test and af arrive before opening the box 🙈

@Katie1109 I got a VERY clear bfp at 8/9dpo with DS but I'd also had implantation bleeding earlier that day (this is why I'm always depressed at not getting any early bleeding and bfn's at 8dpo) 😂 and that was a week before AF was due that cycle. I think it completely depends on when you implant xx

@Ellsbells112 I totally get where you're coming from. To the best extent though DO NOT put your life on hold for this!! I find I feel so much more sane if I have things to look forward to
We're going to Lanzarote in May, me and DH talked about it before hand but decided even if I did get pregnant earlier (we booked it in Jan) I would have still been fine to fly so thought F it haha. I also booked those MCR tickets for June, but we're seated so I know it'll be fine either way 😂😂
Obvs a rave is a bit different I know that haha, but deffo don't feel you can't do anything 'just in case'. There's always an alternative or another option if you do get preggers in the meantime xxx

Totally agree with @Mumofboys17... We booked a holiday for June, on the same basis of I'll still be safe to fly. I'll miss out on the wine tasting, but I can always do that another time :)
Who knows, one of those fun things could end up being the best baby making opportunity, because you'll be having so much fun, you'll hardly think about it!

You are totally right girls! I'm not going to put my life on hold anymore. I'm getting my 3 door car and I'm looking at new jobs (even though I don't need one ha). I also said I';d stop buying clothes because oh what if I'm pregnant?? Nah just bought shit loads today ooops. I'm borderline size 10 now and I even bought all 8's hahaahaha I am MENTAL?

It's sad because my OH never really talks about the sad part of having a baby so I don't always know how he feels. But he's always been OBSESSED with babies, loves picking them up and playing with them but recently just avoids them. My friend came round with her baby the other week and he would even barely acknowledge him. It's hard, we as women feel so guilty for it all.

@Mumofboys17 I know lol totally agree that's why we booked the March weekend away even Though it is pure partying and a boat rave hahaha in Amsterdam too so it's gonna be messy!! I'd still enjoy it with oh if preggers but this rave with my friend I definitely am not going to if I am preggers loool I won't be going with oh to that it's friends thing, I'll get a ticket 🎫 a week prior or something if not pregnant I'm pretty sure it won't sell out its not a big one x
We are gonna see Mo Gilligan in October too can't wait he went to my school

@Beau2020x ohhhh babe ❤️❤️ that must be so hard for you 🤗 you both bear the weight of it. Sending so much positive vibes to you to get your bfp soon xx

@Beau20 I know what you mean, my DH was the same when we were in the thick of it last time. His sister got pregnant by accident when we'd already been trying for the best part of a year and it was really hard for us. DH was Ok with the baby but I know him too well, and I could tell when he looked at me as he was holding the baby where his head was at 😩💔

We'll all get there eventually xxx

@Mumofboys17 Oh forgot we were going to Lanzarote a month apart!

@Ellsbells112 @Katie1109 you are right my lovelies - we will get there I know we will. I always remind myself that there is not one person I know who has been told they can't have kids, not go on and have a baby! It's just the 3 years waiting I really CBA with I don't want to be an old mum...