Crushing disappointment of TTC

[TheChineseChicken]

TTC number 2 and struggling with the miserable disappointment every month. DD took quite a long time to conceive. Tried for a year, fell pregnant then miscarried at 9 weeks then pregnant again 3 months later. Been trying for number 2 since August and stupidly convinced myself it would be quicker this time due to friends' experiences. But here we are on cycle 5. The not knowing is the worst bit - it could happen this month, it might never happen.

I know that no-one can give me any reassurances but I just wanted to have a moan!

I fished this morning's test out of the bin for some inexplicable reason and saw a faint second line, which is clearly an evaporation line. Just did another test to confirm and it's negative

Thanks @pinkstar01 sorry to hear AF showed up for you. Good luck for this new cycle!

@MummyBearBoo welcome! Well done on the weight loss! Sounds like you know what your doing. As for the cycles CD26 is quite late to be ovulating but I'm not an expert, is that to do with PCOS? My only bit of helpful advice is to look into doing acupuncture. I've been having it for 3 months and it's made my irregular cycles so regular that my AF has been on CD28 for past three months! So you never know it might help with regulate ovulation as well. Good luck in getting your BFP

Hi all, hope you're still hanging in there. Good luck for this month - really hoping for more BFPs. My period still isn't due until tomorrow so I'm freaking out about that still! Taken loads of tests but all quite faint - but I know that's not necessarily an indicator of anything.

live, you just be so frustrated!

Glad to see you’re hanging in there @TheChineseChicken praying AF stays away tomorrow!

Had my results back from Friday which was quick! Normal no action that’s all the receptionist would say. So I’ve booked back in to see the GP in 2 weeks to discuss the exact numbers. Next thing will probably be SA for the other half I guess!

11dpo here and got all my usual AF symptoms. She’s due Saturday

I'm feeling so fed up, 8DPO but I'm not feeling pregnant. Another friend announced their pregnancy this morning. Feeling like it'll never happen 😣

Ugh I’m actually 10dpo not even 11. But my PMS is in full force.

@todaywasafairytale sorry for today. It’s so shit isn’t it, just makes your heart sink.

Well all my hormone levels are ok at the mo and I am ovulating so don’t think it’s PCOS affecting me at the mo- when I got pregnant the second time I was on a 6 week cycle so ovulating CD28 and first time I was on a 5 week cycle both cycles were regular to the day! I've not had a 28 day cycle since I came off the pil! Hope your AF doesn’t come and fit the right reason @TheChineseChicken and fingers crossed for more BFP's everyone xx

AF came, that's me out. I could just cry 😢 on to cycle 7, it feels like it'll never happen. How is it possible for so many people around me to be announcing their pregnancy?

Can relate to all these emotions. DH and I have been TTC #1 for 6 months. We are 27 and 29 so thought it would happen quickly - it hasn’t! Two of our close friends have recently announced their pregnancies and while we are delighted for them, our heart breaks a little bit more for ourselves every time. The monthly negative is also devestating. I’m an emotional wreck. Everyone says to stay positive but it’s easier said than done.

Sorry @todaywasafairytale be kind to yourself!

@Freddie456 similar ages to me and my OH then! I took a supermarket cheapie yesterday 12dpo STUPIDLY and then spent all day looking at it lol. My OH’s brother announced a couple of months ago and we were just devastated. Luckily they’re living abroad though so its not so in our faces. Sound so mean doesn’t it but this is what TTC does to you

@TheChineseChicken how are you getting on? X

Forgot to mention of course it was BFN with maybe the slightest shadowy line. But I’ve been here over and over and over and this time I know better. I’m not pregnant!

Hi all, and hugs to those who have had another bad month. AF is now 2 days overdue so I have jumped a small hurdle. No symptoms but I guess it's too early. I seem to have caught strep throat or tonsillitis though so I am ILL.

