TTC First Baby Thread 19

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Filling up fast!

@1990shopefulftm
@Alltheusersnamesaregone
@cupcakesandglitter
@starkid
@Dollywilde
@ELW85
@FlapJackered
@ImMeantToBeWorking
@LikeTheFruit
@orangeloo
@MrsEG
@MrsH497

I'm sure I've forgotten some. I'll tag more!

@MrsEG - thank you for being so considerate, and yes I’m now in the dreaded TWW!
My temps are really crawling this cycle, so I’m still nervous about my progesterone but going to the docs on Wednesday to present my case and see what they say.
AF/BFP is due 20/06 but I’m so tempted to do a FRER on Sunday. It would be the best Father’s Day present for DH but the pressure of that situation alone makes me not want to do it.
I’m rambling! Sorry.

Thanks everyone. You are all fabulous. Xxxxxxxxx ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

As are you, @ValidUser! Xx

@MrsEG, like you've already acknowledged, people have sent you lovely messages, so no, we wouldn't be better off if you didn't post, we sent messages because we like what you put and want to support you like you support us. You do whatever you want whenever you want, I totally agree with @ELW85. Lastly, I don't think anyone should apologise for talking about how they're feeling on here. This thread is so we can do just that, as women/ladies/gals we want to be there for each other and give each other that boost we need from time to time.

Sorry to hear you're feeling low @ValidUser

Sorry to hear about your friend @MrsH497

@ELW85 Ramble away :) I completely understand - with my BFP in december I was so desperate to get it in time for DHs birthday. It’s so easy to get carried away with it all in your head and conjure up these scenarios! I must have played out how I will tell all my friends about a healthy successful scan 100 times over. Hope is all we have! I think 12DPO is perfectly reasonable to test xx

@ValidUser Will really be thinking of you this week, look after yourself x

@ValidUser you are fabulous!

@orangeloo yes we really are. We've not been trying since the MC but not avoiding or preventing if that makes sense.

New line manager has said although she's not in tomorrow come in for a couple of hours then go home which is nice.

Honestly there are days I don't know what I'd do without you ladies.

@Imjustme2019 Thank you so much. I was genuinely getting such anxiety about making other women feel stressed about the ‘what ifs’ by talking about what was happening to me. Thank you so much for your kindness it really means so much xx

@MrsH497 I'm so sorry to hear about your friend that's awful. 
All the best for work tomorrow just breathe and take each moment as it comes. Xx

@MrsEG as everyone has said do not feel sorry at all for posting what you feel. That is the whole point we are here and I for one love seeing how people are really feeling and think it's great how we can open up. You're normal and all your feelings are valid. You've been through a real tough time and u need to take care of yourself and just one day at a time. Also don't feel bad for feeling bad about other people's baby news. I get real bad moments with that and almost pure jealous and anger but that doesn't make us bad people it's just hard seeing someone get something so (seemingly) easy that is not coming easy to us. It's an intrinsic ache so it's natural to feel that way and it hurts.

Please continue to say whatever you need or have a break when you need. Happy to save you that £75 anytime. Xx

@MrsEG please don't feel like you're putting a downer on the threads. It is good to hear from you and if you want to stay, I'd love to continue to hear about your journey and hopefully the results from your tests.
We all need an outlet and who better to share it with than others who are going through similar situations. We all want the same end goal and I'm glad we have each other's support and this cheerleading corner of the internet.
Whenever I get a chance to log on to MN, I love seeing everyone's updates and always hope to see another BFP.
Put yourself first, whether thats filling the threads with essays or taking some time away for TLC. The groups always here for you 😊

@ValidUser I'm sorry you're feeling so low! Have everything crossed for you that it's positive news!
Strangely, Im currently rewatching old episodes of Greys Anatomy, as well and bawling like a baby! Too many emotions from that show for me..

@MrsH497 I'm so so sorry for your friend. That must have been so difficult for her today.
I hope all goes tomorrow at work, it's understandable to be anxious.

@ELW85 I feel the same as you, wondering whether I should test on Saturday to then have time to prepare a little surprise for DH on Father's Day (I've been looking at little baby grows online which say 'daddy's backup' to surprise my police officer DH with).
The rationale part of me is saying just wait to see if AF shows up, though..
Is Wednesday your joint appt with DH? I hope it's useful xx

@LokiCat that is strange! 😂

@orangeloo I love your username. What's the story with it?

