The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

[duchesse]

The new hut. Ta-da!

This one is a snug little basement World War 2 type nightclub, with dim lighting, snug velvet sofas, red walls and certainly no politically correct smoking bans. Occasionally certain selected men may be admitted at our convenience.

Sit down, make yourselves at home, and never, ever apologise for feeling like shit. That's about it.

sorry, just reread that last post and saw how insensitive of me it was. what i was trying to say is that we have been ftc for 2y now and im v aware that it gets harder as you get older. so i apologise to anyone i may have offended x

God lissie, you are the last person who could ever offend me about this!! I've just been really busy since Sunday- my daughter's school has been in in the news a fair bit (in a good way, I'm pleased to report), and I've been spending my time either there or finishing work at ridiculous times of the night (got to bed at 6:20am this morning- work luckily now finished). No, with all you've been through, you could never say anything insensitive.

That's essentially what I meant when I said I felt hopeful for you- you've got years on me, and even though I suppose that in an ideal world you wouldn't want a very large gap between your children, what I meant was that you had a lot more time to try to get something sorted out. You must get sick of people saying "Oh, you'll be fine, you've got years yet!" because actually age has very little to do with your ftc problems. It's just that if anything can be done for you, it's more likely to work because you do have age on your side.

phew thank you. wow, you have been working hard! 6.20? thats when i get up!

my stepmum (when i said that dh and i were looking at 2 bed houses for when we've graduated) told me that i just need to relax, thats how i got pg with ds. adoption social worker came round, 6w later i got a bfp. oh theres this woman who tried for 17y then had 4 lots of triplets naturally in the space of 2y (exagerrated a bit) she doesnt understand that lightening doesnt strike twice. to top things off, i have to decide whether to take things further with the hospital complaint and missed my cons appt for yesterday coz dh has fannied around with his tests and not done ANY of them. i have dye injected into my fanjo, Vats of blood taken, prodded, poked by the coldest hands in england and he cant have a w*nk.
nobhead

The plural of anecdote is data, in many people's minds...

lol, thats so true. still, just spoken to consultants secretary and and she's got us in for a fortnight yesterday.

That's fab! It's a shame your husband is still burying his face in the sand a bit. Will he come with to the the consultant's? Maybe he needs to hear the problems in detail from someone else's mouth, so he can understand it's ain't going to happen by itself.

yes, i explained to the secretary that we've had another mc quite recently which meant putting off ttc and has affected dh's thoughts on it, just spoken to him and he's promised to make more of an effort. the prob is that the last mc has really messed up my body/cycles and dh is getting a bit scared now, plus it's less likely to be a prob with him tbh

Hi there - I haven't posted on here for ages, but I think it the only place for me so I hope noone minds me popping in.

I am miserable. I feel so very sad all the time. I could cry at any second throughout my whole day! I obviously keep it together at work but at home I just feel so very sad. My husband is great but after 4 yrs of it he not sure how to handle it any more and I don't blame hime cause neither do I.

we've been ttc for 4 yrs , been through IVF once, going again in Jan and I know I am lucky and have alot to be thankful for but I just feel so terribly sad and pissed off because it seems so easy for everyone else and i hate to sound like a child but its not bloody fair.

All my friends have children and my relationship with them has changed which I completely understand but because I am in the situation I am in, I feel like I'm loosing my support network, I'm losing my friends and no one understands, no one. I feel very lonely.
Thanks for being here

oh nelli, youre in the right place.

Absolutely. We are here whenever you need us. What you are going through is crap, there's no three ways to look at it. You're caught in a catch 22 and have every reason to be sad. I really hope that things start to improve for you soon...

slinks into hut, refused to look anyone in the eye adn sulks. (is that ok?)

hands Trying a pink gin and a Woodbine and sits down some way away

If anyone asks I am the person slouched in the other corner with a bottle of Rose Pinot (cant lower standards just because I am pissed off).

the classy touch of the pink gin briefly lifts spirits and changes glower to light frown.

There is allways a time and a place for Pink Gin. It is a miracle cure. My Pinot certainly is not helping. Off to finish the bottle!

whats up ronshar?

scrap that last post.

im so sorry, this isnt fair. its shit and you dont deserve this. im here for you x

Hey Lissie. You are a star. I love you more each day.
I am feeling a bit over-emotional now.

I am feeling a little bit shite because on Wednesday my mum told me my cousin was 6 weeks pregnant. My first thought was not how wonderful for her. It was, what a bitch, she left school pregnant. Now has another total wanker for a boyfriend and is on baby number 4.
Does that make me a bad person who deserves to be losing another baby myself.

I am now under the table having drunk all the Pinot, finished off the pink gin and am routing around under the sofa for the bottle of Absinth that I saw a while ago.

not at all. its totally understandable. my cousin is 33, her ds was 3mo when she found out she was knocked up again and she went on a drinking binge in the hope that "nature would take its course", shes just found out that the baby has a hole in its heart, and im furious with her for being so flippant and cruel. people have no idea how precious the life that grows inside you is, and i cant believe that you are going through this again. how many weeks are you?

I was only exactly 5. I had only know for 5 days so not exactly established.
It is more the death of a dream you know. I know it was just a tiny bean with no heartbeat but even so.
My DH excellent as always, patted my hand and said "I really dont understand all these womens things. We can try again".

no such thing as only. you could ring epu and tell them you werent sure of your dates. im so pissed off for you x

Hello.

I'm barren.

No more babies, ever again.

Just trying to convince myself to just bloody give up.

It's not working.

oh babe.

.

I dont think anything I say will be good enough.
We all share your pain Duchesse.

I know you all do, Ronshar. Thank you Lissie. That's why I can come here and say that sort of thread-stopping thing. I wish you weren't here though, any of you.

Someone should seriously take me to one side and talk some sense into me about my irrational symptom-spotting and desire to purchase fresh pregnancy tests. It's getting out of hand again.

On another note, I became a Scrabulous convert and addict yesterday. I think I need help.

I have much to be thankful for. My children for one. And now Scrabulous.