I hope you can all keep positive. To the newbies, we tried for our first for a year then had a loss - that was so long ago now though that it's a distant memory. So try to hold on to the fact that a BFP may be around the corner and then none of the waiting will matter.

Ells are you going to test again?

@Ells0204 - sorry to hear that. I’m the same, I’ve become obsessive over pregnancy tests. I can’t help but take them even if it’s too early. When the thought of doing a pregnancy test pops into my head I just have to do it. It does sound mean and I’m starting to realise that people who have never TTC or people who have been very lucky with pregnancy don’t understand however those who have been through the waiting and heartache totally get it. It’s not mean at all, it’s natural and it doesn’t mean you won’t be a fabulous auntie (my DH’s brother and his partner are pregnant too so I’m also an ‘auntie-elect’). I’ve been a bit of a bad person today and cancelled plans to meet a friend for coffee who announced her pregnancy yesterday (I just said it was work related as I would hate for her to think it was because of her news - which it is but shh!) because I’m just not in the right emotional state to discuss babies publicly.

@Freddie456 ahh I’m the same with the tests! If I get it in my head that’s it. I haven’t tested early for the last couple of months because it gets expensive and I’m never pregnant. However yesterday I had almost like a relapse and was like I just need to! I’ve pretty much gone full cycle where I didn’t test early or symptom spot at the very beginning, then went obsessive, and now I’m so fed up I’ve kind of gone back to beginning and stopped obsessive! I would say I’ve “relaxed” but that’s clearly bullsh*t advice as I’m not pregnant haha.

@TheChineseChicken no I won’t now, I don’t have any tests left anyway! Due on Saturday so not long to wait. I O’d on CD16 and last time I DTD was CD13 as OH had to go overseas for work! So really unlikely we caught this month anyway. Huff.

Chinese that's really positive. I'm in my tww now. I totally understand compulsive testing. I think that's really normal!

Just thought i'd check the board to see how you are all getting on. @TheChineseChicken Two days late is promising! Did you say you had some faint positives?!!

My AF arrived yesterday, i was actually pleased it had finally arrived as I knew i wasn't pregnant. Excited about this cycle as I have just started my new herbal remedies and so will so if that makes any difference!

Good luck to everyone on this thread, hope you all get your BFP's.

Lol, @TheChineseChicken after I wrote that I found one last first response but rapid results not early results! Tested...and it was as white as the bloody snow we had this week 😂
So am definitely not pregnant. Again. Just want AF now on Saturday and can jump back on the rollercoaster
So glad your AF has stayed away though, please keep us posted, I could use some motivation right now!

In other news my day 21 results came back as normal?! So dr has said next step is SA then take it from there.

At what stage are you guys getting tests? If I’m not pregnant this cycle, DH and I are thinking of having fertility tests done to rule out any medical problems but we’re not sure if it’s too early....? We’ll be going into our 7th cycle.

Sorry it's not good news this month live and Ella. Onwards and upwards.

I've had positives since last Friday. I've got a bunch of ICs and the line hasn't been getting darker but that could just be the tests. Might get a digital tomorrow to torture myself check that the weeks are what I expect.

Freddie how old are you? When we tried the first time we were sent for tests before 1 year because I was nearing the age cut off for IVF if we needed it. So no harm in going to your GP especially if you are over 30.

NHS IVF that is. Our CCG is especially tight with this

@TheChineseChicken - I’m 27 and DH is 29. I suspect the GP will send us away and tell us to come back after a year?

@Freddie456 I’ve been TTC for 1 year and it’s been 10 months since my last miscarriage. So although it’s a little sooner than the full year for me, I knew there would be some waiting around like time in between results etc so hence why I went in a little early. Was lucky they agreed to start straight away I did honestly think they’d send me away and carry on trying!

@Freddie456 I got referred to the hospital after a year of ttc and then tests started after about 19 months ttc. As I'm still overweight they won't do anything more for us till I'm under bmi 30. Think some areas are different though so best to check

Well, I started bleeding this morning so I guess that's that. So fucking angry.