TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 30 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's

[Lilimum7]

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Welcome to the 🐧 huddle. This is a wonderful supportive group for anyone ttc after the loss of a pregnancy or baby. Together we can get through the ttc crazyness xx baby dust to everyone xx

Hi @fnej01

I'm sorry it wasn't the result you were hoping for but I'm glad that you are in some way comforted by the result and you have a bit of time to recover.

I think AF was due Yesterday for me based on OPKs and a 12 day Luteal phase. I had a hint of brownish tinged mucus Wednesday and Thursday but it's gone now. So I guess I just wait a few more days and see.

Last month was so confusing I just don't trust anything right now. I got my BFP 5 days after a 5 day "period" and then started to miscarry the following day...

@pinkoi that sounds hopeful for implantation

@Squiff70 no I think just BFN it's not even a squinter!

This was my first month using progesterone supplements from 7 dpo so am quite glad to miss tonight's dose and hopefully AF will appear in next few days.

@strawberrye I think you are on the progesterone going forward. It gave me what felt like PMT/early preg symptoms. Knackered and sore boobs, but otherwise has been ok. Deffo a bit confusing in 2WW

Good luck ladies testing tomoz! Fingers crossed let me know how it goes xx

I'm thinking I might've had a cp.. AF was due last Wednesday/Thursday and have been POAS all week. The tests from a few days ago show the faintest line ever (shining my phone light through them) and now after poas yesterday and today, there's nothing or is my cycle just totally messed up since mc?

First pic is on the 11th and last one is today. Or am I imagining a line? Or have heard of evap lines before too. Head is wrecked

Morning all. Sorry to see new names on this thread, and still so many familiar ones - I wish more of us could bugger off onto the graduate thread and never return.

I'm 5DPO and I've been so busy with work I've not had time to think about TTC at all. Another batshit week at work this week and I'm thankful for the distraction 😊

Hi ladies. I'm doing OK. After deciding last cycle not to temp because it was stressful I caved and did it any way. I please to say my temps have been really stable for the first time since march 18. I also got my first high on my cbfm on CD 8 so seem to be back on track for my cd10 ovulation and 24 day cycle (back to normal at last).

@Lilimum7 I'm really glad you are getting stable temps and you have a high already! I have had stable low temps so far this cycle and have very low reading opks at the moment (like 0.17 readings), I usually have a peak around cd 14.

Have you tried anything different this month? I've had my second reflexology session last week and I feel I came out like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, no explanation for it! Gradually got used to the vile conception supplements (they are ok with a ton of fruit juice).

Fingers crossed you get your peak and can make the most of it.

@Kayjay2018 hi the only thing I've done differently is to go to bed a hour earlier than last cycle and I'm on asprin one a day as well as all my other vits, also increased my Q10 from 200mg to 400mg daily.

I really hope that this is our month and DH can make it home in time for ovulation day. He's in the lorry again.

Tmi question can you ladies tell between left over semen and your cm. I struggle to tell if what I think is ewcm is me or him? Sorry for the sightly yuck question

Tmi question can you ladies tell between left over semen and your cm

Nope, once we’ve dtd I have no idea what’s going on with cm either

@AliceRR thanks hun I wasn't sure if this was just a silly question but I'm glad I'm not on my own. Do you use fertility apps and if so what do you record for cm

@Lilimum7 what I've done before is when DTD every other day is record cm on the days in-between.

@Lilimum7 I'm with @AliceRR on that one! I've never really got to grips (so to speak!) with EWCM though I'm always keeping an eye out.

Flashing smiley from clearblue this morning! Not getting hopes up as in around five months of testing prior to my short lived pregnancy I never saw a solid one, but who knows, this could be the month? I miscarried almost four weeks ago but my cycles prior to that were at least six weeks so might make sense from a dates perspective. Only thing that worries me is that we're off on holiday in three weeks time so if by some miracle we were lucky I would be travelling (short haul) at 4-5 weeks pregnant. On the plus side if this isn't our month we have a well timed break to look forward to....

Hope you all have a good week. Personally am dreading going into work this morning but needs must!

