Crushing disappointment of TTC

[TheChineseChicken]

TTC number 2 and struggling with the miserable disappointment every month. DD took quite a long time to conceive. Tried for a year, fell pregnant then miscarried at 9 weeks then pregnant again 3 months later. Been trying for number 2 since August and stupidly convinced myself it would be quicker this time due to friends' experiences. But here we are on cycle 5. The not knowing is the worst bit - it could happen this month, it might never happen.

I know that no-one can give me any reassurances but I just wanted to have a moan!

I fished this morning's test out of the bin for some inexplicable reason and saw a faint second line, which is clearly an evaporation line. Just did another test to confirm and it's negative

@Ells0204 it's good you've got that reassurance with the epu.

Is it ok to post I got a faint bfp? Dh says he doesn't trust ICs so bought some FRERs this morning- haven't done one yet. For now though, I've taken a day off and have lovely plans with DD.

@TheChineseChicken my 11 cycles before this one I felt more pregnant than I do now 🙃 it is typical isn’t it. It is a numbers game though so we are all on the way to our BFPs I promise!

@codenameduchess that’s exciting! When are you going to test? We can be your line eyes if you want 🤓 my IC was SO questionable I convinced myself it was a shoddy evap until I used my FRER the next day

@codenameduchess post it!

I'll take the FRER in the morning, better chance of a decent result. I've done 5 ICs now, 2 super faint and 3 pale but there

@codenameduchess please post! That’s so amazing! Two a month!! Maybe this thread is good luck.
Spread your baby juice this way as well please!

Can I ask what IC and FRER mean?

@LHMB IC is internet cheapie test (the strip ones you buy on amazon/eBay for like £5 and you get 30!) and FRER is First Response Early Results test...basically the holy grail pregnancy test in the TTC world as they’re super reliable and sensitive and everyone confirms with a FRER! Haha

Thanks Ells!

Followed by CBD of course (clear blue digi) which is the digital test that actually has the words pregnant. Now this is what people use to double confirm their FRER 🤣

Wow I’ve just realised how globally crazy we all are.

😂

@MapleAndCats 'baby juice' 😂😂

I'll post in the morning (if I hold out that long 🙈)

@Ells0204 it's definitely global crazy... I found myself on the India BabyCentre last night and they use the same haha

I'll have some baby juice as well please @codenameduchess. Looking forward to the stick pic!

I'm out AF started so on to cycle 5! Xx

Going back to the PCOS i didn't have a period for 6 months and was diagnosed then -after my DD was born and I finished breastfeeding I put on 2 stone I've now lost 1st 7lbs and am a healthy weight ( I was overweight BMI when we first stared TTC journey for no.2) - if it is PCOS sugar is an issue coz it causes insulin resistance so I've basically cut out all sugar, changed white pasta and rice to brown, cut out snacks, go to the gym 1-2 days a week do 1.5 hours walking pushing a push chair 2 days a week and have reduced my portion sizes but still eat what I want just less of it!! Seems to be working 3lb til my goal weight - this is my focus til I'm next due to ovulate which is 4 weeks away - my cycle changed to a 6 week one after my CP!! I sometimes have a day off and eat way over my calorie goal if I go out for dinner or something!!
Fingers crossed this is your cycle @TheChineseChicken

That's incredible self control @MummyBearBoo and your loss is amazing! Do you feel better generally for changing diet?
I'm doing ww at the moment and at the gym 5/6 days a week (usually do 3/4 bootcamps, a HIIT and a toning class, occasionally throw in a PT session too) and only managing to loose 1lb here and there- but I haven't cut anything out so maybe that's worth trying.

Sorry you're out @MummyBearBoo. I thought you must be at about that stage of your cycle. Hopefully we'll get some better luck this time!

I feel so much better and am fitting in most of my old clothes tho I think pregnancy changed my body shape coz even tho my waist is thin enough my old jeans still won't go past my hips they seem to have grown wider since DD and after TFMR!! My weight loss has slowed down I'm now losing about 1lb every two weeks my target is to lose 1lb a week tho - I've not really cut that much out coz I don't really have a sweet tooth but portion control is key like if I have oven chips one night (I could never give up chips) I go for the McCain lighter ones and it's just knowing that 100g is like 10 chips so that's what I have! I do an hour cardio and 15 mins weights at the gym!
My AF started a day early but it's a really odd period coz it's been pink (soz TMI) really diluted!! I just need to keep a healthy BMI I think to make my chances better - it's about a 1 in 4 chance every month of it working- the first 4 months I got pregnant once (cycle 3) tho it only lasted 3 days after AF didn't come so I reckon this 5th cycle is the start of the second 4 months so fingers crossed for a BFP in the next 4 months!!

I'm out. I really thought it was this month because I was feeling sick all the time. Its so funny what the mind can do to you when you want something bad enough

@MummyBearBoo it seems like the second cycle after CP has been odd for both of us. My hormones have definitely been weird. This will be cycle 9 for me

Well, not counting the CP on cycle 6

Was in the salon today for a hair appointment and heard a customer and the stylist talking about someone they knew who is due in May. Why is it you always seem to hear these things when you want it yourself and it's not happening. Sorry for that little rant :(

Just started light brown spotting. 10 DPO. I think I’m out 😔

Well, there it is. Still can't quite believe it!

@codenameduchess hurrah!

@MapleAndCats sorry about that