Aw @LokiCat me and DH are the blue family as well! 👮🏻‍♀️

@ValidUser, you're not out until you're out hun and I've got everything crossed for you xxx

@MrsH497, I'm so sorry for everything that is going on at the moment. Please take care of yourself xx For what it's worth, we didn't try at all the very first cycle after the surgery. It was hard, especially when I knew I was ovulating as I thought we could be missing our 'big chance'... but it was nice to give ourselves (and just my body!) a small break. All I'm saying is, don't be hard on yourself, don't put too much pressure on xxx

@MrsEG, omg don't even, we love you and your posts! Always happy to save you £75! Absolutely feel free to be sad if you feel sad. For a bit after my mc, I'd be fine all day, all evening and then, if I went to bed and dh stopped up... Bam! Crying! I think it would hit me when it was all quiet. It's all normal. You do you xxx Because you're awesome 😃

@Fivebyfive2 thanks Hun. Had a bubble bath and a face mask tonight. Anxiety really sucks! But you're right what will be will be. I've got my amazing DH and that's what matters 🌈 will come x

Been a very busy weekend so sorry for trying to catch up and for the joint tag... but @ValidUser @MrsEG and @MrsH497 so sorry to you all, for all the different reasons you are all feeling low. I feel for you all 😘

I'm 10dpo and although my temp is up and down slightly but still high (temp drop below cover line 6dpo) I'm not optimistic. Been away all weekend and have ran to the bathroom quite a few times after some af type cramps and feeling very 'wet' tmi 😱 apparently af is due tomorrow. Not going to test as I don't feel anything apart from af will arrive as I'm a bit crampy still.

Wishing you all BFP's soon 😘

@MrsEG - I’m pleased it’s not just me; I’ve got loads of scenarios in my head, and just looking forward to the time I actually get to see one come into fruition and see the look on DH’s face :)

@LokiCat - Oh, that baby grow sounds adorable!! Do you think you will end up testing?
And thank you, yes the appointment tomorrow is for both of us. DH is dreading it as he doesn’t like tests etc but I think this initial one is going to be a chat, so he should be fine. It’s all for the greater good!

@Lottiepink - still got everything crossed for you :)

@orangeloo Thanks lovely, it’s really is so nice to know it’s not just me!

@LokiCat @ELW85 Good luck both of you with testing on Sunday if you decide to go for it!

@Fivebyfive2 Thank you - I really am the same, I’ll be okay one moment and the next I’m a puddle of tears and it’ll literally be over the smallest of things.

@Lottiepink I really hope she doesn’t arrive; the cruel reality of AF symptoms being so like early pg symptoms is the worst but I’ll keep hopeful it’s the latter for you!

Ladies I don’t know if it was getting this all out, but I had the best nights sleep last night, best in a good while! Thank you all for your kindness. Think I am going to WFH today with the dog and wait for DH to get home later today. Have excellent tuesdays girls x

@MrsEG glad you got some rest.

My temperature is back up today, but BFN. Calling it 10.5 dpo based on trigger.

Feeling ill, but if it were hCG related I'd likely have a BFP.

Morning ladies. Bit of a crappy start to the morning. I posted my BBT chart on a chart analysis thread on Glow last night to see if they thought I had ovulated and two users commented that they don't think I had, looking at the temps. It's what my gut was telling me all along and maybe that's why the CB digitals never got to static smiley and lack of EWCM this cycle even though l usually get it..
So now I'm not sure if I'm having an anovulatory cycle or I just haven't ovulated still..
Temp dipped again this morning.
I've only used a normal digital thermometer to try for this month. Will get a BBT one if this cycle isn't the one (which is now looking likely..)

I was also advised to change my FF to advanced interpretation rather than OPK so now my dpo days and AF date has changed..

Aghhh just so frustrated by this all 😩😩

@ValidUser Please dont be disheartened just yet - my last BFP I only had a real 'hold under the light' squinter at 12DPO. Give it a few days; I know the feeling though, and I know how hard it is to remain hopeful when you see that one pink line staring back at you. But give yourself few days yet xx

@LokiCat I'm so sorry you feel frustrated by it. I am not a chart expert by any means (have only used Ava for two cycles) but all I ever thought you were looking for was the drop, and then stark rise - so did you ov on the 17th? I could be completely wrong though. Is it something you could speak with your GP about if it is worrying you?

@MrsEG, I'm so glad you slept better, keep sharing it will take a little bit of pressure off each time. Sleep really does help the mind repair so that's really good news.

So ladies last night I tried making the smoothie mentioned on here. My photo of my attempt attached www.babble.com/pregnancy/fertility-smoothie-lori-bregman/
I don't know if anyone else has tried it, but after about 30 mins I had to get to the loo sharp, good job I had it in the evening, could have been quite embarrassing had I been at work. I wonder if I put too much flaxseed in as I could only find flaxseed mixed in with other nuts/seeds. Also for those that have tried it, did you drink all of it? I've parked it for the time being in the freezer, would like DP to have some but he'll not be impressed if I do that too him.

@MrsEG first time being on here for a few days and just read your post. Sending you lots of love with what you're going through at the moment.
I know you mentioned your old counsellor so I'm wondering given all the insights you've had as to what triggered your panic attack do you feel it would be beneficial to step back into therapy?
This journey is a complete rollercoaster of emotions and often we try our hardest to stay strong and continue, however that means we internalise and hold so much and after some time we break down.
I suppose me being a Psychotherapist I'm all for therapy and actively encourage others to utilise it on numerous occasions if they can.
Most workplaces have free therapy (unbeknownst to most employees), alongside your free therapy via your GP and of course paying privately.
Sending you a virtual hug. 💜

@Imjustme2019 your photo won't load on my annoying phone, curious how did the smoothie taste? Also did you grind the flaxseeds or put them in whole?

@ Holding out hope and positivity for you, really hope this is your bfp 🤞🏼