I had ewcm at 5DPO yesterday, I did an ovulation test and it was negative which I thought it would be. Honestly just not sure what my body is upto these days, another friend announced she was pregnant yesterday, same due date as my latest loss, sent me into a pit of despair yesterday evening.

Hey all,

I'm driving myself a bit mad. I should probably POAS now. Think period was due Friday based on opk tiny bit of pink and brown spotting but no need for a pad even.

I'm just so scared. If it's positive I'm terrified it will go wrong again and if it's negative I'll be terrified it will never work again. What a mess 😢

I feel really nauseous and have done since Thursday last week. That is probably just worry.

So much for me just being chilled about it

@Lilimum7 I don’t track it religiously but if I notice then I record it on Ovia. I use the Ovia app mainly

@pinkoi I understand how you're feeling, I veer between being terrified of not being able to get pregnant and fear of actually being pregnant again. I want it so badly but I'm also terrified of things going wrong again, it makes me sad to think that I'll never be able to be one of those women who actively enjoy the experience of pregnancy.

Pluck up the courage to POAS when you're ready. Once it's done at least you'll know where you stand. Fingers are crossed for you xx

@Frillyfarmer I think it's normal hun. According to Dr Google its because we get a second surge of estrogen after ovulation, so it could be that

@pinkoi I think every lady here feels like you do. Pregnancy after loss is the hardest thing to imagine, let alone going to term. I have the same feelings around ovulation time I'm desperate for another bfp but also terrified. So when I see peak on my cbfm I freak out a bit. Then I'm eager from 3dpo until 9dpo to test but then 10dpo I'm terrified again. This journey is so emotional be kind to yourself, test when your ready, would DH do the test for you if you provide a sample, maybe that would help.

Thanks everyone. Seems like AF arrived now. I might still POAS this eve so I know it's neg. Last month I got a BFP after 5 day AF. I'm thinking I might need to see the GP as we have been trying since the start of the year and I'm 36 😢

Thanks for listening to my wibble xx

@pinkoi sorry to hear AF has arrived.
No harm in seeing the GP. I'm same age and had been TTC for a year before my loss. My fertility clinic referral was cancelled when I fell pregnant naturally and I'm not sure how long I'll need to leave it before they'd consider referring me again. We have friends (in a completely different area) who have been told they would have to wait another full year after the MC for an NHS referral, but given my age I'm hoping I wouldn't have to wait that long? Has anyone else had similar and if so how long did you have to wait for a referral?

@pinkoi sorry to hear AF has arrived

I think from 35 they say to see someone if you’ve been trying for six months (not a full year unless under 35) - if I haven’t misunderstood what you mean

Thanks @AliceRR that makes sense. I'd been trying for a year (during which I turned 35) prior to conceiving, and had been referred from treatment as it appeared that I wasn't ovulating. I'm thinking I'll give it five or six months to see if things happen naturally and if we have no luck i'll start the fertility treatment route again. Every day seems to pass so slowly at the moment!

@Avocuddles I’m 35 and on third cycle of trying again since my baby’s stillbirth so I’ll be speaking to someone if I’m not pregnant again by about September. I’m paranoid I won’t get pregnant and then worry about what will happen if I do so I don’t want to waste time really

@Lilimum7 thanks that's good to know.

I'm not obsessed with my own cycle this month, for the first time in forever, but just obsessed generally. I feel like the months we're flying by, it's the 17th June and so far 2019 has brought me 2 miscarriages and a shittonne of heartache.

I feel as though I'm becoming quite difficult to be around at times - one of mums friends made some inappropriate comment about "getting on with no2" and I replied to tell her exactly what I'd been through and how her question was rude considering I hadn't seen her in a year. My mum just eyerolled and after we walked on, asked me whether I wouldn't mind "behaving" myself.

I get it, people think it's easier to politely smile and chuckle and my husband has told me several times I shouldn't divulge our personal lives - but apparently it's friendly banter for others to enquire about it.

My silver lining is a promotion at work which I absolutely wouldn't have got if I were knocked up - I'm a fee earner in a senior position, the only one who has a child and I'm sure whenever I leave work on account of him, they all bitch about it.