TLSM - any news? been thinking about you all day.
I hope you don't mind me airing my feelings on here??? Just feel like it's all getting me down and this is the only place I really feel I can moan without people having a go at me! (although feel free to slap me and tell me to get a grip!!! )
CD30 of what feels like a very long first month. Some of you know I had lots and lots of symptoms but I ended up putting them down to cystitus and just having come off the pill. IF I was on the pill still, AF would have arrived yesterday afternoon. Obviously I don't know when to expect mine due to now being off the pill but it's felt like it's been coming for AGES. Last couple of days stronger period pains but no period. Tests all say BFN as expected as I don't feel at all pg anymore, just feel like period due. I was planning on just waiting it out but I've heard of people having months with no AF after the pill, some spending 9 months for cycles to sort themselves out.
I know this is to be expected BUT due to my families history of very early menopause, I'm really worried. I phoned my mum earlier (managed not to cry but was hard - told you AF feelings were here!!! ). Mum added another family member to the list which I didn't know about....her mum (my grandma). My mum confirmed she was 29, grandma was about my age (I'm 31) and my aunty was late 30's/early 40's when they went through it. This all scares me, it really does, I feel so emotional now [slaps self round face!]. My mum said she thought she was pregnant at 29 (desperate not to be as had me and twins and that was enough lol) as had no periods and felt pregnant at times but the Dr finally did a blood test and it showed she'd started the menopause. I'm praying this isn't the case for me but I can't bear the thought of trying for months and months to then find this out Hoping to get appointment with my Dr a week on Thursday (next time they have appointments with her that you can call about day before, i plan on phoning after midnight and using their automatic system - that will guarantee I don't miss out - she's popular )
Anyone out there able to reassure me that things can be done IF this happens to me?
If not, maybe just shout at me to get a grip and stop worrying. My problem is the not knowing. I believe I can have a blood test to check hormone levels and maybe IF I'm getting to that stage or not quite yet, maybe they can give me something or do something without having to ttc for a year first?
I just find it so hard as I'm a childminder and have 2 babies which fill my week so one of them is always here Mon-Fri. One of them started at 7 weeks and was 5 weeks prem so was tiny (now 8 months) and the other started at 8 weeks (now 6 months) - all adds to the getting broody!!! Plus ds (4 and half) is nagging away for a baby 'sister' (but he knows 'the egg will do what the egg wants' ).
Anyway, I feel better for typing this and hope that everything is ok but maybe you could help me through this wait?
I feel like I'm a fraudster as I haven't just MC'd, haven't been trying months and months, I'm just so upset as we waited til 'the right time' to come off the pill and now I wish I'd come off it ages ago
I'm so sorry for moaning yet again, I'm feeling really emotional, think coming off the pill has sent me a bit do-lally
LT xx